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B i o g r a p h y
(by Marcy Donelson)
English
singer/songwriter Fenne Lily delivers her melancholic songs with a hushed,
understated tone. Following in the footsteps of Joni Mitchell and later Laura
Marling, by her mid-teens Lily had developed a deep and personal approach that
resonated beyond her years. She released her first album, On Hold, in 2018
before making her Dead Oceans debut with Breach in 2020. She still occupied a
subdued, reflective space by third album Big Picture (2023), which charted the
course of a relationship.
A Dorset native, Fenne Lily began writing songs at a young age. Traveling back
and forth from Dorset to Bristol as a 17-year-old, she began landing support
gigs with acts like C Duncan, KT Tunstall, and Marika Hackman, quickly
establishing herself in the U.K. folk and songwriter scene. Written when she was
only 15, her debut single, the spare acoustic "Top to Toe," made an impressive
showing, notching millions of streams in 2016. Subsequent releases like "What's
Good" and "For a While" fared similarly well as she began making the rounds on
the festival circuit. In January 2018, Lily issued "On Hold," the title track
from her debut album. Arriving in March that year, On Hold featured a plethora
of melancholic ballads. After signing to Dead Oceans in early 2020, Lily
returned with the song "Hypochondriac." Recorded with producer Brian Deck and
Steve Albini, her sophomore album, Breach, followed that September. Lily then
collaborated with fellow U.K. singer/songwriter Keir on the song "Leave a Light
On," which saw release in April 2021.
Her next LP was produced in tandem with Brad Cook at his studio in Durham, North
Carolina and included performances from her touring band and guests including
Christian Lee Hutson (guitar) and Katy Kirby (vocals). Mixed by Jay Som's Melina
Duterte, Big Picture consisted of ten songs written over the course of a
relationship. It arrived on Dead Oceans in April 2023. |
On Hold
Car Park
I wonder if you saw that I was sorry for the beating of my heart
When it woke you in the car park
And maybe I should tell you
That I've villainised by body for too long
Would it help you find excuses to move on?
Like I needed more excuses to be stronger
I'm no mother
But I've done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don't believe in luck so I am giving up
I hope to find a reason for my fear of feelings leaving at the start
It makes my sleeping harder
I don't know much about you
So I'm trying not to doubt you, but in time
I know you'll let me down and that is fine
A feeling I can't shake, it's getting stronger
I'm no mother
But I've done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don't believe in luck
I don't believe in much
Leave it all to trust or start to give it up
Three Oh Nine
So they tell me
Hold him while you can
And you show me
How it is to know a man
And it all seems right
When we talk through the night
How could I know
How this would go?
It's a first for me
It's a pain I need
It's too good to be
Please don't leave
Please don't leave
So I let go
Moments at a time
'Cause I know soon
I am losing what is mine
But I say too much
To justify your touch
How could I know
How this would go
It's a first for me
It's a pain I need
It's too good to be
Please don't leave
It's a first for me
It's a pain I need
It's too good to be
Please don't leave
Please don't leave
What's
Good
You take the words right out of me
But it feels alright, to let this be
And I know what I want
But I know what I'll lose
Finding this is hard
Fighting this is new
Tell me why good things die
Stay the night
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like, more than you do
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like to
I say it hurts to know you'll leave
But I'm scared to show how much it means
And I know what I want
But I know what I'll lose
Finding this is hard
Fighting this is new
Tell me why good things die
Stay the night
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like, more than you do
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like to
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like, more than you do
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like
I do want you
The Hand You Deal
Save your breath, don't say you care
I'm dumb, I'm deaf
You broke me there
Of all I've known, our pain is real
But I try to hold the hand you deal
Though I sleep alone, I don't walk alone
And I've come to know what I need
And I don't grow these days
There's something in my way
But I don't try to wait
There's nothing in my day
That I wanna replace
I'm scared to know how long I'll love
The time I've seen you rise above
Though I sleep alone, I don't walk alone
And I've come to know what I need
And I don't grow these days
There's something in my way
But I don't try to wait
There's nothing in my day
And I don't grow these days
There's something in my way
But I don't try to wait
There's nothing in my day
That I wanna replace
More Than You Know
It's taken me a while to say
Everything I wanna do here
'Cause lately I've felt a change
Maybe there's a truth to fear
And it's all because of you
And I'll fight it 'cause you ask me too
And I'm losing something good
And I'm doing this for you
More than you could ever know
More than you could ever know
And all I have to do is trust
Everything will be okay
You tell me it'll work for us
And now you have to go away
And it's all because of you
And I'll fight it 'cause you ask me too
And I'm losing something good
And I'm doing this for you
And it's all because of you
And I'll fight it 'cause you ask me too
And I'm losing something good
And I'm doing this for you
More than you could ever know
More than you could ever know
More than you could ever know
More than you could ever know
More than you could ever know
On Hold
I was on hold
Tired and getting cold
So I put my love to bed
Everything told
Scared to be alone
So you took my hand and said
Come inside I'll make your mind up
All this pain is gold
Come inside you'll be surprised at all there's yet to know
I was on hold
High becoming low
But it helps to kill my time
Out of control
Tied to what I'm told
So you match your step with mine
Come inside I'll make your mind up
All this pain is gold
Come inside you'll be surprised at all you have to hold
Come inside I'll make your mind up
All this pain is gold
Come inside you'll be surprised at all you have to hold
Top To Toe
Tell me it's the best for us
Stake away the truth because
Sleeping top to toe with me
Isn't what it used to be
So I'm changing all my days to make your night
It's just not right
And you tell me I'm a child
And take my light
To smoke your mind
But I don't smile like before
And you take him to your bed
It's all been said
You need this more
Tell me I'm a time you'll miss
Feelings always change like this
But you are all the words I need
To explain myself
It seems
So I'm changing all my days
To make your night
It's just not right
And you tell me I'm a child
And take my light
To smoke your mind
But I don't smile like before
And you take him to your bed
It's all been said
You need this more
Please don't go I need you
"Take control," you tell me
Please don't go I need you
Take control
So I'm changing all my days to make your night
It's just not right
And you tell me I'm a child
And take my light
To smoke your mind
But I don't smile like before
And you take him to your bed
It's all been said
You need this more
Won't you take me to your bed
I should have said
I need you more
Bud
Holding it close, this time
Tell me of her, I'm fine
You'll never know what you do to me
All that we have won't grow
Falling is hard, I know
You make it so easy, believe me
And it's on my mind and I'd like to talk things through
and you're on my mind though I know I'll never do
Holding my tongue, it's real
Tell me the truth, I'll heal
Taking it slow before you go
And it's on my mind and I'd like to talk things through
And you're on my mind though I know I'll never do (on my mind)
And it's on my mind and I'd like to talk things through
And you're on my mind though I know I'll never do for you
You're all that I want and more
I'd say but I know your sort
I wish I could be someone you need
You need
And it's on my mind and I'd like to talk things through
And you're on my mind though I know I'll never do (on my mind)
And it's on my mind and I'd like to talk things through
And you're on my mind though I know I'll never do for you
Do for you
Brother
My mother's son
He can see that I'm done
With a world that took more than it gave
When we were young
And we rose for the sun
Did you ever think twice about this game?
'Cause you're my brother
I know you from before
Before we both were born
And you're my other
Never asking more
Taking all the falls
Grown in a place
We were shown to make space
For the good, the humble and the kind
Then until now
You could always see how
I was scared when I felt myself unwind
'Cause you're my brother
I know you from before
Before we both were born
And you're my other
Never asking more
Taking all the falls
And you're my brother
I know you from before
Before we both were born
And you're my other
Never asking more
Taking all the falls
I know you from before
For A While
Leaving it all unsaid
Keeping it quiet instead
You know that I won't explain
Cause I've grown to need this pain
You tell me it's good for now
I'll heal but I don't know how
Safe in the way we touch
But it hurts to feel this much
And they say that it goes so I hope that it shows
You are all that I've known for a while
And I'm coming up slow and I'm thinking of home
But you're all that I've known for a while
Spending our nights awake
Silent for both our sake
Hold me until I'm strong
Cause I'll miss this when you're gone
And they say that it goes so I hope that it shows
You are all that I've known for a while
And I'm coming up slow and I'm thinking of home
But you're all that I've known for a while
I'd tell you but I can't
Please don't make this hard
Time is all I want
So speak the words I won't
And they say that it goes so I hope that it shows
You are all that I've known for a while
And I'm coming up slow and I'm thinking of home
But you're all that I've known for a while
Car Park
(Overflow)
I wonder if you saw that I was
Sorry for the beating of my heart
When it woke you in the car park
And maybe I should tell you
That I've villainised by body for too long
Would it help you find excuses to move on?
Like I needed more excuses to be stronger
I'm no mother
But I've done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don't believe in luck so I am giving up
I hope to find a reason
For my fear of feelings leaving at the start
It makes my sleeping harder
I don't know much about you
So I'm trying not to doubt you, but in time
I know you'll let me down and that is fine
A feeling I can't shake, it's getting stronger
I'm no mother
But I've done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don't believe in luck
I don't believe in much
Leave it all to trust or start to give it up
BREACH
To Be a Woman Pt.
1
To be a woman
They hold over me
I'll be a woman
Fuck falling apart
Did I dare
Did I dare
Don't be scared of me
Got him in the back of the head
To be a woman
Don't be scared of me
Don't be scared of
Alapathy
What's your secret for living long
Doing alright never felt so wrong
I lose my mind under the glow of a temporary fade
Validate my fervency
To be so bound never looked so free
Allopathic remedies for now
Two doors down from a deafening sound
I didn't need it til I knew it was gone
Now I move along in distraction
Tolerate my distance, dear
Touch your tongue to my ringing ear
Iterate my scream, we can share a reaction
Mine is a light you can see all night
All the dogs are down, are down
Rearranging endlessly
I saw oblivion at capacity
We should go sometime
Elevate my urgency
When it all breaks down you're a lot like me
Separate your skin just to feel it a fraction
Mine is a light you can see all night
All the dogs are down
All the dogs are down, are down
My light is a light you can see all night
Was I born to be living this way
(Is she listening)
Your light is a light I need alright
Iterate your dream for me
How it goes sometimes
I'm a ghost sometimes
Berlin
Listen to the siren call, it's crying
Bleeding on a foreign floor, slow dying
It's not hard to be alone anymore
Though I'm sleeping with my key in the door
Run until your lungs are sore, ash flying
You're looking like you want it more but you're lying
And it's not hard to be alone anymore
Though you're waking to a day you ignore
And it's not hard to be alone anymore
It's not hard to be alone anymore
It's not hard to be alone anymore
It's not hard to be alone anymore
It's not hard to be alone anymore
It's not hard to be alone anymore
Listen to the siren call, it's crying
Elliott
Elliott remember to forget
Everyone you ever wanted to be is dying the same death
And you'll learn
And you'll burn by different fire
Elliott, what do you have in mind?
Filling in the background of a little choir
Are you hoping that he'll see and come home?
Hold your knuckles in your teeth and leave your light on
He was always gonna be
Apparition of a demon heat
Wherever you hide
She was always gonna leave
You can see her in a dream
Whenever you like
I, Nietzsche
You threw me up against a wall, my hair was longer
Now we talk less if at all
I rarely get that hunger anymore
You're breaking up a fight in a bar
A mind, a body screaming are you satisfied?
I laugh about it now
And there's nothing wrong with I, Nietzsche
I spend my life lying down
And there's nothing wrong but I, Nietzsche
I'm looking for a reason to drown
I'm high on two day sheets
Home is where I brush my teeth
I get sick on second best
You get off to God is dead
And there's nothing wrong with I, Nietzsche
I spend my life lying down
And there's nothing wrong but I need you
I'm looking for a reason to drown
And there's nothing wrong with I, Nietzsche
I spend my life lying down
And there's nothing wrong but I need you
I'm looking for a reason to drown
And there's nothing wrong with I, Nietzsche
I spend my life lying down
And there's nothing wrong but I need you
I'm looking for a reason to drown
I'm looking for a reason
Birthday
You sent me a head on my birthday
You said it was made with love
It made me laugh
We talked about getting married
And now I hate your guts but I can't shut up
I got too drunk with your band
Told the truth about that show
You never let it go
Still you had my back on the sidewalk
I never used that word till I tried to be in your world
You're telling me I'm in your head like it's a good thing
Telling me she's in your bed like it was nothing
You're telling me I'm in your head like it's a good thing
Telling me she's in your bed like it was nothing
This get up and go
It's rearranging everyone I know
I didn't want to be saved
But you tried anyway
You're telling me I'm in your head like it's a good thing
Telling me she's in your bed like it was nothing
You're telling me I'm in your head like it's a good thing
Telling me she's in your bed like it was nothing
You're telling me I'm in your head like it's a good thing
Telling me she's in your bed like it was nothing
You sent me a head on my birthday
Blood Moon
Blood moon
So soon
Soak rooms with your eyes, eyes
Fortune like a slow zoom
Watching as I ride
Water by my side
Blood moon
Gone soon
Soak rooms with your eyes
Solipsism
All these people walk so slow
Do they know something I don't?
Focus on a foreign feeling
Unashamed and unappealing
Run on empty at one and twenty
Checking up to check I'm breathing
Sign in blood to keep it beating
What is it you want to shake?
Solipsism keeps me wide awake
I'm empty at one and twenty
All these people walk so slow
Do they know something I don't?
Focus on a foreign feeling
Unashamed and unappealing
Run on empty at one and twenty
I Used To Hate My Body
But Now I Just Hate You
I met you in November for a weekend
I loved you by December like a fool
You left me for a friend over the summer
I never had a chance to play it cool
I read all of the books you recommended
I listen to your friend's band all the time
You justify and satiate my hunger
For not feeling alright
I misread every warning as an answer
To questions I was too afraid to know
We touched upon a suicide like tourists
You kiss me for an elevator audience, pack your things and go
When I'm lonely I smoke until I know how to sleep
So fine me, the bath is running cold but it's deep
Finish what we started in a hotel with a view
I used to hate my body but now I just hate you
You call me while I'm backstage with a fever
You tell me how I'm always on your mind
I crush a paper bag to the receiver
I learned that trick from a cartoon kid, it's always something I wanted to try
I heard you live at home now with your parents
It doesn't satisfy me like it should
I still see you as some kind of reassurance
That someday I'll be understood
When I'm lonely I smoke until I know how to sleep
So fine me, the bath is running cold but it's deep
Finish what we started in a hotel with a view
I used to hate my body but now I just hate you
But I'm lonely I smoke until I know how to sleep
So fine me, the bath is running cold but it's deep
Finish what we started in a hotel with a view
I used to hate my body
Someone Else's
Trees
We say alright
You need an ok
All the same
You don't belong with them
And still you stay
If I could say
When you were small
That you would grow to be so bold
Don't pray
Turn away
I flew in over clouds that couldn't catch me if I fell
And I told them I would call but there isn't much to tell
'Cause I'm always scared of leaving and then when I arrive
I'm distracted by existences now parallel to mine
I'm not afraid to die more so to be alive
I know in this and more I'm not alone
And I never heard you scream before the night I couldn't breathe
You tell me now you thought that I was gone
You thought that I was gone
You thought that I was gone
I was five and I was gone
She's sitting down beside me
I'm turning down my page
But it's silently decided that I'll stay
I'm hers until the sun comes up on someone else's trees
When I'm clean I'll move along
I'm not afraid to die more so to be alive
I know in this and more I'm not alone
And I never heard you scream before the night I couldn't breathe
You tell me now you thought that I was gone
You thought that I was gone
You thought that I was gone
Sometimes I wish I'd gone
Please don't be long
Don't let this go on and on
Please don't stay in me
Please don't be long
Don't let this go on and on
Laundry and Jetlag
I gave up smoking when I was coughing up blood
And when I felt better again I took it straight back up
Making and breaking, new habits forming
Not all propensities come with a warning
Like you
I'm letting you talk and you're letting me down
Should've got used to excuses by now
They get a good show, you get a day job
I need to find and believe in a better god
Than you
Washing my clothes as soon as I'm home
Ridding myself of the dirt from the road
Losing the smell of the smoke and the bars
Stains go away but I'm left with the scars
Of you
Of you
Big Picture
Map Of Japan
I never asked you to change
And you're treating me like I did
The more I'm thinking about it
Maybe I should've started
Figuring out this life
Without giving it a good try
It's not working out this time
But you're putting up a pretty good fight
We never could make a good plan
Even when we weren't that busy
I framed you a map of Japan
If I ever go I'm taking you with me
'Cause you're getting tired
Of looking at the same old sky
And I'm getting tired
Of feeling like the same old guy
We never like coming home
For opposite reasons
Been feeling like I'm never alone
For long enough to notice the seasons
And I'm getting tired
Of looking at the same old sky
And you're getting tired
Say "honey so am I"
Dawncolored Horse
I met a girl on runaway ground
Talked like she knew me with a welcoming sound
We said a lot and nothing at all
And time was dripping from the God on the wall
She found a room to be all by herself
Up seven storeys like a doll on a shelf
Counting the days down 1 2 3 4
Nobody's looking 'cept the God on the wall
And he'll let you go
Oh and he'll let you down
So it's alright if you don't want a shoulder
If you don't wanna get over it all
And it's alright if you don't wanna remember
That nothing's forever after all
Hear Roll On Babe from '74
When the wheel won't turn you won't turn anymore
You'll do a lot and nothing at all
Read what I've written to your God on the wall
And he'll let you go
Oh and he'll let you down
So it's alright if you don't want a shoulder
If you don't wanna get over it all
And it's alright if you don't wanna remember
That nothing's forever after all
When you're unsettled
Find your breathing castle
Double lives extricably tied
So it's alright I can be a shoulder
I can be a way out of it all
And it's alright if you wanna remember
That nothing's forever after all
Lights Light Up
It took a lot of me to get back up from sleeping
All my weight, the pressure and the floor
There isn't more in a waking day than dreaming
Or so I thought
You came to me at the speed of a bad decision
Just the speed, the bad not so much
We held each other while everything burned up 'round us
And inside of me, too
That's called love
The traffic lights light up as we stand kissing
And the car horns play along
And though the sign says stop and look and listen
We don't do that shit anymore
And he said "So, do you ever wanna leave here?"
And she said "Well, that depends on the day"
And he said "Oh, do you even wanna be here?"
And she said "Well that depends on the way"
I guess we never really had that much in common
'Cept the days the nights and the cold
And though we don't really talk about it often
The fear of this getting old
You didn't listen when I told you I'm no dancer
Now I dance alone all the time
In the same room where I learned about the cancer
And you just held your head to mine
And you said "So, do you ever wanna leave here?"
And I said "Well, that depends on the day"
And you said "Oh, do you even wanna be here?"
And I said "Well, that depends on the way"
2+2
Someone put a letter through my door
Talking about some guy called Jesus
I put it on my refrigerator
Who knows some day I might need it
They believe in him like I believe in you
Baby it's as simple as 2+2
I guess we don't really know what we're looking for
'Til we have everything and still want more
In-flight movies always make me cry
Something about being in motion
The earth below me is a reason why
As much as any word being spoken
Sometimes I wish I could be more like you
It's not always as simple as 2+2
I guess I don't really know what I'm waiting for
I could have everything and still want more
Would you defend me like a point of view
Even when both are changing
Do you believe me like the gospel truth
Or is the feeling fading
It's not always as easy as I love you
Not always as simple as 2+2
I guess I don't really know what I'm looking for
You shut your eyes and I shut my door
Please
Hear me out
Please
Hear me out
Please
Hear me out
Please
Hear me out
Superglued
I was in the business of letting go
Then you came around and put me out of the job
And my misery at the same time
Now you live here and so do I
Not together, though
You're asking me all the time to reconsider
I don't think I can
Though I've been trying
I've been trying
Now seven years away from that concrete pond
Filling up my throat
It taught me less of the world than who is in it
And yeah I never knew you
And that's changing
But I'm changing, too
At the same time
When you met me I was all in black
Now I have that sugar light I never wanna go back
But you know me better than a carpet knows the floor
Guess I won't be coming home to you anymore
Superglued
Soon brand new
Superglued
Good as new
Superglued
Soon brand new
Superglued
Good as new
Henry
Henry
If you've got something more to say
I read my night away and came up with nothing
I'm alright getting myself home, I'm sure
Won't fall off like before
Wrong side of train tracks at speed
That's on me
Two more days of a space that can't be filled
I tried my best, but still, the accident threw me
Rumoured fire outside where I left my drink
Bleeding in the restaurant sink
Took pictures for you while the porcelain's spinning with pink
Stay up with me
If you've got a light, I've got something
To make you feel nothing
It's fine with me
If you wanna make an excuse
And wake up away from this bruise
Miller
The art of biography
Built you a mystery
I hear you're defending
So suckle up, me the harbour, you the man
Show me a better plan
The wrong side of train tracks at speed
Please, stay up with me
If you've got a night, I've got nothing on
Make me feel something
Stay to see
All of my colour's been used
I'm a picture in blues, I'm a bruise
I'm a bruise
Pick
Did I pick a bad time to love you?
Did I pick a bad time to arrive?
Did I pick a bad time to show you?
It's not a bad time to be alive
Did I pick a bad time to write you?
Is it ever a good time to address
That a skimming stone without you
Is a stone still?
Let it rest
Call me if you need me, I'll be around
Call me if you're thinking of going forever
Did she pick a bad time to have you?
Did he pick a bad time to leave?
They'd be a little lost without you
Is there enough time for you to see
That love is a delicate string
That you lend and carry around
When is it unravelling
When's it just rewound?
Call me if you need me, I'll be around
Nothing is the one thing that goes on forever
In My Own Time
In my own time I'll get a little older
The wind is in the chimes
In my own time I'll write until I know you
In bold and underline
In my own time I'll brighten up the corners
Temporarily
Fix up the paint and straighten all the pictures
That hang around like me
Just like you're talking with an old friend
End at the start and you start at the end
Write me a love song make it all rhyme
Hold me up sometimes we'll be just fine
Listening to our neighbours in the garden
Grow their family tree
Sometimes I feel like I'm just killing time here
Or maybe it's killing me
Just like you're talking with an old friend
End at the start and you start at the end
Write me a love song make it all rhyme
Hold me up sometimes we'll be just
Just like we're talking with an old friend
End at the start and we'll start at the end
Write me a love song make it all rhyme
Hold me up sometimes we'll be just fine
Red Deer Day
For the longest time I've imagined I
Am alone and now it's real
Didn't know how it'd feel
Now I picture us as we once were
Lying side by side and breathless
Thinking all this time was endless
I'm alright or I will be in time
I'm alright
The time we took acid in the woods
I was so in love with everything
I put it down to oxygen in my brain
You felt the same
Told you I'm alright with a small life
And that wasn't a word of a lie at the time
Tell your brother I'll be alright
Or that I will be in time
In time
I don't have words for this new verse
Probably something about you again
Wanna call and get your thoughts on it
But I don't 'cause we're not in love
As of really really recently
Still trying to get used to it
I'm alright or I will be in time
I'm alright
I'm alright or I will be in time
I'm alright
Just because it hasn't gone to plan
Doesn't mean it's gone to waste
Picture me whatever way you can
Remembering has a place
Picture me whatever way you can
Remember me as a place
I'm alright or I will be in time
I'm alright
I'm alright or I will be in time
I'm alright
Half Finished
On the train home from two days away from you
I play the start of your half-finished song
I try figuring out what you're singing about
I hope it's not something I've done
Watching the world outside moving too fast
Makes me wonder if we are as well
I told you I love you and mean it completely
I just can't say the same to myself
I have insomnia you have a job
That you hate, four to five days a week
You're gone when I wake up at midday to bright light
That tells me I'm lazy and weak
You ask me if I could change one thing about myself
What would it be, and why?
I tell you I don't know but sometimes
I can't help but picture a whole different life
We miss every sunset we set out to see
Under birds flying south from the cold
They make it look easy to move with the seasons
But change isn't easy to hold
If you get the feeling like this ain't worth keeping
I'll never stand in your way
Thank you for leaving a space without speaking
Sometimes there's just nothing to say
He's got tickets to see a band no one knows
She's got my name on a shirt that she's never worn, and won't
They've got a fear of things changing but I don't mind
I made no promises that I would stay but I'll try
He's got tickets to see a band no one knows
She's got my name on a shirt that she's never worn, and won't
They've got a fear of things changing but I don't mind
You made no promises that you would stay but you tried
He's got tickets to see a band no one knows
She's got my name on a shirt that she's never worn, and won't
They've got a fear of things changing but I don't mind
I made no promises that I would stay but I'll try
Dial Tone
(Big Picture Expanded Edition Bonus Track)
Say goodbye to what you know
I've been unhappy
But not in the way that you are expecting when you listen
Steady as a dial tone
I'm the best liar I know and I know a few
Like when I say I had a great day
My room has the clearest view of nothing
Though that's nothing new
I don't wanna wait up
I don't wanna get older
Everyone I love will leave
And I'll cry on whose shoulder
I wanna see you wake up
I wanna see you get well
I wanna see your whole life
And I never will
Recognise your face in cars
You're always smiling
I hope you're happy where you are finally and always
'Cause we're all trying
I don't wanna wait up
I don't wanna get older
Everyone I love will leave
And I'll cry on whose shoulder
I wanna see you wake up
I wanna see you get well
I wanna see your whole life
And I never will
Hollywood And Fear
(Big Picture Expanded Edition Bonus Track)
You're always on my mind even when I think you're not
Were you there the night I felt the thought begin to cross
Hold me in your arms like someday you know you won't
When it's hard
Both the places we come from are tangled up in blue
To clear a path we walk down arm in arm is all I do
But I count the pain of every day like pennies in a jar
And it's hard
Since before I learnt to, I've believed in an idea
I don't blame you, I don't blame me, I blame Hollywood and fear
We said a lot and settled on, the door's closed but it's here
This is hard, this is hard
Am I getting better or am I doing time
Am I holding on to your life more tightly than to mine
Do I want to be right or to be kind
Maybe if this really is the end I'll see you there
Maybe we can help each other feel like once we cared
To the swimming song, chlorine my eyes but keep it fair
'Cause it's hard, 'cause it's hard
Am I getting better or am I doing time
Am I holding on to your life more tightly than to mine
Do I want to be right or to be
Getting better or am I doing fine
Am I holding on to your life more tightly than to mine
Do I want to be right or to be kind
Cathedral
(Big Picture Expanded Edition Bonus Track)
Heavy breathing and a burning car
Sit for a minute with the headlights off
Come on, man, what are you waiting for
Nothing changes in a place like this
Put all your money on a shot that missed
And everyone else has got a wife and kids
You never wanted that and then you did but
Come on, man, what are you waiting for
One day passes then a hundred more
When they leave they leave nothing at all
Nothing at all
Love is easy with the TV on
Listen to voices coming through the walls
Something about the way they rise and fall
Makes you feel like you could've had it all so
Come on, man, what are you waiting for
One day passes then a hundred more
When they leave they leave nothing at all
Nothing at all
4
(Big Picture Expanded Edition Bonus Track)
Someone put a letter through my door
Talking about some guy called Jesus
I put it on my refrigerator
Who knows some day I might need it
They believe in him like I believe in you
Baby it's as simple as 2+2
I guess we don't really know what we're looking for
'Til we have everything and still want more
In-flight movies always make me cry
Something about being in motion
The earth below me is a reason why
As much as any word being spoken
Sometimes I wish I could be more like you
It's not always as simple as 2+2
I guess I don't really know what I'm waiting for
I could have everything and still want more
Would you defend me like a point of view
Even when both are changing
Do you believe me like the gospel truth
Or is the feeling fading
It's not always as easy as I love you
Not always as simple as 2+2
I guess I don't really know what I'm looking for
You shut your eyes and I shut my door
Please
Hear me out
Please
Non Albums Tracks
Christmas Alone
You sleep the whole drive
When you wake up we're home
And I hold you in both arms to me
Under my coat
It's the same coming back
As it is every year
But somehow the house I grew up in
Feels brand new just having you here
Snow angels in the garden
Even without the snow
You made the impossible possible
How could I know it'd get this cold
I want the same thing now that I did back then
I want it to go on forever, never end
I wanna give you something you won't wanna give away
I wanna be home just us together just today
You didn't feel gone
Til this Christmas alone
No one to keep warm
No one to kiss under mistletoe
'Cause you're miles away now
Maybe you always were
But I think of you sometimes
Like when I hear songs about peace on earth
I want the same thing now that I did back then
I want it to go on forever, never end
I wanna give you something you won't wanna give away
I wanna be home just us together just today
I wanna be home just us together on Christmas day
Hypochondriac
These conversations I have with myself
Only as hard as I make them
These complications I have with my health
Only go as far as I take them
So leave it out
We're all sick of waiting for a moment to stop and sleep it off
All instigators of a terrible touch
Caught my eye and then they threw it back
And these are trying times but I'll get by in my machine
Oh man it hurt so bad I don't feel anything
So leave it out
We're all sick of waiting for a moment to stop and sleep it off
I'm freaking out
Now I'm sick and waiting for a moment to stop and not feel so much
Look alive
Look alive
Look alive
Look alive
So leave it out
We're all sick of waiting for a moment to leave it out
So leave it out
We're all sick of waiting for a moment to stop and sleep it off
I'm freaking out
Now I'm sick and waiting for a moment to stop and not feel so much
In The Bleak
Midwinter
(based on "A Christmas Carol", a poem by Christina
Rossetti)
In the bleak midwinter frosty winds made moan
Earth stood hard as iron. Water like a stone
Snow had fallen, snow on snow, snow on snow
In the bleak midwinter, long ago
Angels and archangels may have gathered there
Cherubim and seraphim thronged the air
But His mother only, in her maiden bliss
Worshipped the beloved with a kiss
What can I give Him, poor as I am
If I were a shepherd, I would bring a lamb
If I were a wise man, I would do my part
Yet what can I give Him
Give my heart
Give my heart
Give my heart
Give my heart
Give my heart
Leave A Light On
Once was enough
Realised everything turns to dust
Everything to dust
I lied in your words
When you said everyone has to go
Everybody goes
When the night is falling I can barely look in your eyes
I wanna say a thousand things that I could never describe
I wanted everything to never end
Can we start again and leave a light on
Leave a light on
I waited every day, you never came
To set it straight, I'll leave a light on
Leave a light on
Her face in a crowd
Faded now but I can't figure out
I can't figure out
Alone with the smell
Of your hands, never was enough
Never was enough
When the night is falling I can barely look in your eyes
I wanna say a thousand things that I could never describe
I wanted everything to never end
Can we start again and leave a light on
Leave a light on
I waited every day, you never came
To set it straight, I'll leave a light on
Leave a light on
Every time I look in your eyes
I know that you're the only one I can call
Do you realise that for me
You never really went at all
I wanted everything to never end
Can we start again and leave a light on
Leave a light on
I waited every day, you never came
To set it straight, I'll leave a light on
Light on
Taken
(Muna Cover)
Pulled up a quarter to eleven
Waited a minute till you went in
We talked and then we stopped talking
Put on a song and we listened
You know that I make you nervous
I do it half on purpose
You know that I think you're precious
Yeah, I think you're a good person
So why do I wanna blow up your life?
I'll be a very good girl
I won't even think about it
You know you'd said I can't help it
I know you said you have a girlfriend
I just want it if it's taken
(If it's taken)
Dad left when I was eleven
Mom said it was 'cause he couldn't
Keep from touching other women
Some things have a way of sticking
And now I'm standing in your kitchen
You said you told her you were leaving
And I can't help thinking
I hate you because you're just like him
So why do I have to blow up your life?
I'll be a very good girl
I won't even think about it
I'm just feeling like I can't help it
I know you said you have a girlfriend
I just want it, I just thought that
If I could take it from her
Maybe then it would prove that I'm worth something
Now I'm alone and I'm hurt
Wishing I'd taken you at your word
When you said that you were taken
I'll be a very good girl
I won't even think about it
You know you'd said "I can't help it"
I know you said you have a girlfriend
I just want it if it's taken
I know you said you have a girlfriend
I just want it if it's taken
The
Desperate Kingdom Of Love
(PJ Harvey Cover / With Max Jury)
Oh love, you were a sickly child
And how the wind knocked you down
Put on your spurs, swagger around
In the desperate kingdom of love
Holy water cannot help you now
Your mysterious eyes cannot help you
Selling your reason will not bring you through
The desperate kingdom of love
There's another who looks
From behind your eyes
I learn from you how to hide
From the desperate kingdom of love
At the end of this burning world
You'll stand proud, face upheld
And I'll follow you, into heaven or hell
And I'll become as a girl
In the desperate kingdom of love
To Be A Woman Pt.
2
1, 2, 3, don't breathe until I wanna come back
He came home
He came home alive
He came home alive
Tell me do you like it like that
When the moon shines light on a cruel disguise he'll cut you like a panic attack
Oh, don't you let him
Oh, don't you let him
Handshake your namesake while you're lying in the street
She's a liar and a cheat
With a killer's eyes
With a killer's eyes
Surrender to a chemical sleep
Not a screaming rush, not a feeling touch
An ephemeral lover you can't keep
Oh, don't you let him
Oh, don't you let him
Turn down the birds (How does it feel to be alive)
Turn down the bed (How does it feel to be a lie)
Turn down the words (How does it feel to be alive)
Turn down my head (I wanna lie in the dark with you)
Turn down the birds (How does it feel to be alive)
Turn down the bed (How does it feel to be a lie)
Turn down the words (How does it feel to be alive)
Turn down my head (3, 2, 1, you should run)
Oh, don't you let him
Oh, don't you let him
1, 2, 3, don't breathe until I wanna come back
He came home
He came home alive
Unfucktheworld
(Angel Olsen Cover)
I quit my dreaming the minute that I found you
I started dancing just to be around you
Here's to thinking that it all meant so much more
I kept my mouth shut and opened up the door
I wanted nothing but for this to be the end
For this to never be a tied and empty hand
If all the trouble in my heart would only mend
I lost my dream, I lost my reason all again
It's not just me for you, I have to look out, too
I have to save my life, I have no peace of mind
I am the only one now, I am the only one now
I am the only one now, I am the only one now
You may not be around, you may not be around
You may not be around, you may not be around
I wanted nothing but for this to be the end
For this to never be a tied and empty hand
If all the trouble in my heart would only mend
I lost my dream, I lost my reason all again
I quit my dreaming the minute that I found you
