B i o g r a p h y (by Stephen Thomas)
Erlewine Alanis Morissette (b. June 1, 1974, Ottawa, Canada) was one of the most unlikely stars of the mid-'90s. A former child actress turned dance-pop diva, Morissette transformed herself into a confessional alternative singer/songwriter, in the vein of Liz Phair and Tori Amos. However, she added enough pop sensibility, slight hip-hop flourishes, and marketing savvy to that formula to become a superstar with her third album, Jagged Little Pill. Morissette was born and raised in Ottawa, Canada. In her childhood, she began playing piano and writing songs. At the age of ten, she joined the cast of You Can't Do That on Television, a children's television program. Using money that she earned on the show, Morissette recorded an independent single, "Fate Stay With Me," which was released when she was ten. After leaving the show, she concentrated on a musical career, signing a music publishing contract when she was 14. The publishing contract led to a record deal with MCA Canada.
In 1991, she moved to Toronto and released her debut album, Alanis. Alanis was a collection of pop-oriented dance numbers and ballads that was successful in Canada, selling over 100,000 copies, and leading to a Juno Award for Most Promising Female Artist. However, no other country paid any attention to the record. In 1992, she released Now Is the Time, an album that closely resembled her debut. Like its predecessor, it was a success in Canada, even if it sold half of what Alanis did. Following the release of Now Is the Time, Morissette relocated to Los Angeles, where she met Glen Ballard in early 1994. Ballard had previously written Michael Jackson's hit "Man in the Mirror," produced Wilson Phillips' hit debut album, and worked with David Hasselhoff. Despite the duo's mainstream pop pedigree, they decided to pursue an edgier, alternative rock-oriented direction. The result was Jagged Little Pill, which was released on Maverick Records, Madonna's label.
On the strength of the single "You Oughta Know," Jagged Little Pill gained attention upon its release in the summer of 1995. Soon, the single received heavy airplay from both alternative radio and MTV, sending the album into the Top Ten and multi-platinum status. The second and third singles from Jagged Little Pill, "Hand in My Pocket" and "All I Really Want," kept the album in the Top Ten. In early 1996, she was nominated for six Grammys. Shortly after the nominations, Morissette released her fourth single, "Ironic," which proved to be her biggest crossover success. Morissette won several Grammy awards in 1996, including Album of the Year and Song of the Year. Her much-anticipated follow-up, Supposed Former Infatuation Junkie, was released in the autumn of 1998. An Unplugged set appeared a year later, and in 2002 Morissette released Under Rug Swept. So-Called Chaos followed in 2004, and one year later she took Jagged Little Pill on the road as an acoustic tour, also released on CD.
Feel Your Love Too Hot Plastic Walk Away On My Own Superman Jealous Human Touch Oh Yeah Party Boy
All I Really Want You Oughta Know Perfect Hand In My Pocket Right Through You Forgiven You Learn Head Over Feet Mary Jane Ironic Not The Doctor Wake Up Your House
You Learn Joining You No Pressure Over Cappuccino That I Would Be Good Head Over Feet Princes Familiar I Was Hoping Ironic These R The Thoughts King Of Pain You Oughta Know Uninvited
21 Things I want in a Lover Narcissus Hands Clean Flinch So Unsexy Precious Illusions That Particular Time A Man You owe me Nothing in Return Surrendering Utopia
Fear of Bliss Bent 4 U Sorry to myself SisterBlister Offer Unprodigal daughter Simple together Purgatorying
Eight Easy Steps Out Is Through Excuses Doth I Protest Too Much Knees Of My Bees Not All Me So-Called Chaos This Grudge Spineless Everything
1974 20/20 After a year like this one Awakening Americans Basket Case Big Sur Break Crazy Death of Cinderella Don't Drink the Water Fake plastic trees Fate Stay with me Find the right man Gorgeous Guru Happiness is a warm gun Happy Xmas (War Is Over) I don't know (The weekend song) I Remain It's a Bitch to Grow Up Keep the radio on King of intimidation Last Christmas Let's do it Little Drummer Boy Limbo no more London
Madness Movement I - Mercy Movement III - Hope Movement VI - Innocence Movement IX - Faith My Humps No No Return Norwegian wood Olive Branch On the Tequila Orchid Permission Pollyanna flower Pray For Peace Question Rest Spoon Still Superstar Wonderful Weirdos Symptoms Tantra The Guy Who Leaves There are worse things I could do Unsent (Demo) What Child Is This Wunderkind
Alanis Feel Your Love Baby, I've got this thing for you I'm thinkin' there's somethin' goin' on now A wicked imagination A serious lkind of somethin' new It's drivin' me right out of my mind now It's gotta be desperation Can't feel no pain when I'm thinking about you Dreamin' isn't black and white Can't make no gain 'til my vision c-comes true Give it to me like I'd like to give it to you Love I wanna feel your love Right from the bottom of my heart to your hands (now baby now) Love I wanna feel your love You know this waitin' for you boy I can't stand Bein' just who you wanna be and doin' whatever comes to mind now I gotta get information Never knew what to do with you You're givin' me sometin' to hold on to My newest infatuation "People Power" means I gotta believe you Can't you hear the voices callin' Keep your flowers cause their colour will turn blue Give it to me like I'd like to give it to you Love I wanna feel your love Right from the bottom of your heart to your hands (now baby now) Love I wanna feel your love You know this waitin' for you boy I can't stand Love I wanna feel your love Right from the bottom of your heart to your hands (now baby now) Love I wanna feel your love You know this waitin' for you boy I can't stand Too Hot Always too hot never too cold You make your best shot too hot to hold Never too young, never too old You gotta go for gold Hey boy you wanted all or nothin' Lose the apprehension baby And go with the flow cause you know you've got Stand up if you want the answers You need to blast 'em straight up baby So say what you mean and you mean to say now Hey you don't have to go and prove it You just go ahead and do it Your time is for the takin', makin' The best of what you got now Always too hot never too cold You make your best shot too hot to hold Never too young, never too old You gotta go for gold Don't care what they say about ya You never throw a hero party For those who oppose who you chose to be now Maybe you could feel the power It's like a bomb inside your head that blows if you're slow when you go to use it You, you gotta show them that you mean it just go ahead and scream it And show them what they're missin' listen To what your heart could tell ya Always too hot never too cold You make your best shot too hot to hold Never too young, never too old You gotta go for gold You gotta go for gold and you'll make it baby Gold! And when you're there you gotta Throw your hands in the air And wave 'em like you just don't care Reachin' teachin' practice what you're preachin' Throw your hands in the air And wave 'em like you just don't care Movin' provin' everything you're doin' Always too hot never too cold You make your best shot too hot to hold Never too young, never too old You gotta go for gold You, you don't have to go and prove it You just go ahead and do it Your time is for the takin' makin' The best of what you got now Always too hot Never too cold Give your best shot Go with the flow cause you know you've got to Always too hot never too cold You make your best shot too hot to hold Never too young, never too old You gotta go for gold Plastic You got a plastic name and a plastic heart You can play the game or you'll never start I'm talkin' to you You got a plastic house and a plastic fence Gotta look around or you'll lose your friends Am I gettin' through? You got a plastic girl in a plastic bed And she's in your house made of gingerbread And you're in there too Got a plastic smile on a plastic face But it's underneath that you can't erase But what can you do-do-do? Say Love-it's not that hard after all (tell me what I want, what I wanna hear) When everybody does Say Love-it's gonna tear down the walls (tell me what I want, what I wanna hear) if everybody loves You live in a plastic dream through a plastic card But reality you don't disregard You know that it's true You got a plastic goal in a plastic life Gotta search your soul gotta make it right And here's what you do-do-do Say Love-it's not that hard after all (tell me what I want, what I wanna hear) When everybody does Say Love-it's gonna tear down the walls (tell me what I want, what I wanna hear) if everybody loves Wake up in the morin' Some are not sleepin' tight A matter you've been ignorin' Why can't you just say it? Will not wait forever Can't you see I'm right I want you to endeavor To tell me again and again! Say Love-it's not that hard after all (tell me what I want, what I wanna hear) When everybody does Say Love-it's gonna tear down the walls (tell me what I want, what I wanna hear) if everybody loves Walk Away A downtown café Saturday evenin' and the Place is about to be closed I'm meeting my baby Yeah and order my hundreath cup of coffee today My hands are shakin' At half past seven I'm sittin here waitin' for My boy all alone for too long It's after eleven yeah I'm tired of waitin' and I'm gonna go home 'Cause I don't need this You never think twice before you break all the rules You gotta be crazy if you think I'm a fool I'll walk away and say good bye If you don't want me anymore I've bot my pride I'll walk away and say good bye If I don't get the love we had before not satisfied He finally gets here I'm waitin' for him to ask me Why there's a frown on my face He orders a Cold beer he has an excuse about his car Breakin' down but I don't buy it You're givin' me sometin' I don't need anymore Just gimme the word and I'll be slammin' the door I'll walk away and say good bye If you don't want me anymore I've bot my pride I'll walk away and say good bye If I don't get the love we had before not satisfied His best intentians are never the same as what He does of the end of the day. I'm feelin' the Tension yeah Don't gimme no reasons cause you Don't comprehend what am I feelin' You never think twice before you break all the rules You gotta be crazy if you think I'm a fool You're givin' me somethin' I don't need anymore Just gimme the word and I'll be slammin' the door I'll walk away and say good bye If you don't want me anymore I've bot my pride I'll walk away and say good bye If I don't get the love we had before not satisfied So tell me now Just say the word It won't be long I'll be long long gone... On My Own Why do I feel it's all up to me to see that everything's right and it's how it should be Why don't they just leave me alone I've got to prove I can Little girl with stars in her eyes they've got her all figured out and there's nowhere to hide why can't they all see who I am when will they understand It may take some time they don't know how it feels because they can't read my mind They always say I'm too young and they feel they should help me But I can make it all alone out here on my own Every day I feel so in demand and all I wish I could find is a place I can land One day I'll feel comfort inside cause I'll know who I am I can hold the line if I know in the end that I won't be left behind I don't regret what I've done I don't think you can blame me Now I'm standin' all alone out here on my own I'm not thinking 'bout leavin' home But I need to be on my own Doesn't mean I have a heart of stone I won't even ask them why I can't ever let them see me cry Here I'm standing all alone out here on my own... out here on my own Feeling lost in a world full of lies I can't help thinkin' that love is just passin' me by Hold on to what I believe and keep an open hand Can I have it all if there's no one to turn to when I stumble and fall Is there a secret I need because no one has told me-all alone It may take some time cause I know how it feels to have a lot on your mind I'll never feel all alone cause! Know that I have me Now I can make it all alone out here on my own Superman I'm lookin' for someone who can made me feel A serious love like Juliet's is real A little impulsive and a boy at heart A little bit shy but he'll be oh so smart Superman I need a superman You got a complicated girl like me He's gotta be fair and treat me properly yeah I want him to understand equality You gotta Keep searchin' everywhere in the world You gotta keep lookin' or you'll miss the feelin' You gotta be tough to make it today who You do it your way and not how they say You'll find him somewhere You gotta be tough to make it today who And never be scared of finding your way to Superman Should I call him on the telephone Should I go seem him or just stay at home Will be different from the other boys If I could find him I'd be overjoyed Superman where are you Superman Whenever it seems like everything's on the line You gotta keep lookin' or you'll miss the feelin' You gotta be tough to make it today who You do it your way and not how they say You'll find him somewhere You gotta be tough to make it today who And never be scared of finding your way to Superman With all the other boys I never knew What it took to make a choice When he's mine I'm gonna stop All my changin' around now Between the two of us there'll be Enough goin' on that's serious I can't wait 'til I can stop All my lookin' around now I found my Superman I found my Superman Whenever it seems like everything's On the line you gotta keep lookin' or You'll miss the feelin' You gotta be tough to make it today who You do it your way and not how they say You'll find him somewhere You gotta be tough to make it today who And never be scared of finding your way to Superman Jealous Make sure she's alright She just can't wait to party She'll make it look so easy Why won't you listen to me Yeah Jealousy-some girls have it rough oh baby Loyalty-why is that so tough, the trust is gone Jealous don't you know your girl is jealous She can't help but be suspicious Can't you see, that girl is jealous So better make it right Cruelty-it's easy for him to be Fallacy-you're out on a limb for him Conspiracy Anxiety she just can't wait to party Strategy totally she'll make it look so easy Loyalty disagree why won't you listen to me Fantasy Novelty she will be free Jealous don't you know your girl is jealous She can't help but be suspicious Can't you see, that girl is jealous So better make it right Jealous-it's no fallacy Jealous-she doesn't trust you much Suspicious-so baby can't you see that girl don't trust you much make sure she's alright Jealous don't you know your girl is jealous She can't help but be suspicious Can't you see, that girl is jealous So better make it right Human Touch Give me what I'm askin' for Stop bringin' me down or I'll slam the door You're getting out of line with the Beverly Boys You start makin' the moves they start makin' the noise You know you're not getting lucky Livin' the life because you're movin' to The jungle and paying the price You're livin' right along with the New Brady Bunch Have your people call my people and let's do lunch Reaction to the actin there's more to me than human flesh I've had enough distractions I need some tenderness Human Tough I gotta know it's real I'm tired of people sellin' their sex appeal Human Touch I need human love No imitations of oh baby A bird in the busy is worth two in The street-you know the kind of people Never want to meet you're sitting really Pretty in your swimming pool with your Rock 'n roll tan you keep thinkin' you're cool You know you can't reach Jesus on your portable phone He ain't speakin' to the people In their Hollywood homes with a toot In your snoot and your loot to boot You don't even give a hoot about the minds you pollute Lookin' for deceptions there's more to me Than human flesh I'm finding new Directions I need some tenderness! Human Tough I gotta know it's real I'm tired of people sellin' their sex appeal Human Touch I need human love No imitations of oh baby I'm lookin' for the real thing there's more To me than human flesh I'm gonna Stop at nothin' Human Tough I gotta know it's real I'm tired of people sellin' their sex appeal Human Touch I need human love No imitations of oh baby Oh Yeah My name is Alanis. I'm a white chick singer The drums are a-smokin' and so's the bass Shake your thing When you sing Just sixteen No disco queen I'm a white chick singer I've seen the world I've got A lession for you I'm your teacher girl Two words you'll be hearin' will Shake the earth so repeat after me No need to be rehearsed Oh yeah My name is Alanis I'm just sixteen so Please gimme a break I'm no disco queen Just hear what I'm sayin' you don't Wanna miss I got a message 4U and it goes like this Oh yeah Ride my train Go insane Your teacher girl Rules your world Now don't overdo it when you shake your thing 'Cause you'll be goin' insane when you start to sing Without special training an amateur Could be a casuality case if they sing these words Oh yeah Yo-Ah Yo-Ah Wo-oh Yeah! The drums are a smokin' and so's the bass They keep on pumpin' a groove and it'll melt your face Comon' everybody and blow your mind Because you'l never escape these two words of mine HA HA HA AH... Party Boy You're love ain't enough-OW! You're just a party party party boy yeah Oh baby You're just a party party party boy! From the moment I walked into your life I knew right then it was a serious thing for you I got a kick out of your party friends After a while I found a holiday, overdue Who completely away from you Oh baby your love ain't enough-OW! Party Boy You're just a party boy Ain't no time for sleepin' cause you're misbehavin' Party Boy You're just a party boy Wake up soon and open your eyes The time has come to see the light It took me long enough to realize That all you give me is a really big broken heart And I remember how it used to be There was a time when we could never be Torn apart and now I wish that we could make a staart You know I gave you all my love-OW! Party Boy You're just a party boy Ain't no time for sleepin' cause you're misbehavin' Party Boy You're just a party boy Wake up soon and open your eyes The time has come to see the light This world of yours turning upside down Goin' up and down like a merry-go-round A rumor goin' on right across the town Why can't you see it? I gave you love like you never knew And you're givin' me nothing but an attitude And now I'm gonna give a bit of solitude I'll miss you baby oh... Misbehavin'-now I'll mis ya Ow! Your just a party party party boy Yeah oh baby You're just a party party party boy! I've got to say to you so you listen Hey Boy A-Good Bye! Party Boy You're just a party boy Ain't no time for sleepin' cause you're misbehavin' Party Boy You're just a party boy Wake up soon and open your eyes The time has come to see the light
Now Is The Time Real World We play the game with determination We don't give a dam 'bout our reputation baby It's not a game, it's a revelation Step inside the real world The real world, yeah, yeah, yeah The real world, yeah It's been every day now, and it just won't go away now...no Life is so intense now, not much common sense now yeah And late in the night I turn out my light yeah A song in my head, and it says "Step inside the real world" We play the game with determination We don't give a damn 'bout our reputation baby It's not a game, it's a revelation Just another day in the real world, yeah, the real world I can make decisions with no one else believin' me I just look inside me 'cause I've got my own voice to guide me It came in a dream, a light so extreme yeah A voice in my head, and it says "Step inside the real world" We play the game with determination We don't give a damn 'bout our reputation baby It's not a game, it's a revelation Just another day in the real world, yeah, the real world You gotta step inside the real world, step inside the real world I woke from the dream, I know what it means yeah That voice in my head It says "Step inside the real world" We play the game with determination We don't give a damn 'bout our reputation baby It's not a game, it's a revelation Just another day in the real world, yeah, the real world Step inside the real world Inside the real world Step inside the real world... An Emotion Away I had high expectations It's something I could not compromise And when I saw you I wasn't ready It completely took my heart by surprise Who...And when I think of the time I med you The situation looked harmless It wasn't long before I got confused enough And soon I realized that your... Love is just an emotion away I know it's gonna get to you Love will be only a moment away A moment away you know it's true Lately the way I'm feeling It's something I could never have planned I knew that one day I'd find a love thing Now I'll never stop believing in chance I put my heart on a shelf forever I never thought I would find you I didn't know any better baby But then I realized that your... Love is just an emotion away I know it's gonna get to you Love will be only a moment away A moment away you know it's true Love is crazy love love is crazy And soon you're gonna get some... Rain It was the night Rod Stewart played And we were, were standing in the pouring rain If I had known it was the last time I would see you again... I would change everything... I look through the broken glass I watch the storm go through my mind There's so much I had to say I know the words I left behind And now I'm caught in a daydream with nowhere to run and hide The world rushes by me, it's leaving me here all alone (I would change everything, but I can't do anything I would give all that I have to know where you are) I'll always carry you inside my heart and you You'll never know how much I wonder where you are I always knew that you would take a part of me away with you And I never got to say good-bye I look in the mirror now and all I see is yesterday At night I hear your voice and it is calling out my name And with every hour just hold on to what you can They're lost in a moment and fading away in the night (I would change everything, but I can't do anything I would give all that I have just to know where you are) I'll always carry you inside my heart and you You'll never know how much I wonder where you are I always knew that you would take a part of me away with you And I never got to say good-bye And I never, ever Said good-bye... That night is just a memory But I still feel you standing next to me And when I think I hear your voice all I hear is the rain... The Time Of Your Life Standing there on a road that leads to anywhere Like a child left in the wilderness, standing there penniless Wanting to be the best Here's a place where life runs at a different pace Where love is just convenient, none are obedient And we are subservient Look at me, I'm a girl that some may preconceive Why do they try and generalize, why are they antagonizing me But something I can't control that... I want you You know I'll never stop 'til I've got you You'll never be quite the same when I rock you I'm not the kind of girl that you thought I was You'll have a good time 'cause I want you I'm breaking down the walls 'till I have you, feel you Show you the time of your life Here we are and I wonder how we've come this far In a world that does not recognize women are victimized What does that symbolize Why do I want the things I usually criticize It may be self destructiveness, or maybe it's emptiness inside But something I can't control that... I want you You know I'll never stop 'til I've got you You'll never be quite the same when I rock you I'm not the kind of girl that you thought I was You'll have a good time 'cause I want you I'm breaking down the walls 'till I have you, feel you Show you the time of your life You'll have a good time... It's a lonely road, and no one knows the way that I feel I'm not giving up now... I'll never try to justify They'll never understand, you'll be a happy man You'll have the time of your life It's something, it's something It's something that I can't control The time of your life... No Apologies Whenever we talk about sun all I see is the rain It's like looking for tears in a ocean I'm hearing your words like the wind They blow straight through my heart Will you ever give in to emotion And we hurt the ones that we love the most Why we do only heaven knows And I don't know why I'm still holding on...holding on I reach in my heart to see If your love is alive in me But now I feel alone My feelings turn to stone My heart makes no apologies When an apology's made it isn't always enough To erase all the past in a moment Whenever I need you the most You always leave me behind With a word from your lips I'm alone You've been blind not to realize All the love that I hold inside So tell me why do I keep holding on...holding on I reach in my heart to see If your love is alive in me But now I feel alone My feelings turn to stone My heart makes no apologies What I need is your sympathy Like a light flowing into me But I will never give up holding on...holding on I reach in my heart to see If your love is alive in me But now I feel alone My feelings turn to stone My heart makes no apologies My heart makes no apologies no, no My feelings turn to stone I make no apologies Can't Deny It's late at night and no one's around And only my heart is making a sound I lay awake alone in my bed And I can't sleep should I call you instead I think of you far too much 'cause you, you're one of a kind I'm not like an open book 'cause I've got something in mind You know I can't deny the way I feel inside I won't be hiding my love You know I can't disguise you're always on my mind And now I can't get enough Give me love, I know that you can I like the strength of a confident man It's in my blood and all through my veins You feel it once and you're never the same Whenever I close my eyes you're there. I feel it inside But why am I holding in my love, I can't tell you why You know I can't deny the way I feel inside I won't be hiding my love You know I can't disguise you're always on my mind And now I can't get enough I think of you far too much 'cause you, you're one of a kind I'm not like an open book 'cause I've got something in mind You know I , you know I, I can't deny Every day you're always on my mind You know I , you know I, I can't disguise Can't deny the way I feel inside You know I can't deny the way I feel inside I won't be hiding my love You know I can't disguise you're always on my mind And now I can't get enough When We Meet Again We said good-bye with so much left to say We knew inside we'd find another way We'll have it all, it's not too late to try Maybe you and I could go from here Maybe you and I can make it, this time we'll... Fall in love when we meet again We can finish what we started Fall in love if we try again And then nothing will keep us apart We're not the same as when we first began We'll try to change, we'll take another chance Maybe you and I could work it out Maybe you and I can make it, this time we'll Fall in love when we meet again We can finish what we started Fall in love if we try again And then nothing will keep us apart I see your face, it's always on my mind A time and palace we almost left behind This time we'll fall in, this time we'll... Fall in love when we meet again We can finish what we started Fall in love if we try again And then nothing will keep us apart Give What You Got You've got to give it all to baby You know I want it all for me I wanna get to know you baby Is that a possibility Hey, you're my man, I'm your woman And I'm not too proud to tell you what you do to my head I'm not kiddin' You've got everythin' that any girl would want, yes you do You're just wishin' Well it's time you know the truth and that is When you are beggin' me for money Just got to tell me what you need But if you want my lovin' buddy You've got to get down on your knees You've got to give what you got And take what I'm givin' you baby You've got to want what you see And see what I'm givin' away Hey, stick with me, I'm your momma And you can run to momma every time your skin you knee No one ever Could ever take your place, the way you move makes me hot Let me tell you You won't be satisfied without me You've got to give it all to baby You know I want it all for me I wanna get to know you baby Is that a possibility You've got to give what you got And take what I'm givin' you baby You've got to want what you see And see what I'm givin' away (Change Is) Never A Waste Of Time I knot there's a reason you're forcing a smile You hide what you're feeling and you have for a while I can tell that you're falling And you feel that you can't go on But a new day is calling And you'll see that the feeling is gone You know you're not the only one Who has a lot to overcome And when the time has come then you move on 'Cause you've been crying for too long Sometimes life is so unkind But change is never a waste of time I know how you're feeling, I've been there before The hurting is something much to strong to ignore Don't be waiting for someone Who can take all your fear away When there's no one to listen That is when you should not be afraid You know you're not the only one Who has a lot to overcome And when the time has come then you move on 'Cause you've been crying for too long Sometimes life is so unkind But change is never a waste of time But change is never a waste It's never a waste of time Big Bad Love I'm having dreams in the night of you baby And Sigmund Freud would have thought I was crazy I wonder why you've become an obsession All I know is that I need to have your big bad love Big bad love (3k) You keep on lovin' and lyin' You've turning me into a fool babe But I'm not screamin' or cryin' There's better things we have to do baby It takes a lot for me to truly believe That you could love me unconditionally And I'm terrified of taking a chance If you're not ready to believe in romance Who, I wonder why I am so unrelentless There's nothing that I can do to prevent this And the dream I am not apprehensive All I know is that I need to have your... Big bad love I need a love with an attitude Big bad love The only kind that I want from you Big bad love I need it from you so urgently Big bad love, need it baby yeah yeah yeah I'm not avoidin' your lovin' 'Cause I can afford to be blue babe I keep on pushin' and shovin' I can't get enough out of you baby I don't believe your blood is bad to the bone 'Cause then you're different when we're here all alone And if you knew the game I wanted to play Now would you say the words I want you to say ...who I'm am so relentless I can't prevent this I am not apprehensive All I know is that I need to have your big bad love...
Jagged Little Pill All I really want Do I stress you out My sweater is on backwards and inside out And you say how appropriate I don't want to dissect everything today I don't mean to pick you apart you see But I can't help it There I go jumping before the gunshot has gone off Slap me with a splintered ruler And it would knock me to the floor if I wasn't there already If only I could hunt the hunter And all I really want is some patience A way to calm the angry voice And all I really want is deliverance Do I wear you out You must wonder why I'm so relentless and all strung out I'm consumed by the chill of solitary I'm like Estella I like to reel it in and then spit it out I'm frustrated by your apathy And I am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land If only I could meet the Maker And I am fascinated by the spiritual man I am humbled by his humble nature yeah What I wouldn't give to find a soulmate Someone else to catch this drift And what I wouldn't give to meet a kindred Enough about me, let's talk about you for a minute Enough about you, let's talk about life for a while The conflicts, the craziness and the sound of pretenses Falling all around...all around Why are you so petrified of silence ('Why am I so petrified of silence' on the acoustic Album version) Here can you handle this? Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines Or when you think you're gonna die Or did you long for the next distraction And all I need know is intellectual intercourse A soul to dig the hole much deeper And I have no concept of time other than it is flying If only I could kill the killer All I really want is some peace man A place to find a common ground And all I really want is a wavelength And all I really want is some comfort A way to get my hands untied And all I really want is some justice...
You Oughta Know I want you to know that I'm happy for you I wish nothing but the best for you both An older version of me Is she perverted like me Would she go down on your in a theatre Does she speak eloquently And would she have your baby I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother 'Cause the love that you gave that we made Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me Until you died, 'til you died But you're still alive And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know You seem very well, things look peaceful I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced Are you thinking of me when you fuck her 'Cause the love that you gave that we made Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me Until you died, 'til you died But you're sill alive And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know 'Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me And I'm not gonna fade As soon as you close your eyes and you know it And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back I hope you feel it...well can you feel it And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know
*** Thanx a lot to Ivan who corrected a mistake on this one *** Perfect Sometimes is never quite enough If you're flawless, then you'll win my love Don't forget to win first place Don't forget to keep that smile on your face Be a good boy Try a little harder You've got to measure up And make me prouder How long before you screw it up How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up With everything I do for you The least you can do is keep quiet Be a good girl You've gotta try a little harder That simply wasn't good enough To make us proud I'll live through you I'll make you what I never was If you're the best, then maybe so am I Compared to him compared to her I'm doing this for your own damn good You'll make up for what I blew What's the problem, why are you crying Be a good boy Push a little farther now That wasn't fast enough To make us happy We'll love you just the way you are If you're perfect Hand In My Pocket I'm broke but I'm happy I'm poor but I'm kind I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah I'm high but I'm grounded I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed I'm lost but I'm hopeful baby What it all comes down to Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving a high five I feel drunk but I'm sober I'm young and I'm underpaid I'm tired but I'm working, yeah I care but I'm restless I'm here but I'm really gone I'm wrong and I'm sorry baby What it all comes down to Is that everything's gonna be quite alright 'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is flicking a cigarette What it all comes down to Is that I haven't got it all figured out just yet 'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is giving a peace sign I'm free but I'm focused I'm green but I'm wise I'm hard but I'm friendly, baby I'm sad but I'm laughing I'm brave but I'm chicken shit I'm sick but I'm pretty, baby And what it all boils down to Is that no one's really got it figured out just yet But I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is playing the piano What it all comes down to my friends, yeah Is that everything's just fine fine fine 'Cause I've got one hand in my pocket And the other one is hailing a taxi cab Right Through You Wait a minute man You mispronounced my name You didn't wait for all the information Before you turned me away Wait a minute sir You kind of hurt my feelings You see me as a sweet back-loaded puppet And you've got a meal ticket taste I see right through you I know right through you I feel right through you I walk right through you You took me for a joke You took me for a child You took a long hard look at my ass And then played golf for a while Your shake is like a fish You pat me on the head You took me out to wine dine sixty nine But didn't hear a damn word I said I see right through you I know right through you I feel right through you I walk right through you Hello Mr. Man You didn't think that I'd come back You didn't think I'd show up with my army And this ammunition on my back Now that I'm Miss Thing Now that I'm a zillionaire You scan the credits for your name And wonder why it's not there I see right through you I know right through you I feel right through you I walk right through you, you Forgiven You know how us Catholic girls can be We make up for so much time a little too late I never forgot it, confusing as it was No fun with no guilt feelings The sinners, the saviors, the loverless priests I'll see you next Sunday We all had our reasons to be there We all had a thing or two to learn We all needed something to cling to So we did I sang Alleluia in the choir Alleluia, alleluia, Alleluia I confessed my darkest deeds to an envious man My brothers they never went blind for what they did But I may as well have In the name of the Father, the Skeptic and the Son I had one more stupid question We all had our reasons to be there We all had a thing or two to learn We all needed something to cling to So we did What I learned I rejected but I believe again I will suffer the consequence of this inquisition If I jump in this fountain, will I be forgiven We all had our reasons to be there We all had a thing or two to learn We all needed something to cling to So we did We all had delusions in our head We all had our minds made up for us We had to believe in something So we did We all had our reasons to be there We all had a thing to learn We all needed something to cling to So we did So we did, yeah, so we did You Learn I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone, yeah I recommend walking around naked in your living room, yeah Swallow it down ( what a jagged little pill ) It feels so good ( swimming in your stomach ) Wait until the dust settles You live you learn You love you learn You cry you learn You lose you learn You bleed you learn You scream you learn I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone I certainly do I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time Feel free Throw it down ( the caution blocks you from the wind ) Hold it up ( to the rays ) You wait and see when the smoke clear You live you learn You love you learn You cry you learn You lose you learn You bleed you learn You scream you learn Wear it out ( the way a three-year-old would do ) Melt it down ( you're gonna have to eventually anyway ) The fire trucks are coming up around the bend You live you learn You love you learn You cry you learn You lose you learn You bleed you learn You scream you learn You grieve you learn You choke you learn You laugh you learn You choose you learn You pray you learn You ask you learn You live you learn Head Over Feet I had no choice but to hear you You stated your case time and again I thought about it You treat me like I'm a princess I'm not used to liking that You ask how my day was You've already won me over in spite of me Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your faults Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole You're so much braver than I gave you credit for That's not lip service You've already won me over in spite of me And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your faults You are the bearer of unconditional things You held your breath and the door for me Thanks for your patience You're the best listener that I've ever met You're my best friend Best friend with benefits What took me so long I've never felt this healthy before I've never wanted something rational I am aware now, I am aware now You've already won me over in spite of me And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your faults You've already won me over in spite of me And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your faults Mary Jane What's the matter Mary Jane, you had a hard day As you place the don't disturb sign on the door You lost your place in line again, what a pity You never seem to want to dance anymore It's a long way down On this roller coaster The last chance streetcar Went off the track And you're on it I hear you're counting sheep again Mary Jane What's the point of tryin' to dream anymore I hear you're losing weight again Mary Jane Do you ever wonder who you're losing it for Well it's full speed baby In the wrong direction There's a few more bruises If that's the way You insist on heading Please be honest Mary Jane Are you happy Please don't censor your tears You're the sweet crusader And you're on your way You're the last great innocent And that's why I love you So take this moment Mary Jane and be selfish Worry not about the cars that go by All that matters Mary Jane is your freedom Keep warm my dear, keep dry Tell me, tell me What's the matter Mary Jane Tell me, tell me Please be honest Mary Jane Tell me Ironic An old man turned ninety-eight He won the lottery and died the next day It's a black fly in your Chardonnay It's a death row pardon two minutes too late Isn't it ironic, don't you think It's like rain on your wedding day It's a free ride when you've already paid It's the good advice that you just didn't take And who would've thought, it figures Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye He waited his whole damned life to take that flight And as the plane crashed down he thought "Well isn't this nice" And isn't it ironic...don't you think It's like rain on your wedding day It's a free ride when you've already paid It's the good advice that you just didn't take And who would've thought, it figures Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you When you think everything's okay and everything's going right And life has a funny way of helping you out when You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face A traffic jam when you're already late A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife It's meeting the man of my dreams And then meeting his beautiful wife ('And then meeting his beautiful husband' on the acoustic Album version) And isn't it ironic, don't you think A little too ironic, and yeah I really do think It's like rain on your wedding day It's a free ride when you've already paid It's the good advice that you just didn't take And who would've thought, it figures Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out Helping you out Not The Doctor I don't want to be the filler if the void is solely yours I don't want to be your glass of single malt whiskey Hidden in the bottom drawer I don't want to be a bandage if the wound is not mine Lend me some fresh air I don't want to be adored for what I merely represent to you I don't want to be your babysitter You're a very big boy now I don't want to be your mother I didn't carry you in my womb for nine months Show me the back door Visiting hours are nine to five and if I show up at ten past six well I Already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom you see it's Too much to ask for and I am not the doctor ( and i'm not the ) I don't want to be the sweeper of the eggshells that you walk upon I don't want to be your other half I believe that one and one make two I don't want to be your food or the light from the fridge on your face at midnight Hey what are you hungry for I don't want to be the glue that holds your pieces together I don't want to be your idol See this pedestal is high and I'm afraid of heights I don't want to be lived through a vicarious occasion Please open the window Visiting hours are nine to five and if I show up at ten past six well I Already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom you see it's Too much to ask for and I am not the doctor ( and i'm not the ) I don't want to live on someday when my motto is last week I don't want to be responsible for your fractured heart and its wounded beat I don't want to be a substitute for the smoke you've been inhaling Well, what do you thank me What do you thank me for Visiting hours are nine to five and if I show up at ten past six well I Already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom you see it's Too much to ask for and I am not the doctor ( and i'm not the ) Wake Up You like snow but only if it's warm You like rain but only if it's dry No sentimental value to the rose that fell on your floor No fundamental excuse for the granted I'm taken for 'Cause it's easy not to So much easier not to And what goes around never comes around to you, to you You like pain but only if it doesn't hurt too much And you sit, and you wait, to receive There's an obvious attraction To the path of least resistence in your life There's an obvious aversion no amount of my insistance Could make you try tonight 'Cause it's easy not to So much easier not to And what goes around never comes around to you To you to you to you to you to you There's no love no money no thrill anymore There's an apprehensive naked little trembling boy With his head in his hands There's an underestimated and impatient little girl Raising her hand But it's easy not to So much easier not to And what goes around never comes around to you To you, to you Get up get up get up off of it Get up get up get up off of it Get out get outta here enough already Get up get up get up off of it Wake up Your House I went to your house Walked up the stairs I opened your door without ringing the bell Walked down the hall into your room Where I could smell you And I shouldn't be here Without permission Shouldn't be here Would you forgive me love If I danced in your shower Would you forgive me love If I laid in your bed Would you forgive me love If I stay all afternoon I took off my clothes Put on your robe Went through your drawers and I found your cologne Went down to the den Found your CD's I played your Joni And I shouldn't stay long You might be home soon I shouldn't stay long Would you forgive me love If I danced in your shower Would you forgive me love If I laid in your bed Would you forgive me love If I stay all afternoon I burned your incense I ran a bath I noticed a letter than sat on your desk It said "Hello love, I love you so, love, Meet me at midnight" And no, it wasn't my writing I better go soon It wasn't my writing So forgive me love If I cry in your shower So forgive me love For the salt in your bed So forgive me love If I cry all afternoon
Supposed Former Infatuation Junkie
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I know he's blood but you can still turn him away You don't owe him anything Do you go to the dungeon To find out how to make peace With your days in the dungeon Writing a letter to you Didn't make me feel any more peaceful Than how I felt when we weren't speaking Because I didn't cop to what I did I can't love you 'cause we're supposed to have professional boundaries I'd Like you to be schooled and in awe As though you were kissed by God full on the lips
Slid into the ditch I have this overwhelming loss of ambition We said let's name thirty good reasons Why we shouldn't be together I started by saying things like "you smoke" "You live in new jersey (too far)" You started saying things like "you belong to the world" All of which could have been easily refuted But the conversation was hypothetical I am totally short of breath For you why can't you shut your stuff off
For a while while I'm speaking You know how much you hate to be interrupted Maybe spend some time alone Fill up your proverbial cup so That it doesn't always have to be about you I've been wanting your undivided attention I like the fact that you're nothing like me Are you not burdened by the lack of Perspective people have of your charmed life seemingly
You never meant to be ungrateful nor held up to be whipped or wept For certainly not analyzed prodded at more ways than one Apparently you've been misrepresented dealing With the concept of arrows being slung towards your outrageous fortune
Hey I'm not mad at you guardian I'm mad at myself for spending so much time with you and your Jeckyl and hydeness I'm glad i figuratively slapped you on the wrist You laughed a wicked laugh and said "come here let me clip your wings!" I know he's blood but you can still turn him away You don't owe him anything "Raise the roof" he yelled "yeah raise the roof!" I yelled back Unfortunately you needed a health scare to repriortize No thanks to the soap box Having me rile against them won't make an ounce of difference
Oh the things i've done for you many a stitch a friend a man's been left for you Oh the books i've read for you the tongues i've bitten for you many A new city for you many a risk taken for you (not a single regret
Baba I've seen them kneel With baited breath for their rituals I've watched this experience raise Them to pseudo higher levels I've watched them leave their families In pursuit of your nirvana I've seen them coming to line up From switzerland and america How long will this take, Baba? How long have we been sleeping? Do you see me hanging onto every word you say? How soon will I be holy? How much will this cost, guru? How much longer till you completely absolve me? I've seen them give their drugs up In place of makeshift altars I've heard them chanting Kali kali frantically I've heard them rotely repeat your Teachings with elitism I've seen them boasting robes and Foreign sandalwood beads How long will this take, Baba? How long have we been sleeping? Do you see me hanging onto every word you say? How soon will I be holy? How much will this cost, guru? How much longer till you completely absolve me? I've seen men overlooking god in Their own essence I've seen their upward glances In hopes of instant salvation I've seen their righteousness Mixed without loving compassion I've watched you smile As the students bow to kiss your feet Give me strength all knowing one How long 'til enlightenment? How much longer 'til you Completely absolve me? --Chanting-- ** Thanx a lot to Rafael for this one ** Thank U
How 'bout getting off of these antibiotics How 'bout stopping eating when I'm full up How 'bout them transparent dangling carrots How 'bout that ever elusive kudo Thank you India Thank you terror Thank you disillusionment Thank you frailty Thank you consequence Thank you thank you silence How 'bout me not blaming you for everything How 'bout me enjoying the moment for once How 'bout how good it feels to finally forgive you How 'bout grieving it all one at a time Thank you India Thank you terror Thank you disillusionment Thank you frailty Thank you consequence Thank you thank you silence The moment I let go of it was The moment I got more than I could handle The moment I jumped off of it was The moment I touched down How 'bout no longer being masochistic How 'bout remembering your divinity How 'bout unabashedly bawling your eyes out How 'bout not equating death with stopping Thank you India Thank you Providence Thank you disillusionment Thank you nothingness Thank you clarity Thank you thank you silence Are You Still Mad Are you still mad i kicked you out of bed Are you still mad i gave you ultimatums Are you still mad i compared you to all My forty year old male friends Are you still mad i shared our problems With everybody Are you still mad i had a an emotional affair Are you still mad i tried to mold you into Who i wanted you to be Are you still mad I didn't trust your intentions Of course you are Of course you are Are you still mad that i flirted wildly Are you still mad I had a tendency to mother you Are you still mad that i had one foot out the door Are you still mad that we slept together even after We had ended it Of course you are Of course you are Are you still mad i wore the pants most of the time Are you still mad that i seemed to focus Only on your potential Are you still mad that i threw in the towel Are you still mad that i gave up long before you did Of course you are Of course you are Sympathetic Character I was afraid you'd hit me if i'd spoken up i was Afraid of your physical strength i was afraid You'd hit me below the belt i was afraid of your Sucker punch i was afraid of your reducing me I was afraid of your alcohol breath i was afraid Of your complete disregard for me i was afraid Of your temper i was afraid of handles being Flown off of i was afraid of holes being punched Into walls i was afraid of your testosterone I have as much rage as you have I have as much pain as you do I've lived as much hell as you have And i've kept mine bubbling under for you You were my best friend You were my lover You were my mentor You were my brother You were my partner You were my teacher You were my very own sympathetic character I was afraid of verbal daggers i was afraid of the Calm before the storm i was afraid for my own Bones i was afraid of your seduction i was afraid of Your coercion i was afraid of your rejection I was afraid of your intimidation i was afraid of Your punishment i was afraid of your icy silences I was afraid of your volume i was afraid of your Manipulation i was afraid of your explosions I have as much rage as you do I have as much pain as you do I've lived as much hell as you have And i've kept mine bubbling under for you You were my best friend You were my lover You were my mentor You were my brother You were my partner You were my teacher You were my very own sympathetic character You were my keeper You were my anchor You were my family You were my saviour And therein lay the issue And therein lay the problem That I Would Be Good That I would be good even if i did nothing That I would be good even if i got the thumbs down That I would be good if I got and stayed sick That I would be good even if I gained ten pounds That i would be fine even even if I went bankrupt That i would be good if I lost my hair and my youth That i would be great if I was no longer queen That i would be grand if i was not all knowing That i would be loved even when i numb myself That i would be good even when i am overwhelmed That i would be loved even when i was fuming That i would be good even if i was clingy That i would be good even if i lost sanity That i would be good Whether with or without you
*** Thanx to Natalie & Gavan who corrected some mistakes *** The Couch You hadn't seen your father in such a long time He died in the arms of his lover how dare he Your mother never left the house She never married anyone else you took it upon yourself to console her You reminded her so much of your father So you were banished and you wonder why you're so hypersensitive And why you can't trust anyone but us But then how can i begin to forgive her so many years under bridges with dirty water She was foolish and selfish and cowardly if you ask me I don't know where to begin in all of my 50 odd years I have been silently suffering and adapting perpetuating and enduring Who are you younger generation to tell me that i have unresolved problems Not many examples of fruits of this type of excruciating labour How can you just throw words around like grieve and heal and mourn I feel fine we may not have been born as awake as you were It was much harder in those days we had paper routes uphill both ways We went from school to a job to a wife to instant parenthood I walked into his office i felt so self-conscious on the couch He was sitting down across from me he was writing down his hypothesis i don't know I've got a loving supportive wife who doesn't know how involved she should get You say his interjecting was him just calling me on my shit? Just the other day my sweet daughter i was driving past 203 i walked up the stars in my minds eyes I remember how they would creak loudly She was only responsive with a drink he was only responsive by photo I was only trying to be the best big brother i could I've walked sometimes confused sometimes ready to crack open wide Sometimes indignant sometimes raw Can you imagine i pay him 75 dollars an hour sometimes It feels like highway robbery And sometimes it's peanuts I wish it could last a couple more hours So here we both are battling similar demons (not coincidentally) You see in getting beyond knowing it solely intellectually you're not relinquishing your majestry You are wise you are warm you are courageous you are big And i love you more now than i ever have in my whole life
Can't not I'd be lying if I said I was completely unscathed I might be proving you right with my silence or my retaliation Would I be letting you win in my non reaction? How would I explain? How would I explain this to my children if I had them? Because I can't not Because I can't not Because I can't afford to be misread one more time Would it be whining if I said I needed a hug? Would you feel slighted if I said your love's not enough? And how can I complain? And how can I complain when I'm the one that reaches for this? Because I can't not Because I can't not Because I cannot walk without my crutches Because I can't not Because I can't not Because I can't help wonder why you ask me To all the unheard wisdom in the school yard You think you're the right ones You swear you're the charmed ones I'm sure But how can you go on with such conviction? Who do you think you are when you question me? Because we can't not Because we can't not Because we can't help laugh at underestimations Because we can't not Because we can't not Because we can't afford to be misled one more time Because we can't not Because we can't not Because we cannot help without your willingness Why do you affect me Why do you affect me still Why do you hinder me Why do you hinder me still Why do you unnerve me Why do you unnerve me still Why do you trigger me Why do you trigger me still Ur Burn the books they've got too many names and psychoses All this incriminating evidence would surely haunt me If someone broke into my house Suits in the living room Do you realize guys i was born in 1974 We've got someone here to explain your publishing We know how much you love to be in front of audiences Hopeful you are Schoolbound you are Naive you are Driven you are Take a trip to new york with your guardian And your fake identification When they said "is there something anything You'd like to know young lady?" You said "yes i'd like to know what kind of people i'll be dealing with" Precocious you are Headstrong you are Terrified you are Ahead of your time you are Don't mind our staring but We're surprised you're not in a far-gone asylum We're surprised you didn't crack-up Lord knows that we would've We would've liked to have been there But you keep pushing us away Resilient you are Big time you are Ruthless you are Precious you are I Was Hoping As we were talking outside it was cold we were shivering yet warmed by the subject matter My wife is in the next room we've been having troubles you know please don't tell her or anyone But i need to talk to somebody You said "wouldn't it be a shame if i knew how great i was five minutes before i died i'd be filled With such regret before i took my last breath" and i said "you're willing to tell me this now And you're not going to die anytime soon" And i said i haven't been eating chicken or meat or anything and you said yes But you've been wearing leather and laughed and said we're at the top of the food chain And yes you're still a fine woman and i cringed I was hoping we could heal each other I was hoping we could be raw together We left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60's) said "good-bye sir thank you for your business sir you're Successful and established sir and we like the frequency with which you dine here sir And your money" and when i walked by they said "thank you too dear" i was all pigtails and cords And there was a day when i would've said something like "hey dude i could buy and sell this place so kiss it" I too once though i was owed something I was hoping i was hoping we could challenge each other I was hoping i was hoping we could crack each other up I too thought that when proved wrong i lost somehow I too once thought life was cruel It's a cycle really you think i'm withdrawing and guilt tripping you i think you're insensitive And i don't feel heard and i said do you believe we are fundamentally judgmental? Fundamentally evil? And you said yes i said i don't believe in revenge in right or wrong good or bad you said "well what about the man that i saw handcuffed in the emergency room bleeding after beating his kid And she threw a shoe at his head. I think what he did was wrong and i would've had a hard time feeling compassion for him" I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged I was hoping i was hoping we could dance together I was hoping i was hoping we could be creamy together One I am the biggest hypocrite I've been undeniably jealous I have been loud and pretentious I have been utterly threatened I've gotten candy for my self-interest The sexy treadmill capitalist Heaven forbid i be criticized Heaven forbid i be ignored I have abused my power forgive me You mean we actually are all one One one one one one one one I've been out of reach and separatist Heaven forbid average (whatever average means) I have been compensated for my days Of powerlessness I have abused my so-called power forgive me You mean we actually are all one One one one one one one one Did you just call her amazing? Surely we both can't be amazing! And give up my hard earned status As fabulous freak of nature? I have abused my power forgive me You mean we actually are all one One one one one one one one Always looked good on paper Sounded good in theory Would Not Come If I make a lot of tinsel then people will want to If I am hardened no fear of further abandonment If I am famous then maybe i'll feel good in this skin If I am cultured my words will somehow garner respect I would throw a party still it would not come I would bike run swim and still it would not come I'd go traveling and still it would not come I would starve myself and still it would not come If I am masculine I will be taken more seriously If I take a break it would make me irresponsible If i'm elusive I will surely be sought after often If I need assistance then I must be incapable I'd be filthy rich and still It would not come I would seduce them and still It would not come I would drink vodka and still It would not come I'd have an orgasm and still It wouldn't come If I accumulate knowledge I'll be impenetrable If I am aloof no one will know When they strike a nerve If I keep my mouth shut the boat Will not have to be rocked If I am vulnerable I will be Trampled upon I would go shopping and still It would not come I'd leave the country and still It would not come I would scream and rebel still It would not come I would stuff my face and still It would not come I'd be productive and still it would not come I'd be celebrated still it would not come I'd the the hero and still it would not come I'd renunciate and still it would not come Unsent Dear Matthew, I like you a lot. I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now, And I respect that. I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future, And you want to come visit me in California, I would be open to spending time with you, And finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song. Dear Jonathan, I liked you too much. I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me, And think solely about themselves, And you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time. I used to say the more tragic the better. The truth is, whenever I think of the early 90's, Your face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday. Dear Terrance, I love you muchly. You've been nothing but open hearted, And emotionally available and supportive, And nurturing, and consummately there for me. I kept drawing you in and pushing you away, I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch, And cry in front of you for the first time. You were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself. What was wrong with me? Dear Marcus, you rocked my world. You had a charismatic way about you with the woman, And you got me seriously thinking about spirituality. And you wouldn't let me get away with kicking my own ass. But I could never really feel relaxed, And looked out for around you, though, And that stopped us from going any further than we did. And it's kinda too bad, Because we could've had much more fun. Dear Lou, we learned so much. I realize we won't be able to talk for some time, And I understand that as I do you. The long distance thing was the hardest, And we did as well as we could. We were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives. I will always have your back and be curious about you, About your career, Your whereabouts. So Pure You from New York, You are so relevant. You reduce me to cosmic tears. Luminous more so than most anyone. Unapologetically alive. Knot in my stomach, And lump in my throat. I love you when you dance, When you freestyle in trance, So pure, such an expression. Supposed former infatuation junkie. I sink three pointers, And you wax poetically. I love you when you dance, When you freestyle in trance, So pure, such an expression. Let's grease the wheel over tea. Let's discuss things in confidence. Let's be outspoken, let's be ridiculous, Let's solve all the world's problems. I love you when you dance, When you freestyle in trance, So pure, such an expression. Joining You Dear Darlin, Your mom, my friend Left a message on my machine She was frantic Saying you were talking crazy. That you wanted to do away with yourself. I guess she thought I would be the perfect resort Because we've had this inexplicable connection since our youth And yes, they're in shock They are panicked You and your chronic Them and their drama You this embarrassment Us in the middle of this delusion. If we were our bodies, If we were our futures, If we were our defenses, I'd be joining you. If we were our culture, If we were our leaders, If we were our denials, I'd be joining you. I remember vividly a day years ago, We were camping. You knew more than you thought you should know. You said "I don't want ever to be brainwashed" And you were mindboggling, you were intense. You were uncomfortable in your own skin. You were thirsty, But mostly you were beautiful. If we were our nametags, If we were our rejections, If we were our outcomes, I'd be joining you. If we were our indignities, If we were our successes, If we were our emotions, I'd be joining you. You and I, we're like four year olds. We want to know why, and how come about everything. We want to reveal ourselves at will, and speak our minds. And never talk small talk and be intuitive, And question mightily, and find God my tortured beacon. We need to find like-minded companions. If we were their condemnations, If we were their projections, If we were our paranoias, I'd be joining you. If we were our incomes, If we were our obsessions, If we were our afflictions, I'd be joining you. We need a reflection, We need a really good memory. Feel free to call me a little more often. Heart Of The House You are the original template You are the original exemplary How seen were you actually? How revered were you honestly at the time? Why pleased with your low maintenance? You loved us more than we could've love you back Where was your ally your partner in feminine crime? Oh mother who's your buddy Oh mother who's got your back The heart of the house The heart of the house All hail the goddess! You were "good ol'" You were "count on 'er 'till four am" You saw me run from the house In the snow melodramatically Oh mother who's your sister? Oh mother who's your friend? The heart of the house The heart of the house All hail the goddess! We left the men and we went for a walk in the gatineaus And talked like women to women would Womyn to womyn would "where did you get that from? Must've been your father your dad" I got it from you I got it from you Do you see yourself in my gypsy garage sale ways? In my fits of laughter? In my tinkerbell tendencies? In my lack of color coordination? Your Congratulations I wouldn't have compromised as much So much of myself for fear of Having you hating me I would've sung so loudly It would've cracked myself! I became self-conscious Of anything exuberant I wouldn't have sold myself short I wouldn't have kept my eyes Glued to the ground If I hadn't known my invisibility Would not make a difference I would've run around screaming proudly At the top of my voice I wouldn't have said it was in fact luck I'm talking idealism here I would not have been so self deprecating I wouldn't have cowered For fear of having my eyes cut my comfort off I wouldn't have feigned needlessness I would not have discredited Every one of their compliments It was your approval I wanted Your congratulations
MTV Unplugged You Learn I recommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone, yeah I recommend walking around naked in your living room, yeah Swallow it down ( what a jagged little pill ) It feels so good ( swimming in your stomach ) Wait until the dust settles You live you learn You love you learn You cry you learn You lose you learn You bleed you learn You scream you learn I recommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone I certainly do I recommend sticking your foot in your mouth at any time Feel free Throw it down ( the caution blocks you from the wind ) Hold it up ( to the rays ) You wait and see when the smoke clear You live you learn You love you learn You cry you learn You lose you learn You bleed you learn You scream you learn Wear it out ( the way a three-year-old would do ) Melt it down ( you're gonna have to eventually anyway ) The fire trucks are coming up around the bend You live you learn You love you learn You cry you learn You lose you learn You bleed you learn You scream you learn You grieve you learn You choke you learn You laugh you learn You choose you learn You pray you learn You ask you learn You live you learn
Joining You Dear Darlin, Your mom, my friend Left a message on my machine She was frantic Saying you were talking crazy. That you wanted to do away with yourself. Guess she thought I would be the perfect resort Because we've had this inexplicable connection since our youth And yes, they're in shock They are panicked You and your chronic Them and their drama You this embarassment Us in the middle of this delusion. If we were our bodies, If we were our futures, If we were our defenses, I'd be joining you. If we were our culture, If we were our leaders, If we were our denials, I'd be joining you. I remember vividly a day years ago, We were camping. You knew more than you thought you should know. You said "I don't want ever to be brainwashed" And you were mindboggling, you were intense. You were uncomfortable in your own skin. You were thirsty, But mostly you were beautiful. If we were our nametags, If we were our rejections, If we were our outcomes, I'd be joining you. If we were our indignities, If we were our successes, If we were our emotions, I'd be joining you. You and I, we're like four year olds. We want to know why, and how come about everything. We want to reveal ourselves at will, and speak our minds. And never talk small talk and be intuitive, And question mightily, and find God my tortured beacon. We need to find like-minded companions. If we were their condemnations, If we were their projections, If we were our paranoias, I'd be joining you. If we were our incomes, If we were our obsessions, If we were our afflictions, I'd be joining you. We need a reflection, We need a really good memory. Feel free to call me a little more often.
No Pressure Over Cappuccino And you're like a 90's jesus And you revel in your psychosis How dare you And you sample concepts like hors d'euvres And you eat their questions for dessert Is it just me or is it hot in here And you're like a 90's kennedy And you're really a million years old You can't fool me They'll throw opinions like rocks in riots And they'll stumble around like hypocrites Is it just me or is it dark in here? Well you may never be or have a husband you may never have or hold a child You will learn to lose everything we are temporary arrangements And you're like a 90's noah And they laughed at you as you packed all of your things And they wonder why you're frustrated And they wonder why you're so angry And is it just me or are you fed up? And may god bless you in your travels in your conquests and queries
** Thanx a lot to Rafael for this one **
That I Would Be Good That I would be good Even if I did nothing That I would be good Even if I got the thumbs down That I would be good If I got and stayed sick That I would be good Even if I gained 10 pounds That I would be fine Even if I went bankrupt That I would be good If I lost my hair and my youth That I would be great If I was no longer queen That I would be grand If I was not all knowing That I would be loved Even when I numb myself That I would be good Even when I am overwhelmed That I would be loved Even when I was fuming That I would be good Even if I was clingy That I would be good Even if I lost sanity That I would be good Whether with or without you
*** Thanx to Natalie & Gavan who corrected some mistakes ***
Head Over Feet I had no choice but to hear you You stated your case time and again I thought about it You treat me like I'm a princess I'm not used to liking that You ask how my day was You've already won me over in spite of me Don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your faults Your love is thick and it swallowed me whole You're so much braver than I gave you credit for That's not lip service You've already won me over in spite of me And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your faults You are the bearer of unconditional things You held your breath and the door for me Thanks for your patience You're the best listener that I've ever met You're my best friend Best friend with benefits What took me so long I've never felt this healthy before I've never wanted something rational I am aware now, I am aware now You've already won me over in spite of me And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your faults You've already won me over in spite of me And don't be alarmed if I fall head over feet And don't be surprised if I love you for all that you are I couldn't help it It's all your faults
Princes Familiar Please be philosophical Please be tapped into your femininity Please be able to take the wheel from me Please be crazy and curious Papa love your princess so that she will find loving princes familiar Papa cry for your princess so that she will find gentle princes familiar Please be a sexaholic Please be unpredictably miserable Please be self absorbed much (not the good kind) Please be addicted to some substance Papa listen to your princess so that she will find attentive princes familiar Papa hear your princess so that she will find curious princes familiar Please be the jerk of my knee i've fit you always You finish my sentences I think I love you What is your name again no matter i'm guessing your thoughts again correctly and I love the way You press my buttons so much sometimes I could strangle you Papa laugh with your princess so that she will find funny princes familiar Papa respect your princess so that she will find respectful princes familiar Please be strangely enigmatic Please be just like my
These R The Thoughts These are the thoughts that go through my head In my backyard on a Sunday afternoon When I have the house to myself and i'm not Expending all that energy on fighting with my boyfriend Is he the one that I will marry? Why is it so hard to be objective about myself? Why do I feel cellularly alone? Am I supposed to live in this crazy city? Can blindly continued fear induced regurgitated life-denying Tradition be overcome? Where does the money go that I send to those in need? If we have so much why do some people have nothing still? Why do I feel frantic when I first wake up in the morning? Why do you say you are spiritual Yet you treat people like shit? How can you say you're close to god And yet you talk behind my back as though I am not A part of you? why do I say I'm fine when it's Obvious I'm not? why's it so hard to tell you what I want? Why can't you just read my mind? Why do I fear that the quieter I am the less you will listen? Why do I care whether you like me or not? Why is it so hard for me to be angry? Why is it such work to stay conscious and so easy to get stuck And not the other way around? Will I ever move back to canada? Can I be with a lover with whom I am a student and a master? Why am I encouraged to shut my mouth when it gets too close to home? Why cannot I live in the moment? King Of Pain (Police Cover)
There's a little black spot on the sun today It's the same old thing as yesterday There's a black hat caught in a high tree top There's a flag pole rag and the wind won't stop I have stood here before inside the pouring rain With the world turning circles running 'round my brain I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign But it's my destiny to be the king of pain There's a fossil that trapped in a high cliff wall That's my soul up there There's a dead salmon frozen in a waterfall That's my soul up there There's a blue whale beached by a springtide's ebb That's my soul up there There's a butterfly trapped in a spider's web I have stood here before inside the pouring rain With the world turning circles running 'round my brain I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign But it's my destiny to be the king of pain There's a king on a throne with his eyes torn out There's a blind man looking for a shadow of doubt There's a rich man sleeping on a golden bed There's a skeleton choking on a crust of bread There's a red fox torn by a huntman's pack There's a black winged gull with a broken back There's a little black spot on the sun today It's the same old thing as yesterday I have stood here before inside the pouring rain With the world turning circles running 'round my brain I guess I'm always hoping that you'll end this reign But it's my destiny to be the queen of pain Queen of pain I'll always be queen of pain Queen of pain I'll always be queen of pain
You Oughta Know I want you to know that I'm happy for you I wish nothing but the best for you both An older version of me Is she perverted like me Would she go down on you in a theatre Does she speak eloquently And would she have your baby I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother 'Cause the love that you gave that we made Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me Until you died, 'till you died But you're still alive And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know You seem very well, things look peaceful I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know Did you forget about me, Mr. Duplicity I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced Are you thinking of me when you fuck her 'Cause the love that you gave that we made Wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide, no And every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me Until you died, 'till you died But you're still alive And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know 'Cause the joke that you laid in the bed that was me And I'm not gonna fade As soon as you close your eyes and you know it And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back I hope you feel it...well can you feel it And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away It's not fair to deny me Of the cross I bear that you gave to me You, you, you oughta know
Uninvited Like anyone would be I am flattered by your fascination with me Like any hot-blooded woman I have simply wanted an object to crave But you, you're not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight Must be strangely exciting To watch the stoic squirm Must be somewhat heartening To watch shepherd meet shepherd But you you're not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight Like any uncharted territory I must seem greatly intriguing You speak of my love like You have experienced love like mine before But this is not allowed You're uninvited An unfortunate slight I don't think you unworthy I need a moment to deliberate
Under Rug Swept
21 Things I Want in a Lover
Do you derive joy when someone else succeeds? Do you not play dirty when engaged in competition? Do you have a big intellectual capacity but know that it alone does not equate wisdom? Do you see everything as an illusion? But enjoy it even though you are not of it? Are you both masculine and feminine? Politically aware? And don't believe in capital punishment? These are 21 things that I want in a lover Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer Do you derive joy from diving in and seeing that loving someone can actually feel like freedom? Are you funny? A la self-deprecating? Like adventure? And have many formed opinions? These are 21 things that I want in a lover Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer I figure I can describe it since I have a choice in the matter These are 21 things I choose to choose in a lover I'm in no hurry I could wait forever I'm in no rush cuz I like being solo There are no worries and certainly no pressure In the meantime I'll live like there's no tomorrow Are you uninhibited in bed? More than three times a week? Up for being experimental? Are you athletic? Are you thriving in a job that helps your brother? Are you not addicted? These are 21 things that I want in a lover Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer These are 21 things that I want in a lover Not necessarily needs but qualities that I prefer Curious and communicative...
Narcissus Dear momma's boy I know you've had your butt licked by your mother I know you've enjoyed all that attention from her And every woman graced with your presence after Dear narcissus boy I know you've never really apologized for anything I know you've never really taken responsibility I know you've never really listened to a woman Dear me-show boy I know you're not really into conflict resolution Or seeing both sides of every equation Or having an uninterrupted conversation And any talk of healthiness And any talk of connectedness And any talk of resolving this Leaves you running for the door Why why do I try to love you Try to love you when you really don't want me to Why why do I try to love you Try to love you when you really don't want me to Dear egotist boy you've never really had to suffer any consequence You've never stayed with anyone longer than ten minutes You'd never understand anyone showing resistance Dear popular boy I know you're used to getting everything so easily A stranger to the concept of reciprocity People honor boys like you in this society And any talk of selflessness And any talk of working at this And any talk of being of service Leaves you running for the door Why why do I try to help you try to help you When you really don't want me to Why why do I try to help you try to help you When you really don't want me to You go back to the women who will dance the dance You go back to your friends who will lick your ass You go back to ignoring all the rest of us You go back to the center of your universe Dear self centered boy I don't know why I still feel affected by you I've never lasted very long with someone like you I never did although I have to admit I wanted to Dear magnetic boy you've never been with anyone who doesn't take your shit You've never been with anyone who's dared to call you on it I wonder how you'd be if someone were to call you on it And any talk of willingness And any talk of both feet in And any talk of commitment Leaves you running for the door Why why do I try to change you try to Try to change you when you really don't want me to Why why do I try to change you try to Try to change you when you really don't want me to You go back to the women who will dance the dance You go back to your friends who will lick your ass You go back to being so oblivious You go back to the center of the universe
Hands Clean If it weren't for your maturity none of this would have happened If you weren't so wise beyond your years I would've been able to control myself If it weren't for my attention you wouldn't have been successful and If it weren't for me you would never have amounted to very much Ooh this could be messy But you don't seem to mind Ooh don't go telling everybody And overlook this supposed crime We'll fast forward to a few years later And no one knows except the both of us And I have honored your request for silence And you've washed your hands clean of this You're essentially an employee and I like you having to depend on me You're kind of my protégé and one day you'll say you learned all you know from me I know you depend on me like a young thing would to a guardian I know you sexualize me like a young thing would and I think I like it Ooh this could get messy But ooh you don't seem to mind Ooh don't go telling everybody And overlook this supposed crime We'll fast forward to a few years later And no one knows except the both of us And I have honored your request for silence And you've washed your hands clean of this What part of our history's reinvented and under rug swept? What part of your memory is selective and tends to forget? What with this distance it seems so obvious? Just make sure you don't tell on me especially to members of your family We best keep this to ourselves and not tell any members of our inner posse I wish I could tell the world 'cause you're such a pretty thing when you're done up properly I might want to marry you one day if you watch that weight and keep your firm body Ooh this could be messy and Ooh I don't seem to mind and Ooh don't go telling everybody And overlook this supposed crime We'll fast forward to a few years later No one knows except the both of us And I have honored your request for silence And you've washed your hands clean of this Ooh this could be messy and Ooh I don't seem to mind Ooh don't go tellin' everybody And overlook this supposed crime We'll fast forward to a few years later No one knows except the both of us And I have honored your request for silence And you've washed your hands clean of this
Flinch What's it been, over a decade? It still smarts like it was four minutes ago We only influenced each other, totally We only bruised each other even more so What are you my blood? You touch me like you are my blood What are you my dad? You affect me like you are my dad How long can a girl be shackled to you How long before my dignity is reclaimed How long can a girl stay haunted by you Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name Where've you been? I heard you moved to my city My brother saw you somewhere downtown I'd be paralyzed if I ran into you My tongue would seize up if we were to meet again What are you my god? You touch me like you are my god What are you my twin? You affect me like you are my twin How long can a girl be tortured by you? How long before my dignity is reclaimed And how long can a girl be haunted by you Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name So here I am one room away from where I know you're standing A well-intentioned man told me you just walked in This man knows not of how this information has affected me But he knows the colour of the car I just drove away in What are you my kin? You touch me like you are my kin What are you my air? You affect me like you are my air And how long can a girl be tortured by you? And how long before my dignity is reclaimed And how long can a girl be haunted by you Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name Soon I'll grow up and I won't even flinch at your name So Unsexy Oh these little rejections how they add up quickly One small sideways look and I feel so ungood Somewhere along the way I think I gave you the power to make Me feel the way I thought only my father could Oh these little rejections how they seem so real to me One forgotten birthday I'm all but cooked How these little abandonments seem to sting so easily I'm thirteen again, am I thirteen for good? I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful So unloved for someone so fine I can feel so boring for someone so interesting So ignorant for someone of sound mind Oh these little protections how they fail to serve me One forgotten phone call and I'm deflated Oh these little defenses how they fail to comfort me Your hand pulling away and I'm devastated I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful So unloved for someone so fine I can feel so boring for someone so interesting So ignorant for someone of sound mind When will you stop leaving baby? When will I stop deserving baby? When will I start staying with myself? Oh these little projections, how they keep springing from me I jump my ship as I take it personally Oh these little rejections how they disappear quickly The moment I decide not to abandon me I can feel so unsexy for someone so beautiful So unlov-ed for someone so fine I can feel so boring for someone so interesting So ignorant for someone of sound mind
Precious Illusions You'll rescue me right? in the exact same way they never did.. I'll be happy right? when your healing powers kick in You'll complete me right? then my life can finally begin I'll be worthy right? only when you realize the gem I am? But this won't work now the way it once did And I won't keep it up even though I would love to Once I know who I'm not then I'll know who I am But I know I won't keep on playing the victim These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was defenseless And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends This ring will help me yet as will you knight in shining armor This pill will help me yet as will these boys gone through like water But this won't work as well as the way it once did 'Cause I want to decide between survival and bliss And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am But I know I won't keep on playing the victim These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend I've spent so long firmly looking outside me I've spent so much time living in survival mode But this won't work now the way it once did 'Cause I want to decide between survival and bliss And though I know who I'm not I still don't know who I am But I know I won't keep on playing the victim These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was defenseless And parting with them is like parting with invisible best friends These precious illusions in my head did not let me down when I was a kid And parting with them is like parting with a childhood best friend
That Particular Time My foundation was rocked My tried and true way to deal was to vanish My departures were old I stood in the room Shaking in my boots At that particular time love had challenged me to stay At that particular moment I knew not run away again That particular month I was ready to investigate with you At that particular time We thought a break would be good For four months we sat and vacillated We thought a small time apart would clear up the doubts that were abounding At that particular time love encouraged me to wait At that particular moment it helped me to be patient That particular month we needed time to marinate in what "us" meant At that particular time I've always wanted for you what you've wanted for yourself And yet I wanted to save us high water or hell And I kept on ignoring the ambivalence you felt And in the meantime I lost myself In the meantime I lost myself I'm sorry I lost myself… I am You knew you needed more time Time spent alone with no distraction You felt you needed to fly Solo and high to define what you wanted At that particular time love encouraged me to leave At that particular moment I knew staying with you meant deserting me That particular month was harder than you'd believe but I still left At that particular time
A Man I am a man as a man I've been told Bacon is brought to the house in this mold Born of your bellies I yearn for the cord Years I have groveled repentance ignored And I have been blamed And I have repented I'm working my way toward our union mended I am man who has grown from a son Been crucified by enrag-ed women I am son who was raised by such men I'm often reminded of the fools I'm among And I have been shamed And I have relented I'm working my way toward our union mended And I have been shamed And I have repented I'm working my way toward our union mended We don't fare well with endless reprimands And we don't do well with a life served as a sentence And this won't work well if you're hell bent on your offense 'Cause I am a man who understands your reticence I am a man who still does what he can To dispel our archaic reputation I am a man who has heard all he can 'Cause I don't fare well with endless punishment 'Cause I have been blamed And I have repented I'm working my way toward our union mended And we have been blamed and we have repented I'm working my way toward our union mended We don't fare well with endless reprimands And we don't do well with a life served as a sentence And this won't work well if you're hell bent on your offense ' Cause I am a man who understands your reticence
You Owe Me Nothing In Return I'll give you countless amounts of outright Acceptance if you want it. I will give you Encouragment to choose the path that you want if you need it. You can speak of anger and doubts, Your fears and freak-outs and I'll hold it. You can share your so-called Shamefilled accounts of times in your life and I won't judge it. And there are no strings attached to it You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give. You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have. I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege, And you owe me nothing in return. You can ask for space for yourself And only yourself and I'll grant it. You can ask for freedom as well Or time to travel and you'll have it. You can ask to live by yourself Or love someone else and I'll support it. You can ask for anything you want Anything at all and I'll understand it. And there are no strings attached to it You owe me nothing for giving the love that I give. You owe me nothing for caring the way that I have. I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege, And you owe me nothing in return. I bet you're wonderin' when The next payback shoe will eventually drop. I bet you're wonderin' when my conditional police will force you to cough up. I bet you're wonderin' how far you now have danc-ed your way back into debt. This is the only kind of love As I understand it That there really is. You can express your deepest of truths Even if it means I'll lose you and I'll hear it. You can fall into the abyss On the way to your bliss I'll empathize with. You can say that you'll have to skip town To chase your passion and I'll hear it. You can even hit rock bottom have a mid-life chrisis and I'll hold it. And there are no strings attached to it You owe me nothin' for giving the love that I give. You owe me nothin' for caring the way that I have. I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege, And you owe me nothing in return. You owe me nothin' for giving the love that I give. You owe me nothin' for caring the way that I have. I give you thanks for receiving, it's my privilege, And you owe me nothing in return.
Surrendering You were full and fully capable You were self sufficient and needless Your house was fully decorated in that sense You were taken with me to a point A case of careful what you wish for But what you knew was enough to begin And so you called and courted fiercely So you reached out, entirely fearless And yet you knew of reservation and how it serves And I salute you for your courage And I applaud your perseverance And I embrace you for your faith in the face of adversarial forces That I represent So you were in but not entirely You were up for this but not totally You knew how arms length-ing can maintain doubt And so you fell and you're intact So you dove in and you're still breathing And So you jumped and you're still flying if not shocked And I support you in your trusting And I commend you for your wisdom And I'm amazed by your surrender in the face of threatening forces That I represent You found creative ways to distance You hid away from much through humor Your choice of armor was your intellect And so you felt and you're still here And so you died and you're still standing And so you softened and still safely in command And I salute you for your courage And I applaud your perseverance And I embrace you for your faith in the face of adversarial forces That I represent Self protection was in times of true danger Your best defense to mistrust and be wary Surrendering a feat of unequaled measure And I'm thrilled to let you in Overjoyed to be let in in kind I salute you for your courage And I commend you for your wisdom And I embrace you for your faith in the face of adversarial forces And I support you in your trusting And I applaud your perseverance And I'm amazed by your surrender in the face of threatening forces That I represent
Utopia We'd gather around All in a room Fasten our belts Engage in dialogue We'd all slow down Rest without guilt Not lie without fear Disagree sans jugement We would stay and respond and expand and include and allow and forgive and Enjoy and evolve and discern and inquire and accept and admit and divulge and Open and reach out and speak up This is utopia This is my utopia This is my ideal my end in sight Utopia This is my utopia This is my nirvana My ultimate We'd open our arms We'd all jump in We'd all coast down Into safety nets We would share and listen and support and welcome be propelled by passion not Invest in outcomes we would breathe and be charmed and amused by difference Be gentle and make room for every emotion This is utopia This is my utopia This is my ideal my end in sight Utopia This is my utopia This is my nirvana My ultimate We'd provide forums We'd all speak out We'd all be heard We'd all feel seen We'd rise post-obstacle more defined more grateful we would heal be humbled And be unstoppable we'd hold close and let go and know when to do which we'd Release and disarm and stand up and feel safe This is utopia This is my utopia This is my ideal my end in sight Utopia This is my utopia This is my nirvana My ultimate
Feast of scraps
Fear of Bliss ( Hands clean B-side )
My misery has enjoyed company And although I have ached I don't threaten anybody Sometimes I feel more bigness than I've shared with you Sometimes I wonder why I quell when I'm not required to I've tried to be small I've tried to be stunted I've tried roadblocks and all My happy endings prevented Sometimes I feel it's all just too big to be true I sabotage myself for fear of what my bigness could do Fear of bliss and fear of joyitude Fear of bigness (and ensuing solitude?) I could be golden I could be glowing I could be freedom But that could be boring Sometimes I feel this is too scary to be true I sabotage myself for fear of losing you This talk of liberation makes me want to go lie down Under the covers til the terror of the unknown is gone I could be full I could be thriving I could be shining Sounds isolating Sometimes I feel this is too good to be true I sabotage myself for fear of what my joy could do
Bent 4 U
( Hands clean B-side ) You're unsure and you're not ready so that must mean I want you You're unavailable and disinterested and to you I look for comfort A million times in a million ways I will try to change you A million months and a million days I'll try to somehow convince you I have waited for you and adjusted for you and I'm done I have deferred to you and enabled you and I'm done You're too young or you're too old or you're simply not inclined You're asleep or you're withholding be that my cue to crave you Several times in several ways I'll try to squeeze love from you Several hours and several ways I'll feast on scraps thrown from you I have bent for you and I've deprived for you and I'm done I have depressed for you and contorted for you and I'm done I have stifled for you and I've compromised for you and I'm done I have silenced for you and sacrificed for you and I'm done It won't be long before I am reclaimed It won't take long and I'll be on path again It won't be easy for us to disengage I'm at the end of self deprivation stage You're afraid of every woman afraid of your inner workings You cringe at the thought of living under the same roof as me god and everything A million times and a million ways I've tried to alter to match you Several times every several days I've tried to uncrush on you
SisterBlister ( Hands clean B-side )
You and me we're cut from the same cloth It seems to some we famously get along But you and me are strangers to each other Cuz you and me, competitive to the bone Such tragedy to trample on each other with how much we've endured With the state this land is in You and me feel joined by only gender We are not all for one and one for all Sister blister we fight to please the brothers We think their acceptance is how we win They're happy we're climbing over each other To beg the club of boys to let us in You and me estranged from the mother You and me have felt impotent in our skin You and me have taken it out on each other You and me disloyal to the feminine Such a pity to disavow each other with how far we've come With how strong we've been You and me are on this pendulum together You and me with scarcity still fueling Sister blister we fight to please the brothers We think their acceptance is how we win They're happy we're climbing over each other To beg the club of boys to let us in We may not have priorities same We may not even like each other We may not be hugely anti-men But such a cost to dishonor a sister You and me have made it harder for the other We forget how hard separatism has been You and me we can help change their minds together You and me in alignment until the end Sister blister we fight to please the brothers We think their acceptance is how we win They're happy we're climbing over each other To beg the club of boys to let us in
*** Thanx a lot to Sylvy for this one ***
Unprodigal Daugther
( Hands clean B-side )
*** Thanx a lot to Leticia for this one ***
So Called Chaos
Eight Easy Steps
How to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment How to defer to men in solve-able predicaments How to control someone to be a carbon copy of you How to have that not work and have them run away from you How to keep people at arm's length and never get too close How to mistrust the ones you supposedly love the most How to pretend you're fine and don't need help from anyone How to feel worthless unless you're serving or helping someone I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps A course of a lifetime you'll never forget I'll show you how to in eight easy steps I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best How to hate women when you're supposed to be a feminist How to play all pious when you're really a hypocrite How to hate god when you're a pray-er and a spiritualist How to sabotage your fantasies by fears of success I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps A course of a lifetime you'll never forget I'll show you how to in eight easy steps I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best I've been doing research for years I've been practicing my ass off I've been training my whole life for this moment I swear to you Culminating just to be this well-versed leader before you I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps A course of a lifetime you'll never forget I'll show you how to in eight easy steps I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best How to lie to yourself and thereby to everyone else How to keep smiling when you're thinking of killing yourself How to numb a la holic to avoid going within How to stay stuck in blue by blaming them for everything I'll teach you all this in eight easy steps A course of a lifetime you'll never forget I'll show you how to in eight easy steps I'll show you how leadership looks when taught by the best
Out Is Through
Every time you raise your voice I see the greener grass Every time you run for cover I see this pasture Every time we're in a funk I picture a different choice Anytime we're in a rut, this distant grandeur My tendency to want to do away feels natural My urgency to dream of softer places feels understandable but I know The only way out is through The faster we're in the better The only way out is through ultimately The only way out is through The only way we'll feel better The only way out is through ultimately Every time that I'm confused I think there must be easier ways Every time our horns are locked I'm towel throwing Every time we're at a loss we've bolted from difficulty Anytime we're in stalemate, a final bowing My tendency to want to hide away feels easier The immediacy of picturing another place, comforting to go but I know The only way out is through The faster we're in the better The only way out is through ultimately The only way out is through The only way we'll feel better The only way out is through ultimately We could just walk away and hide our heads in the sand We could just call it quits only to start all over again, with somebody else Every time we're stuck in struggle I'm down for the count that day Every time I dream of quick fix I'm assuaged Now I know it's hard when it's through and I'm damned if I don't, no quick fix way What formerly was treatment silent's now outdated My tendency to want to run feels unnatural now The urgency to want to give to you what I want most feels good and I know The only way out is through The faster we're in the better The only way out is through ultimately The only way out is through The only way we'll feel better The only way out is through ultimately
Excuses
Why no one will help me I'm too dumb I'm too smart They'll not understand me I'm lonely they'll hate me There is not enough time It's too hard to help me God wants me to work no resting no lazy These excuses how they've served me so well They've kept me safe they've kept me stuck They've kept me locked in my own cell I'm too far from home it takes far too much energy I cannot afford to, no one will ever see me These excuses how they've served me so well They've kept me safe they've kept me stuck They've kept me locked in my own cell These excuses how they're so familiar They've kept me blocked they've kept me small They've kept me safe inside my shell Bringing these into the light shakes their foundation and clears my sight Now my imagination is the only thing that limits the bar and its' rise to the heights No one can have it all see I have to, they want me to I can't let them down I will never be happy These excuses how they've served me so well They've kept me safe they've kept me stuck They've kept me locked in my own cell These excuses how they're so familiar They've kept me blocked they've kept me small They've kept me safe inside my shell back to track list Doth I Protest Too Much I'm not threatened by every pair of legs you watch go by I don't cringe when you stare at women it's just a thing called guy I don't notice your sideways glances or where your loyalty lies I'm secure and out of me it's hard to get a rise I'm not jealous I don't get moved by much I'm not enraged not insecure as such not going insane rational stays in touch Doth I protest too much I'm not tortured by how oft you're busy cuz I've got things to do I'm not disappointed about how you don't miss me cuz I don't need you to I'm not needy I don't get clingy much I am not scared I'm not afraid as such I'm not dependent Rock solid stays in touch Doth I protest too much So much energy to prove to you who I can't possibly be So much energy to prove to you I'm not who you hate for me to be I'm not saddened and I don't miss you cuz I have moved on too I'm not concerned about your new lover cuz I've a new lover too I'm not depressed I don't get down that much I'm not despondent I am not dark as such I'm never sad Keep chin up stays in touch Doth I protest too much
Doth I Protest Too Much
I'm not threatened by every pair of legs you watch go by I don't cringe when you stare at women it's just a thing called guy I don't notice your sideways glances or where your loyalty lies I'm secure and out of me it's hard to get a rise I'm not jealous I don't get moved by much I'm not enraged Not insecure as such Not going insane Rational stays in touch Doth I protest too much I'm not tortured by how oft you're busy cuz I've got things to do I'm not disappointed about how you don't miss me cuz I don't need you to I'm not needy I don't get clingy much I am not scared I'm not afraid as such I'm not dependent Rock solid stays in touch Doth I protest too much So much energy to prove to you who I can't possibly be So much energy to prove to you I'm not who you hate for me to be I'm not saddened and I don't miss you cuz I have moved on too I'm not concerned about your new lover cuz I've a new lover too I'm not depressed I don't get down that much I'm not despondent I am not dark as such I'm never sad Keep chin up stays in touch Doth I protest too much
Knees Of My Bees
We share a culture, same vernacular Love of physical humor and time spent alone You with your penchant for spontaneous advents For sticky unrests be unearthed and then gone You are a gift renaissance with a wink With tendencies for conversations that raise bars You are a sage who is fueled by compassion comes to nooks and crannies as balm for all scars You make the knees of my bees weak Tremble and buckle You make the knees of my bees weak You are a spirit that knows of no limit Who knows of no ceiling, who balks at dead ends You are a wordsmith who cares for his brothers Not seduced by illusion or fair weather friends You make the knees of my bees weak Tremble and buckle You make the knees of my bees weak You are a vision who lives by the signals of stomach and intuition as your guide You are sliver of god on a platter who walks what he talks And who cops when he's lied You make the knees of my bees weak Tremble and buckle You make the knees of my bees weak
Not All Me
I wear their face on top of my face I am the perfect target screen for your blindly-fueled rage I bear the brunt of your long-buried pain I don't mind helping you out but I want you to remember my name It's not all me It's not all my fault I may remind you But I won't take it all on Past-riddled rage I see the buttons I engage With my dignity in place I'm all too happy to assuage It's not all me It's not all my fault I may remind you But I won't take it all on Lest I find my voice find the strength to stand up to you Lest I state my limit and take on only what is mine to We are a team I'm here to help mend and re-seam All I trigger unknowingly a job I hold in high esteem It's not all me It's not all my fault I may remind you But I won't take it all on I'll take only some of it
So-Called Chaos
Deadlines and meetings and contracts all breached d-days and structure, responsibility Have to's and need to's, get to's by three Eleventh hours and upset employees I want to be naked running through the streets I want to invite this so-called chaos that you think I dare not be I want to be weightless flying through the air I want to drop all these limitations but the shoes upon my feet Heartburn and headaches and soon-to-be ulcers Compulsive yearnings non-stop to please others I want to be naked running through the streets I want to invite this so-called chaos that you think I dare not be I want to be weightless flying through the air I want to drop all these limitations but the shoes upon my feet All won't be lost if I'm governed by my own innate-ness The stoplights won't work, I'll get home sound and safe regardless won't be mayhem if I'm ruled by my own rule-lessness my fire won't quell and I'll be harm-free and distress-less (trust me) line-towing and helping, expectations-up-to living inside-box-obeying, inside-line-coloring I want to be naked running through the streets I want to invite this so-called chaos that you think I dare not be I want to be weightless flying through the air I want to drop all my limitations but the shoes upon my feet I want to be naked running through the streets I want to invite this so-called chaos that you think I dare not be I want to be weightless flying through the air I want to drop all these limitations and return to what I was born to be This Grudge
14 years 30 minutes 15 seconds I've held this grudge 11 songs 4 full journals, thoughts of punishment I've expended Not in contact not a letter such communication telepathic you've been vilified, used as fodder, you deserve a piece of every record But who's it hurting now? Who's the one that's stuck? Who's it torturing now, with an antique knot in her stomach I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released I want to forgive for the both of us Like an abandoned house dusty-covered furniture still intact If I visit it now, do I simply re-live it somehow gratuitous But who's still aching now? Who's tired of her own voice? Who's it weighing down with no gift from time of said healing I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old All this time i've not known how to rest this bygone I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released I want to forgive for the both of us Maybe as i cut the cord veils will lift from my eyes Maybe as i lay this to rest dead weight off my shoulders will rise Here i sit, much determined ever ill-equipped to draw this curtain How this has entertained, validated and has served me greatly ever the victim But who's done whining now? Who's ready to put down This load I've carried longer than I had cared to remember I want to be big and let go of this grudge that's grown old For the life of me I've not known how to rest this bygone I want to be soft and resolved clean of slate and released I want to forgive for the both of us
Spineless
I won't see my dear friends as much Male friends especially I'll no longer be in touch I'll change my hobbies to match yours I'll stop reading my favorite books I won't spend all this selfish time alone I'll cater to you and hang on your every word I'll be subservient and spineless I'll lick your boots as empty shell I'll be opinion-less and silent I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself I'll redefine self-sacrifice Live my life as apologetic compromise I know you'd leave if I rocked the boat I'll be subservient and spineless I'll lick your boots as empty shell I'll be opinion-less and silent I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself I feel this, truly proclaimed, will help the curbing of this tendency I know this sharing of shame will ensure that I won't forget myself so easily I'll be low maintenance and agreeable I will not talk about my dreams so much I'll listen to you for hours, won't need for anything I'll be subservient and spineless I'll lick your boots as empty shell I'll be opinion-less and silent I'll be the prettiest appendage to ever lose herself
Everything I can be an asshole of the grandest kind I can withhold like it's going out of style I can be the moodiest baby and you've never met anyones Who is as negative as I am sometimes I am the wisest woman you've ever met I am the kindest soul with whom you've connected I have the bravest heart that you've ever seen and you've never met anyone Who is as positive as I am sometimes You see everything you see every part You see all my light and you love my dark You dig everything of which I'm ashamed There's not anything to which you can't relate And you're still here I blame everyone else and not my own partaking My passive aggressive-ness can be devastating I'm terrified and mistrusting and you've never met anyone Who is as closed down as I am sometimes You see everything you see every part You see all my light and you love my dark You dig everything of which I'm ashamed There's not anything to which you can't relate And you're still here What I resist persists and speaks louder than i know What i resist you love no matter how low or high I go I am the funniest woman that you've ever known I am the dullest woman that you've ever known I'm the most gorgeous woman that you've ever known and you've never met anyone Who is as everything as I am sometimes You see everything you see every part You see all my light and you love my dark You dig everything of which I'm ashamed There's not anything to which you can't relate And you're still here
Flavors Of Entanglement
Citizen of The Planet I start up in the north I grow from special seed I sprinkle it with sensibility From French and Hungarian snow I linger in the sprouting Until my engine's full Then I move across the sea To European bliss To language of poets As I cut the cord of home I kiss my mother's mother Look to the horizon Wide eyed, new ground Humbled by my new surroundings I am a citizen of the planet My president is Kwan Yin My frontier is on an airplane My prisons : homes for rehabilitating Then I fly back to my nest I fly back with my nuclear But everything is different So I wait My yearn for home is broadened Patriotism expanded By callings from beyond So I pack my things Nothing precious All things sacred I am a citizen of the planet My laws are all of attraction My punishments are consequences Separating from source the original sin I am a citizen of the planet Democracy's kids are sovereign Where the teachers are the sages And pedestals fill with every parent And so the next few years are blurry The next decade's a flurry Of smells and tastes unknown Threads sewn straight through this fabric Through fields of every color One culture to another And I come alive And I get giddy And I am taken and globally naturalized I am a citizen of the planet From simple roots through high vision I am guarded by the angels And my body guides the direction I go in I am a citizen of the planet My favorite pastime edge stretching Besotten with human condition These ideals are borne from my deepest within
Underneath Look at us break our bonds in this kitchen Look at us rallying all our defenses Look at us waging war in our bedroom Look at us jumping ship in our dialogues There is no difference in what we're doing in here That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here Our underneath Look at us form our cliques in our sandbox Look at us micro kids with both our hearts blocked Look at us turned away from all the rough spots Look at dictatorship on my own block There is no difference in what we're doing in here That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here Our underneath How I've spun my wheels with carts before my horse When shine on the outside springs from the root Spotlight on these seeds of simpler reasons This core, born into form, starts in our living room There is no difference in what we're doing in here That doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages When we've the ultimate key to the cause right here Our underneath Straitjacket Something so benign for me construed as cruelty Such a difference between who I am and who you see Conclusions you come to of me routinely incorrect I don’t know who you’re talking to with such fucking disrespect This shit’s making me crazy The way you nullify what’s in my head You say one thing do another And argue that’s not what you did Your way’s making me mental How you filter as skewed interpret I swear you won’t be happy til I am bound in a straitjacket Talking with you's like talking to a sieve that can’t hear me Tou fight me tooth and nail to disavow what’s happening You're resistance to a mirror I feel screaming from your body One day i’ll introduce myself and you’ll see you’ve not yet met me This shit’s making me crazy The way you nullify what’s in my head You say one thing do another And argue that’s not what you did Your way’s making me mental How you filter as skewed interpret I swear you won’t be happy til I am bound in a straitjacket Grand dissonance The strings of my puppet are cut The end of an era Your discrediting’s lost my consent This shit’s making me crazy The way you nullify what’s in my head You say one thing do another And argue that’s not what you did Your way’s making me mental How you filter as skewed interpret I swear you won’t be happy til I am bound in a straitjacket
Versions of Violence Coercing or leaving Shutting down and punishing Running from rooms, Defending withholding, justifying These versions of violence Sometimes subtle sometimes clear And the ones that go unnoticed Still leave their mark once disappeared Diagnosing, analyzing Unsolicited advice Explaining and controlling Judging opining and meddling These versions of violence Sometimes subtle sometimes clear And the ones that go unnoticed Still leave their mark once disappeared This labeling This pointing This sensitive’s unraveling This sting i’ve been ignoring I feel it way down way down These versions of violence Sometimes subtle sometimes clear And the ones that go unnoticed Still leave their mark once disappeared These versions of violence Sometimes subtle sometimes clear And the ones that go unnoticed Still leave their mark once disappeared
Not as we Reborn and shivering Spat out on new terrain Unsure unconvincing This faint and shakey hour Day one day one start over again Step one step one I'm barely making sense for now I'm faking it til i'm pseudo making it From scratch begin again but this time "I as I" And not as we Gun shy and quivering Timid without a hand Feign brave with steel intent Little and hardly here Day one day one start over again Step one step one With not much making sense just yet I'm faking it til i'm pseudo making it From scratch begin again but this time "I as I" And not as we Eyes wet toward Wide open frayed If god's taking bets I pray he wants to lose Day one day one start over again Step one step one I'm barely making sense just yet I'm faking it til i'm pseudo making it From scratch begin again But this time "I as I" And not as we
In Praise of The Vulnerable Man You are the bravest man I’ve ever met You unreluctant at treacherous ledge You are the sexiest man I’ve ever been with You, never hotter than with armor spent When you do what you do to provide How you land in the soft as you fortify This is in praise of the vulnerable man Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home You, with your eyes mix strength with abandon You with your new kind of heroism And I bow and I bow down to you To the grace that it takes to melt on through This is in praise of the vulnerable man Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home This is a thank you for letting me in Indeed in praise of the vulnerable man You are the greatest man I’ve ever met You the stealth setter of new precedents And I vow and I vow to be true And I vow and I vow not to take advantage This is in praise of the vulnerable man Why won’t you lead the rest of your cavalry home This is a thank you for letting me in Indeed in praise of the vulnerable man Moratorium I've never been this accountable-less and within I've never known focuslessness on any form I've never had this lack of ache for dalliance To let go, and let god in ways I have never even imagined I’ve never let my grasp soften; fingers like this I’ve never been careless otherless like autonomy’s twin I declare a moratorium on things relationship I declare a respite from the toils of liaison I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement I declare a full time out from all things commitment Ah to breathe Stop looking outside Stop searching in corners of rooms Not my business or timing I’ve never known freedom from intertwining I start again this time for keeps, in my skin I’m residing I declare a moratorium on things relationship I declare a respite from the toils of liaison I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement I declare a full time out from all things commitment I declare a moratorium on things relationship I declare a respite from the toils of liaison I do need a breather from the flavors of entanglement I declare a full time out from all things commitment Torch I miss your smell and your style and your pure abiding way Miss your approach to life and your body in my bed Miss your take on anything and the music you would play Miss cracking up and wrestling and our debriefs at end of day These are things that I miss These are not times for the weak of heart These are the days of raw despondence I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this I miss your neck and your gait and your sharing what you write Miss you walking through the front door documentaries in your hand Miss traveling our traveling and your fun and charming friends Miss our big sur getaways and to watch you love my dogs These are things that I miss These are not times for the weak of heart These are the days of raw despondence I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this One step one prayer I soldier on Simulating moving on I miss your warmth and the thought of us bringing up our kids And the part of you that walks with your stick-tied handkerchief These are things that I miss These are not times for the weak of heart These are the days of raw despondence I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this These are things that I miss These are not times for the weak of heart These are the days of raw despondence I never dreamed I would have to lay down my torch for you like this
Giggling Again For No Reason I am driving in my car up highway one I left L.A. without telling anyone There were people who needed something from me But I am sure they’ll get along fine on their own Oh this state of ecstasy Nothing but road could ever give to me This liberty wind in my face And i’m giggling again for no reason I am dancing with my friends in elation We’ve taken adventures to new levels of fun I can feel the bones are smiling in my body I can see the meltings of inhibition Oh this state of ecstasy Nothing but road could ever give to me This liberty wind in my face And I’m giggling again for no reason I’m reeling jubilation Triumphant in delight I am at home in this high five And I’m smiling for no reason I am sitting at the set of cali sun We’ve gotten quiet for its’ last precious seconds I can feel the salt of the sea on my skin And we still hear the echoes of abandon Oh this state of ecstasy Nothing but net could ever give to me This liberty wind in my face And I’m giggling again for no reason Tapes "I am someone easy to leave" "Every easier to forget" A voice, if inaccurate Again: "I’m the one they all run from" Diatribes of clouded sun Someone help me find the pause button All these tapes in my head swirl around Keeping my vibe down All these thoughts in my head aren't my own Wreaking havoc "I’m too exhausting to be loved" "A volatile chemical" "Best to quarantine and cut off" All these tapes in my head swirl around Keeping my vibe down All these thoughts in my head aren't my own Wreaking havoc All these tapes in my head swirl around Keeping my vibe down All these thoughts in my head aren't my own Wreaking havoc "I’m but a thorn in your sweet side" "You are better off without me" "It’d be best to leave at once" All these tapes in my head swirl around Keeping my vibe down All these thoughts in my head aren't my own Wreaking havoc Incomplete One day ill find relief I’ll be arrived and I'll be a friend to my friends Who know how to be friends One day ill be at peace I’ll be enlightened and I'll be married with children And maybe adopt One day I will be healed I will gather my wounds Forge the end of tragic comedy I have been running so sweaty my whole life Urgent for a finish line And I have been missing the rapture this whole time Of being forever incomplete One day, my mind will retreat And ill know god and ill be constantly one With her night dusk and day One day ill be secure Like the women I see On their 30th anniversaries I have been running so sweaty my whole life Urgent for a finish line And I have been missing the rapture this whole time Of being forever incomplete Ever unfolding Ever expanding Ever adventurous and torturous But never done One day, I will speak freely I’ll be less afraid And measured outside of my poems And lyrics and art One day I will be faith-filled Ill be trusting and spacious authentic And grounded and whole I have been running so sweaty my whole life Urgent for a finish line And I have been missing the rapture this whole time Of being forever incomplete
Havoc and Bright Lights
Guardian You, you who has smiled when you’re in pain You who has soldiered through the profane They were distracted and shut down So why, why would you talk to me at all such words were dishonorable and in vain their promise as solid as a fog And where was your watchman then I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand The greatest honor of all, as your guardian Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin You, you in the chaos feigning sane You who has pushed beyond what’s humane Them as the ghostly tumbleweed And where was your watchman then I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand The greatest honor of all, as your guardian Now no more smiling mid-crestfall No more managing unmanageables No more holding still in the hailstorm Now enter your watchwoman I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand The greatest honor of all, as your guardian
Woman Down First woman down was your mother She did condone how you behave All you could see was your father His disrespect was in her face Next woman down was your sister Her silence did corroborate She took her cues from the climate And never knew another way Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin Who do you take me for Calling all woman haters We’ve lowered the bar on the Behavior that we will take, come on now Calling all lady haters Why must you vilify us Are you willing to clean the slate, woman down Next woman down was your lover She takes your spite at value face Even her hair length and color Gives you the impulse to repeat Who do you take me for Calling all woman haters We’ve lowered the bar on the Behavior that we will take, come on now Calling all lady haters Why must you vilify us Are you willing to clean the slate, woman down Next woman down is your daughter A stranger to being debased She has a new lease and limit On the abuse she’ll tolerate Who do you take me for Calling all woman haters We’ve lowered the bar on the Behavior that we will take, come on now Calling all lady haters Why must you vilify us Are you willing to clean the slate, woman down
'Til You I've been wasting time clawing my way to you Taking no prisoners with my romantic crimes I've been holding out imagining glimpses of you Holding my breath while you come down the pike Spinning my wheels 'round I’m here dodging bullets 'til you Ear to the ground while I’m dodging bullets 'til you Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin I've been taking notes, nursing the thought of you Research and develop as I’m biding my time I've been holding up this magnet that calls to you Entertaining myself with these consolation prizes Spinning my wheels 'round I'm here dodging bullets 'til you Ear to the ground while I’m dodging bullets 'til you They've been plenty fun, But mere placeholders for you They fill this dance card as you form in my mind Spinning my wheels 'round I'm here dodging bullets 'til you Ear to the ground I'm here dodging bullets 'til you Celebrity I have tasted stardom since before I breathed My well-known hungry daddy modelled it for me And I have never left this ambitious city And I've only known a lust for VIP I have studied long hard and how to proceed Nothing but my name in bright lights call to me I display the perfect amount of ennui I'll carve my face up if you'll indulge me Give me celebrity My kingdom to be famous Tell me who I have to be Starving to be famous Never wondered who's pulling strings above me ‘Cause I'm aware of wheels, heels and vintage Gucci I'm on my twentieth round of vitamin V I'll cut my weight in two if you'll have me Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin Give me celebrity My kingdom to be famous Tell me who I have to be Starving to be famous Let me into this exclusive club Ignore my not so hidden agenda I am a tattooed sexy dancing monkey Just aloof enough to get you to want me Hoping my persona ingratiates me Give my life for an opportunity Give me celebrity My kingdom to be famous Tell me who I have to be Starving to be famous Empathy There are so many parts that I have hidden and denied and lost There are so many ways that I have cut off my nose to spite my face There are so many colors that I still try to hide while I paint There are so many tunes that I secretly sing as I wait You come along and invite these parts out of hiding This invitation is one that I've stopped fighting... Thank you for seeing me I feel so less lonely Thank you for getting me I'm healed by your empathy Oh this intimacy There were so many times, thought I'd die not being truly known There've been so many moments, forever lonely in my vocation Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin You come along and celebrate each feeling And there you are all honor and inquiring... Thank you for seeing me I feel so less lonely Thank you for getting me I'm healed by your empathy Oh this intimacy There was a day where the trust that was being asked of me Required too much you see To accept your generosity And to know myself enough to let you help me Thank you for seeing me I feel so less lonely Thank you for getting me I'm healed by your empathy Oh this intimacy Lens You and I Are in the same room We both think we're fair We both live for 'truth' But then how are we to define Something so subjective Living under the same roof So here, these battles of wills They beg for some proof of right versus wrong Your approach seems better than mine Though it's working for you All I feel is disconnection So now it's your religion against my religion My humble opinion against yours This does not feel like love And it's your conviction against my conviction And I'd like to know what we'd see through the lens of love Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin And so now your grand assessment is that I'm not in your group That I'm not your kind And so we're locked in a stalemate With you in your corner, and me dismayed in mine So now it's your religion against my religion My humble opinion against yours This does not feel like love And it's your conviction against my conviction And I'd like to know what we'd see through the lens of love And this stance keeps us locked and both in gloves And this lie remains about us being separate So now it's your religion against my religion My humble opinion against yours This does not feel like love And it's your conviction against my conviction And I'd like to know what we'd see through the lens of love Spiral I could be day dreaming but for a moment And somehow they're creeping back in I could be sleeping and wake in a torrent Somehow I get caught in their grips again Here I am in my shame spiral I'm sucked into it again I reach out for your benevolent opinion And you bring the light back in Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin Don't leave me here with all these critical voices ‘Cause they do their best to bring me down When I'm alone with all these negative voices I will need your help to turn them down Turn them 'round I could be listening to a conversation A story I'm not even in These voices have their way when I am unguarded Suddenly I step in quicksand again Once again in my shame spiral I am glad that you've weighed in Don't leave me here with all these critical voices ‘Cause they do their best to bring me down When I'm alone with all these negative voices I will need your help to turn them down Turn them 'round All these judgments so incisive Voices left to their devices This woman's neuroses a desperate plea For slack to be cut to me, cut to me Don't leave me here with all these critical voices ‘Cause they do their best to bring me down When I'm alone with all these negative voices I will need your help to turn them down Turn them 'round Numb I feel smothered, and encumbered and defeated and drawn Disappointed, over-extended and frustrated And shaken This over-giving, over-loving, this caretaking Goes on With no chance of intermission, I'll be checked out, I'll be gone, How to remove myself from sensation Here comes a feeling I run from the feeling And reach for the drug, Can't sit with this feeling I'd rather be flying And comfortably numb Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin I feel anxious I am nervous I am bored, I'm overwhelmed, rather be out of my gourd How to remove myself from sensation Here comes a feeling I run from the feeling And reach for the drug, Can't sit with this feeling I'd rather be flying And comfortably numb I am lonely I feel hungry and unloved I feel angry I am livid need a hug Here comes a feeling I run from the feeling And reach for the drug, Can't sit with this feeling I'd rather be flying And comfortably numb Havoc Just when I thought I had handles on this I could soften my guard behind false confidence Just when I found humble pie insipid Exempt from this blind side and firmly in its grip ‘Cause I am seduced by reaction And under the influence I'm slipping again I’m up to old tricks off my wagon I have no defense I'm wreaking havoc Wreaking havoc and consequence I get reduced by my own wilfulness As I reach for my usual god replacements Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin ‘Cause I am rich with sanction And lax in my steps I'm slipping again I’m up to old tricks off my wagon I have no defense I'm wreaking havoc Wreaking havoc and consequence If forgiveness is understanding Then I offer mea culpa for the millionth time From this toppling house of cards of mine I am beaten by my impulsiveness By this uncanny foreshadowing of regret “Cause I'm repulsed by restriction At least that's my excuse I'm slipping again I’m up to old tricks off my wagon I have no defense I'm wreaking havoc Wreaking havoc and consequence Win & Wind In my old days, someone won Those were days of win-lose In those bleak times I was better I sat high, looking down my nose Change direction: looking up I'm not worthy to be with you We are separate I'm inferior I have yearnings to sit across from you Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin ‘Cause we're eye to eye We are win and win We are equal to each other We are flames of twin We are offspring of truth We are partner sister brother Both directions speak a lie Up or down, I can't feel you As we battle with our power We are separate, not looking across ‘Cause we're eye to eye We are win and win We are equal to each other We are flames of twin We are offspring of truth We are partner sister brother These delusions of our grandeur We are locked in the struggle These lies of status lower These conclusions we're in trouble ‘Cause we're eye to eye We are win and win We are equal to each other We are flames of twin We are offspring of truth We are partner sister brother Same value, same value... Receive I wake up and first thing's first: I'm of service I make sure your needs are met as a selfless I give hard and serve hard and now I, I need a break I give big I give all and now it's time regenerate Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin Today's all about me All about cup-filling Today's all about me Learning how, how to receive, how to receive I move on through offerings Often one-sided Being this low on list of worth: over extended I give hard provide hard and now I need some relief I look out I proffer and now I need some respite indeed Today's all about me All about cup-filling Today's all about me Learning how, how to receive, how to receive My habit to love you first and me: remainders Favoring you is so knee-jerk, leaves me a stranger I give hard impart hard and now I need to retreat I give out, dedicate and now I need to acknowledge me Today's all about me All about cup-filling Today's all about me Learning how, how to receive, how to receive Edge Of Evolution Here I leave my story I leave it in the dust Although this psychology's been entertaining enough Herein lies the witness objective with my stuff But we're ready to push envelopes into full blown consciousness Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin So here we go out here on the edge of evolution Numbers growing out here on the edge of evolution I have had my glimpses with and without substances I have had awakenings non-abiding for the most part And here we go out here on the edge of evolution Numbers growing out here on the edge of evolution In this sacred duality The highs and lows and the heres and theres These aversions and these cravings Push me beyond identity into pure awareness (We’re already here) And here we are out here on the edge of evolution We keep going out here on the edge of evolution Here we are out here on the edge of evolution We keep going out here on the edge of evolution Will You Be My Girlfriend I didn’t know how to ask Un-awkwardly I didn’t know how to broach it I haven't known how to do this informally Not cut out for dropping masks I guess I give and you give back Is that right Guess I listen and you give feedback Is that right I guess I call when I need help Is that right Will you be my girlfriend Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin I haven’t worn my heart on sleeves And been rewarded With and openheartedness I haven’t felt I had the right to Be supported With a golden tenderness I guess I risk and you risk back Is that right I guess I share and you share back Is that right Guess I uplift you when you crack Is that right Will you be my girlfriend Can I lean on your shoulder Would you join me in some pact Will you see me as your sister Can we love enough to offer that I guess I thought that you would laugh And be daunted And think me clingy and too much I thought this much too vulnerable And you'd not cut me slack And think me intolerable I guess I fall and you stay intact Is that right I guess you hear me and won’t attack me Is that right Guess I reach out and you reach back Is that right Will you be my girlfriend Guess I divulge and you wink back Is that right I guess you cry I pet your back Is that right I guess I text and you text back is that right Will you be my girlfriend Magical Child It's quite simple When I'm listening You keep leading me all the way home And these messages you've been offering As a magical child An essential child And it hinges on the driver's seat It depends on who's in control When I waver on the attuning I kill the magical child This essential child To thine own self be true To my core self be true When direction is confounding When vitality is fargone When the spark is out not inspiring I call the magical child The essential child To thine own self be true To my core self be true Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin When I'm lost and I'm unravelling When I'm off my track and I float When I need true north and some grounding I call the magical child The essential child This angelic child This innocent child To thine own self be true To my core self be true Angelic child Innocent Magical child Essential child
SUCH PRETTY FORKS IN THE ROAD Smiling This is a life of extremes Both sides are slippery and enticing These are my places off the rails And this my loose recollection of a falling I barely remember who I failed I was just trying to keep it together This is my first wave of my white flag This is the sound of me hitting bottom This my surrender, if that's what you call it In the anatomy of my crash And I keep on smiling Keep on moving Can't stand still Me, the notorious bottom dweller Me, the ceiling less brave explorer Lured to the ends of overwhelm This is my first wave of the white flag This is the sound of me hitting bottom This my surrender, if that's what I call it In the anatomy of my crash And I keep on smiling Keep on moving Can't stand still Such pretty forks in the road On this continuum I've been bouncing Life flashing promise before my eyes This is my first wave of the white flag This is the sound of me hitting bottom This my surrender, if I can bare it In the anatomy of my crash And I keep on smiling Keep on moving Can't stand still
Ablaze First thing that you'll notice is some separation from each other Yes it's a lie we've been believing since time immemorial There was an apple, there was a snake, there was division There was a split, there was a conflict in the fabric of life One became two and then everyone was out for themselves Everyone was pitted against each other; conflict ruled the realm All our devotions and temperaments are pulled from different wells We seem to easily forget we are made of the same cells To my boy, all that energy so vital Love your hues and your blues in equal measure Your comings and your goings-away My mission is to keep the light in your eyes ablaze Second thing you'll notice is that often we think that there's not enough It might feel dark, it might feel lonely and you wonder why you're here You may be overcome with darkness and a sense of hopelessness But it won't matter if you keep the core connected to the oneness To my girl, all your innocence and fire When you reach out, I am here hell or high water This nest is never going away My mission is to keep the light in your eyes ablaze And this cord is unbreakable This pilot light is there in your pocket And this bond, beyond unshakeable Even if we all forget All at the same time If we forget at the same time To my boy, my precious gentle warrior To your sweetness and your strength in exploring May this bond stay with you through all your days My mission is to keep the light in your eyes ablaze To my girls, all your innocence and fire When you reach out, I am here hell or high water This nest is never going away My mission is to keep the light in your eyes ablaze To my boy First thing that you'll notice is that everything is temporary To my girl Next thing you might notice is that we will always be family To my boy My mission is to keep the light in your eyes ablaze
Reasons I Drink These are the reasons I drink The reasons I tell everybody I'm fine even though I am not These are the reasons I overdo it I have been working since I can remember since I was single digits And now even though I've been busted I don't know where to draw the line 'cause that groove has gotten so deep And nothing can give reprieve like they do Nothing can give a break for this soldier like they do Here we are I feel such rapture and my comfort is so strong One more hit It feels so helpful in my need for respite And here are the reasons I eat Reasons I feel everything so deeply when I'm not medicated And so that's it, I am buying a Lamborghini To make up for these habits, to survive this sick industry And nothing can give reprieve like they do Nothing can give me a break from this torture like they do Here we are I feel such rapture and my comfort is so strong One more sip It feels so helpful in my need for some long overdue respite These are the reasons I don't even think I would quit These are the reasons I can't even see straight And these are the ones whom I know it so deeply affects And I am left wondering how I would function without it Here we are I feel such rapture and my comfort is so strong One more rip I go from one lilypad to another to stay lit
Diagnosis Call it what you want 'Cause I don't even care anymore Call me what you need to To make yourself comfortable I've not left the house in a while I've not felt a glimpse of ease And I have not made much headway Since I have come back from the war And I no longer give a damn 'Bout things that used to matter And I am covering my eyes As I am frozen on the spot And call it what you want 'Cause I don't even care anymore Call me what you need to To make yourself comfortable So I am debilitated I can't remember where the sentence started when I'm trying to finish it And all of you are so frustrated And everyone around me is trying to help as much as they can My house is spotless, my lens is skewed My limbs they recoil And I'm folding in on myself Since I am out of order Call it what you want 'Cause I don't even care anymore Call me what you want to To make yourself comfortable So I am debilitated I can't remember where the sentence started when I'm trying to finish it And all of you are so frustrated And everyone around me is trying to help as much as they can But I'm alone in this meltdown of nervousness diagnosis Call it what you want 'Cause I don't even care anymore Call me what you need to To make yourself comfortable So I am debilitated I can't remember where the sentence started when I'm trying to finish it All of you are so frustrated And everyone around me is trying to help as much as they can Call it what you want Call me what you need to To feel comfortable
Missing The Miracle You call it bright And I call it simple And somewhere in the middle is truth You see the hill And I see the castle Our front that was united is doomed, ooh You call this brick and mortar I call this sacred skin You see the figure skater I fear the ice is thin and The light is all around us But when we spar, it's dim We're right here in the middle Missing the miracle You see the cloud And I see the lining And somewhere in the middle is sun And you say it's greatness And I say bad timing And when we leave the ring, no one's won, ooh I go for the jugular You knock till you get in You hold the loud and raucous And I hear the dropping pin and You run all front and center I whisper paper thin We're right here in the middle Missing the miracle The winter gets long The rapids get white And what doesn't kill us Turns to grey You call this brick and mortar I call this sacred skin You see the figure skater and I fear the ice is thin and The light is all around us But when we spar it's dim We're right here in the middle Missing the miracle Missing the miracle (The light is all around us) Missing the miracle (The light is all around us) Missing the miracle Losing The Plot Welcome back insomnia Ushered back into silence only when everyone else is sleeping And 'cause the city is sleeping No one ruthless is rushing to get to the front of the line as usual 'Cause I am losing the plot I am grieving the end of superwoman-ing I have laid down my cape As though I haven't risen like a phoenix from a thousand deaths As though I have not been reborn to notice that My mission is not dead yet I'm exhausted midas Reigniting a hunger that typically fuels those of us Still searching for something outside ourselves 'Cause this city bears violence And everybody is rushing to sob at the podium And thank the ones who loved and exploited well I am losing the plot I am grieving the end of superwoman-ing I have laid down my cape As though I haven't risen like a phoenix from a thousand deaths As though I haven't been reborn to notice that my mission is not dead yet The light at the end of the tunnel The one I have always prayed for is a train At a hundred miles per hour And it promises to break my bones if I don't stand still Rip my heart out ambition mill or bust With my relevance in dust And I am losing the plot I am grieving the end of superwoman-ing I have laid down my cape As though I haven't risen like a phoenix from a thousand deaths As though I haven't been reborn to notice that my mission is not dead As though this fame and pressure has not been a vice around my head As though my heart has not kept all my cynicism under the mattress And I can't keep it up Though the fire is not out yet I am losing the plot
Reckoning Hey, hey, little wanderer You walked the fields with all the fences down You never knew the scent of the predator You didn't know the house was on fire And so you worked as you should While they prey'd on all you ached for And they pounced as they would While the guards were away Hey, hey, you maurauders You got away while they claim I'm a liar Why aren't the gods and heroes all around me And everyone's turning their eyes to the ground And so you strike while it's hot While the barricades are broken You attacked at your will While all the locks are frayed Hey, hey, you denier Finally everyone is gathering round me Now that we all know better you'll be haunted I hope you enjoy these drawings in your jail And so Brace, brace yourself For this reckoning day I was once at a loss Now I stand at the gate
Sandbox Love Catapult me out Of this fantasy It's never been mine It's always been yours Take me back in time Start all this from scratch Please go slowly 'Cause I'm apprehensive Into what really happened I try not to remember Here we go into the danger zone but this time with a friend Awkward as fuck Precious as fuck Scary as fuck Us in our sandbox Sandbox love I'm holding my breath Smoke came from these ears Said he can't control it That it was my fault Take me back to square one And clear this flashing back Please tread lightly 'Cause I'm an open affront Into what really happened I've tried to block it out and Here we go into the danger zone but this time with a friend Awkward as fuck Sexy as fuck Sacred as fuck Us in our sandbox, sandbox love 'Cause I have not been ready for this challenge My soul is shy when you ask for more contact I close my eyes and picture myself somewhere else Thanks for showing up Thanks for proving them all wrong 'Cause you are my love And you are not them Healing as fuck Playful as fuck Present as fuck Us in our sandbox Sandbox love Awkward as fuck Sweet as fuck Here as fuck Us in our sandbox Sandbox love Her I am on the floor I am in my kitchen This place is so familiar on my knees I can hear the footsteps I can see their back walking out I don't know who to reach for when I need And so I'll pray to Her today I ask for mercy and I beg for pauses ooh She's coming in warm all like Kali And coursing through my veins like liquid Mary She's not buying my shell She sees right through my armor She lingers in my shadows knowingly She treats them like they're angels And maybe they are angels really She beckons me to braver inquiry And so I pray to Her today I ask for mercy and I beg for patience, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh She's coming in hot all like Shakti And coursing through my veins like liquid Mary And even though she knows me well It doesn't mean it's easy to pull me out of my self-imposed hell She knows all of my secrets When I'm out of my body I'm starting to see outlines of her face She follows me when I run away And even when I cut her off She still says that she loves me, come what may And so I pray to Her today I ask for mercy and I beg for pauses, ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh She's coming in hot like all Kali And coursing through my veins like liquid Mary Nemesis So I opened the front door You walked in all handsome And ready for something you saw in my eyes Right here, we sat and we tripped out Saw celestial mosaics and I fell and I crawled over and held your hand And nobody worried about the roof being blown off So I went farther than I'd ever gone before Change, you are my nemesis Transition, I hold my breath This about-face, I'm excited I'm excited yet, I'm filled with despair anticipation and dread This metamorphosis closed the door and opened a window And so I climbed the stairs and bled And here was a starseed Right here he came to us in the bed in our bedroom And you trusted me enough To follow me anywhere Or the other way around The other way around as well And I blocked my nose and dove in the deep end And swam like my life depended on it and it did Change, you are my nemesis Transition, I hold my breath This about-face, I'm excited I'm excited yet I'm filled with despair anticipation and dread This metamorphosis closed the door and opened a window Right here In this very backyard We promised forever And we put our helmets on and threw the confetti And then there's the phone call Telling me to breathe in through my nose and out my mouth And out came our girl faster than we thought And now I am beyond recognition I guess that's a good thing And still, I want to go deeper Change, you are my nemesis Transition, I hold my breath This about-face, I'm excited I'm excited yet I'm filled with despair, anticipation and dread This metamorphosis closed the door and opened a window Pedestal I'm sure you've enjoyed the ride, who wouldn't I'm sure every perk has perked you up, how could it not And every opportunity through me helped you climb, didn't it Dropping my name blew doors open that were closed before And one day you'll see that you've never really seen me One day you'll find out that everything you dreamed of wasn't who stood before you One day I won't be craved the way you crave me now As this pedestal crumbles down And crashes me to the ground I'm sure you enjoyed my name, who wouldn't take advantage I'm sure you enjoyed this game and the proxy pride that you landed And everything vicarious seemed to build you up You grabbed my crown and got everything you wanted And one day you'll see that you've never really loved me One day you'll find out that everything you dreamed of wasn't who stood before you One day I won't be craved the way you crave me now As this pedestal crumbles down And crashes me to the ground You're left with a human being You're left with a fallible soul Oh, when the glitter falls I'm here and sometimes average, sometimes more When the glare of the lights grow dim And you're left with a delicate real When the bright lights clear, there's just me sitting here One day you'll see that you've never really seen me And one day you'll find out that everything you dreamed of, wasn't who stood before you One day I won't be craved the way you crave me now As this pedestal crumbles down As this pedestal crashes down Crashes me to the ground I hope you enjoyed the ride, who wouldn't Who wouldn't
Non Albums tracks
1974
( Live with Ryan Adams )
Ryan : I was born in 1974 on a calm meticulous street someplace in the sun oh the air was sweet and enough lights sprang sparks through the window of the room not as raw to a ridiculous tune slightly out of key in the mother hour Ryan & Alanis : So leave me alone So leave me alone So leave me alone I'm busy breaking bones Alanis : I was born in 1974 in a breached feet-first way my twin opened the door my very first dose of chivalry I was dawned princess potential potent with gold star and matching impression big between two doors small and loved and proud and unthreatened Ryan & Alanis : So leave me alone So leave me alone So leave me alone I'm busy breaking bones Ryan : I bet you were strong when you should have been weak like a dam that wanted to break I wish I were the stones your river learned to roam in whispering gaze Alanis : You were told in a kind North Carolinian way to slow down, back up, or be hated thank god you did not and thank god you did an angel either way Ryan & Alanis : So leave us alone So leave us alone So leave us alone We're busy being grown Alanis : November 5, 8:17 PM Scorpio & A gem Ryan : June 1st, 9:39 AM Gemini & A lullaby *** Thanx a lot to Dardo for this one ***
20/20 ( Flavors Of Entanglement Japanese Bonus Track ) I would never have been in such a rush I would never have tried to control I would never have worn such fear lenses I would never have held on so tightly I would have kept my boundaries set My loving no’s, my unwavering yes’s Risked abandonment and stood by that And thereby felt constant connect This fountain of regret, this looking back with 20/20 Torturous hindsight if I knew then what I know now This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding This wouldn’t have happened if I knew then what I know now I would have gone slower, pushed infrequent Would not have rushed into such commitment I would have shown restraint as my feet got wet I would have baby-stepped into intimate Oh this fountain of regret, this looking back with twenty/twenty This torturous hindsight if I knew then what I know now This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding This wouldn’t have happened if I knew then what I know now I would’ve known much more Known that time was all we had for future depth to unfold I would’ve had more faith at every step I would’ve kept intact through the whole process Oh this fountain of regret, this looking back with twenty/twenty Torturous hindsight if I knew then what I know now This mountain of remorse won’t repeat with my understanding This wouldn’t have happened if I knew then what I know now If I knew then what I know now If I knew then what I know now
A Year Like This One (Performed at the end of the Jagged Little Pill era)
After a year like this one I'm surprised I do not hate your guts And, After a year like this one I'm suprised I still love music just as much After a year like this one I'm suprised I did not eat my arm And, After a year like this one I'm sorry if I'm not cordial to everyone La la la la la .... After a year like this one I'm suprised I do not hate your guts And, After a year like this one I'm suprised I still love music just as much After a year like this one I'm suprised I did not eat my arm And, After a year like this one I'm sorry if I'm not cordial to everyone La, la, la, la, la..... After a year like this one I'm supised I am convinced at all And, After a year like this one I do not roll my eyes at the cynical And,After a year like this one I can't help wonder how they've been After a year like this one I think I'll leave it all to my next-of-kin La, la, la, la, la..... After a year like this one I'm suprised we're all not raving drunks and After a year like this one I want you to choose the restaurant After a year like this one I"ll need a good whole 16 months alone and After a year like this one I think I'll make the west coast beaches my new home La, la, la, la, la.....
Awakening Americans
( Hands clean B-side ) We watch movies of murder and we censor the breast Give thanks for the murders of Chris Columbus We kill our own and we vote for the men The lesser of evils and us starring the role of victim I wonder how we change if we can in this land I wonder how many mountains we'd move if we bent together Us priveleged Americans We pass our revisions onto the next generation We kneel to the Gods of corporation We eat when we're full and we hoard all the rest With our hands on remotes we say "Yes, We're the best" I wonder what we change in this land, cause we can Even with western centricity this rampant Us ugly Americans Tired are not my hands But see strangers and enemies as part of me, is real. For me this awakening Canadian We teach our offspring for themselves, every man We shrug shoulders and create yet another -ism We dissuade our young from using their imagination We avert our eyes from this our very own manifestation I wonder what will change in this land, cause we can I wonder how many mouths we'd fill if we band together Us awakening Americans
Basket Case (Green Day cover / Jimmy Kimmel Live!) Do you have the time To listen to me whine About nothing and everything All at once And I am one of those Melodramatic fools Neurotic to the bone No doubt about it Sometimes I give myself the creeps Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me It all keeps adding up I think I'm cracking up Am I just paranoid Or am I stoned Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin I went to a shrink To analyze my dreams She says it's lack of sex That's bringing me down I went to a whore He said my life's a bore So quit my whining 'cause It's bringing her down Sometimes I give myself the creeps Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me It all keeps adding up I think I'm cracking up Am I just paranoid Oh yeah yeah yeah Grasping to control So I better hold on Sometimes I give myself the creeps Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me It all keeps adding up I think I'm cracking up Am I just paranoid Or am I stoned Am I just paranoid Or am I stoned
Big Sur
( Havoc and Bright Lights Bonus Track ) Highway One Crystalline haunted sun With the pacific masculine crash My little one Enthralled by the redwoods As I ride amongst monarchs and mist Me and Anaïs and Henry and Jack Kerouac Me and the Ohlone, the Esselen and Salinan Me and Julia, Helmuth and Brautigan All roads lead to Big Sur All roads home to Big Sur Deep celestial and frogs Fritz and cabins of logs 'Mongst the springs we are barefoot and warm'd Me and Anaïs and Henry and Jack Kerouac Me and the Ohlone, the Esselen and Salinan Me and Julia, Helmut and Brautigan All roads lead to Big Sur All roads home to Big Sur I am climbing on the bluff Beseeching God to answer us Not much distracts from our shaman baker'y breakfast This water'y heartbeat by the forest Me and Anaïs and Henry and Jack Kerouac Me and the Ohlone, the Esselen and Salinan Me and Julia, Helmut and Brautigan All roads home to Big Sur Me and Mickey and a paths high on the Molera Me and Lolly and Bill watching a red-tailed hawk Me and the posts take it all in through the big Ventana. All roads lead to Big Sur All roads home to Big Sur
Break ( B-Side to In Praise of the Vulnerable Man EP ) Indeed I Have sucked it up to heights Unknown to those outside My body has contained and suppressed And swallowed and abetted Oh I Am a stranger to myself Beneath altruism dwells A force uncontended A voice that is tempered To boiled and unhindered Who am I kidding I am not some Mother Theresa If I don't say something soon I will break from the weight Of the high road I take No Indeed I Need my chance to fail Some room to unravel I need a chance to blame for two minutes Unbridled, unbrazened So I Need imaginings of maiming Fantasies of outright screaming I need a chance to thrash for minutes Uncontained, unforgiving Who am I kidding I am not some Mother Theresa If I don't do something soon I will die from restraint As a sick subjugate No I will move beyond, I'm certain of that The sooner I go the quicker I'll be back I would not threaten or cause you any harm Have to get this out or my light will go out Who am I kidding I am not some Mother Theresa If I don't do something soon I will die from restraint As a sick subjugate No
*** Thanx a lot to Irish_scott for this one ***
Crazy
( Seal Cover )
In a church, by the face, He talks about the people going under. Only child know... A man decides after seventy years That what he goes there for, is to unlock the door While those around him criticize and sleep And through a fractal on a breaking wall I see you my friend, and touch your face again Miracles will happen as we dream But we're never gonna survive, unless We get a little crazy No we're never gonna survive, unless We are a little... Crazy yellow people walking through my head One of them's got a gun, to shoot the other one And yet together they were friends at school Ohh get it, oh get it, oh get it, oh get it no no no ! If all were there when we first took the pill Then maybe, then maybe, then maybe, then maybe Miracles will happen as we speak But we're never gonna survive unless We get a little crazy No we're never gonna survive unless We are a little... crazy No no, never survive, unless we get a little bit... In a sky full of people Only some want to fly Isn't that crazy In a world full of people Only some want to fly Isn't that crazy, crazy In a heaven of people There's only some want to fly Ain't that crazy Oh babe, oh darling In a world full of people There's only some want to fly Isn't that crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy But we're never gonna survive unless, we get a little crazy No we're never gonna to survive unless we are a little crazy But we're never gonna survive unless, we get a little crazy No we're never gonna to survive unless, we are a little crazy No no, never survive unless we get a little bit... And then you see things The size of which you've never known before They'll break it someday Only child know Them things The size Of which you've never known before Someday, someway...
Death of Cinderella ( Live )
I'm wise and ambitious, And angry and free, And smart and available, And sexy... I'm soft and appealing, And wearing pajamas, And twisted and willing, And crazy... And this is the story of the death of Cinderella She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella Who can use her And it's all you could do not to throw her on the floor. And thought-provoking, And opinionated Cultured and funny, And experienced... Fearless and tender, And sweetly innocent, Uninhibited, Likes a good debate. And this is the story of the death of Cinderella She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella Who can use her And it's all you could do not to tie her to the bed. I could fall in love a million times before I die, You could draw me a bubble bath, We could walk into the sunset... And this is the story of the death of Cinderella She'd grow to be a maid if she couldn't find a fella Who can use her And it's all you could do not to throw her on the floor And this is the story of the death of Cinderella I'm gonna grow to be a maid and I'll never find a fella Who can use me And that's all you can do not to kick me in the ass. Don't Drink the Water
( With Dave Matthews Band )
(Dave) Come out, come out, no use in hiding Come now, come now, can you not see? There's no place here, what were you expecting? No room for both, just room for me So you will lay your arms down Yes I will call this home Away, away you have been banished Your land is gone and given me And here I will spread my wings Yes I will call this home What's that you say? You feel the right to remain? Then stay and I will bury you What's that you say? Your father's spirit still lives in this place, Well I will silence you Here's the hitch, your horse is leaving, Don't miss your boat, it's leaving now And as you go I will spread my wings Yes I will call this home I have no time to justify to you Fool you're blind, move aside for me All I can say to you, my new neighbor Is you must move on or I will bury you [chanting] Now as I rest my feet by this fire Those hands once warmed here But I have retired them I can breathe my own air And I can sleep more soundly Upon these pour souls I'll build heaven and call it home 'Cause you're all dead now. (Alanis) And I live with my justice And I live with my greedy need Oh I live with no mercy And I live with my frenzied feeding And I live with my hatred And I live with my jealousy Oh I live with the notion That I don't need anyone but me (Dave) Don't drink the water Don't drink the water Blood in the water Don't drink the water Don't drink the water Don't drink the water There's blood in the water Don't drink the water Blood in the water You'll all be dead
*** Thanx a lot to Magnus for this one ***
Fake Plastic Trees ( Live - Radiohead Cover ) Her green plastic watering can For her fake chinese rubber plant In the fake plastic earth That she bought from a rubber man In a town full of rubber plans To get rid of itself. It wears her out It wears her out It wears her out It wears her out She lives with a broken man, A cracked polystyreneman Who just crumbles and burns He used to do surgery For girls in the eighties But gravity always wins. And it wears him out It wears him out It wears him out It wears... She looks like the real thing. She tastes like the real thing, My fake plastic love But I can't help the feeling I could blow through the ceiling If I just turn and run. And it wears me out It wears me out It wears me out It wears me out If I could be who you wanted If I could be who you wanted All the time All the time.
*** Thanx to Joe who corrected some mistakes ***
Fate Stay with me (Alanis' First single when she was 10 years old) What did you think I'd be doing now While you left meI was thinking aloud Would there be no end to my sorrow Will I make it through tomorrow Fate Stay With Me Oh, Please Fate Stay with me, and guide me along my way There has been so many problems So please stay, please, stay Fate stay with me, will you help me on my way Will you end my troubles Will you please stay, please... I wanted money and hope and A dream to carry me forever This is all the hope I got left Help me to get it together, now I can sing or act or dance but I still won't get far Unless you help me please to be a big star Oh, Please Fate Stay with me, and guide me along my way There has been so many problems So please stay, please, stay Fate stay with me, will you help me on my way I don't want to be a queen, no, Or a princess with all my jewels, oh If you could guide me And you could help me But don't go too far, I just want to be a star Oh, Please Fate Stay with me, and guide me along my way There has been so many problems So please stay, please, stay Fate stay with me, will you help me on my way Yes guide me Forver guide me Will you stay with me and guide me along the way If I succeed because of you, fate my friend I'll be so happy
Find The Right Man You found the right man in the right place Once in a while you meet him face to face It was love at first sight Honey you've gotta fight For his love, for his love He feels the same way, I think you know it You can't be afraid to show it When will this hidden emotion Give you the notion To make the first move, make the first move You gotta get it straight Oh dear don't wait This might be your lucky day Don't say that there's no way Darling you just can't let him go Deep down in your heart you can't feel it all I'll be calling all there is For his love, for his love You know you can take his heart away Just look straight in his eyes And then you say Hey can't you just see We'll be great you and me Oh yeah, oh yeah You gotta get it straight Oh dear don't wait This might be your lucky day Don't say that there's no way You found the right man in the right place Once in a while you meet him face to face It was love at first sight Honey you've gotta fight For his love, for his love It was love at first sight Honey you've gotta fight For his love, for his love (repeat 2X until end)
Gorgeous ( Live )
Testostarone in large amounts Your Little sister just kick out of God you can't shave your head Come to the Show the boys rock harder Your mother lent you her slip She lent you her bright red lipstick And your shoes are hurting your back But boy don't you look gorgeaus You look gorgeous You look gorgeous You look gorgeous How you look gorgeous This is but an observation You put a bullet in your foot You make it hard for us bitches inconsequential in your back bends And your taste in men leaves something to de desired You love them to be aloof and self obsessed They love you in your mini dress You are looking gorgeous You're looking gorgeous You're looking gorgeous How you look gorgeous When your voice is raised above a certain level I'm afraid you must go to the ladies room I left your competence in curlers You look gorgeous You look gorgeous You're looking gorgeous How you look gorgeous
Guru
( Havoc and Bright Lights Bonus Track ) I started young I was enthralled By your agape As a student I kept going Colour me captured Disillusioned enough Needed your guidance And so I turned Over to you To lead me home And then I said Guru teacher Guruji I bow to you Humbled by your knowledgeable education Guruji I bow to the divine in you Please consider me your utmost humble student And so I fell Under your spell I was enraptured Your every word I held onto 'Til it was gospel You weren't deterred From your asserts We're identical I will admit I saw your face Inside my face And then I said Guru teacher Guruji I bow to you Humbled by your knowledgeable education Guruji I bow to the divine in you Please consider me your utmost humble student I give praise to the beautiful and glorious It's never too late, what I've learned is amorphous Thanks for the tip, your advice is important Never get lost in my North Star shine Inner bonding if things feel wrong GU is for the darkness and RU is for the light Eye to eye now, we bow, we face each other Respect given with balance for one another Continue religion with day to day basis Fundamental growth started with the basics It seems smarter than I thought I'd ever be Until you empowered me now I follow my epiphany Act low watching smoke rise from chimney Thanks for giving me a vision what I couldn't see Not every sign that I breathe will be the same as you On this pathway to trace living in the true You've had enough Of subservience And so you stopped me You saw my light Seen as your light Gave it back to me I eventually saw That your jewel Was in my pocket It had had been there The whole time Throughout my search And I finally saw Guru teacher Guruji I bow to you Humbled by your knowledgeable education Guruji I bow to the divine in you Please consider me your utmost humble student Guru teacher Guruji I bow to you Taken by your knowledgeable education Guruji I bow to the divine in you Thanks for pointing back to my inherent wisdom
Happiness is a Warm gun ( Live - Beatles Cover ) She's not a girl who misses much She's well acquainted with the touch of the velvet hand Like a lizard on a window pane The man in the crowd with the multi-colored mirrors On his hob-nailed boots Lying with his eyes while his hands Working over time A soap impression of his wife which he ate And donated to the Nation's Trust I need a fix cause I'm going down Down to the *itch that I left uptown I need a fix cause I'm going down Mother Superior jumped the gun Mother Superior jumped the gun Happiness is a warm gun Happiness is a warm gun When I hold you in my arms And I feel my finger on your trigger I know that nobody can do me no harm Happiness is a warm gun, mama Happiness is a warm gun
Happy Xmas (War Is Over) (John Lennon cover / Last Christmas EP) So this is Christmas And what have you done Another year over And a new one just begun And so this is Christmas I hope you have fun The near and the dear ones The old and the young A very Merry Christmas And a happy New Year Let's hope it's a good one Without any fear And so this is Christmas For weak and for strong For rich and the poor ones The road is so long And so happy Christmas For black and for white For yellow and red ones Let's stop all the fight A very Merry Christmas And a happy New Year Let's hope it's a good one Without any fear And so this is Christmas (war is over) And what have we done (if you want it) Another year over (war is over) And a new one just begun (now) And so happy Christmas (war is over) We hope you have fun (if you want it) The near and the dear ones (war is over) The old and the young (now) A very Merry Christmas And a happy New Year Let's hope it's a good one Without any fear War is over If you want it War is over Now
I don't know ( The weekend song ) Monday morning is not Monday morning 'till Taylor has his coffee Friday night is not Friday night 'till Jessie leaves the room sweaty Tuesday morning is not Tuesday morning 'till Nick has his talk with his son Thursday night is not Thursday night 'till Chris has sex with his bass Come on to the Weekend 'Cause the Weekend I'll get by Hold off 'till the Weekend 'Cause there's too much time bein' merrily nice guys Tuesday morning is Wednesday afternoon when you cry all night Wednesday early we fall into what I'll Phil-a-del-ph-i-a Thursday morning is not Thursday morning 'till one of us says How's your life How's your life? Yeah how's your life How's your life? Come on to the weekend 'Cause the weekend I'll get by Hold off 'till the weekend 'Cause there's too much time to think and not much time to cry Hold off 'till the weekend 'Cause the weekend we'll be high Hold off 'till the weekend 'Cause we may look tired, but we'll get by What if there were no more mama's boys What if no one shared their humble appearance What there were no consequences What if there were no more arguments Well that'd be a shame And that'd be impossible And you would be bored 'Cause you wouldn't want it any other way Hold on 'till the weekend 'Cause the weekend I'll get by Hold off 'till the weekend 'Cause we may look scared, but we're really nice guys Hold off 'till the weekend 'Cause the weekend I'll get high Hold off 'till the weekend 'Cause we may look strange but we surely will get by What if there were no more mama's boys What if we all had no thinking together Would that be a shame... And that'd be impossible 'Cause you would be bored 'Cause you wouldn't want it any other way
I Remain ( Prince of Persia: The Sands of Time OST ) How crass you stand before me with No blood to fuel your fame How dare you wield such flippancy Without requisite shame Your very existence Becomes my sacred mission's bane You bow to kiss my hand And I ignore ignited flame How I’m moved to meet you Untouched I do remain To some it seems foreign why I Would steely forge ahead This land entrusted to me knows Not of hallowed secrets I’ll keep it to myself While your brave eye swim in my head Your charm cannot distract me from The path I’m born to tread How I’m thrilled to know you Unaffected I remained How I’ve learned to like you Undeterred I do remain Less daunting as team And you, unlikely king by my side And me, so much better for trusting you My hand over your heart while you Keep hindrances at bay Colour me surprised by how our union saves the day How I’ve grown to need you As my soldier need fades How I love to love you And how loyal I remain I remain I remain I remain…
It's a Bitch to Grow Up ( Flavors Of Entanglement I-Tunes Exclusive ) It's been ten years of investment It's been one foot in and one out It's been four days of fodder shed (?) And I feel snuffed out It's been thirty three years of restraining Of trying to control this tumult How I did invest in such fantasy But my nervous system has worn out I feel done, I feel raked over coals And all that remains is the case That it's a bitch to grow up I've repeated this dance at Nauseum There's still something to learn that I've not I'm told to see this as divine perfection But my bones don't feel this perfection I feel done, I feel raked over coals And all that remains is the case That it's a bitch to grow up I've spent life hovering above bottom Thinking I can't survive what's below But I've known through the kicking and screaming That there was no other direction to go I feel done, I feel raked over coals And all that remains is the case That it's a bitch to grow up Keep the radio on
Can you relate to what it says The lyrics are straight from the heart The soul is expressed in the lyrics The virtues and vices are released Keep The Radio On, This song means so much to me Keep the Radio On, The words live right through me The lyrics are comforting Like I expressed them my self Keep The Radio on, the song speaks for itself. Why Can't You Relate To my way of thinking Why don't you understand All the things I am feeling I am not a stranger to opinions In fact i have my own I am no stranger to delusions Although you live through mine Keep The Radio On, This song means so much to me Keep the Radio On, The words live right through me The lyrics are comforting Like I expressed them my self Keep The Radio on, the song speaks for itself. Keep The Radio On Keep The Radio On The words have their meaning Keep The Radio On Can't you feel what they are saying Keep The Radio On Keep The Radio On, This song means so much to me Keep the Radio On, The words live right through me The lyrics are comforting Like I expressed them my self Keep The Radio on, the song speaks for itself.
King of intimidation ( Live )
Spoken : The women of this family seem to feel that they owe it to the men of the family to look relaxed, rested, and attractive at dinnertime. For you they live in a quiet monastery For you they wear whatever you want them to as long as it is short They count to ten when you tell them how to drive And when they're afraid they let you speak for them All hail the king of intimidation Model of good Christian behavior For you we wax, nostalgic and our legs For you we chew our nails if we had any left buy fake ones to do it We counted to 10 temporarily And it was somethin' about how you talk down to me All hail the king of intimidation Model of good Christian behavior The room of compromise is full, and apparently you don't want some, There's only so much we can do to make you rest assured I am single I am weary You're just jealous You're just confused You're just hungry You're in sin now You're not happy You are petty All hail the king of intimidation Model of good Christian behavior He knows not of what he has wrongly done Forgive his ignorant behavior You are tortured You are captured You are busted We were silent You were tested You knew better You are lonely Was it worth it? La,la,la *** Thanx to Mlp & Matthew & Jon who corrected some mistakes *** Last Christmas (Wham! cover / Last Christmas EP) Last Christmas, I gave you my heart But the very next day you gave it away This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special Last Christmas, I gave you my heart But the very next day you gave it away This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special (special) Once bitten and twice shy I keep my distance But you still catch my eye Tell me, baby Do you recognize me Well, it's been a year It doesn't surprise me "Happy Christmas", I wrapped it up and sent it With a note saying "I love you", I meant it Now I know what a fool I've been But if you kissed me now, I know you'd fool me again Last Christmas, I gave you my heart But the very next day you gave it away This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special (special) Oh oh baby A crowded room, friends with tired eyes I'm hiding from you and your soul of ice My god, I thought you were someone to rely on Me, I guess I was a shoulder to cry on A face on a lover with a fire in his heart A woman under cover, but you tore me apart Now I've found a real love, you'll never fool me again Last Christmas, I gave you my heart But the very next day you gave it away This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special (special, special) Last Christmas, I gave you my heart (I gave you my heart) But the very next day you gave it away (you gave it away) This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special (special) A face on a lover with a fire in his heart (I gave you my heart) A woman undercover, but you tore him apart Maybe next year I'll give it to someone I'll give it to someone special (special, special) Last Christmas, I gave you my heart (I gave you my heart) But the very next day you gave it away This year, to save me from tears I'll give it to someone special I'll give it to someone special Special
Let's do it ( The collection LP )
Birds do it, bees do it Even educated fleas do it Let's do it, let's fall in love In spain, the best upper sets do it Lithuanians and letts do it Let's do it, let's fall in love The dutch in old amsterdam do it Not to mention the finns Folks in siam do it Think of siamese twins Some argentines, without means, do it People say, in boston even beans do it Let's do it, let's fall in love Romantic sponges, they say, do it Oysters, down in oyster bay, do it Let's do it, let's fall in love Cold cape cod clams, against their wish, do it Even lazy jellyfish do it Let's do it, let's fall in love Electric eels, i might add, do it Though it shocks 'em, i know. Why ask if shad do it Waiter, bring me shad roe. In shallow shoals, english soles do it Goldfish, in the privacy of bowls, do it Let's do it, let's fall in love
Limbo no more
( Flavors Of Entanglement Deluxe Edition )
My house, my role My friends, my man My devotion to god All amorphous, indefinite Nothing's been clear Nothing's been in Nothing's felt true And I’ve never had both feet in Nothing's been long Nothing's been yes Nowhere's been home And I'm ready to be limbo no more My taste, my peers My identity, my affiliation All amorphous, indefinite Nothing's been clear Nothing's been in Nothing's felt true And I’ve never had both feet in Nothing's been long Nothing's been yes Nowhere's been home And I'm ready to be limbo no more I sit with filled frames And my books and my dogs at my feet My friends by my side My past in a heap Thrown out most of my things Only kept what I need to carve Something consistent and notably me Tattoo on my skin My teachers in heart My house is a home Something at last I can feel a part of Sense of myself My purpose is clear My roots in the ground Something at last I can feel a part of Something aligned To finally commit Somewhere I belong ‘Cause I'm ready to be limbo no more My wisdom applied A firm foundation A vow to myself ‘Cause I'm ready to be limbo no more
Little Drummer Boy (Traditional / Last Christmas EP) Come they told me Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum A newborn King to see Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum Our finest gifts we bring Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum To lay before the King Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum Rum-pum-pum-pum Rum-pum-pum-pum So to honor Him Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum When we come Little baby Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum I am a poor girl, too Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum I have no gift to bring Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum That's fit to give our King Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum Rum-pum-pum-pum Rum-pum-pum-pum Shall I play for you Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum On my drum Mary nodded Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum The ox and lamb kept time Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum I played my drum for Him Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum I played my best for Him Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum Rum-pum-pum-pum Rum-pum-pum-pum Then she smiled at me Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum Me and my drum She smiled at me Pa-rum-pum-pum-pum Me and my drum She smiled at me Me and my drum
London ( Live )
Boganvilia fall into the pool The hard shelled bugs bite my forearm My right index fingernail chewed to the quick My cervix is a long scalene My sprinklers go off at 6pm each day And sometimes they spray unsuspecting visitors My pimples are gooses all over my legs My brow is furrowed and my vision is blurred And how I do love London And how I do love London The birds make guttural sounds and protect me My friends come to visit and love me a lot I don't have the energy to fill this i am lagged from the jet and the 12 hour flight And how I do love London And how I do love London I am intriguied by the boys with the androdonus songs Sometimes they rhyme sometimes they rhyme not The steam will smell of eucalyptus in the shower The hug will feel forced upon you inconsolable thing And how I do love London And how I do love London Deep breaths will not make my brain stand still To be loved and swallowed are single and depraved I love speaking french to the taxi drivers We slept and were cold on the train out of france And how I do love London And how I do love London
** Thanx to Moo who corrected some mistakes **
Madness
I've been most unwilling To see this turmoil of mine The thought of sitting with this Has me paralyzed With this prolonged exposure To nearer and averted eyes I feigned that I've been waiting Such mileage for empathizing Now I see the madness in me Is brought out in the presence of you Now I know the madness lives on When you're not in the room (?) Though I'd love you to blame you for all I'd miss these moments of opportune You've simply brought this madness to light And I should thank you Oh, thank you Much thanks for this bird's eye view Oh, thank you For your most generous triggers It's been all too easy To cross my arms and roll my eyes The thought of dropping all arms Leaves me terrified Now I see the madness in me Is brought out in the presence of you Now I know the madness lives on When you're not in the room (?) Though I'd love you to blame you for all I'd miss these moments of opportune You've simply brought this madness to light And I should thank you Oh, thank you Much thanks for this bird's eye view Oh, thank you For your most generous triggers I'd have to give up knowing And give up being right You inadvertent hero You angel in disguise Now I see the madness in me Is brought out in the presence of you Now I know the madness lives on When you're not in the room (?) Though I'd love you to blame you for all I'd miss these moments of opportune You've simply brought this madness to light And I should thank you Oh, thank you Much thanks for this bird's eye view Oh, thank you For your most generous triggers
Movement I - Mercy ( Jonathan Elias's The Prayer Cycle ) We have slaughtered In the garden of beauty Digging graves instead of planting Mercy for the crucified A bitter justice Begging eternity for love We're nothing We're everything I am nothing Yet I am everybody We're nothing And yet we are Wisdom lights up life's road I know you Movement III - Hope ( Jonathan Elias's The Prayer Cycle ) Before my body dies I pray That the river I was born to May again wash over me By God's touch I pray That I may move from this consecrated Earth Into the next season A dark season Beyond the dying religions that Seduced us My soul will surrender And give in to grace Movement VI - Innocence ( Jonathan Elias's The Prayer Cycle ) By moon we gather For the ascension Great sky shelter us With your endless compassion Last survivor It is you who must pass Into the light of the new world Under a sky of innocence We are now all dying In a slow black rain Was it a failure Of man and angels Was it a failure of love From this human river Too cruel for winter Welcome to the gates A rehearsal for the silence Pray we do not enter Under a sky of innocence We bathe in the seduction Beautiful The light is unravelling now We open our arms to it It is close to ground zero I am no one Yet I am everyone We are nothing, but we are all When I am still, I am inspired We are not yet born Half sadness But half choice When I am still I can hear You speak most clearly Father can you help me For the ocean is big And my boat is small Find the courage Movement IX - Faith ( Jonathan Elias's The Prayer Cycle ) My unborn forgive me I only wish I had the strength To bring you into this world More faithful
My Humps ( Black Eyes Peas parody ) I drive these scrubber crazy I do it on the daily They treat me really nicely They buy me all these ice-ys Dolce & Gabbana Fendi and then Donna Caring, they be sharin' All their money got me wearin' fly My love, my love, my love You love my lady lumps My hump, my hump, my hump, my humps They got you What you gon' do with all that junk All that junk inside yo' trunk I'ma get, get, get, get you drunk Get you love drunk off my hump What you gonna do with all that ass All that ass inside them jeans I'm gonna make, make, make you scream Make you scream, make you scream They say I'm really sexy The boys they wanna sex me They always standin' next to me Always dancing next to me Tryin' a feel my hump, hump Lookin' at my lump, lump You can look but you can't touch it If you touch it I'ma start some drama You don't want no drama, No, no drama, no, no, no drama My hump, my hump, my hump, my hump My hump, my hump, my hump My lovely lady lumps My lovely lady lumps She's got me spendin' Spendin' all your money on me and spending time on me She's got me spendin' Spendin' all your money on me, up on me, uh oh me What you gon' do with all that junk All that junk inside that trunk I'ma get, get, get, get you drunk Get you love drunk off this hump What you gonna do wit all that breast All that breast inside that shirt I'ma make, make, make, make you work Make you work, work, make you work
*** Thanx a lot to Corqsan for this one ***
No ( Havoc And Bright Lights bonus track ) My mind is invaded My gates are ignored My thoughts are negated And you're on a roll And I am offended By your acts of shamelessness Your lack of conscience And your flagrant steamroll What part of no do you not understand Do you not understand What part of no do you not understand Do you not understand My sorrow is left off My rages discounted My fears are founded This dam is no more What part of no do you not understand Do you not understand What part of no do you not understand Do you not understand Don't touch me My body is frozen Thanks to you And I've sat with these secrets I'm no longer willing to What part of no do you not understand Do you not understand What part of no do you not understand Do you not understand
No Return (Craig Wedren & Anna Waronker cover / Yellowjackets OST) It was cool, nothing fire, nothing broke Keep simple, nothing tired, nothing old Same as you Same as you Oh so cute, so revival, so alone Birthday suit, just a smile, no one home Same as you Same as you No return, no return, no reason No return, no return, no reason Call your name on arrival, don't pass, go Lipstick stain on the rifle, blowing smoke Same as you Same as you No return, no return, no reason No return, no return, no reason No return, no return, no reason No return, no return, no reason No return, no return, no reason No return, no return, no reason No return, no return, no reason No return, no return, no reason No return, no return, no reason No return, no return, no reason
Norwegian Wood ( The Beatles Cover )
I once had a girl, or should i say, she once had me She showed me her room, is not it good, norwegian wood She asked me to stay and she told me to sit anywhere So i looked around and i noticed there wasn't a chair I sat on a rug, biding my time, drinking her wine We talked until two and then she said, "it's time for bed" She told me she worked in the morning and started to laugh I told her i didn't and crawled off to sleep in the bath And when i awoke i was alone, this bird had flown So i lit a fire, is not it good, norwegian wood
Olive Branch This is where righteousness ends It’s a relief to wave this overdue white flag and My blind spots have tortured you enough How much salt could I pour in To think that I called myself a friend And here is my olive branch I’m so sorry, mea culpa I’m reaching out to make amends I’m ready for the consequences It’s unnerving to admit I’m amazed that you have stood by all this time My defenses triggered you enough And all of this in retrospect I’m riddled with a deep regret And here is my olive branch And I’m so sorry And mea culpa I’m reaching out to make amends No pressure for you to let me in And here is my olive branch And I’m so sorry And mea culpa I’m reaching out to make amends If I had it to do over again Here is my olive branch And I’m so sorry
On the Tequila
( Flavors Of Entanglement Deluxe Edition ) Bring on the Tequila, oh On fire on Tequila, oh My friends and I meet hours before We make some home made pizza We do some funny bits back and forth My knees buckle I laugh so hard We might end three sheets to wind And who knows where we'll wind up All I know is there’s a car waiting And we’ll figure that out after I have to keep my eye on my old friend from high school We’ve known each other for the longest time She has trouble with her limits, so to speak She can hoist a really good kick in the butt when she's excited She doesn’t do it so much anymore ‘Cause we’re all on to her Bring on the Tequila, oh On fire on Tequila, oh Hostess most on Tequila, oh Bestest friends on Tequila, oh Then there’s my other pretty friend from high school The predator in me is put to shame by the predator in her And now I’ve reeled it in It’ll be interesting to see how much she’s done as well Then there’s my friend from Chigago God do I love all people from Chicago All ready to light up the barbeque And be harping on debauchery Bring on the Tequila, oh On fire on Tequila, oh Hostess most on Tequila, oh Bestest friends on Tequila, oh Then there’s my Canadian friend What a fabulous mom she’s become She’s been tortured in this sense for the last many of months for obvious reasons She was like "Hey where was this part of you when I wasn’t pregnant" I laughed and did a shot in her honour As I conversed with her belly Bring on the Tequila, oh On fire on Tequila, oh Hostess most on Tequila, oh Bestest friends on Tequila, oh Then there’s my Cupid friend She sure knows how to dress that one She’s a wise and worldly girl But you gotta watch that medication My favourite beverage is taken to a whole other level on it I’m not worried about it or I’ll coast around the room While I trust she’ll temper My brother came to visit me And now he’s used to hanging with me and cracking up But he had no idea about my built up tolerance No idea about how manipulative I’ve become I would surreptitiously put it in front of him without him asking In a pretty little shot glass His smirk and cackle would only egg me on Bring on the Tequila, oh On fire on Tequila, oh Hostess most on Tequila, oh Bestest friends on Tequila, oh
Orchid ( Flavors Of Entanglement Deluxe Edition ) Me, and my helmet Such an unconventional kid All intense and kinetic At best tolerated from afar Not yet arrested And by that I mean betrothed Though at start I am duly courted I've just not been trusted with alters I'm a sweet piece of work Well intentioned yet disturbed Wrongly labeled and underfed Treated like a rose as an orchid My friends as they weigh in Get understandably protective They have a hard time being objective So inside we cancel each other out I'm a sweet piece of work Well intentioned and unloved unlabeled and misunderstood Treated like a rose as an orchid You've brought water to me Making sure my bloom rebounds You know best of what my special care allows So I've lived in my blind spot Thought myself usual when I'm not And your garden is a nice spot As long as it is brave and where you are For this sweet piece of work High maintenance and deserted I've been different and deserving Treated like a rose as an orchid Sweet piece of work Overwhelmed unobserved I've been bowed down to but so misread Treated like a rose as an orchid
Permission
( Havoc and Bright Lights Bonus Track ) I've been a nice girl Offering much, grumbling low And I gave all, all that was asked of me When order was slow and vision was unrelenting I never stopped long enough To swim against the tides of old And I was single-minded too much To look toward this new true north So now Permission to be Permission to slow And do the only things that matter to me The freedom to flow To where genuine flows And do the only things that matter to me And sure, I've had my fun Played with my roles With time for a break hard-won But then after a while So much done by rote No longer by inspiration I never stopped long enough To see whose was this blind ambition And I was not sanctioned to stop And realise whose was this old mission So now Permission to be Permission to slow And do the only things that matter to me The freedom to flow To where genuine flows And do the only things that matter to me With this space by the dropping of reins This license to abate With this timely leeway So now Permission to be Permission to slow And do the only things that matter to me The freedom to flow To where genuine flows And do the only things that matter to me The simple things that matter to me The simple things that matter to me Permission to be, permission to slow
Pollyanna flower (through you I see us) Between a broken nose and a fake smile Between piety and gun powder Between fighting and fleeing the scene Between the murder and the normalacy Between aggression and oblivion Between the brutal and realistically well behaved Between the screaming and the pulling in the reins Between tiptoeing and ambling What am i to do with all this fire? (I'd like to hate you but I could never hate you) Why are you still with me in this red space? (I'd like to slap you but I could never slap you) Between violence and silently seething Between my fist and my pollyanna flower Between forgetting (or fuck you to) your face and it's alright Between war and denial (Twice) Between flying vases and secretly weeping Between loose cannons and ever down playing Between the bruises and the nobly differing Between bursting and boiling What am I to do with all this burning? (I'd like to hurt you but I could never hurt you) Do I overwhelm you in this place? (I'd like to kill you but I could never kill you) Between violence and silently seething Between my fist and my pollyanna flower Between forgetting (or fuck you to) your face and it's alright Between war and denial (Twice) What am i to do with all this fire? Can you understand me in this place?
** Thanx a lot to Rafael for this one ** Pray For Peace I pray for peace. They require me to kick into high gear. We may as well have our Ph.D.'s. Might we compose Was never taken into account. I pray they let out or talk it out. She would give me a wink across the room. I would've made a really good lawyer. I had a really good strategy For putting things back on the wall of the world. Thank God it was the goddamned wall. I would have to hide all my valuables. Who would calm my mother down? Who would calm me down once I talked her through it? My mother and I were the official peacemakers. It was a full-time job. I would send my mother directly to bed, yeah Don't collect 200. We'd talk about it till 5 A.M. When I'd come visiting her 5 years later. We would pray for peace. It was most comfortable and familiar. Question
( Unreleased tricky collaboration )
Alanis Morissette: I must be two lips I must be your sleep I must be blinded Keep it a question Keep it a question Keep it a question I must be spoiled I must be behind I must be asleep I must be fearful Keep it a question Love ain't a secret Keep it a question Keep it a question I must be two lips I must be your sleep I must plan to forget I must be suffering Keep it a question Letting nothing on Let's keep it a question Keep it a question Love ain't a secret Keep it a question Let it stop within Keep it a question
*** Thanx a lot to Elliott for this one ***
Rest All these relief-givers The needle sure revs in the red Chemicals like hugs from inside They feel like my best friend You think me a coward, but I am a warrior With many voices in my head When I looked around and I reached out I saw no alternative God rest, God rest our souls And this substance is the only comfort I know He's been pushing for a while Can we cut this man some slack Let him lie down, let him lie down We are a country desperate for the embryonic I'm cold and I'm hungry and I yearn for a hand on my forehead You think it's a walk in the park and it's easy "She's got it as good as it gets" This misunderstanding's the line between living Or being the walking dead And God rest, please, rest our souls And the more I take, the less comfort I know She's been pushing for a while Can we cut this woman slack Let her lie down, let her lie down The more that you hurl at me The more I will curl up in my bed Where's the humanity Aren't we all hovering around the same end Door number one, two and three have been promises That aren't real enough to be kept You wish me a speedy recovery But when you turn I plumb the depths And God rest, God, please, rest our souls This is the surest exit I have known We've been hurting for a while Can we cut ourselves some slack Let us lie down, let us lie down Let us lie down, let me lie down
Spoon
( from Dave Matthews Band's album:"Before these crowded streets") Dave : Spoon in spoon Stirring my coffee I thought of you And turned to the gate And on my way came Up with the answers I scratched my head And the answers were gone From hand to hand Wrist to the elbow Red blood sand Could Dad be God Crosses cross hung Out like a wet rag Forgive you why You hung me out to dry Maybe I'm crazy But laughing out loud Makes the pain pass by And maybe you're a little crazy But laughing out loud makes it all subside Holding, I'm holding I'm still falling I'm still falling Spoon in spoon Stirring my coffee I thought of this And turned to the gate But on my way Crack Lightning and thunder I hid my head And the storm slipped away Well maybe I'm crazy And laughing out loud Makes it all pass by And maybe you're a little crazy And laughing out loud Makes it all alright Laughing out loud Alanis : From time to time Minutes and hours Some move ahead while Some lag behind It's like the balloon that Rise and then vanish This drop of hope That falls from his eyes Dave : Spoon in spoon Stirring my coffee I think of this And turn to go away But as I walk There're voices behind me saying Sinners sin Come now and play Laughing out loud Come now and play
*** Thanx a lot to Kimsy for this one ***
Still
( Dogma Soundtrack )
I am the harm that you inflict I am your brilliance and frustration I'm the nuclear bombs if they're to hit I am your immaturity and your indignance I am your misfits and your praises I am your doubt and your conviction I am your charity and your rape I am your grasping and expectation I see you averting your glances I see you cheering on the war I see you ignoring your children And I love you still And I love you still I am your joy and your regret I am your fury and your elation I am your yearning and your sweat I am your faithless and your religion I see you altering history I see you abusing the land I see you and your selective amnesia And I love you still And I love you still Haya...haya...haya...haya... Background voices : I see you adverting your glances I see you cheering on war I see you ignoring your children And I love you still And I love you still, I see you altering history I see you abusing the land I see you and your selective amnesia And I love you still and I love you still I am your tragedy and your fortune I am your crisis and delight I am your profits and your prophets I am your art I am your bytes I am your death and your decisions I am your passion and your plights I am your sickness and convalescence I am your weapons and your light I see you holding your grudges I see you gunning them down I see you silencing your sisters And I love you still And I love you still I see you lie to your country I see you forcing them out I see you blaming each other And I love you still And I love you still Haya...haya...haya...haya... Background voices : I see you holding your grudges I see you gunning them down I see you silencing your sisters And I love you still And I love you still, I see you lie to your country I see you forcing them out I see you blaming each other And I love you still, and I love you still
Superstar Wonderful Weirdos (Demo - Made for Jagged Little Pill but not on the LP) Sarah's only 10 and she's attracted to older men And they seem to like her back 'Cause she's intelligent Billy's a football star And he drives around in his muscle car But he really really wants to be a ballerina And he wonders who am I? Who am I? And he wants to be a man But he doesn't understand It's alright to be what he wants I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos Can you hear me call tonight? I know you're alone in your world Full of fear though But the more you run the harder it is to hide Well, Jonny studies rockets With his plastic protected pockets so his pens don’t leak out upon the floor Where Jenny's rolling And she's scared of growing 'Cause she is 5 feet taller than the girl next door And she wonders who am I? What the hell am I? And she's got a lot to offer But she doesn’t look like Cindy Crawford And it makes her cry I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos Can you hear me call tonight? I know you're alone in your world Full of fear though But the more you run the harder it is to hide It's a total rejection of the system It's the honest opinion for the very first time It's a different position, of living And its time that you made up your minds I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos You're not alone tonight I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos Can you hear me call tonight? I know you're alone in your world Full of fear though But the more you run the harder it is to hide I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos Can you hear me call Can you hear me call tonight? I'm calling all Superstar Wonderful Weirdos
Symptoms
There are worse things I could do
( Grease / Live at Tinley Park) There are worse things I could do, than go with a boy or two Even though the neighborhood thinks I'm trashy and no good I suppose it could be true, but there are worse things I could do I could flirt with all the guys, smile at them and bat my eyes Press against them when we dance, make them think they stand a chance Then refuse to see it through, that's a thing I'd never do I could stay home every night, wait around for Mr. Right Take cold showers every day, and throw my life away On a dream that won't come true I could hurt someone like me, out of spite and jealously I don't steal and I don't lie, but I can feel and I can cry A fact I'll bet you never knew But to cry in front of you, that's the worst thing I could do
Unsent (Demo) Dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a relationship with someone right now and I respect that I would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future And you want to come visit me in california I would be open to spending time with you And finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song Dear eric I liked you too much I used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me And think solely about themselves and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time I used to say the more tragic the better the truth is whenever I think of the early 90's your face Comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday Dear terry I love you muchly you've been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available And supportive and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing you in And pushing you away I remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch And cry in front of you for the first time you were the best platform from which to jump Beyond myself what was wrong with me Dear marc you rocked my world you had a charismatic way about you with the women And you got me seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let me get away With kicking my own ass but I could never really feel relaxed and looked out for around You though and that stopped us from going any further than we did and it's kinda too bad Because we could've had much more fun Dear terrance you were an adventure besides being a few decades older than I was You used to write the most poetic loveletters and I still have them you were in And out of several marriages and you liked them young and naive so you could have The power and the dramas to feel fear I wonder what your wife thought of all of this Dear christian we learned so much I realize we won't be able to talk for some time And I understand that as I do you the long distance thing was the hardest and we did As well as we could we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives I will always Have your back and be curious about you about your career about your whereabouts Dear taylor I missed you a lot there was a period of time when I was too mad to even bring up Your name and it killed me to hear you discount the time we spent together I knew all along That we had different tastes in moderations and we couldn't hang out forever and while it lasted It was hilarious
Purgatorying
( There are different versions of this song. The words in brackets [ ] are the words as she sings them in the other version ) Intensate [entertain] me for the tenth hour in the row again Anesthetize me with your gossip and many random anecdotes Fill every hour with act timid to your ear candy Drop me off at intersections in any city metropolitan And keep me in this state And keep me purgatorying And sing [rock] me back to sleep This is far more than I have bargained for Start every week with a break-neck urgent design And end every speedday with my briefcase representing free time Spending my fruits, my purchases become my lifeline Please give my love to my family i'll doubtfully be home at christmas time Please leave me in this state Please keep me purgatorying I'll be damned if I'm to wake This is far more than I'm equipped for I've held you up like a dear As if [like] you're the sole owner of wings This unrequited tunnel of vision And I wonder why i've not been writing Please keep me in this state Please keep me purgatorying I'll be damned if I'm to wake This love is far more than I have bargained for I'll be damned if I'm to wake This is far more than I'm equipped for *** Thanx a lot to Sylvy for this one ***
What Child Is This (Traditional / Last Christmas EP) What child is this who lay to rest On Mary's lap is sleeping Whom angels greet with anthems sweet While shepherds watch are keeping This, this is Christ the King Whom shepherds guard and angels sing Haste, haste to bring Him laud The Babe, the Son of Mary So bring him incense, gold and myrrh Come peasant king to own him The king of kings salvation brings Let loving hearts enthrone Him Raise, raise the song on high The virgin sings her lullaby Joy, joy for Christ is born The Babe, the Son of Mary This, this is Christ the King Whom shepherds guard and angels sing Haste, haste to bring Him laud The Babe, the Son of Mary
Wunderkind ( From The film The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe ) Oh perilous place Walk backwards toward you Blink disbelieving eyes chilled to the bone Most visibly brave No apprehended bloom First to take this foot to virgin snow I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment I am a wunderkind oh I live the envelope pushed far enough to believe this I am a princess on the way to my throne Destined to serve Destined to roam Oh ominous place Spellbound and un-childproofed My least favorite chill to bear alone Compatriots in place They’d cringe if I told you Our best back pocket secret: our bond full blown I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment I am a wunderkind oh I am a pioneer naïve enough to believe this I am a princess on the way to my throne Destined to seek Destined to know Most beautiful place Reborn and blown off roof My view: about face weather, great will be done I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment I am a wunderkind oh I am a groundbreaker naïve enough to believe this I am a princess on the way to my throne I am a magnet for all kinds of deeper wonderment I am a wunderkind oh I am a joan of arc and smart enough to believe this I am a princess on the way to my throne Destined to reign, destined to roam Destined to reign….destined to roam…