Emily Jane White Complete Lyrics Archive

B i o g r a p h y
(by Official Site)

Time moves slowly in Emily Jane White's hometown of Fort Bragg, California, where in place of big-city shocks of excitement there stretches one drawn-out, stable truth, quiet and unflinching. You will live, Fort Bragg says, and then you will also assuredly die. Given the setting of her misty, woodland upbringing on the Mendocino Coast, it could be said that optimistic melancholy and isolation don't merely suffuse Emily's music, these elements are in her bones. Emily's new album, Blood / Lines, is a collection of gorgeously dark song vignettes built on a foundation of reverbed emotion, rhythmic drive, and minor-key pop sensibility. Blood / Lines features less of the folk / rock minimalism that shaped Emily's previous works. She layers synthesizer, electric guitar and multiple tracks of ethereal vocals into nine heavily affected scenes. With the help of friends and collaborators Wainwright Hewlett, Shawn Alpay, Marissa Nadler, Nick Ott, and Darwin Meiners, her songs diversify with strings, backing vocals, bass, and heavy drums. Blood / Lines reveals loyalty to classic gothic motifs by moving through passion, anger, melancholy, destruction, isolation, romance, and abandonment. In the song “Wake” she laments, “Slaughter me / Slaughter you / Divinity is upon you / I take your hand / and I walk you out / I leave you now / to the frozen south,” emoting an icily sentimental suicide pact between lovers with a foreboding end. Emily's songwriting is at once generous and tough-minded, reflective and unsentimental. Her work possesses the confidence of a singular voice, inspired by the raveled threads of the uncanny in American culture, including depression-era blues and post-Victorian gothic literature. After releasing three albums in three years (“Dark Undercoat“, 2008; “Victorian America“, 2009; “Ode To Sentience“, 2010), she wrote over 100 sketches between January 2011 and October 2012. Blood / Lines is a selection from these songs. The setting of a secluded recording studio in Sonoma County, California, gave Emily the inspiration to explore new directions and to grasp creative control. Emily's work lives between genres. Doom folk? Gothic Americana? Introspective Victorian rock? Devotees of her previous releases will notice that Blood / Lines follows a similar genre-bending lyrical sensibility, but is musically much heavier and thicker in sound. Emily doesn't wallow in morbidity; instead she considers her work to be unifying, an empathetic reflection on the universality of adversity. In “The Roses”, she asserts sanguinely: “And with ill fate / We lay beneath / Oh that white cross / Bearing this loss / And I shall continue to make bouquets of roses from this fate.” Blood / Lines will take you through the most forbidding realms, always returning to a place of resurrection.

Bessie Smith

I said oh oh, Bessie Smith why do you hang your head so low
I would die in heaven just to meet your soul
I said oh oh, Bessie Smith why do you hang your head so low
I would die in heaven, I would die in heaven just to meet your

Shot to the ego boy it's where this knife runs through
Three wise men call Bessie down for a dual
Shot to the ego boy it's where this knife runs through
Three wise men call Bessie down for a dual.

I said oh oh, father lay me down
Down on this sunken ground
I said oh oh, father lay me down
Down on this sunken ground

But she's got a crucifix
Hiding way down in this pit, oh
If you wish to call her out
Call her with your bravest shout

I said oh oh, father lay me down
Down on this sunken ground
I said oh oh, father lay me down
Down on this sunken ground

I said oh oh Bessie Smith why do you hang your head so low
I would die in heaven, I would die in heaven
I would die in heaven just to meet your soul

Hole in the Middle

Everybody's got a little hole in the middle
Everybody does a little dance with the devil
And everybody's got a little hole in the middle
Everybody does a little dance with the devil

And you know I'm evil now
And you shout it loud and proud
Singing born in the U.S.A

And you know I'm evil now
And you shout it loud and proud
Singing born in the U.S.A

And I play with my voodoo doll
Stick those pins and drive them in
Singing born in the U.S.A

And I play with my voodoo doll
Stick those pins and drive them in
Singing born in the U.S.A

Oh and everybody's got a little hole in the middle
Everybody does a little dance with the devil
And everybody's got a little hole in the middle
Everybody does a little dance with the devil

And you know I'm evil now
And you shout it loud and proud
Singing born in the U.S.A

And you know I'm evil now
And you shout it loud and proud
Singing born in the U.S.A

Dark Undercoat

The axes who pacify with gold
And they walk right into town
And a man stood
He was brought back by lady luck

And he was so strong
And he was so strong
And he was so strong
He was so strong
He was so strong
He was strong

He said lady where's your dark undercoat
Then he rode away and he rode away and he died

Said I am not strong
And I am not wide
And I am not long
I am not strong
And I am not wide
I'm not long

Oh but if I was a deep bathtub would you sink down
To the bottom of my love
And if I was a deep bathtub would you sink down
To the bottom of my love

But I am not strong
And I am not wide
And I am not long
I am not strong
And I am not wide
And we are not tall

Oh cowboy ride the time
Ride it high with rhythm and rhyme
To the sound of a bleeding ghost train
And a needing, to let go, of tidal pain

He said lady where's your dark undercoat
Then he rode away and he rode away and he died

Said I am not strong
And I am not wide
And I am not long
I am not strong
And I am not wide
And we are not tall

Oh but if I was a deep bathtub would you sink down
To the bottom of my love
And if I was a deep bathtub would you sink down
To the bottom of my love

But I am not strong
And I am not wide
And I am not long
I am not strong
And I am not wide
And we are not tall

Oh cowboy ride the time
Ride it high with rhythm and rhyme
To the sound of a bleeding ghost train
And a needing, to let go, of tidal pain
And a needing, to let go, of tidal pain

Dagger

Oh when you stumble
Every time you walk
Oh when you stutter
Every time you talk, hey

Don't look back
Don't look back

Your legs are no longer
But you walk just the same
Your charm is a pleasure
Yet an ever changing cage, hey

It's like I walked into a dagger
Took a step back
You turned around
And didn't look back, hey

I'm a rusty nail, you're an iron maid
You closed the coffin on everything I've saved
A red petal fallen, onto a concrete mass
A dark memento, every time you pass, hey

Please, walk back to me
Because three kings are all I see

Red, White, fire in the night
Where are you going, dressed so well
Blue, White, fire in the night
Where are you going, dressed like hell

Please, walk back to me
'Cause, three kings are all I see

Time On Your Side

He drives a truck
And it makes time on his side
The water splashes from his flaps for miles, and
Three a.m., on the I-5
In the dark, as he moves away, hey hey

Not much to do when you've got time on your side
You sit and think about your wasted life
I try to move, change things through and through, oh oh

Why does your face grow so long my dear
And, why did your hair grow so long this year
Why does your face grow so long my dear
And, why did your hair grow so long this year
Oh, and so long, so long, this year

She's a dancer when she dances she is free, and
Three in the mornin' the clouds rise in the east to
Frank Sinatra which her parents put on repeat
On repeat

The Demon

If there was a demon would you hold her
And be a nurse by her side
I'll take a corset of your words
Tie them up high, and bind them

You seem like you've always been
Wrote a book that's already been read

And if there was a beast would you hold him
And be a doctor by his side
He'll take the drugs that you've stolen
You'll be drunk on electric wine
Oh this town you've never seen before
There's always big guns at your door
The sentiment of class is blood born

I'd like to write a song for you
With arms wide open the way I do
And I'd like to tell the truth to you
Shot through the chest the way I do

If there was a demon would you hold her
And be a nurse by her side
I'll take a corset of your words
tie them up high and bind them

Sleeping Dead

Hang on, hang on, hang on
I saw a flash in the night
Knocked me out alright

Hang on, hang on, hang on
I saw a flash in the night
Shot me down alright

I had a dream last night
I had a dream last night
I had a dream last night
That there were ravens above my bed
And they took my newlywed

'Cause we're all sleeping dead
Hangin' onto your sleepy bed
Oh I'd rather be dreamin' instead

'Cause we're all sleeping dead
Hangin' onto your sleepy bed
Oh, I'd rather be dreamin' instead

Hang on, hang on, hang on
I saw a flash in the night
Shot me down alright
Hang on, hang on, hang on
I saw a flash in the night
Knocked me out alright

I had a dream last night
I had a dream last night
I had a dream last night
That there were ravens above my bed
And they took my newlywed

Mother won't you please bury me alive
Down in the coffin, with my wife
Mother won't you please bury me alive
Down in the coffin with my wife

Mother won't you please bury me a live
Down in the coffin with my wife
Cause there were ravens above my bed
And they took my newlywed

Cause we're all sleeping dead
Hangin' onto your sleepy bed
Oh I'd rather be dreamin' instead
Cause we're all sleeping dead

Hangin' onto your sleepy bed
Oh, I'd rather be dreamin' instead
Oh I'd rather, be dreamin' instead
Oh I'd rather, be dreamin' instead

Blue

Blue, so blue
Was your love, that I held and pursued
And true, so true, the black hand
Oh it takes you back

And you turn to a figure
In the light, no wait but you turn back

And we danced in diamond dust
Oh and we danced in diamond dust

Oh Black, oh black, and blue, I was when I left you
A figment, of the past, a battered highway
Cow skulls marking death
Baby's breath and dried misery
You left on my door

And we danced so hard, that the cold, cold black rain fell
And the blood on the ground, on the ground, washed away
And your body was gone, and it left no trace
But a trail of ash has led me to this dark place

Did you see in the way that she did run run
Faster than anyone
Away from that snake eyed mule of a man
Yes you can, yes you can, yes you can
Yes you can, yes you can, yes you can

Blue, so blue
Was your love, that I held and pursued
And true, so true, the black hand
Oh it takes you back

Wild Tigers I Have Known

Silence is a power and tool, for you, for you
Wild Tigers I Have Known, they see me down, messin' around
You keep your heart from your chest
It'll be gone, just like the rest
Cause it's a man's world, say all the right words, and hold your heart from your chest
The silence and the call, and their beauty, stands right and still for you

Holding flames holding hands and hearts, and their bindings held tightly
Lyin' in the shady grass, their teeth grinding, insight is foreign
Cause it's the magic hand, that holds you gently, and turns one into man
And their insight is bloody, to reach boldy, for truth spoken from mouth in his name

There will be wise men singin', bringing you luck now
There will be wise men singin', bringing you luck now
There will be wise men, singin' bringing you luck, bringing you luck

Now it's the precious end of time, hand in pocket, bright light
Wild tigers I have known, they see me down messin' around

Two Shots to the Head

I don't wanna break my back
You seem so funny when
Nothing's going on

I know you'll drive away
Out of here I know you will
Always be

'Cause I really loved you
You know I did
Told you over and over again
'Cause I know you'll drive away
Out of here I know you will, always be

Two shots to the head
Now you're running, running fast
Two shots to the head
Now you're running, running fast

Cast a shadow on your grave
Hold the flowers to your name
Cast a shadow on your grave
Hold the flowers to your name

I don't wanna break my back
You seem so funny when
Nothing's going on

I know you'll drive away
Out of here I know you will
Always be

'Cause I really loved you
You know I did
Told you over and over again
'Cause I know you'll drive away
Out of here I know you will, always be

Two shots to the head
Now you're running, running fast
Two shots to the head
Now you're running, running fast

Cast a shadow on your grave
Hold the flowers to your name
Cast a shadow on your grave
Hold the flowers to your name

( UK bonus track version )

With robotic arms
He held them up to my leg
With robotic eyes
And in stereo
I felt the weight of his hands
It was the bottom line

Make me now
Scream out loud
Mama when you're done
Go on, go on, go on
Make me proud

Heart of glass
He had a heart of glass
Why do you always look
To where the people sighs

I took down the sky
With a net
Mama when you're done
Gonna to bury me just yet

I took down the sky
With a net
Mama when you're done
Gonna bury me just yet

Heart attack
Heart attack
When do you always turn to black
When things go bad

With chemical arms
He held them up to my gaze
With chemical eyes
And there was vertigo
With the weight of his body
Next to mine

Never Dead

Sun
Morning sun
Never dead
On the horizon

I'm done with night, I'm done with black
And please morning come to me
Just last night bad news it blew right through me

Come
Friendship come
Never dead
Perhaps just neglected

Oh dear God, he took himself out so coldly
He said that the world expects too much
Too much from me

Oh in the way it felt honestly
And oh, how those trains pass so quickly
And I never saw it, coming round the bend
No regret in the end

Gone
Are you truly gone
But you're never dead
Perhaps just connected

To something like the wind that passes through me
And the wind translates your whispering oh for me
Just last night bad news was given to me
And this fact is still too new, too new for me

Stairs

Mama don't leave, mama don't stay
We don't know what game to play
This baby calf fell to earth
We don't know just what she's worth

Mama don't leave, mama don't stay
We don't know what game to play
This baby calf tell to earth
We don't know just what she's worth

At the top of the stairs, with a crash she hit the ground
She fell backwards, backwards without a sound
Backwards without a sound

With a backhand at night, with a crash she hit the ground
She fell backwards, backwards without a sound
Backwards without a sound

Until she hit the ground
Until she hit the ground

Oh leave me here to stay
Oh I was meant to die this way
Oh leave me here to stay
Oh I was meant to die this way

And the wind rolled, and the rain came
And we all know, it was not her way
And the wind rolled, and the rain came
And we all know, it was not my way

Oh Katherine, are you in heaven now
Oh my Katherine, are you in heaven now
Oh sweet Katherine, are you in heaven now
Oh my Katherine, are you in heaven now

'Cause I was once just like you
And how it grew and how it grew
All these dreams of human beings
And all these wells, all these springs
I just don't know what to do, what to do
What to do

Mama don't leave, mama don't stay
We don't know what game to play
This baby calf fell to earth
We don't know just what she's worth

Victorian America

Women at home in Victorian America
Women at home in Victorian America
I lost my lamp in Victorian America
It was the brightest, light I'd ever see

She lost her home in Victorian America
It was the biggest thing she's ever known
And it was there, she lost hope in America

I hope that you listen up America
Now that the bones are laid upon the grave
A giant flood, oh took Louisiana
But it took more than just the city of New Orleans

I hope that you listen up America
Now that the bones are laid upon the grave
A giant flood, oh took Louisiana
But it took more than just the city of New Orleans

Women at home in Victorian America
I lost my lamp in Victorian America
It was the brightest, light I'd ever see

The Baby

Tin roof rusted now
Tin roof rusted now
Tin roof rusted
The old man's been busted now

Oh I held the baby in my hand
I held the baby in my hand
The baby was so tiny
It fit in the palm of my hand

And the wind did howl and the wind did moan
Oh dear darling you're not alone
The wind did howl and the wind did moan
Oh dear darling you're not alone

Oh the devil came between she and I
Oh on the floor I did lie
Why did they take her
What did they say, no
Why did they take her
Take her away
Take her away

And the wind did howl and the wind did moan
Oh dear darling you're not alone
The wind did howl and the wind did moan
And oh dear darling you're not alone

Oh I was swimming with the birds
Oh I was swimming with the birds
And out of a dark forest I heard words
Sing on sweet stranger

Oh the devil came between she and I
Oh on the floor I did lie
Why did they take her
What did they say, no
Why did they take her
Take her away
Take her away

Frozen Heart

Walk out, into the room
There are ghosts dancing with you
No worry, they know the tune
Bright night, no moon

There's a wolf under the bed
Hiding head, behind a curtain
Unjust right, in a violent heaven
Lights out

Lying down under the stairs
Hearing noise, that isn't there
A forgotten, nameless action
Silence, come undone
Walk on, skeleton

Blood and tear, don't know your name
Insincere, photograph made
Take away, oh quietly refrain
No pulse dying art
Behold your frozen heart
No pulse dying art
Behold your frozen heart

The Country life

I used to be an acrobat
Bent back and forth to please and all of that
And I don't do that anymore
I will show you what these legs are for
I'm living the country life
Just me and the moon in a love so dirty

Weep winding oh willow tree
Come over here and wrap your legs around me
'Cause I'm not the barer of bad news
I just felt the salt in all of these wounds
And like the wind winding through the tree
Oh a subtle aching moan, small death taken from me

Hold it now, you're not the only one I love
Sing it loud, message sent from above
Hear it now, oh, oh, oh, because
Oh I ran faster than the dark
Oh I ran harder from the start
Oh and here you are
Oh and here you are

I used to be an acrobat
Bent back and forth to please and all of that
And I don't do that anymore
I will show you what these legs are for
And I'm living the country life
Just me and the moon in a love so dirty

Weep winding oh willow tree
Come over here and wrap your legs around me
'Cause I'm not the barer of bad news
I just felt the salt in all of these wounds
And like the wind winding through the tree
Oh a subtle aching moan, small death taken from me
Small death taken from me

Liza

Oh I woke up today
And the red sky had warned me away
Oh I woke up today
And I thought that death had swept me away

And I said hey, hey Liza
Where have you been
Where have you been
I'll see you, I'll see you again

Oh the dragging of her feet
Made life music for the ghosts in the street
And in silence she did weep
To the rustle of her mind's own defeat

And I said hey, hey Liza
Where have you been
Where have you been
I'll see you, I'll see you again

Oh I woke up today
And the grey sky had painted a mile on your face
Oh I woke up today
And I thought that death had swept me away

And I said hey, hey Liza
Where have you been
Where have you been
I'll see you, I'll see you again

Oh I woke up today
And the red sky had warned me away
Oh I woke up today
And I thought that death had swept me away

And I said hey, hey Liza
Where have you been
Where have you been
I'll see you, I'll see you again

The Ravens

The bats dropped night in
A sunken skull imprint
Of out bodies on the bed

A plaster mold it seems
Delicate, enshrined
A masterpiece
Left to die

Here we go again
A splitting of the wood
Carved and thinned

Until there's nothing left
But some shavings and
An album that you left
Behind

Oh my broken bones
Crippled and thrown
To the wayside

But we weren't in it to win
Our love it grew and died, begin again
And a violent wind
Ripped the wave from the shore

And I know that you caved in
And surrendered to your cold and brutal nature

And so I walk the line
To the beating of this never ending lie

The ravens they fly low
Death a ubiquitous member

And knock forever more
Or just break down the door
To this labyrinth of your twisted heart

But I am just like you
Selfish and abused
There is a shadow
That stalks my hide

But what do you do with this skin
A home in which you live
It's insufficient

But we weren't in it to win
Our love it grew and died, begin again
And a violent wind
Ripped the wave from the shore

And I know that you caved in
And surrendered to your cold and brutal nature

But you know I understand
So I'll drop the ball from up on high

And watch it descend
Growing ever further from my eye

And so I walk the line
To the beating of this never ending lie

Red Serpent

She's not sailing alone anymore
The red crimson has knocked down her door
To the beat chime, baby won't you ring it again

She's not wanting, to crawl out of her skin
The red serpent has climbed up, he's gone in
Devil's gateway, baby won't you enter again

Keep that baby, oh mother make me
Keep that baby, oh mother make me
It's the only thing I've done
To keep justice up above

Oh father, you let me down
Oh father, you let me down
The winds are oh so silent now
To the beat of a drum held in your hand

You can't make me, no
You can't, can not make me, no
You can't, can not make me, no

Keep that baby, oh mother make me
Keep that baby, oh mother make me
It's the only thing I've done
To keep justice up above

Red Dress

Sing loud
Where does the model undress now
She'll drink whisky for breakfast
And cigarettes for lunch

Warning
What is this red dress you're unfolding
And who gave it to you
And told you to undress for the empire

Walking
Out in the garden at night
Clothing falls from you
Just as soft as lantern light

Watching
From a tower on high
Looking over the town
Eyes up, mouth open wide

Warning
What is this red dress you're unfolding
And who gave it to you
And told you to undress for the empire

Oh I fell deep, I fell down
I fell down in the well
Oh I fell deep, I fell down
I fell down in the well

Oh I fell deep, I fell down
I fell down in the well
Oh I fell deep, I fell down
I fell down in the well

A Shot Rand Out

Oh, a shot rang out
Fire up above
There's one leg left
That you stand upon
My body will not break me
Into the tomb, nationally

Oh, the Veil is thin
Covering your eyes
In blue and red
And black and white

Apocalyptic sun down
The hand that brought the wall down
Sirens ring people flee all around
Covet and hide what you've found

Oh, an iron mouth
Closed at the door
There is no truth
Spoken here anymore
A bloody battle we have become
And rampant is the state
All laws are undone

Oh, speak now you forgotten son
'Cause in the belly of this beast
We're not all one

Oh I walked out of the tavern
And a big weight hit me
And I woke up next to you
You said you're lost well that makes two
Dreamers we aren't few
But I don't want to bury my dreams with you

Ghost Of A Horse

Running around
Wearing a gown
My love hit the ground
And soon, I caught up

Needles and pins
Where have I been
My heart says let me back in
But my chest wants to cave in

Oh take, take, please take
Oh take these words
Out of my mouth
Mary Magdalene
Take this cross off my back

A ghost of a horse
Follows me to the end
Oh, the end of the barn
Where my faith
Is buried deep in the ground

I lay into the piano
With the pedal pushed down
It rings and it pounds and my heart
Oh it sweeps the ground

Oh, violin strings they break
Oh break to the sound
Of horse bones that carried me
Oh into this town

Oh take, please take
Oh take me please
Away from this crowd
And I will show you
The beauty of silence in sound

But where, oh where
Is my deep barking hound
'Cause the beauty of my love is unfound

And where oh there
In the silence now
Oh, I wave the boats away from me now
And I saw the ash poured off the bow

But where have I been
And what did I do
I let love in
Now I'm left
With my friend old blue

But where have I been
And what did I do
I let love in
Now I'm left
With my friend old blue

Waiting as illness pends
For the golden dark has sucked me in again
And I feel long gone
My soul has walked on

Oh Katherine, where is my kin
For the grim reaper has come and tucked me in
But I do not bat an eye
For my life has gone awry
And I do not feel alive

Where do I end and do I begin
For the black hole of lust has sucked me in again
And I feel long gone
My soul has walked on
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
A revolving door I pushed myself
Into a mirrored hall, reflections of my sins
Oh beaming off of you
And I caught those fading blues
But I do not bat an eye
For my life has gone awry
And I do not feel alive

Oh Katherine, where is my kin
For the grim reaper has come and tucked me in

And I caught those fading blues
From the very glimpse of you
But I do not bat an eye
For my life has gone awry
And I do not feel alive

If you choose to jump off a cliff
We can talk as you fall
But I can't promise you, no
When you hit the ground that they'll be
Something there to break your fall
Well, I guess you know it all

It's as if you were
Waiting around to die
And you found something to mend
The frayed corners of your mind

‘Cause everybody knows
When you hit the bottom you go
To the abyss all on your own
Well I hope you take it slow

So you chose to jump off that cliff
What's it like as you fall
I didn't think this would be
The last time that I did see
Your slim body walking away from me
Is this the final scene
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
It's as if you were
Waiting around to die
And you found something to mend
The frayed corners of your mind

‘Cause everybody knows
When you hit the bottle you go
To the abyss all on your own
Well I hope you make it home

I filled up my cup
With diamonds and rust
I filled up my cup
These bones
They turned to dust

I walk in these shoes
Oh just like you do
I walk in these shoes
Just, oh like you do

Unveiling the child within
Before the grace of your sin
And Lucifer has made a bed
For wicked words to rest themselves in
Go to sleep and we'll all give in
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
Black silk, oh wrapped around your neck
And a cutthroat ilk oh behind your back
The crimson moon, undresses you
And you lay your face down
With your heart on the ground
For the devil has made his round

Mother, he's got me up against the wall
Fading into a line so small
I heard you say
I died that day
And I lay face down
With my heart on the ground
For the devil had made his round

No matter what happens to me
I cling to you and you cling to me
With lives that crash and burn out black
I can count the ways I'd never come back

Oh, oh, oh, oh…
And you say

I never loved you, darling
I never loved you, darling
And that's all you can say
And that's all you can say
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
Oh the black oak swaying in the breeze
I don't know why you bleed but bleed into me
With lives that crash and burnout black
I can count the ways I'll always come back

Oh, oh, oh, oh…
And I say

I always loved you, darling
I always loved you, darling
And that's all I can say
And that's all I can say

It's only California
It's only California
Oh I lay to rest

Oh now, money-maker
The hands of the devil's sister
Oh they laid me down

There must be a way out
There must be a way out
There's a ghost inside of you
And I can see it peering through

Oh I lay, oh under
The oak tree
In the dead of winter
Oh I lay to rest

A winged boy fell from the tree
And oh he landed right next to me
The devil's fruit inside of me
And how my wings lay so dormantly
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
Oh you were a body
You were a ghost
And now you are nothing
The dark it up and rose
And toward the light it took you
And melted your wings
‘Cause you were a body
And now you are nothing

And I touched
Oh his feathers
Cow hide
Hands of leather
Oh you are a man

Oh wax wings they wouldn't stay
And so our love melted away
Toward the sun so right and fair
And then I saw you drop in mid air

Can I cut you out of the frame
Can I throw the remnant in the lake
‘Cause I never wanted to yell murder in your name
I just want to die without a photo drenched in shame

For I will never be the same
And cold blood always leaves a stain

And oh oh oh
The lines they are so blue
And oh oh oh
The coat of arms you threw

‘Cause I never wanted to slaughter your game
To go on pining for moon that only wanes
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
So take me out to the corn my love and
Splash the water ‘til it turns into mud
For my blood is frozen on the absence of love

Oh in the veins a far haunting calls your name
To your soul's body which you never knew you gave
Away into oblivion you threw
And his teeth have made a corpse of you

But you've come back with the clipped wings of the dove
And in this reverie you wrestled with your love
For my blood still frozen from the absence of love

So take the thorns out of me my love
And patch them up with your wounded love
We're all tied up, now undo what you've done
And into soundless from your slaughter I will run

Can I cut you out of the frame
Can I throw the remnants in the lake

One, two, three, four

You're like a brother
Oh to me
A drunken lover
Climbed up on me
No, I did not ask for your rings
No, I did not ask for these things

With a candle
And an axe
Light the bed frame
Leave the wax
You said I will not take you with me
We watched the wind fall a tree
Thank you for sparing me

But oh unto the preacher
Oh you have no name
And oh under the serpent's lair is where you lay
The moon it hangs high
In the night sky
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
Oh your robes were
Worn straight thin
Oh damaged
Oh within
You said, I'm a hollow house of a man
A dour requiem plays within
But nobody plucks a string
A handless symphony
That's why I did not ask for these things

But oh unto the preacher
Oh you have no name
And oh under the serpent's lair is where you lay
The moon still hangs high
In the night sky

To thine own self be true
In a dark corridor I found you
To cast a light in the dark
On two already broken hearts
But I walk separately
Thank you for sparing me

Oh I've gone too many lenghts
To make gestures that are fake
So I bid this adieu
I feel crazy
And you do too
Oh, this wrecked me well
I've seem a glimpse of mortal hell
Oh I
Oh, oh I

Walking after dawn
There's a crack in my façade
You can peer into the weaknesses
And the bleakness in me
Oh I'm damaged raw can't you see
Oh I
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
Take the veil from your face
Do you walk with the human race
Or do you dwell alone
In a room of one's own
In a room of one's own
Oh in a room of one's own

‘Cause you ain't seen what I saw
You ain't seen what I saw
You ain't seen these dark sides of the law

Oh I
Oh, oh I
Oh, oh I
Oh oh oh

Oh the sweetest mark upon your list
Is your own seductive oh death wish
And God above no interventionist
Stands as you're strangled by the devil's fist

Oh I took your head upon my chest
For a bitter sweet oh second
And how you tear away from it
And fade away into the abyss

There's a bad moon rising up the hill
Oh as you write your own will
Oh leave me be, there's nothing left
But a gaunt portrait of a masochist

Oh I bear witness to the deepest sadness
Housed within my breast
Oh was your head upon my chest
Did I dream you there, were my eyes amiss
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
For the windowpane is cracked straight through
Colored with mistake he can't see through
Shine light on all the colors in you
And now I know what painted you

Take your broken words
And place them on your heart
So when it breaks
They'll all fall in

Take your jealous words
And place them at the top of your list
They stand for that which you'd like to be

Oh your voice
Was in a box
And I would turn the key
Just to hear you talk

Take your broken words
And place them in the palm of your hand
Piece them back to together again
They're on the mend

Take your angered words
And feel them through and through
That way they don't murder you
Oh in the end
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
Oh your voice
Was in a box
And I would turn the key
Just to hear you talk

Take your broken words
And place them on your heart
So when it breaks they'll all fall in

Wine, swan, sweet shiny glass
Barrel of the beast
Pull your bloodshot over
I want to dance with misery

Didn't she pull you, into the water
Didn't she pull you, out of the gutter

A silhouette of Lady MacBeth
A silhouette of Lady MacBeth
You only see her from the side, only from the side
Rob from always on the run is so bad and copy paste is a sin
Didn't she pull you, into the water
Didn't she pull you, out of the gutter

We all fall into the water
Into the water we fall like stones beneath

Wine, swan, sweet shiny glass
Barrel of the beast
Pull your bloodshot over
I want to dance with misery

Didn't she pull you, into the water
Didn't she pull you, out of the gutter

My Beloved

How do I
Get rid
Of the Demon

Oh you walked
Yeah you walked
Around and around in my heart

I don't want to love another
You and I are forever tethered
Oh so thin, we walk this line
And down below is the deepest, darkest lie

Oh my love he walks in line
My beloved, every time
My beloved, every time
My beloved, you're out of line

Oh my love is hard as nails
My love died upon the rail
My love died upon the rail
My love died, on beds of nails

You and I are forever tethered
You and I are forever weathered
Oh the bough breaks and the devil will awake
Oh the bough breaks and the devil will take

You are, the master
You are, the master
You are not some sadist master
You are the master

You and I are forever tethered
You and I are forever weathered
Oh the bough breaks and the devil will awake
Oh the bough breaks and the devil will take

Faster Than The Devil

Faster than the devil
Faster than my rights
Faster than the devil
Faster than my life

Oh, Jonathan you ride
Oh how you ride
For I paint you like the devil
And I give you no life

There's a crack in the wall and an eye
The Tell-Tale Heart and I
For I paint you like the devil
And I give you no life

Faster than the devil
On horseback you ride
On the back of the devil
For you've taken your own life

Oh, Jonathan you ride
Oh how you ride
For I paint you like the devil
And I give you no life

There's a crack in the wall and an eye
The Tell-Tale Heart and I
For I paint you like the devil
And I give you no life

Keeley

Keeley put your white dress on
And you'll become the maiden of the dawn
With your vial of poison you run
A substitute for what was called love

'Cause oh, oh we got a slash of devil's tongue
And it's displayed across our palms
Where do we belong

And the moon, gazes on us with empty eyes
Trailing the heal of demise
And we slip in to Edentide
Copy paste is a sin, always on the run is better
And our isolation is here at even's fall
With Bella Donnas lacing up the wall
It's just poison that's all

Oh, Keeley come back from the pine
Before we slip in to Edentide
You never did anybody wrong
And you'll always be my maiden of the dawn

'Cause oh, oh we got a slash of devil's tongue
And it's displayed across our palms
Where do we belong

And the moon, gazes on us with empty eyes
Trailing the heal of demise
And we slip in to Edentide
Copy paste is a sin, always on the run is better
And our isolation is here at even's fall
With Bella Donnas lacing up the wall
It's just poison that's all

Oh, Keeley you never did anybody wrong
And you'll always be my maiden of the dawn
Yeah, you'll always be my maiden of the dawn
Yeah, you'll always be my maiden of the dawn

Thoroughbred

Your assault
Has been told
Even your breath
Takes a toll

Thoroughbred
Thoroughbred
Blood stained red
And I hold you like the dead
Copy paste is a sin, always on the run is better
I've seen you
Through and through
You wear me
Just like a noose
Like a noose

Thoroughbred
Eyes beat red
If charged you're better off dead

I've seen you
Through and through
You hold me
Just like a jewel
Hold me, hold
Hold me, hold

Thoroughbred
Taken from the ledge
A horse's head
Is lying in your bed

Hold me, hold
Hold me, hold
We're softer than the light
Yet cold and dark as night

A farmer and a gun
You're your father's golden son
A horse is in your lungs
And this war it ain't never won

Slaughter me, oh slaughter you
Divinity is upon you
I take your hand, and I walk you out
I leave you now, to the frozen south

And I lay frozen on the lawn
I lay frozen here ‘til dawn

My marble eyes
My heart of stone
Is housed in a bereft unknown
I take your hand and I walk you out
Leave you now, to the frozen south
Copy paste is a sin, always on the run is better
And if you knew me you would wait
For, unto the day
Oh the day, oh the day, oh the day, oh the day
When I wake

Oh your dreaded, poisoned past
So you left him for one last glass
You point the pistol and he points it back
Though you love him you'll never fight back

Southern doll, on the mantle
Silent scream, from behind the wall
I take your hand, and I walk you out
I leave you now, to the frozen south

Love has lead me to this song
As I lay here on the lawn
Now you're gone, oh you're gone, oh your'e gone
Oh you're gone
How I've done wrong

Dandelion Daze

I left a wish for you on the lawn
I hope that you can love again
I know that things are wrong
And it's hit you like the weight of lead
Copy paste is a sin, always on the run is better
All these guns have left me
All these guns have left me here
All my hate is breached
For the coming of a brand new year

Dandelion Daze
I left a wish for you on my grave
Would you march upon
The river where my love slipped away

All these guns have left me
All these guns have left me here
All my hate is breached
For the coming of a brand new year

Holiday Song

You said your life was empty
Oh, but these arms are here for eternity
And your family full of dread
Lay poisoned in their beds
It's not your fault
Just the way you were bred

Oh, all these lies beneath the cross
Oh, stab your eyes out
It's sight you lost
And the sickened, and unwed
With their cats and candles around their beds
If you're alone it's ok if that's how it ends
Copy paste is a sin, always on the run is better
Can you take me down to the water
Can you lead me straight under
Your eyes, cold and serene
In this watery dream

And your family full of dread
Lay poisoned in their beds
It's not your fault
It's just the way you were bred

The Roses

The oaks and the vines, and the branches entwine
Around my heart
And a melancholy winding led to my depart
And it was clear, that you were not here
For the roses
And you stood watch, over a man-made lake
You ain't no saint, of the roses
Copy paste is a sin, always on the run is better
And you wore, paper thin sleeves
In this mire, of thorns
And with ill fate, we lay beneath
Oh that white cross, bearing this loss
And with ill fate, we lay beneath, oh that white cross
Bearing this loss
And I shall, continue to make, bouquets of roses from this fate

And so I shall continue to make, bouquets of roses
From this fate

The Wolves

When you were thrown, to the wolves
I tried to save you, but my heart was in repose
And please take with you, this piece of fragile gold
For my jewels they lay here on the altar
Safely hidden from your rapture

When they drove the stake into you
I saw your body it was hollow through and through
And I don't need faith to know that I can still see you
For I died with you in this rapture
Our bodies slain here on the altar
Copy paste is a sin, always on the run is better
When you were small
They wrote lines on the wall
That said you're nothing at all
And the capture of your dreams
And the rapture and the scream
And your body's still next to me

When you died, everyone knew your name
Your body and face carved out in a deliberate frame
And we all surrendered to this deep impending shame
For we died with you in this rapture, our bodies slain here on the altar

When you were small
They wrote lines on the wall
That said you're nothing at all
And the capture of your dream
And the rapture and the scream
And your body's still next to me

Silence/Slain

Air tight, is your cage
Hungry, for days
My lovely one
My lovely one

Silence, of the slain
You call out, but it's all in vain
My lovely one
My lovely one

And the blithe, and the bain
And you rise like a siren that's been slain
For you're still hungry
For this roughened gaze
But I am like the dawn light in your way
Copy paste is a sin, always on the run is better
Oh tell, tell the truth
Was this book, written for you
My lovely one
My lovely one

Oh and the cry, and the pain
And you rise like bird, caged
And you're still hungry for this roughened gaze
But I am like the dawn light in your way

Follow me, follow me, in the mirror, it's not me
Follow me, follow me, in the mirror, it's not me
Follow me, follow me, in the mirror, it's not me

Here it Lies

Here it lies a pile of sand
Watch it run out of my hands
Oh across the desert land
This gun it fell out of my hands

So you take the mortal bone
Place it down beneath the throne
Thinking of the king and I
This is not where power lies

All along the road is dim
I found someone to take you in
And though your heart is made of pure sin
Copy paste is a sin, always on the run is better
Oh the art of dying, oh the eagle flies round
With your heart in its talon
You left your misery on the ground

Here it lies a pile of sand
Watch it run out of my hands
Oh across the desert land
This gun it fell out of my hands

So you take the mortal bone
Place it down beneath the throne
Thinking of the king and I
This is not where power lies

Frozen Garden

It's a complicated state
How the waves break
Sometimes they're kind
Sometimes they take lives

Often in living hell
A giver's life dwells
I watched this state
Crack and break

So lead me down to the dusty garden
Overgrown aged and rotten
And here they lie children forsaken
And I see myself as one among them
You copy you paste you lose
Shields there never were
I love you more than words
But now we're in this state
And it cracks and breaks

For it lives, it lives inside my skin
And sometimes I feel I'll never win
And often I feel I'll never win

Someday I'll forgive
Someday I'll forgive
Someday I'll forgive
Someday I'll forgive

Pallid Eyes

And when the ice turns gray
Oh and I've become
You call me up in your words you say
Oh I have begun

And when the sheets are frayed
And when you walk alone
Your rolling eyes in your head you say

And you can't wait til May
'Cause winter's just begun
Your eyes roll back in your head you say
What have I become
Oh, what have I become
You copy you paste you lose
And when the ice turns gray
And the clarity is gone
Your eyes roll back in your head you say
What have I become

You're so sweet
You cheat
So sweet

And when the ice turns gray
And the clarity is gone
Your eyes roll back in your head you say
What have I become
Oh what have I become

You're so sweet
You cheat
So sweet

Hands

Hands are all around me
I took a walk and one became three
Hands are all around me
You ain't never seen
You ain't never seen

And in your face
Tightened lace
And below
Vertigo
You copy you paste you lose
You caught my bad dream
You caught my bad dream

A deathly guise took you by night
And those hands turned the tide
And you were harmed by unsaintly arms
We will take you in our arms

This ain't no dream
This ain't no dream
Dream, dream, dream

Nightmares On Repeat

The love that you gave
Keeps me here
Calling out your name
Keeps me here
For the light was not there
For years upon years

Maybe the way you walk
Will show me just how to talk
Myself into being here
Draw close pull near
You copy you paste you lose
Holding your hand
Keeps me here
And all the ways you stand
Keeps me here
For the light, was not there
For years, upon years

Maybe the way you walk
Will show me just how to talk
Myself to sleep
Nightmares on repeat

Your insight
Beautiful, beautiful
Your insides
Beautiful, beautiful

And your insight
Beautiful, beautiful
Your insides
Beautiful, beautiful

And your insight
Beautiful, beautiful
And your insides
Beautiful, beautiful

And your insight
Beautiful, beautiful
And your insides
Beautiful, beautiful

Rupturing

When you were young
You were taken by time
You thought you'd always be alive
And now the dwindling sparkle in your eye

You know the road is full of crime
And thievery truth be told
You copy you paste you lose
And to the mystery
Of something pulled away from me
And the soul rupturing
By something that I cannot see

One by one
Feathers plucked from your skin
And there you lay bare in the wind

And God is watching
Somewhere with the lights dimmed
And the only hand you hold
Is your very own of gold

And to the mystery
Of something pulled away from me
And the soul rupturing
By something that I cannot see

Moulding

Behind this glass case
A moulding of a heart
It was mine I left it there
For I'd sold the things I could not bear

Oh and tell your soldier fair
And the wind that I do not care
Hanging bloody from the gallows up there
And walk into the sea
I wanted your knives in me

So I took it back
The moulding of my heart
It was mine, I left it there
For I'd sold the things I could not wear

Oh and tell the priests up there
And the hymns singing I do still care
Hanging bloody from the gallows up there
And walk into the sea
I took your knives out of me
You copy you paste you lose
These wounds will never bleed again
These scars will never bleed again
For a scar it never bleeds again
And these wounds will never bleed again

The Ledge

In this body a brutal beating
There is something caged beneath
Let it down, oh let it down
Let it down now
The rope I can't even see

Well I made up my mind
To take the ledge
Holding onto the wall
At masochisms edge
I made up my mind
In perfect time

Your hand slips
You fall
And take it all (?)
You copy you paste you lose
In this body
There is a seeing
And its etched upon the wall
Make it out, oh make it out
Make it out now
For it's barely there at all

Oh, across the wide
Bleeding and decay
And there you find, morbidity lays
Well I made up my mind
In perfect time

And take it all

The Black Dove

Pick up the wounded dove
There's poison in you love
Pain entwined with love
Stitched in the feathers of a catholic dove

Hold our skin
We're the colors that we've always been
Nation, incarceration

Narrative
Stories of faces in towns we live
Killing threads, iron cages
You copy you paste you lose
Are you, are you
Familiar
How I know you shouldn't be familiar, familiar
How I know you shouldn't be familiar, familiar
How I know you shouldn't be familiar, familiar
How I know you shouldn't be familiar, familiar
How I know you shouldn't be familiar, familiar
How I know you shouldn't be

Are you, are you
Are you

Antechamber

Gagged, fed
Your mind is like a chamber
You said

???
I heard the sound of howling wind (?)

Gagged, fed
Your mind is like a chamber
You said
And in the end
You wore a suit of armor
Yes you did, you did
You copy you paste you lose
Yes you did
You, you, you

Womankind

Under the shadowed covering
Hold this body as its shattering
Nerves and hearts lie quivering
Your traumas, how they go unseen

A lifting of the covered dark
The silence there it breaks your heart
Buried sounds I believe you
I tell you now, I always knew
That this happens to women

And women-kind
Maimed bodies make the longest of lines
You copy you paste you lose
So the voices sink deep down
Ropes they pull at buried sounds
And reigning hands they threaten us
To carry inside a silent dust

Our body's not a public space
A corporal autonomous place
Hands that enter your space
They violate the whole human race

Take your body back for you
In sacred flesh held in sacred view
And women girls, all genders align
Survivors blood, survivors mind

And everyone who cares for others lives
It's time, this silence comes alive
Before it breaks the night
And there are no stars left in our eyes

I hear your silence I always knew
I tell you now, I believe you

Behind The Glass

Pressed against the glass your bleeding heart
But I knew you, I knew you'd come apart
You sat down to see with your fragile heart
But I knew you, I knew you'd fall apart

And what is authenticity
(you dig into the deep)
For we crave it down on bruised knees
(lie with the wounds beneath)
And we call out remembering
(the silences between)
For a time that will never be again
(you and me)
You copy you paste you lose
Oh, behind the glass is something
But it might not be what you're wanting

You sat down to see a curious heart
But I never knew that you would come apart this way
Holding in your hands, your bleeding heart
But I never thought that you would fall apart this way

And what is authenticity
(you dig into the deep)
For we crave it down on bruised knees
(lie with the wounds beneath)
And we call out remembering
(the silences between)
For a time with a pulse and that bleeds
(you and me)
For a time that will never be again
(you and me)
For a time with a pulse and that bleeds
(you and me)
For a time that will never be again
(you and me)

Behind the glass is something
But it might not be what you're wanting

Surrender

I felt the vines move within
I felt my heart bleed again
By not a stranger, by not a friend
And with its words it pulled me in

Out on the road, hailing to survive
Held by something that never wanted me alive
Shot the glimmer straight out of my eyes
Flowers laid bare for when I'm ready to lie in surrender

I watched it move from the ceiling to the floor
Was it you or it I adored
A hypnotism impossible to ignore
The more I took, it took me more

Out on the road, hailing to survive
Held by something that never wanted me alive
Shot the glimmer straight out of my eyes
Flowers laid bare for when I'm ready to lie in surrender

I held on to the reins
Let go or be dragged in its name
And I looked back at you, set fire, set ablaze
And I walked down the streets for miles
A gaunt face held in exile

‘Cause I was out on the road hailing to survive
Held by something that never wanted me alive
Shot the glimmer straight out of my eyes
Flowers laid bare for when I'm ready to lie in surrender

Drowned

For many a year, this face of sullen tears
Look down, you left her here
In a room of sanguine mirrors

It's carved and it strays
This path it deviates
A walk, a dive, a wade
Into waters of the darkest age

But in a silent way, the hand it takes
Circling around, the birth, the mouth
It's stolen and untrue, this mark in you
And soon it will be found, left to drown

For many a year, this face of sullen tears
Look down, you left her here
In a room of sanguine mirrors

Infernal

A prick of rose's thorn across the break, across the morn
And I walk blindfolded into the wake, into the storm
And please avert your eyes, the dust it falls, the dust it lies
And in the fire's claw incernate, they burned them all
And in the bird's eye view the fires bled, the fires grow
And we walk blindfolded feeling no trace of all we knew
And please avert your eyes from earthly cracks, earthly cries
And in the final throw incernate beauty we know
And she was a haven for me
And she was a haven for thee
And she, a holy vessel breathes
And you sit and watch her bleed
And you torched a hole in the sky
And you watched your earnings fly
And you sit there as she lies
In blood right before our eyes
And in the wake fires burn, fires take
And at the wake ashes fall, ashes forsake
And at the wake we will fall, we will ache
And at the wake we'll recall beauty's face

Washed Away

Modern industrial life
Takes your soul in its fangs
We might as well be all washed away

If I don't hang on tight, if I let myself stray
I will lose my sight and I will be washed away

And, oh, some days I walk my own
Oh, my own pace
It takes away the heartache

It seems no one has their own eyes
And we all speak from the cage
Are we living in fright
Consenting to be washed away

I'll lose my heart, my own eyes
I'll lose the smell of the rain
As I walk, aimless in the night
I will be washed away

And, oh, some days I brush the palm
Oh, of my hand
Across the face of this forgotten land

I left my print in the sand
Organic mark made
I got up and walked in the night
And I refused to be washed away

The burden of modern life
The heart it beats and it prays
Forever to walk in the night
And never be washed away

And, oh, some days I walk my own
Oh, my own pace
It takes away the heartache

And oh some days, I brush the palm
Oh, of my hand
Across the face of this forgotten land

Metamorphosis

A septant year alive, not a drop in poison's name
I walk the streets alive, barely knowing my own name
Metamorphosis, the cut, the wreck, the blade
And in my own eyes, the light, the heat, the blaze

‘Cause there was blood on the view
And we took it and we wrote anew
Left in waiting for the marks to go away
And all the entries of the dark messes were made

‘Cause there was blood on the view
And we took it and we wrote anew

Fabric of shame and sorrow's name
Reverse and retrace the tears on your face
You lived through, lived through, lived through

Dew

I watched the wind make the roses bend
Does X truly mark the end
You say thorns scratch your face
In blood and scar you can't erase
Does time really grow anew
Does poison drop the same as dew (in the morning)

I held the wings of a dove
As you held me like hand in glove

Flickering light, the world it burns for you
In holy fright as many try to save you

You say thorns scratched your face
In blood and scar you can not erase

I guess that X truly marks the end
I watched the wind make the roses bend
I held the wings of a dove
As you held me like hand in glove

Shroud

I came out in a shroud
Bathed in all the waste I'd seen
And the rain rang loud
With that old familiar sting

The poison runs, the flame and the wick
My heart burns in it
The colors run, the sound of sick
And we drown in it

Keep my head above the ground
Heaven knows I'm buried now
Holy war came and gone
Now they say it won't be long

The poison runs, the flame and the wick
My heart burns in it
The colors run, the sound of sick
And we drown in it

Entity

Billions of entities here alive
Who do we uphold, who do we decry
And who takes the throne and who the soil
Who do we love and who do we spoil

'Cause everyone's got a mark
Tell me how you wade in the dark
And some have a helping hand
And others are left barren in the wind

Higher one, how do you abandon
All of those with trauma'd religion
Higher one, you promise to enlighten
Except for those with trauma'd religion

‘Cause everyone's got a mark
Show me how you wade in the dark

Light

One bell to ring as you wanted, eternally
One bell to sing as you hunted, eternally

And I will call on you forever
And I will call on you forever

And in the wind and the heart, eternally
And in the swell of the lark, eternally
Eternally

And they will chime forever
And they will chime forever

The Gates at the End

I walked through the gates at the end
You weren't far, far from me then
I would wait for you
In blood, holy and true

Cynical until it breaks, the words decay
The voice it cuts, the voice betrays
You can trace the lines broken hearts make
Run your fingers through the cracks of eternal ache

I walk through the gates at the end
They'd been marked by the pens of forgotten women
Pennyroyal we burn
For every forgotten word

And I cannot brace for the end
A long road

And I cannot brace for the end, the end

Alluvion

Show Me The River

I don’t believe in blind divinity
Leave the unknown, leave the seeds of mystery to sew
All of me, everything
Life’s blood raining down on me
Leave it a mystery, bathing in the unseen

Take me down, take me downtown
Show me the war amidst the chants, the cops, the cars
Everything that I see
Life’s blood raining down on me
No blind divinity
Justifies this to me

Won’t you please light a candle in the name of Juarez
They took her name, they took her name
In the light of day

I don’t believe in blind divinity
Leave the unknown, leave the seeds of mystery to sew
Leave it a mystery, bathing in the unseen
All of me, everything
Life’s blood raining down on me

Won’t you please light a candle in the name of Poland
All rights away, all rights away
In the light of day

I don’t believe in blind divinity
Leave the unknown, leave the seeds of mystery to sew
All of me, everything
Life’s blood raining down on me
No blind divinity
Justifies this to me

Crepuscule

Melancholy unfolds
In time, this cross glow
I walked through grief spells
Drawing from these old wells

And the sky stretched out before me
And upside down, ignoring
The wind, it pointed toward me
Away from all abhorring

Ivory laden
Old growth, shaded
Old rose, sharp thorns
I hold them in my arms

This mourning lives in everyone who has lost someone
Aurora in lightning, the living and the dying

Blessed is the timing
For all of these pryings
Fawning, caving, crying
The trigger and denying

Time won’t stop woes
Unearthed, they only show
Morphing, through pained blows
My love for you only grows

Crepuscule, the rising, the living and the trying
Aurora in lightning, the giving and the dying

Crepuscule, the chasing, all that is aging
The melting and unveiling, memory engraving

Heresy

I crawl against the wind
The chafe, the freeze, brethren
Housed in holy grim
For there’s hunting in this wind

For their eyes were watching wrong
They drank a cup of poison’s song
Heresy
Bloodletting, in her I believe

For they don’t own your skin
I see Eros in the wind
Housed in prurient grins
For they hurt, they kill, they win

You surrender all your arms
To become somebody’s charm
Cruelty
Bloodshedding, in her I still believe

Poisoned

The way you walk, the way you sing
The way you hold on to everything
I know it, I know it well
Nothing really left to tell

Diamond eyes and a studded cross
Through the harm drenched fields we walked
I held you like a bag of bones
Didn’t even feel like your own

‘Cause I saw the pain fall around you
To the day, it chained you thin
And I saw murder in the background
Images they fade, poisoned

Cold, hands of men around your throat
Emblazed, mark upon the human soul
Enchained, blood it runs down to the bone
Encaged, forever sorrow’s mark be told

‘Cause I saw the pain fall around you
To the day, it chained you thin
I saw murder in the background
Images they fade, poisoned

I held you like a bag of bones
Didn’t even feel like your own
You tried to walk with me in a straight line
That’s when I saw you for the last time

Body Against the Gun

I brace the wind
As I walk, broken
For I lived in light so dim
With those who sang assailing hymns
Razor thin, won’t touch me again
I’m at the edge of the limb

I am too young for a choice made by me
Body against the gun, cold hands all around me
The light is dim, the disempower shows
How do you atone for all you know

It happens every day
Her will is taken away

And so you flee to a different state where it’s legal to operate
And so you flee to a different state where it’s legal to operate

It happens every day
Her will is taken away

I am too young for a choice made by me
Body against the gun, cold hands all around me

And so you flee to a different state where it’s legal to operate
And so you flee to a different state where it’s legal to operate

The Hands Above Me

Gonna write a note to the hands above me
Gonna ask them on which side do they air
And I watch the pendulum swing before me
And I hold my breath and vanish into thin air

You dwell upon those whom you abandon
Eyes be true, you betray those who uphold you

Gonna light a flame under the hands above me
Gonna see just how much truth do they air
And I watch the pendulum swing before me
As they cover up all that is there

I’ve tried to understand the ways of this land
And in truth, America, the lights are dimming on you
Gonna write a note to the hands above me
Gonna ask them on which side do they air

Mute Swan

I used to hold your hand in pain
A curve, an arc, wander through the haze

Who are you now? Can’t leave this terrain
Opaque the ground, silent refrain

Into the arms, embraced by all of someone
Enduring scarred, can’t be undone by someone
It’s taken hold of me
In everything I see

Affliction carries the knife dear
Mute swan holds the sound near
Blackened dawn holds the light near
And I live on into the night here

I can’t live and breathe your name
For you walk committing pain
A harm, a word, withering sane
You cut, you starve, wounded the same

Into the arms, embraced by all of someone
Enduring scarred, can’t be undone by someone
It’s taken hold of me
In everything I see

Affliction carries the knife dear
Mute swan holds the sound near
Blackened dawn holds the light near
And I live on into the night here

Hold Them Alive

Here lies the pain
The thorn marks on your hands, they are forever
And you hold them alive as you go through touching this life

Love winds and wanes, wrapped up in what all is forgotten
And the rememberings tell of an unsanctified spell

So how do I walk while holding
Some kind of words that morph from bereaving
Withered is the arch, the moon hangs bleeding
I’ve lived the dark energy feeding

I can see blame placed upon a vulnerable hollow
And the sounding of bells, they ring and they quell
Love winds and wanes, wrapped up in what all is forgotten
And the rememberings tell of this irreverent spell

Circling the dawn, the wake all around you
The flora and fauna, incantations surround you
It lives in stark liminal space within you
Dispirit sparks, they stalk and they hound you

Hollow Hearth

I was born a hollow hearth
I would take my own world apart
I would give my only love
I would give my name in blood

Oh dissections, oh of the heart
I was taught to take myself apart
It lives in you, harbors in the dark
Morbid reflection, a dying art

And I would give my sight to you
And I would give my light to you
And I would harness all the power I grew
If only I could be loved by you

Oh dissections, oh of the heart
I was taught to take myself apart
It lives in you, harbors in the dark
Morbid reflection, a dying art

I would take the terror out of your eyes
There’s a faintness of a gaslight
It lives in you, torments your nights
A dissection of all your light

I Spent the Years Frozen

I felt the gaze
Of my desire
And I held it close
Never let it transpire

It’s like a sea of skulls
They float along blank walls
Sepulchral paintings fall
At length down my halls
Always, in me, always

I drew the flame
Into the pyre
And I burned this gaze
In a massive fire

For the absence of love
It wore me like a glove
It held me as its kin
What was this world I lived in
Always, in me, always

I feel everyone
I spent the years frozen
I feel everyone
I spent the years frozen

In me, always, in me, always

Battle Call

So many lives back from the war
How do you help those restore
Amnesia, what were they there for
Embodiment washed up on the shore

But what lives inside this scar
We never know just what you saw
Bones they break, the battle call
A tragic fate, you train, you draw

You crawled your way back from the war
Violence washes the shore
Holding the past a present scar
Embodiment knew you before

But what lives inside this scar
We never know what you saw
Bones they break, the battle call
A tragic fate, you train, you draw

But I hold, I hold you now
We can make it out somehow
Turn to face the battle call
The mark it leaves inside us all