B i o g r a p h y (by Official Site)
Seasons come, seasons go, but some things remain the same. The feeling of being out of season and out of step with the times, the surprise of first time experiences. All the things captured on Out Of Season, the album by Beth Gibbons and Paul Webb, aka Rustin' Man. You'll know Beth from Portishead and Paul from Talk Talk. They've been friends since before Beth joined Portishead when Beth had auditioned for Paul's post-Talk Talk band, O'rang. The pair kept in contact and at the end of the last Portishead tour a break for Beth arose and a conversation sparked the collaboration. On one level, Out Of Season is all you'd expect an album from the duo's background: exquisitely melodic, haunting, both three-in-the-morning air of calm and nape-hair-raising at the same time. With a spiritual depth, but palpably human emotion. With a definite feeling of sadness, but infused with the joy of nature ("God knows, how I adore life / When the wind turns on the shores lies another day" - 'Mysteries'). But then this is a different record to Portishead or Talk Talk. For one, it's 'beats'-free, and has more of a timeless, feel. Those who love Nick Drake, or Nina Simone, or even Radiohead's 'Exit Music (For a Film)' should unconditionally love Out Of Season. For Paul, the project meant he could record the album he had always wanted to make "With O'rang we always built tracks around drum improvisations. By the time it came to recording vocals the mood of the tracks was already fixed. With Beth's voice, however, it was possible to build up the atmosphere of the songs around the melody and the chords rather than being dictated to by a rhythm track" whilst for Beth "It was the chance to explore songwriting, to have another challenge. It was almost like a 'first time' vibe." It was even more 'first time' because they brought very little work with them. There were Beth's chords and melody for 'Mysteries', and Paul's lyric to 'Rustin Man', which subsequently became his alias "'Rustin Man' was one of the first tracks we finished, and it just seemed appropriate. It's that feeling of decay when the values you put on things have no relevance anymore because the world's moved to another place. The basic arrangements of the songs on the album could have been played in the 1940s and sounded pretty much the same. We emphasised this by committing all the music to tape." Paul says. When they started, the 'tape' concept was about the only ground rule. Beth: "I didn't want to imitate where I'd gone before so we went with what came out.
Obviously we can throw stuff out and go with what you think you're after, but the only thing we were after was something relatively honest." There are guest contributions too, drawn from their immediate band circles: Adrian Utley (guitar, and some co-producing) of Portishead and drummer Clive Deamer and pianist John Baggott from Portishead's live band alongside drummer and percussionist Lee Harris and Simon Edwards from Talk Talk. The album was mixed by Phill Brown, whose CV includes Talk Talk's Spirit Of Eden album alongside Jimi Hendrix and Bob Marley. Much of Out Of Season was written and conceived at their homes in the countryside in Devon and Essex with tracklaying in London studios Westside and Konk. The album's overriding mood is isolation both in time and place. Other references to nature and seasons can be found in 'Funny Time Of Year', 'Resolve') and 'Sand River': "Autumn leaves / beauty's got a hold of me." But that melancholic undertow isn't far away: "Autumn leaves / pretty as can be / everyone can see / everyone except me." "I do like sad songs," Beth says in their defence. "I find it really hard to write a happy song without it sounding somehow melancholic". The album title was Paul's "but Beth loved it. I think we both react against things around us, the feeling of isolation can be quite comforting"."The title seemed appropriate because Paul and I aren't youngsters, and for all the seasonal references," Beth contends. "The album's certainly not a fashion statement or something contemporary. It just seemed right." One inspiration for Beth, is that, while seasons stay the same, we nevertheless grow with age. "There's stuff there about getting older. I've only just realised my mortality. When you're younger, inevitably you don't see it as a reality, but it seems to be looming, and that's quite frightening - you realise how much you're going to miss people. 'Resolve' is very much about that." In case anyone thinks that a Beth/Paul project means that Portishead have split, Beth can confirm that she is currently working on vocals and melodies on tracks that Portishead's Geoff Barrow has recently sent her. Out Of Season, for now, is a one-off. A magnificent album, out of season perhaps, but totally of its time.
Mysteries Tom The Model Show Romance Sand River Spider Monkey Resolve Drake Funny Time Of Year Rustin Man
Black Sabbeth Candy says Lonely carousel Mother I Sober My secret Requiem for Anna
Out of season
Mysteries God knows how I adore life When the wind turns on the shores lies another day I cannot ask for more When the time bell blows my heart And I have scored a better day Well nobody made this war of mine And the moments that I enjoy A place of love and mystery I'll be there anytime Oh mysteries of love Where war is no more I'll be there anytime When the time bell blows my heart And I have scored a better day Well nobody made this war of mine And the moments that I enjoy A place of love and mystery I'll be there anytime Mysteries of love Where war is no more I'll be there anytime
*** Thanx a lot to heikki for this one ***
Tom the model How can I forget your tender smile Moments that I have shared with you Our hearts may break But they're on their way And there's nothing I can do Ohh... So do what you're gotta do And don't misunderstand me You know you don't ever have to worry 'bout me I'd do it again I can understand that it can't be Guess it's hard as you were meant for me But I can't hide my own despair I guess I never will Ohh... So do what you're gotta do And don't misunderstand me You know you don't ever have to worry 'bout me I'd do it again So tired of life No fairytale So hold your fire 'Cause I need you Ohh... Just do what you're gotta do And don't misunderstand me You know you don't ever have to worry 'bout me I'd do it again Do what you're gotta do And don't misunderstand me You keep going over every word that we've said But you don't have to worry About me *** Thanx a lot to heikki & Mike & Carla for this one ***
Show Let the show begin It's a sorry sight Let it all deceive Now I'm Pains in me that I've never found Let the show begin Let the clouds roll There's a life to be found in this world And now I see it's all but a game That we hope to achieve What we can What we will What we did suddenly But it's all just a show A time for us and the words we'll never know And daylight comes and fades with the tide And I'm here to stay But it's all just a show A time for us and the words we'll never know And daylight comes and fades with the tide I'm here to stay
*** Thanx a lot to Carla for this one ***
Romance
You know what they say about romance You know what they say about romance Ever changing love that you can't Keep on side a parking keel Better the thought than the feeling It's plain to see All the things we suffer From the the hands of humanity But that ain't me That ain't me But that ain't me That ain't me And I know there's a god inside it Should I love your key Adorn you And get inside But that ain't me That ain't me But that ain't me That ain't me And I know I may come to doubt it But if I ever wish I wish we could all believe That in this daylight world Is a world Where love can be And I won't ever forget it Cuz that ain't me That ain't me Cuz that ain't me Well that ain't me
*** Thanx a lot to heikki & Carla for this one ***
Sand River
Autumn leaves Beauty's got a hold on me Autumn leaves Pretty as can be Everybody knows this time Shadows are drifting in silence Where lost can't be found Everybody knows this time You'll get by Move it on and let fate decide And those water-coloured memories Soft as a summer's breeze You're as pretty as can be Knowing now you'll never fake it Whether my oceans divide I'll try to understand this But everybody knows this time Autumn leaves Beauty's got a hold on me Autumn leaves Pretty as can be Everyone can see Everyone except me Autumn leaves Beauty's got a hold on me Autumn leaves Pretty as can be Pretty as can be
*** Thanx a lot to heikki & Carla & Kris for this one ***
Spider Monkey
Time is but a memory The bitter note unsung Running Tryin' to find salvation From the sorrow that is done For the life of me Will the sorrow rise For this under Underlies all i see For time is but a memory Beautiful for some Feathered like a majorette In a rose unsaid and done Moments Like a rainbow coloured sky How they come and go They come and go but why For unknown Is our fortune And our fortune won't let go And our faith it will die with the sun It will lie Underneath All will see For time is but a memory Beautiful for some Feathered like a majorette In a rose unsaid and done But it's all All for our future And our future won't let go
*** Thanx a lot to Mike & Carla for this one ***
Resolve
Time rolls As days go by And now I've figured That I ain't gonna last Summer skies Are leaving me behind So resolve your loving said all I'll be lost when you're gone Blind me from keep Blind me Times told As days go by I still ponder this old question why But now I know There's no time to decide So resolve your loving said all I'll be lost when you're gone Blind me from keep Blind me And daylight knows How my eyes have tired Like the circles Life evermore will bear So resolve your loving said all I'll be lost when you're gone Blind me from keep Blind me
Drake
Turning now she caught his eye For all he knows he cannot see Pleasures smoulder inside Cover seasons that fell from view Long ago Blame on your heart But then you know that now What do you do You hide lies inside Why do you do that I don't know why How long did i know you For i don't know why you had to go If only you had told her The words to enfold her Long ago She took a breath and she never spoke The words that tasted like to know she told a matinee There was an odour/Unannounced anyway But you can take and you can see There's never enough of love for destiny Don't look back from day to day What i noticed wasn't me Strangers they'll part again They'll never know For all the years they've disguised inside Knowing their years of loss remain How long did i know you For i don't know why you had to go If only you had told her The words to enfold her Long ago
Funny Time of Year These silent words of conversation Hold me now this adulation See me now Oh it's easy now Falling like a silent paper Holding on to what may be And I only hear Only hear the rain And many rains turn to rivers Winter's here And there ain't nothing gonna change The winds are blowing telling me all I hear Oh it's a funny time of year There'll be no blossom on the trees Turning now I see no reason The voice of love so out of season I need you now But you can't see me now I'm travelling with no destination Still hanging on to what may be It's a funny time of year I can see There'll be no blossom on the trees And time spent cryin' has taken me in this year Oh it's a funny time of year There'll be no blossom on the trees Falling like a silent paper Holding on to what may be It's a funny time of year I can see There'll be no blossom on the trees And time spent cryin' has taken me in this year It's a funny time of year I can see no blossom no blossom on the trees Falling like a silent paper Holding on to what may be It's a funny time of year I can see There'll be no blossom on the trees And time spent cryin' has taken me in this year It's a funny time of year I can see no blossom no blossom on the trees
*** Thanx a lot to Carla for this one *** Rustin Man Oh Rustin Man I can't deny this is you again Little I know but how the hold is holding you Let's all decide the shame Many more were left to stay Many decided love was a game How many more days can we take in the hope of seeing you Oh Rustin Man I can't deny this is you again Little little little I know but how the hold is holding you Lets all get out of frame Oh Rustin Man I can't deny this is you again
I. Lento - Sostenuto Tranquillo Ma Cantabile Synku miły i wybrany Rozdziel z matką swoje rany; A wszakom cię, synku miły W swem sercu nosiła A takież tobie wiernie służyła Przemow k matce Bych się ucieszyła Bo już jidziesz ode mnie Moja nadzieja miła II. Lento E Largo - Tranquillissimo Mamo, nie płacz, nie Niebios Przeczysta Królowo Ty zawsze wspieraj mnie Zdrowaś Mario III. Lento - Cantabile Semplice Kajze mi sie podzioł Mój synocek miły? Pewnie go w powstaniu Złe wrogi zabiły Wy niedobrzy ludzie Dlo Boga świętego Cemuście zabili Synocka mojego? Zodnej jo podpory Juz nie byda miała Choć bych moje Stare ocy wypłakała Choćby z mych łez gorkich Drugo Odra była Jesce by synocka Mi nie ozywiła Lezy on tam w grobie A jo nie wiem kandy Choc sie opytuja Miedzy ludzmi wsandy Moze nieborocek Lezy kaj w dołecku A mógłby se lygać Na swoim przypiecku Ej, ćwierkeycie mu tam Wy ptosecki boze Kiedy mamulicka Znalezć go nie moze A ty, boze kwiecie Kwitnijze w około Niech sie synockowi Choć lezy wesoło
LIVES OUTGROWN Tell Me Who You Are Today If I could change the way I feel If I could make my body heal Free from all I hear inside All brought forward from my hand A pagan sorrow my command Here am I a lonely love Falling now Falling in Come over here Listen to me Tell me all you want to say Tell me who you are today Freedom from all I hear inside Come over here Listen to me Come over here Listen to me Come over here to me
Floating On A Moment On the path with my restless curiosity Beyond life, before me A passenger on no ordinary journey It's one of a kind Wont't get left behind I'm floating on a moment Don't know how long No one knows, no one can stay All going to nowhere (nowhere) All going, make no mistake Without control, I'm heading toward a boundary That divides us, reminds us Travelling on the voyage where the living They have never been, have never seen I'm floating on a moment Don't know how long No one knows, no one can stay All going to nowhere (nowhere) All going, make no mistake All trying, but can't escape All going to nowhere Too afraid to be freed Not that I don't want to return Not that I don't want to return (All going to nowhere, nowhere) Honestly It's not that I don't want to return (All going to nowhere, nowhere) Just reminds us Not that I don't want to return It just reminds us That all we have All we have is here and now (All going to nowhere, nowhere) That all we have is here and now (All going to nowhere, nowhere) All we have is here and now (All going to nowhere) It just reminds us That all we have is here and now (All going to nowhere)
Burden of Life The summer breeze, the days were long Meadow haze so callowly, those child eyes I used to feel the feelings Love that I once said I'd never rile The burden of life Just won't leave us alone And the time's never right When you're trading the soul All the love of generations Generations gone for reasons That I know But all the times I've lost my way Crept inside, tried not to sway Like pеbbles on the shore The burden of life Just won't leave us alone And the time's never right When we're trading the sun Burden of life So all the fire, the fear, the why The wisdom why you want it now No answers are there No answers of why 'Cause the burden of life Just won't leave us alone And the time's never right When you're losing a soul
Lost Changes Hey, you over there Change your heart instead of stare Feel alive, hold your own Forever ends, you will grow old You're gonna be Love changes, things change Is what changes things Time changes, life changes Is what changes things Hey, you over there Don't pretend you're unaware Realise the tenderness Appreciate the sweet caress 'Cause honеstly Love changes, things change Is what changеs things Time changes, life changes Is what changes things We're all lost together We're fooling each other We try but we just can't explain We took on a feeling A moment, a gleaming And said what's the game 'Cause love changes, things change Is what changes things And time changes, life changes Love changes things And all that I want you to want me The way that you used to And all that I want is to love you The way that I used to And all that I want you to want me The way that you used to And all that I want is to love you The way that I used to
Rewind Now that we have had our fun Time to recognize the damage done Feeling the fall of the beautiful Opened our eyes and it's begun And the wild has no more to give Gone too deep Gone too far to rewind Too far to rewind Empty with our possessions And trouble is we still feel unfed Hunting her down, sweet mother nature Til nothing left if this goes on And the wild has no more to give Makes no sense This place is out of control And we all know what's coming Gone too far Too far to rewind
Reaching Out You said you will You said you won't You can't tell if you don't You stand alone on your own Reaching out Holding on Now you will But then you don't You say you want to But now you won't You stand alone on your own Reaching out Holding on Where's the love, though Where's the feeling Where's the belief in the words we're breathing Why do you wander away from me Don't need no other Like I need you always I need you I need your love To silence all my shame I need you always The feeling of falling The shadow's a warning Wanting to quiet to tame this disorder But round in a circle you go Don't need no other Like I need you aways I need I need your love To silence all my shame I need you always So, please Don't misunderstand To silence all my shame I need you always I need you always Always Always Always Always
Oceans I fake in the morning, a stake to relieve I never noticed the pain I proceed 'Cause my heart is tired and worn Without any question, I tried to begin Tried to ignore that I might never win 'Cause my heart was tired and worn But I, will dive in the ocean On the floor, I'll gather my pride And I will seek to undress the answers On my knees, I'll look evermore 'Cause every time's taken, I'll never say Fooled ovulation, but no baby in me And my heart was tired and worn Reality fails me, it takes me so close I rеach out over, can't take anymore 'Causе my heart was tired and worn But I'll dive into the ocean On the floor, I'll gather my pride And I'll feel the length of emotion Underneath, not afraid anymore I can't hide from ever the answers I'm lost in the tide, just like Heaven's inside
For Sale The charms of illusion, they cut like a smile Erosion of reason, a path pathed to buy 'Cause the dreams are for sale from afar Smiling with white teeth the taste of ammonia The needle delusion, a choice made to fail 'Cause the dreams are for sale from afar Just ask yourself How would you want life to be Just ask yourself Would you choose love like me If we don't stop now Will we go too far If we don't stop now Will we go too far We believe if we stitch and cook it and rich it We'll all numb the pain that we need to fulfill it But the dreams are for sale from afar Don't pretend that you want What you don't want to give What you keep when you sow When you know you don't want it 'Cause the dream's only for sale from afar Just ask yourself How would you want life to be Just ask yourself Would you choose love like me If we don't stop now Will we go too far If we don't stop now Will we go too far
Beyond The Sun If I had known where I'd begun Would I still fear where I might end If I had known you from the start Would I still visit the place in the dark The place in the dark If I have spoken of a world I once was Words that I noticed when we're apart If I remembered a moment before Would I of risen not felt so unsure The loss of faith Filled with doubt No relied Can be found
Whispering Love Leaves of our tree of life Where the summer sun always Shines through the trees of wisdom Where the light is so pure Oh that summer sun Moon time will linger Through the melody Of life's shortening longing view Oh, whispering love Come to me When you can Far from our conscious mind Lie those fallow fields Where open hearts will wander Sweet whispering love Come to me When you can And they, they will run They will rise where they can Where they know they are safe to go Oh, whispering love Blow through my heart When you can
Non AlbumS Tracks
Black Sabbeth (Black Sabbath cover / Gonga feat. Beth Gibbons / Black Sabbeth EP) What is this that stands before me Figure in black which points at me Turn around quick and start to run Find out I'm the chosen one Oh no Big black shape with eyes of fire Telling people their desire Satan's sitting there, he's smiling Watches those flames get higher and higher Oh no, no, God, please, help me I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake Is it the end, my friend Satan's coming 'round the bend People running 'cause they're scared The people better go and beware No, no, please, no
Candy says
( Live Tour 2003 )
Candy says I've come to hate my body And all that it requires in this world Candy says I'd like to know completely What others so discretely talk about I'm gonna watch the blue birds fly Over my shoulder I'm gonna watch them pass me by Maybe when I'm older What do you think I'd see If I could walk away from me Candy says I hate the quiet places That cause the smallest taste of what will be Candy says I hate the big decisions That cause endless revisions in my mind I'm gonna watch the blue birds fly over my shoulder I'm gonna watch them pass me by Maybe when I'm older What do you think I'd see If I could walk away from me
Lonely carousel
( Rodrigo Leão Collaboration )
It's a look This game we play We can't escape We have to attend It's life you see When i have tried to amuse myself To celebrate the fun fair The pleasures i seek Are far too discrete for me And all the time The world unwinds I can't deny the way i feel The truth is lost beyond this lonely carousel And all these words They mean nothing at all Just a cruel remedy A strange tragedy Of what will be After i tried To discover the answers to why To look for a meaning Inside of this dreaming i had And words that i've said Are spinning 'round Waltzing alone inside my head Nothing will change It's always the same Please make it stop And all the time The world unwinds I can't deny the way i feel The truth is lost beyond this lonely carousel And all these words They mean nothing at all Just a cruel remedy A strange tragedy Of what will be And all the time The world unwinds I can't deny the way i feel The truth is lost beyond this carousel
*** Thanx a lot to Hitoame & Corqsan for this one ***
Mother I Sober (Kendrick Lamar feat. Beth Gibbons / Mr. Morale & The Big Steppers LP) Kendrick Lamar: I'm sensitive, I feel everything, I feel everybody One man standing on two words, heal everybody Transformation, then reciprocation, karma must return Heal myself, secrets that I hide, buried in these words Death threats, ego must die, but I let it purge Pacify, broken pieces of me, it was all a blur Mother cried, put they hands on her, it was family ties I heard it all, I should've grabbed a gun, but I was only five I still feel it weighing on my heart, my first tough decision In the shadows clinging to my soul as my only critic Where's my faith, told you I was Christian, but just not today I transformed, praying to the trees, God is taking shape My mother's mother followed me for years in her afterlife Staring at me on back of some buses, I wake up at night Loved her dearly, traded in my tears for a Range Rover Transformation, you ain't felt grief 'til you felt it sober Beth Gibbons: I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself Kendrick Lamar: I remember looking in the mirror knowing I was gifted Only child, me for seven years, everything for Christmas Family ties, they accused my cousin, "Did he touch you, Kendrick?" Never lied, but no one believed me when I said, "He didn't" Frozen moments, still holding on it, hard to trust myself I started rhyming, coping mechanisms to lift up myself Talked to my lawyer, told me not to be so hard on myself He has an aura, I hope to achieve, if I find some help Congratulations, made it to be famous, still I feel uneasy Water watching, live my life in nature, only thing relieves me Spirit guide whisper in my ear, tell me that she sees me "Did he touch you?", I said "no" again, still they didn't believe me Mother's brother said he got revenge for my mother's face Black and blue, the image of my queen that I can't erase 'Til this day can't look her in the eyes, pain is taking over Blame myself, you never felt guilt 'til you felt it sober Beth Gibbons: I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself Kendrick Lamar: I was never high, I was never drunk, never out my mind I need control, they handed me some smoke, but still I declined I did it sober sitting with myself, I went through all emotions No dependents, except for one, let me bring you closer Intoxicated, there's a lustful nature that I failed to mention Insecurities that I project, sleeping with other women Whitney's hurt, the purest soul I know, I found her in the kitchen Asking God, "Where did I lose myself? And can it be forgiven?" Broke me down, she looked me in my eyes, "Is there an addiction?" I said "no", but this time I lied, I knew that I can't fix it Pure soul, even in her pain, know she cared for me Gave me a number, said she recommended some therapy I asked my momma why she didn't believe me when I told her "no" I never knew she was violated in Chicago, I'm sympathetic Told me that she feared it happened to me for my protection Though it never happened, she wouldn't agree Now I'm affected, twenty years later trauma has resurfaced Amplified as I write this song, I shiver 'cause I'm nervous I was five, questioning myself, 'lone for many years Nothing's wrong, just results on how them questions made me feel I made it home, seven years of tour, chasing manhood But Whitney's gone, by time you hear this song, she did all she could All those women gave me superpowers, what I thought I lacked I pray our children don't inherit me and feelings I attract A conversation not being addressed in black families The devastation, haunting generations and humanity They raped our mothers, then they raped our sisters Then they made us watch, then made us rape each other Psychotic torture between our lives we ain't recovered Still living as victims in the public eyes who pledge allegiance Every other brother has been compromised I know the secrets, every other rapper sexually abused I see 'em daily burying they pain in chains and tattoos So listen close before you start to pass judgement on how he move Learn how he cope, whenever his uncle had to walk him from school His anger grows deep in misogyny This is post-traumatic black families and a sodomy, today is still active So I set free myself from all the guilt that I thought I made So I set free my mother all the hurt that she titled shame So I set free my cousin, chaotic for my mother's pain I hope Hykeem made you proud 'cause you ain't die in vain So I set free the power of Whitney, may she heal us all So I set free our children, may good karma keep them with God So I set free the hearts filled with hatred, keep our bodies sacred As I set free all you abusers, this is transformation Beth Gibbons: I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself I wish I was somebody Anybody but myself Whitney Alford: You did it I'm proud of you You broke a generational curse Say, "Thank you, dad" Baby's voice: Thank you, daddy Thank you, mommy Thank you, brother Mr. Morale Sam Dew: Before I go in fast asleep, love me for me I bare my soul and now we're free
My secret
( Beth Gibbons and Jane Birkin ) It's true, I can't hide, I only need you No more truth can i find With anyone else but you But, oh, my love, My heart won't break But, oh my god, How it has ached! And, oh, my love I know I can't escape The loss of your embrace. It's you that i feel I always want you... And my thoughts, so unreal With anyone else but you But, oh, my love, My heart won't break But, oh my god, How it has ached! And, oh, my love I know I can't escape The loss of your embrace. I may try to explain, But my life without you Just ain't the same. But, oh, my love, My heart won't break But, oh my god, How it has ached! And, oh, my love I know I can't escape The loss of your embrace
*** Thanx a lot to Casandra for this one ***
Requiem for Anna ( Monsieur Gainsbourg Revisited LP - 2006 )
A day like any other Where I am all alone Why Anna, Anna Are you all alone by yourself Are you all alone by yourself La la la la la la la la ... A day like any other He'd come to me to me I love you Anna, Anna Today everything will change Today everything will change La la la la la la la la ...