B i o g r a p h y ( by official site )
This year Halou celebrates 11 years as a band and returns with their most compelling work to date, Wholeness and Separation. Although It has been several years since their last release on Nettwerk Records [”Wiser” 2001], the band has hardly been dormant. The past few years have been spent using their production skills to help sculpt the sound of such artists as DJ Shadow, Lyrics Born, Frank Sinatra, Blackalicious, John Cale, Low, No Doubt and even a Rod Stewart remix which hit #1 on Billboard. In addition, Halou has scored 2 successful award winning films “This Girl's Life” starring James Woods and “Quality of Life”. Throughout all of this, the band has still found the time to create their finest album. Halou's debut album, 'We Only Love You', was released in 1999 on Bedazzled Records. Featuring Rebecca's stunningly honest and vibrant vocals, the album wove its way through abstract beats and sumptuously languid electronic pop music. 'We Only Love You' received overwhelming praise, and was championed by influential independent radio stations such as Seattle's KEXP and LA's KCRW while earning endearing reviews by noteworthy US press. Halou continued to craft and hone their unique sound for their second release, 'Wiser', released on Nettwerk Records in October 2001. The album further defined the band's talent and penchant for breadth and surprise in their sound –crushing and delicate, electronic and organic, intense and soothing. The addition of strings, incisive drums, and a host of additional live instruments further explored Halou's masterful juxtaposition of the sensual and the technical. 'Wiser' was entirely produced by Halou. On this release, Count established himself as an integral component of Halou, not only as studio engineer and mixer, but also as a drummer. His production skills have been finely tuned through his work with the above mentioned artists as well as RUN DMC, New Order, No Doubt, and many more. Halou's newest recording, 'Wholeness and Separation', has fully realized the delicate balance of organic and electronic that Ryan, Rebecca and Count have coaxed from their minds and hearts. Luxurious strings, atmospheric textures, inventive electronics, and heartfelt vocals stretch this sonic collage across the spectrum of human emotion. Don't miss their compelling, completely live performance which features live drums, cello, bass, guitar, various electronics, Rebecca's mesmerizing vocals, all set to the backdrop of short films fully synchronized to the performance. For current tour dates and other news, check www.halou.com.
Intro (Instrumental) Drive Heroine Celcius Crushed out Smiling goodbye (Instrumental) Dog dreams Caroline Let me stay here Stereopticon (Instrumental) Snakefeet Shameless They bite Julie laughs out loud No one else will sing to me Asleep - dreaming
Halfbreath Loop in blue Ifish La mer Clip (Instrumental) Present tense It was safer when you were near You are one of us Feeling this is like to fall awake I'll carry you Blue eye smile girl Half gifts
Present tense Lovesong Half gifts I'll carry you two Blue eye smile girl Words You are one of us I'll carry you Dog dreams Heroine They bite
Milkdrunk Wiser Him to Me to You Political I'll Carry You Before There Was Color Oceanwide I Would Love to Give Up Feeling This is Like to Fall Awake We Only Love You Arryhthmia
Umani Drive Asleep in the house With cars that drive by Roll on to your destination As we kick up dust Into the evening sky Roll on to your destination And what would you do If i could follow Will you drive by here tomorrow Can you see me in the sky If i could pick one car to follow Do you think you'd mind My pillow thinks About as much as i And we wonder where you're going And the cars keep coming In an endless supply Why are you all in such a hurry If i could you know i'd follow you I don't care who you are Heroine It's just like you to change Just when i got used to things So that every word i say Gets turned around And thrown in my face I held onto the words that you said Like they were of my own flesh How much was truth and were lies I may never know will i And i will never follow you Though i may look up to you And i take my breath from you These are the signs of life It's just like you to say Luck has not been convenient And she should change her schedule And pen me in for a week or two But old lady luck never did She hung you out to dry You're my heroine I won't go down with you, will i Celsius Silently brimmming with expectation I humbly carry your torch as i go Keeping you with me Inside my thoughts now Brings doubts fro the future There were none before Feelings like these Should be measured iby degrees I keep my heart pinned to my sleeve So i can see just where it is I keep my eyes safe in my mouth So i can see the words People will watch when they Think they see horror The most fatal wounds Are those not visible Translucent feelings How can one measure How can we gauge What we can't even see In degrees of celsius Crushed out I won't let you bother me You'll never know what i am thinking I won't get angry because I cannot feel anything My patience has been tried Too many times beyond my counting Now you yell at me I cannot hear you anymore I will take care of things With all of what i am I cannot gaurantee I'll do as well again Ever since this started Anger has become my mother Superego has died Because she has taken over My body hums from inside I don't know what i am doing I must control my hands So that you can continue breathing Dog dreams Dark girl sits innocent Caged songs sing in her head Sweet breeze blows, it's springtime Dark girl stays pale inside You're lots to look at Nothing to see You say so much But i can't hear Your eyes are green When i'm in blue And i don't care Dark boy plays sad dark song Won't go out without black on Dark boy loves his guitar best Dark girl feels so jealous And all this time she's hanging on She only wants to see him Though she feels so much for him He only wants to fuck her Dark girl looks much like me She lives in my dogs dreams She hides her true feelings A million miles from me Just give me a little time Give me a little space Help me clear my mind And get out of this place Caroline Caroline Tossed around and left behind Like a child Rescued always just in time So unkind Some may say you never tried Caroline Sleeping now and flying blind Into dreams not good enought for you And things you never wanted, too Come on girl you'll be just fine My sweet sister caroline Caroline Thoughts so dark in an open mind They were right You left one day without a sign And all those lies You always were the jealous type Caroline Sleeping now and flying blind Into dreams not good enough for you If you held your breath you'd make it through Let me stay here You don't have to know You don't have to care You don't have to know About anything or anyone anymore You are released of responsibility You don't have to care But i hope you want to Like i do Snakefeet I know what you did And i know who you did it with Tonight you can rest assured You won't do shit like that anymore Revenge is sweet Revenge will be so sweet If i'm going down You're going down with me And i will make sure everyone Knows exactly what you've done All those hurtful things you said And all those thoughtless things you did Shameless I am so perfectly clumsy and lonely And i'm chained to the fear of what i think you think Like it's always about me So i take a deep breath as i walk in the party And forget that i never wear the right thing Just pretend you're someone else That you're gorgeous and shameless Just pretend you're someone else That you're perfect and shameeless And you'll say "so maybe i'm ugly i'm just like this Maybe i'm me i won't change it Do you think you can love me regardless Shameless and fabulous" I'm free from the burden of the world's opinion And i'm free for tonight of what i think of me But just for the moment I really had ought to get out more often I could quickly get used to feeling like this They bite It's not that i feel betrayed By the things that have been said It's just that i pick the wrong people To call my friends But the one thing i never expected Was something like this from you Now i will cut you out of my life The way you always do And i will miss your smile And i will miss your face And i will miss you around But things can't be the same And i have so many questions That i'd like to ask of you I would like some answers I think that's the least you could do The one thing that i can't understand Is how you would want to believe All those vicious rumours When you know my personality Julie laughs out loud Julie's eyes are brown Just the way her mother's were Other than that She doesn't look a thing like her Today is mother's day And julie prepares a cup of tea And sets it on the kitchen table Where her mother used to sit Julie laughs out loud Just the way her mother did But julie wouldn't know She never saw her laugh like this No one else will sing to me Don't be frightened When you're with me They can't hurt you You're in safety When you're with me Please don't be afraid They can't hurt you When they hear me They can't reach you Can't pass through me When you're with me Please don't be afraid And i know They cast a spell on you To make you think You weren't right You'll be alright Asleep and dreaming I love to watch you when you sleep What are you dreaming of With your face pressed in the sheets You're so beautiful If i died right now And could come back as anyone You know i'd pick you So i could be as wonderful I know you're asleep I hope you can hear me Carry this with you Wherever you go I love you The stars are shifting in their seats Soon the alarm will soud And we'll go our separate ways To the opposite ends of town It doesn't seem right That people who are in love Should spend all their time So very far away All those waking hours In separate buildings On opposite ends of town It's killing me If i never see the face Of that stupid sun again You know that i won't care You're an angel when you sleep And you're finally still Your lashes rest on your cheek Like the moon on the windowsill If i died right now And could give my sould to anyone You know i'd pick you We must be on to something
We only love you
Halfbreath Don't hold this against me Or take it wrong It seems like it could be Some of my fears are gone And i feel like something's changing Silently, you're sneaking in on me I'm open for brilliance and lucky fortune I'm hoping that you, too, Are similarly open And i feel resistance fading Silently, you're sneaking in on me And all we wanted was to be wanted We had to be needed, had to be needed And all needed was to be needed We had to be wanted, had to be wanted Excitement is mounting And overwhelming me I'm lacking in direction And objectivity And i feel like something's changing Silently, you're sneaking in on me
Loop in blue Must be something important To make your eyes this wide Must be something enormous You're all alone, who can you trust And we see sweat gather on your brow Makes you cynical And we see your eyes are getting dark Must be something important And i know we don't know What's on your mind But we know you'll make it through And though things may seem Much larger than life At least you know we're behind you Must be something important We must admit we're curious Must be something that's urgent I advise you confide in one of us And we see your heart is tied in knots We want to help you out And we see your not feeling quite yourself Must be something important
Ifish I know i talk too mu I know i laugh too loud Oh god, i did it to myself again Why can't i ever seem to change Kiss me now, kiss me now Empty i feel I can't see anything Outward from here Kiss me now, kiss now Empty i feel And i back myself into my corner Once again I know i have my faults I know i'm out of line I wish i could take it back I want to run and hide
La mer A perfectly symmetrical design Delicate, unaffected by the hands of time Can one know intentions Of what has created you Can one ever be certain That their perception is true Show me your inner workings I trust you implicitly This must be what gods are for Carry me across the water Hold my hands to meet horizons Things i'd never see alone This must be what gods are for Carry me across the water Could it be that i have been wrong Could it be the answers Have been here all along No look to make things awkward These things are understood With confidence it catches And we wish to god it would
Present tense And she was always so defensive Like nothing was ever her fault Or her responsibility And this is all i have left to hold A delicate balance has been exposed And now it towers around us all Just goes to show life is so fragile She used to smile when she'd say "it's all so meaningless, anyway So just forget, forget it" And she was always so morose Like this was all some bitter joke But no one was laughing And now when we speak about her We never use the present tense I guess that's what happens It was safer when you were near: Don't worry, it's not your fault I know, i saw it happen Don't worry, don't take the blame I would have done the same thing Don't listen to what it says Your mind is out to get you And anyone would do the same If they had to walk round in your shoes No matter what they do No matter what they say Don't let them bring you down You can't control what other people think How could you let them bring you down How could you know that things could End this way Don't you let them bring you down Don't worry, it's not your fault Anything could happen- and it will
It was safer when you were near Don't worry, it's not your fault I know, i saw it happen Don't worry, don't take the blame I would have done the same thing Don't listen to what it says Your mind is out to get you And anyone would do the same If they had to walk round in your shoes No matter what they do No matter what they say Don't let them bring you down You can't control what other people think How could you let them bring you down How could you know that things could End this way Don't you let them bring you down Don't worry, it's not your fault Anything could happen And it will
You are one of us Here we are- this is all of us Larger than we seem to be You are one of us Metal and cable and pixel and love This is all of us Silicon blinking and buttons and knobs This is all of us Escape yourself this moment Let us fill you in as our arms are wide And we only love you With all of what we will be You are part of this Let it take you in- we only love you Feel us- we're under your lungs You are one of us Feel us, we're all through your bones This is all of us Synthesized digital audio love You are one of us Electronic subsonic gifts from above This is all of us Feeling this is like to fall awake Can these be my hands Why won't they follow my commands Someone took my breath from me I can't see and i can't speak I had a dream you were a snake I guess this proves i knew you well I had a dream when i was falling down Until i landed under you Go to hell and leave me with The keys to your car Delia will drive me through the rain And it's just like you to pick the perfect time When i'm already down and there To kick a couple times You took everything i said And everything i did And everything i though was mine I feel like such a fool For having turned to you I didn't know that you could ever want To be so cruel And if there is a god, and if god is fair I know you will suffer (delia)
I'll carry you How does it feel To know that you are loved so much How does it feel to be accepted So completely How does it feel to know that you Mean everything to someone How does it feel to know that You're exactly what i wanted How does it feel To know that you are loved I love you more than you can see This is everything you are to me
Blue eye smile girl And now it all is clear Why i lose to blue eye smile girl With all that she has got All she lacks- a neon halo And when she laughs your heart opens And when she walks your eyes follow her Don't be too fast to slap your back For perfect perfect She may be on your arm And she has you- But you don't have her And don't pretend you didn't see What a fool i was, it's so obvious
Half-gifts (Cocteau Twins) It's an old game, my love When you can't have me, you want me Because you know That you're not risking anything Intimacy is when we're in the same place at the same time Dealing honestly with how we feel, and who we really are That's what grown-ups do That is mature thinking Well I'm still a junkie for it It takes me out of my aloneness But this relationship cannot sustain itself Intimacy is when we're in the same place at the same time Dealing honestly with how we feel, and who we really are That's what grown-ups do That is mature thinking I just have to know how to be in the process Of creating things in a better way And it hurts but it's a lie that I can't handle it I still have a world of me-ness to fulfill I still have a life, and it's a rich one even with mourning Even with grief and sadness I still care about this planet I am still connected to nature and to my dreams for myself I have my friends, my family. I have myself I still have me (x2)
Sans soucie Present tense And she was always so defensive Like nothing was ever her fault Or her responsibility And this is all i have left to hold A delicate balance has been exposed And now it towers around us all Just goes to show life is so fragile She used to smile when she'd say "it's all so meaningless, anyway So just forget, forget it" And she was always so morose Like this was all some bitter joke But no one was laughing And now when we speak about her We never use the present tense I guess that's what happens Lovesong When this is done And all dissected You still won't know The power that you have And when i've gone My own direction You still won't know What slipped through you hands Now i hang from the floor Im not sure who i am All is love Open to it All is trust It's waiting for us And though my eyes Do not reflect it So much impact you have had And though you have Grown to expect it I won't be here For you to understand Half-gifts (Cocteau Twins) It's an old game, my love When you can't have me, you want me Because you know That you're not risking anything Intimacy is when we're in the same place at the same time Dealing honestly with how we feel, and who we really are That's what grown-ups do That is mature thinking Well I'm still a junkie for it It takes me out of my aloneness But this relationship cannot sustain itself Intimacy is when we're in the same place at the same time Dealing honestly with how we feel, and who we really are That's what grown-ups do That is mature thinking I just have to know how to be in the process Of creating things in a better way And it hurts but it's a lie that I can't handle it I still have a world of me-ness to fulfill I still have a life, and it's a rich one even with mourning Even with grief and sadness I still care about this planet I am still connected to nature and to my dreams for myself I have my friends, my family. I have myself I still have me (x2)
I'll carry you two How does it feel To know that you are loved so much I love you more than you can see This is everything you are to me Blue eye smile girl And now it all is clear Why i lose to blue eye smile girl With all that she has got All she lacks a neon halo And when she laughs your heart opens And when she walks your eyes follow her Don't be too fast to slap your back For perfect perfect She may be on your arm And she has you But you don't have her And don't pretend you didn't see What a fool i was, it's so obvious
Words
(Written by Low)
Three inches above the floor Man in a box wants to burn my soul And I'm tired, and I'm tired. Is that the truth he says The pain is easy Too many words, too many words And I can hear 'em If you're hearing screams Come back child, come back My hands are dry But I know they're gonna make it Just one more night Too many words, too many words
You are one of us Here we are, this is all of us Larger than we seem to be You are one of us Metal and cable and pixel and love This is all of us Silicon blinking and buttons and knobs This is all of us Escape yourself this moment Let us fill you in as our arms are wide And we only love you With all of what we will be You are part of this Let it take you in- we only love you Feel us, we're under your lungs You are one of us Feel us- we're all through your bones This is all of us Synthesized digital audio love You are one of us Electronic subsonic gifts from above This is all of us I'll carry you How does it feel To know that you are loved so much How does it feel to be accepted So completely How does it feel to know that you Mean everything to someone How does it feel to know that You're exactly what i wanted How does it feel To know that you are loved I love you more than you can see This is everything you are to me
Dog dreams Dark girl sits innocent Caged songs sing in her head Sweet breeze blows, it's springtime Dark girl stays pale inside You're lots to look at Nothing to see You say so much But i can't hear Your eyes are green When i'm in blue And i don't care Dark boy plays sad dark song Won't go out without black on Dark boy loves his guitar best Dark girl feels so jealous And all this time she's hanging on She only wants to see him Though she feels so much for him He only wants to fuck her Dark girl looks much like me She lives in my dogs dreams She hides her true feelings A million miles from me Just give me a little time Give me a little space Help me clear my mind And get out of this place
Heroine It's just like you to change Just when i got used to things So that every word i say Gets turned around And thrown in my face I held onto the words that you said Like they were of my own flesh How much was truth and were lies I may never know will i And i will never follow you Though i may look up to you And i take my breath from you These are the signs of life It's just like you to say Luck has not been convenient And she should change her schedule And pen me in for a week or two But old lady luck never did She hung you out to dry You're my heroine I won't go down with you, will i They bite It's not that i feel betrayed By the things that have been said It's just that i pick the wrong people To call my friends But the one thing i never expected Was something like this from you Now i will cut you out of my life The way you always do And i will miss your smile And i will miss your face And i will miss you around But things can't be the same And i have so many questions That i'd like to ask of you I would like some answers I think that's the least you could do The one thing that i can't understand Is how you would want to believe All those vicious rumours When you know my personality
Wiser
Milkdrunk
When I reach beyond myself I'm amazed at what I find There's a world outside of me So much anger, so much rage When I reach beyond myself Overwhelmed and afraid There's a world bigger than me And I just take it in. Wiser
When I see you, I see my own face I want to save you from yourself What could I do? What could I say? It's a downward spiral I don't know what causes sorrow Or why it has to hurt to learn But I have had a heart that's empty I've felt the vacuum nature hates It's clear to me I wish that you could only see it. Him to me to you
In this life, if you're at all like me You'll know just what I mean when I say There's two types of people Not all of whom can be trusted I have seen that there Are assholes everywhere So watch your step, girl You'll know just what I mean when I say You keep your nose clean And push them Further from you Further from me
Political
A loose grip on a thin line Leaves me trailing behind I know I've far to go But your steps are too small Now and again Take me down a peg You know I can get so lost Even if it's true From anyone but you Nothing would get through my wall I lose touch in your goals It's vertigo And your words are like Music to the beast It's all lights and smoke It's political And my grip remains true Though the line may swerve I'll carry you
How does it feel To know that you are loved so much? How does it feel To be accepted so completely? How does it feel To mean everything to someone? How does it feel To know that you're exactly what I wanted? Love you more than you can see This is everything you are to me
Before there was color It must seem Permanent It must seem Important It must take All your control Not to get Obsessive Just as pain becomes discomfort Over time What the human soul can tolerate Is no surprise I'm rooted to my path And I'm blinded on the sides Why is it I feel so? I have everything I want The stuff of all my dreams Why is it I need so? In the same way pain can become humor Over time The scars that time will wash away Are no surprise I'm rooted to my path And I'm blinded on the sides Why is it I feel so? I have everything I want The stuff of all my dreams Why is it I need so? I know you're inside Because I can feel your life Why is it I bleed so? And you thought that these times Were just ordinary Oceanwide
All of this love, it overwhelms me And now you want the distance Of an ocean between us I want you to know That I will not give up on you I thought that you could meet me half way Figured that you could I thought that you could love me Figured that you'd fall All of this love, it withers within me And it's not fair, no, it's not fair But, you never said it would be I thought that you would be there Figured that you would
I would love to give up
I open my mouth And words just fly out And I cannot stop them I try… But I am only so much I'm would love to give up You have picked me to the bone You kick the leg you stand on I am only so much And nothing much is left of me You take more, more, more, 'Till I'm gone 'Till I'm good to no one I open my heart You tear me apart And I cannot stop you You love to point out Some stupid thing that I forgot to do Like I should strive to be you But I am only so much I'm about to give up You have picked me to the bone You kick the leg you stand on I am only so much Less and less is left of me You take more, more, more, 'Till I'm gone 'Till I'm good to no one I am only so much Only I protect me Will that ever be enough? I open my eyes Feeling this is like to fall awake
Can these be my hands? Why wont they follow my commands? Someone took my breath from me I can't see and I can't speak I had a dream you were a snake (I guess this proves I knew you then) I had a dream where I was falling down Until I landed under you Go to hell and leave me With the keys to your car Delia will drive me through the rain And it's just like you To pick the perfect time When I'm already down and there To kick a couple times You twist everything I said And everything I did And everything I thought was mine I feel like such a fool For having turned to you I didn't know that you could Ever want to be so cruel And if there is a God And if God is fair I know you will suffer Feeling this is like to fall awake
This is my third message It's the fact You wont call back That twists the knife that's in my back This is my third message And we do what we love (This isn't helping) This is inexcusable All our work All our hope Vanished in a ball of smoke Inexcusable And we do what we love And we hope without hope And we mean it And we weep and we bleed And we hope and we hope And we only love you Hope you feel it These are the pieces Of my heart Of my trust Of discussion between us These are the pieces Arrhythmia
Not broken Not partly infirm A fragile reminder to live Not to be scared when my heart skips Not to be scared, not to be scared And all I am is part of you (Perhaps she is overwhelmed) And I cannot be apart from you It's too much Not walled-in Not hidden by veils All I am is open for view What will they say when my time comes? She had a good heart Weak, but never broken And all I am is part of you (It convinces me I'm alive) And I cannot be apart from you It's too much
Wholeness & Separation
Tubefed
We appeal to your basic nature Your basic nature, honey Chew up the harder facts for you To make them easy to consume We appeal to your basic nature Your basic nature, don't we? Do we appeal to your basic nature Your basic nature, honey? You won't have to think too hard You won't have to dig too far With your attention-span destroyed Segments of six-second factoids Sanitize the truth for you You won't have to think to hard Sanitize the truth for you You won't have to dig too far Honeythief Sometimes I doubt the path I chose Sometimes my dreams feel all on hold There's no doubt that this will make me strong Because it's the hardest thing I've ever done Despite this cruel world And all my best efforts You surprise me with just how perfect you are Even with all my flaws And my bad examples You surprise me with Just how perfect you are And when I'm lost You search for me And when I doubt You're my belief I'm suppose to be The stronger one You always seem To prove that theory wrong Still, I hold my breath each time you go Out in the world that's beyond my control If you are dreaming I never want to wake you up When I'm all in a spin Full of cynicism You remind me of just how perfect you are When I'm at my wit's end And I'm losing my head You remind me of just how lucky I am
Stone Fruit
Dearheart Take a look at you I know how it feels Branches full of fruit Life streaks And surges all in green The bounty of the rain The bounty of the spring Dearheart You can't keep them all I wait with eyes closed I'll lighten your load Truth hurts Remember this: We are pooling our faith (You said it) Asking for my basketful Shake loose All your garnet jewels Whatever sustains me Gifts and pampers you Trees drop Plums in my open mouth I wait with eyes closed Paradise my own Truth hurts Hold onto this: We are pooling our faith (You said it) Juice bursts Don't let it drip We are pooling our faith (You said it) Morsecode Write your codes Throw me off I've captured your enigma machine Better have tried And consequently fell They lacked this fine decoder ring I am here I read you Loud and clear I am here I read you Over I sneak inside Retrace your steps Movements make motives clear Your phrases fly Fast and furious And I am fluent now You're coming through without a glitch We read you loud and clear Everything Is OK Break it all down into simplest terms There, was that so bad Now, is that so bad You doubt yourself so much you don't even Know what you really want, or how you really feel And I'm so tired Of you constantly over-thinking I know why, because everything's going Ok Just your style, to break it all into pieces I know why, because everything's going Ok. Disregard your inner monologue Don't try to drown it out, 'cause it'll only wear you out Sometimes things are just beyond control That has to be Ok, you don't have a choice And I'm so tired Of you constantly over-thinking I know why, because everything's going Ok Just your style, to break it all into pieces Just one time, I've had just about all I can take Everything is unacceptable If you overanalyze And that is just your style Your Friends Your friends, We are your soldiers Sworn to protect Your character And there is no attack For which we're not prepared When you need us, we're there If you need us, we're there We're there The Ratio Of Freckles To Stars But I don't think I can wait I've been living for this day I think that if I do or don't It'll turn out the same way But I can't seem to pull myself away And I hope that's OK Even just the very thought Makes me want to stay This is more than I can take I fear my heart will burst or break If there's a thing as too much joy, I will be taken away If I wrap you up inside of me, Kiss your fingers greedily I will lose track of the floor I will lose track of my feet All that you've conquered Was already yours Walking the night sky Freckles to the stars All that you've longed for Is painted on my arms Here, I can take you But I don't know what to say All my language slipped away I only know that I am yours and I hope you take the hint Be still my sweaty little heart You are my every waking thought If there's a thing as too much love I am guilty as I stand If I dive head first straight into you The way I've always wanted to I can't be held responsible There's no telling what I'll do Wholeness How can I learn to let go, Now that you have shown That you are strong enough, But I am not How can I let the world rough you around When I'm not there, I can't protect you Why does life have to rob you of your Innocence and faith For you to be a grown up? The only thing that gives me strength When I am deep in doubt Is your nature Oh, how you damage me You never mean to Oh, how you break my heart And make me need you Oh, you can crush me Like a rose petal Oh, how you damage me You never mean to Today
Today I feel surrounded Today I am connected Today I am a part of something more As if every cell were singing Still, I can't embrace it Every silver lining has a cloud But not so far I keep waiting for the shoe to drop Waiting for the axe to fall And it will happen This I know Just not so far Today I feel like dancing I never fell like dancing It's like even the weather suits my mood My entire soul is ringing Still, I can't accept it I keep looking for the thing to bring me down Though I can't explain my reasons to you I think we are the same Hollow Bones I understand the principle Wrapped it up inside my skull I just cannot seem to make it real Downward stroke, back and up Downward stroke, back and up And even without hollow bones And burdened down by all these clothes Against the forces of the Earth I swear that I will make it real And when we go Take nothing with us Southerly And when it's cold Then they will miss us Southerly I have intellectualized Looked at this from every side I just cannot seem to make it fly Downward stroke, back and up Downward stroke, back and up Hush, pretty bird, don't you know you can't sing? Whoosh, little bird gonna take to the sky I Am Warm My legacy, a string of losses My god, I ask How can you do this? You made the sun The world, your canvas With all this I can see how I'm unimportant In this dream I am warm There are hands in my hair And it's good to be there I wave my hand and nothing happens I set my scene and I can't play it I'd leave it to you but It would turn out backwards I'd like to believe you're not just reckless And you are Nostalgic while you are still living this And it all Snuck up while you weren't looking And you are Nostalgic while you are still living this And you're sure This is how you know you're living Things Stay The Same I don't think that you're being unreasonable 28, 29 You wait These are such basic things You shouldn't have to voice them, But you do And in your eyes Stars are only Christmas lights And silk thread And in your mind Everything is quantified And sharpened It seems you have forgotten me I will remind you It seems you're overlooking me I will find you You seem not to care for me Did you ever try to? Am I really so hard to love? All done up in your borrowed shades of Autumn 31, 32 You wait Someone needs to hold you Before you slip away Because you always leave us guessing Pushing pieces round your plate Someone needs to show you Before you slip away You're really not so far from us You're really not so far
Halou
Professional I keep my knives sharp Dance around muscle groups like paper Separate so neatly at the joint Falls away easily if you follow my map Embedded in each creature like dotted lines And I trace these with my trusty knife I fabricate Destroy to create this Is it wrong to be so callous Have I lost my human heart I can look one in the eyes and I see parts Knives extend my reach in metal I'm an artist in my right Is it wrong or am I evil I just want to feed you I keep my knives sharp Let the weight trace on these darting fingers Manufactured to be torn apart And I'm skilful in this occupation I can stand and argue virtue With my elbows dripping red Differentiate the living from the dead Is it wrong to call them product When we're breathing the same air Is it vicious, am I evil I just want to please you We all end up the same way It all ends the same It Will All Make Sense In The Morning Is this dirt and mud or is it flesh and blood When I reach my hands in, I can't tell where I end This will all make sense in the morning Are these roots and leaves, or is this a part of me When I reach my hands in, I feel life absorbing This will all make sense in the morning Oh, it's a little strange It will all make sense in the morning Evensong You disappeared Where did you go Are you tracing finger fjords on a Northern sea vessel And now you're on TV and winning lotteries And finding meaning hiding in everything And I'm all heartsore over my loss You're oblivious You disappeared Where have you gone Are you flying cellists off to Jökulsárlón And when you hear these things - the voices whispering Are you sure you're not misunderstanding And I'm all heartsore over my loss You're oblivious You disappeared Where is my friend Is it wrong to bring you back from the world that's in your head Eejit Hafdis made a list Of all the birds And the joy that exists in her world Is increased by half With feathers in her files She's entirely sure That it's whole And needing nothing It's true They buried Twenty six pounds of cow muck A decrepit ewe And an aquavit cask Breath Makes Smoke Breath makes smoke Air that smells like snow Won't you ever come As sun sets, trees make silhouettes Then disappear from view Night sounds heard Between traffic bursts Are growing louder now I stare through the night for familiar headlights But they never come And it illustrates for me how very far I've come It's not just my body I am trying to keep warm And the stoplights turn Just about three hundred times And headlights shine on me But none belong to you Seabright Sunlight across my bed Beckons me to rise Coffee on my front step And I stretch and I yawn From West Side to Seabright Headphones and my bike Surf stacked up for miles Monarch butterflies Sunlight and nasturtiums Across the town I ride Smell of sand and sea spray Perfect day and I'm alright
Sneaky Creatures Sneaky creatures live in my house They slip from room to room I hear them all around And when I focus And try to think a bit Ambitious or curious They seize the moment Rob from always on the run dot net is so bad and copy paste is a sin A sense of doom will creep Into the room and then Oh no! It's too quiet A sense of doom will creep Into the room and then Oh no! It's too quiet Whatcha doin', whatcha doin', whatcha doin' love It's too quiet Whatcha doin', whatcha doin', whatcha doin' love It's too quiet I feel them watching me They hope that I'll forget Lull me with placidness Kill me with quiet A sense of doom will creep Into the room and then Oh no! It's too quiet A sense of doom will creep Into the room and then Oh no! It's too quiet Whatcha doin', whatcha doin', whatcha doin' love It's too quiet Whatcha doin', whatcha doin', whatcha doin' love It's too quiet... Any Bird That Dares to Fly In my mind it's always beige In the night it's always gray And dusty, dirty The kind of dirt that sticks to you, Makes us kind of look the same Almost human And give us big guns Make sure they're big guns Blindfold me, spin me round See if you can shoot me down Is it over They can make you disappear I can't hear you all I hear are shouts and ringing And any bird that dares to fly in the bullet ridden sky Is not dainty And any fish that could survive in the open oil lines Is not tasty And that's what I read So, should I doubt what I read And that's why I'm asking you Help me understand the truth If you know Did you stay in the sun for too long The horizon caving in Are you seeing things And you know what they told you was wrong And it keeps on happening Are you seeing things Go on It keeps on happening Go on Clipped I'm never gonna talk about it I'm never gonna think about it I'm gonna swallow hard This couldn't ever happen It didn't ever happen to me But somehow it did Did I deserve it If you're as sick as your secrets Then I predict disaster If you're as sick as your secrets You should know the answer I'll fold the sheets into place I'll unpick the apple I'll make a fuss if I want, this is my disaster An ambush that I was never meant to see This is a big mess that I just couldn't keep to myself I'm never gonna go Never ever go back I'm not safe I don't want to go tomorrow I want to run away I'm gonna blame myself I'll always blame myself for this An impressive show of ignorance Hollywood Ending Will it all work out like a Hollywood ending Will you reassure me My eyes are burning When is wardrobe coming with my costume change Lighting director, give a glow to my face My head is spinning Can you feed me my next line I'm new at pretending in these scenes that you write Will it all work out Will they cut this last scene Will an editor please make it all feel complete We're in the dark here Crumbs And Dust I only forced a little bit It was crumbs and dust in a minute When I stopped, it took its place Without pain Be free, little fish on concrete Conceal like a box with no lid If one makes sense, why not them all We have to stop We Wear Strings Regress Go back to move forward You're not alone We're dragging you along Buy new ones and tie them on We wear strings and we make them sing Now strap these on We're only pushing ourselves this far As far as we want We cannot rest! We must progress! And I beg “Sing for me! Sing for me!” And they only vibrate for me How I long for more skilful hands With fingers that naturally do the dance But you cannot intimidate me Though you tie me up with all these strings But I cannot breathe through these strings No, I cannot breathe Progress You have to move forward We won't sit still We expect the same of you Buy new ones and tie them on Company Lines in your forehead, I can see All your attention divert from me What could possibly weigh on you so heavily I can tell you really need some perspective here Take one small step outside of yourself The grass looks no greener right here Take one small step outside of yourself and you'll find You're not the only one Weight on your shoulders, a tragedy Is making you older in front of me Oh, why can't you see that you're here in good company I can see you really need some perspective here And you've fallen out of love with yourself Yah, well, we're just all pillars of self-esteem Take one small step outside of yourself and you'll find You're not the only one Skimming Even still, I cannot seem to calm my heart It beats as if it means to squeeze my lungs It's all because of you My two hands, they shake as if I'm bound to fall If I've been this weak, I swear I don't recall It's all because of you
We Were Flying Kites Her Words I am told it was blue It gets lost beyond that With so many stories Though her words are all mixed up I still want to help Though her words are all mixed up I still try I am told it was blue Lining of purple hue Which has also faded She told me She lost it She's looking right at it She told me Things fall apart Gladhander They say he's a good talker Smiling glad hander Confident door knocker And he will get his way today And you are behind the scenes In the bowels of machines And he is the face of things And he will get his way today It's a symbiotic thing You'd have to dry swampy palms to make a deal And you don't really want it that way Or so he tells you You are the engineer You are the scientist And he is the face of this And this is what you want, isn't it? And now you don't have to try You've been infantalized Out of the public eye And this is what you want, isn't it? As their expectations wane And you shimmer like hot concrete in the sun And it seems that you never could change That's when you have to I say you have to And you say nothing Version And the white is so smooth It's getting harder to move And it's not that you're mean But you don't mean what you say. You've got a Minnesota smile False as it is wide This secret is your beating heart And what are lakes but holes What is snow but cold This secret is your beating heart Things change on me Ice melts away You've got a Minnesota smile Insincere and contrived This secret is your beating heart Discounted just like that it's hardly worth the breath to say it Ridiculous display so out of character to do it Discounted just like that it's hardly worth the breath Stop Thief A near miss A scrape A narrow escape Thick-calloused Invincible A limit, a rule Now, say it. I dare you: say it. Who says brave means unafraid? You're caught, so say it. Extended joint The missing point You never know exactly what brings it home A broken bone? A call too close? So you say no, how do you know? Stop Thief I've been robbed of something This is no drill This is real, I assure you Bleached White I must mine your mind I am sure you understand You have been where I am Fragile, porous, and brittle A forgotten mess of bones I need help to fix Please, will you release what I need? I'm full up to the spill with what I don't need Are you a sleek, wet salmon Tiny, powerful blue heart And a fierce direction? Are you a bed of coral Full to opaque with dark secrets Or, are you bleached white? What's Wrong With The Kids Today It's not bad This is nothing You can't complain You'll have to toughen You've gone soft With your computers We did it all by hand When I was younger I've seen worse Your calendar just cleared up But still you'll find a way to complain We always warned that this would happen When you live just for yourself It's not bad You're building character You'll look back one day With a sense of wonder. A Trick Of Light I wasn't sure if it was a stick, a smudge I wasn't sure if I was below, above A trick of light and shadow Sometimes it's hard to know Where did you come from? From oil? From ocean? Was I not meant to notice? Then you disappeared Did I miss you? Did I hit you? Are you breathing? Am I dreaming? And then a shock - it moved A twitch, a groove Did I give up too soon? Egret or loon? An eye reflecting my light Did I give up too soon? Heron, egret, or loon? Beauty Is Suffering No one to protect you Evening creatures snap and bite Huddle up in a bunch Group together little ones Hide in the open No one there to shield you From the pecking birds in flight It is wrong It's the cost It's the price of being small All at once, you are nothing As the outside shrivels Oh, the soul is truly ripe How you fought - how you paid For the beauty that you made You must see how it was worth it. And as we pour and toast you Revenge is yours but pleasure's mine No one knows quite like you With your life you have proved That beauty's suffering Hey, the machines are very loud What did you say? I'm asking you: what did you say? The Droplet Sounds And on their ascent Tiny bubbles collide Become atmosphere You act like the surface far up above Is as high as it goes without testing You've seen others go and come without event But still you don't touch. You give up That's all You give up You say, "Well, I'm done" You give up You act like the night sky far up above Is no more than a door To where you are And you are the fulcrum on which it all turns And you never move And you can not do right at all And you can not go give it up We Were Flying Kites How right you are And you always are How foolish we must seem When you're looking down on it How right you are And you called it from the start Now your energy returns So that you can tell us There's no gray No opinion valid Only one truth must exist You're the guardian of this And when someone sees different It's not a challenge They are wrong. That is all They are wrong.
Feathersongs For Factory Girls Radium Girls Your own eyelash Dipped in Radium Careful fingers painting in the lines Cheerful glow to indicate the time Undark Splattered with light Down to the waist The brush sweeps, mind fleets Still it won't fade It creeps in and in and never out Now pretty girls glow underground Tick tock - your hand on every wrist And these sweet young girls Were taught to trust Lip tip, put fire in your cheek It grows dim Undark, undark, undark Un-warned Un-armed Purposely uninformed Girls who glow and can absorb the light Unaware of catacombs inside Make a small point Keep the point tight Focus your eyes And draw the line Is This Science Fingertips and diagrams And a verse stuck just because You forgot what it was All of this is buzzing round While you try to rest Head heavy on my chest It's easy to dismiss you as a selfish man It's objective fact acknowledged that you are Let me be the prize object that you hoard Let me curl myself around you and be yours In your mind Eternal force of movement Inside I am here And you hardly notice Beside It's easy to dismiss me as the selfish one It's objective fact - we all know that I am If I can fill all needs you will always come to me You become my charm, external self-esteem It's comic Pathetic Mark of internal growth It's sarcastic and greedy We're all just politicians All desperate and needy A million gaping hearts All longing for feeding Pripyat We speak as particles When we speak Dot Dot We become chemicals Where we are Dot Dot Our town it wonders why Its only guests are dreams Memories that float like fog Drift through missing windowpanes And when the moonlight comes Stars lie down like broken glass And our poor town aches for us Frozen times that cannot pass Can never pass Now the surrounding woods Have moved into the town Curious where children went Who used to climb up in their boughs Wild horses wander now Where only our feet used to tread Eating grass that grows around The crumbling remnants of our end Of our end There's Only So Much Light I'm weak I have the pills to prove I'm weak And when compared to you I lose There's only so much light You take more than your share There's only so much love You take more than your share There's only so much us You take more than your share I'm weak I could tell you knew I'm weak And you took advantage And when I'm compared to you (As I cannot help but do) I lose There's only so much light You take more than your share There's only so much love You take more than your share Sing Along, My Children Sometimes it's hard to look up It can be tough to pretend That I'm not crumbling Like ant hills in hard rain The weight is heavy at times The lines fall hard And then I'm falling apart A river that banks can't contain It can be hard to see Crumbling in your wake Look at me; please don't turn Is this what we deserve? Is this all that we are? Only this, nothing more? Crumbling, all of us In the sea, into dust We learn though we stumble Not through paths unchosen We learn from upheaval Not through words and tokens We lack for example Not for lofty sermons We learn though we stumble Sing along, my children Daylight Machine His hand slid to her knee She didn't want it there But was not sure what to say It was a tricky situation Hollow hello Her hand reached out and squeezed She knew she'd had enough And as he feel to his knees She thought about tomorrow Damn you and your selfishness Now there's nothing left for us Ownsome It's like bee stings Broken bike chains Empty weekends Such is my frustration Slow clock watchers Know my longing Inspiration Nothing You're dead in my mind I loose the kite strings Not naturally forgiving Do you think it just happens? Do you think you just fall out of the way? Do you think they won't notice? Do you think it just happens? It's hardly worth my time And who knows why I try Is there a point I'm missing? I have the illusion of success Cubicle, coffee, paper mess I have the illusion of success Success Feathersong Dear Dan, I thought of you today I saw a woman on the ferry Holding up a baby girl Just the age ours would have been If I'd have had If I had had If I could have had the baby You're a lazy cloud Baby beating heart You're laying on the ground Yael, I hope this finds you well Things here are just the same Keeping busy with my work Best to you Sincerely, Daniel Lemoncholic Is bunker kissers what we are? Through cinder blocks We wander hand in hand Apocalyptic wonderland With our best dresses and blue suits We stroll through stripmalls With our cash in hand It's our atomic motherland Hide from enemies invisible From threats and ends that are unthinkable That never happen and they never will Are we all lemoncholic? Marvel at the pointlessness Of secrets kept and now reclassified It probably wasn't worth the time Cement romantics in concrete The fears we held have spilled out nationwide Across the continent's divide Prussian Blue What fit of rage? What tiny hand moved? How quickly it came Quickly it tore A symbolic swipe Almost worse than a real knife A symbolic swipe Proved permanent, permanent Mischievous mind Mysterious motives Unfortunate end Unfortunate end Thick, bold swaths of blue What are you protecting? What devious rays? What dark, evil thoughts? Blue, everywhere blue A smile, unnerving What fury propelled Such application? Innocently standing there Damage done, beyond repair Blue, the cause or blue, the cure? Danger's impulsive What have you done, baby, what have you done? I had this together and now it's all gone You took it and you broke it You're so impulsive
brutalism for lovers
Disappointed Do I seem mad Does that surprise you It's all got so fucked up And I'm just so disappointed in you How did I not pick up clues Or, was this straight out of the blue And why did you take everything so far Only to give up in the final hour And now I'm disappointed The truth is so disjointed Why would you say “Everything's OK" When you knew I'd be pulled down in your wake And I'm just so disappointed in me Remember Sunday mornings, staying in bed The feeling of my arm cradling your head I can't imagine anyone being happier Are you happier Remember how you said that you loved me It plays behind my eyes when I try to sleep She must be so much prettier than me Is she prettier Do I seem mad That shouldn't surprise you I'm just so I'm just so disappointed in us And you are one of us I'm just so disappointed in you, in me I'm just so disappointed in us
Non Albums Tracks Exoskeleton You will have to toughen up Like a shiny little bug Beauty, she is cruel So, I will be the bug And the rock that kills the bug The waves that crush the rock So, I will be the waves And the moon that moves the waves This is my resolve That I should be the waves And the moon which makes the waves Now, I eclipse the sun Exoskeleton
Far too Far
(Separation EP) You must never go away again For I lose myself When I'm not reflected in your eyes And I break so easily You are the glow that surrounds me I view myself in terms of you I judge myslef in terms of you You must never go away again I am not myself at all Thought I'm not sure who I could be And I break so easily You are the glow that surrounds me
Firefly In the darkest corner of my heart Is a tiny firefly Across the years, across the yard Struggling, he's still alive Long lost sisters, take me back. We'll catch all the fireflies Drop your needle, drop your book We'll run like banshees through the night With light comes heat Into your heart I creak Into your heart My love is all around you I hope you feel I am warm ( Oceanwide EP - 2001 )
My legacy a string of losses My god i ask how can you do this You made the sun The world your canvas With all this i can see How i'm unimportant Could this be some grand coincidence Or is it true, it only comes from you In this dream, i am warm There are hands in my hair And it's good to be there When i need you you're not there Maybe you think i'm stronger Than i really am I wave my hand and nothing happens I set my scene and i can't play it When i need you you're not there Maybe you think i'm stronger Than i really am When i need you you're not there But you make a mean sunset Makes me wonder where I stand
Ingénue
(Wholeness EP - 2003) You will find me Second in command I'm the second best friend I'm the red ribbon And you will find me: The man behind the scenes In the passenger seat I am the assistant You will find when your heart falls from your chest You can put it in a bag And bring it straight to my house And you will find that I will be the one That you always rely on And you will never notice What can I do to be ingénue To be in the blue and the warmth of the spotlight What can I do to be ingénue To shine the way stars do in their velvety curtains Still, I dream So, I stand Second in command I'm the second best friend I'm the red ribbon Still, I dream
Night Divides the Girls ( Wholeness & Separation Bonus Download Track ) This is the excuse that encapsulates my pride This tender misery is loneliness' bride So I trudge in a world Where I open up my arms To greet the sky opening up To dump such muddy rain Upon my waiting lips Did you ever take me in I wasn't built to fly I'm not one of you, it's always been hard for me When night divides the girls Like lipstick and cloves Who can tell what metal we're of
Oceanwide symphony
(Oceanwide EP - 2001) All of this love It overwhelms me And now you want the distance Of an ocean between us I want you to know That i will not give up on you I thought that you could meet me halfway Figured that you could Thought that you could love me Figured that you'd fall All of this love It withers within me And it's not fair, it's not fair But you never said it would be
Still Breathing I can be alone in the smallest space My breath still breathing me And everything's at peace But you grapple with uncertainty and You're afraid what you love could leave And that could be It's a possibility And you wonder how to own my feelings Circumstantially direct my leanings Back to you, in orbit 'round your moon No butterfly net No leather leash, and No diamond ring Can hold me in I'm like the tide, I come and leave I come and leave just as I please I can be alone or I can share my space The earth still firm beneath And everything's at peace But you long for more stability and Also dread that you could lose something And that could be I won't minimize your fear And you love the way I make you feel and You're so desperate to keep me within reach of you As something to consume Overflow, spilling on the floor My heart makes such a mess I fiercely love you only more The more you acquiesce