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B i o g r a p h y
(by Marcy Donelson)
Helena
Deland emerged from the Montreal indie scene with an artful, low-key style that
concentrated as much on texture and timbre as on melody and familiar song
structures. Featuring her notably gentle vocal delivery, Deland's first EP,
Drawing Room, saw release in 2016. Her Polaris Prize-longlisted debut album,
Someone New, arrived in 2020. After a diversion into electronic music as part of
the indie duo Hildegard (with Ouri), she delivered ethereal singles including
"Deceiver" (with claire rousay) and the solo "Spring Bug" in 2023.
Born in Vancouver and raised in Quebec City before relocating to Montreal,
Deland learned to play the piano and guitar as a child. Her first collection of
songs, the Drawing Room EP, was made in collaboration with Jesse Mac Cormack,
who recorded and mixed the album in addition to formulating the arrangements.
Ranging from airy synths and acoustic guitar to noir-styled electric guitar and
harmonica, the set was unified by a hazy, understated quality and introspective
lyrics. With a full band that included Cormack, Deland's EP From the Series of
Songs "Altogether Unaccompanied," Vols. 1-2 arrived on Luminelle Recordings in
March 2018. Vols. 3-4 followed that October.
Deland toured with the likes of Weyes Blood and Connan Mockasin and opened a
show for Iggy Pop in Paris before returning with her full-length debut.
Featuring contributions in the studio from Gabe Wax, Jake Portrait, and her
friend Valentin Ignat, and performed with her band, 2020's Someone New was
released by Luminelle that October. It was longlisted for the next year's
Polaris Music Prize.
Also in 2021, Deland co-founded arty electronic duo Hildegard with
Montreal-based producer Ouri. They released their eponymous debut album that
June, and Ouri went on to produce the quasi-acoustic Deland track "Swimmer" for
release in February 2022. Deland toured Europe with Andy Shauf and Leith Ross
later that year, then emerged from the studio with both the claire rousay
collaboration "Deceiver" and gauzy solo outing "Spring Bug" in May of 2023. |
SOMEONE NEW
Someone New
If I could have every thought
As though for the first time
I'd never get sick of
The patterns of my mind
But I am stuck
I am stuck
If things go my way
I'll stay in this room
Where tonight I want to lay
Kissing someone new
With a familiar face
I can't replace
Because remembering, no
It hasn't been enough
It's like the partial glow
A bright flower gives off
At night
Color imprecise
What if I told you
It'll all just end the same
And then turned to you
Showed you my game
You'd believe I'm stuck
'Til I get ahold of
A stranger to remind me
I don't contain the world
It is outside, can't I see
And in it I'm this lucky girl
And how to play my role
'Til I get too old
By then remembering oh
It better be enough
I'll be covered head to toe
In the faded flower patterns of
Memories
Of nights like these
Of good times passed
I'll be home at last
And I will give
Myself a fucking break
If things go my way
I'll stay in this room
Where again I want to lay
Kissing someone new
Who tells me
Something pretty
So that I too
Can feel like someone new
Truth Nugget
You shed all your layers
And become a truth nugget
My desperately open boy
You say you can't hold anything back
It's a habit
You say what's on your mind
Whatever's on your mind
Now you haven't got anything on
It's a habit
That dies hard
Dies hard
Watch me do my makeup and hair
While you make up hypotheses out of thin air
I am another solid mystery when it comes to you
Michael, I'm the puzzle in the other room
Mountain park
The gate where you stand guard
And spread a blanket
So you have it
In case I come around
Festively clothed
We'll shed layers and expose
The naked landscapes of our minds
We'll crack open our minds
I am one to keep everything on
It's a habit
That dies hard
Watch me do my makeup and hair
(Dies hard)
While you make up hypotheses out of thin air
(Dies hard)
I am another solid mystery when it comes to you
(Dies hard)
Michael, I'm the puzzle in the other room
Watch me do my makeup and hair
While you make up hypotheses out of thin air
I am another solid mystery when it comes to you
Michael, I'm the puzzle in the other room
Dog
Before you get to the party
You want to know how it'll end
'Cause your time is precious, babe
You've got so many friends
Show up like a vision
With the dance moves to impress
But your quest for divination
Is what I like the best
Take me by the hand
Take me where I want to go
I was told to lead
But I need to follow you
Bright wave
I will let you get away
Hey, I will behave
And I will let you get away
With every little thing that you want to do
It might not be you for me, but it is me for you
And I hate to be your dog
But I've got everything to gain
From your hand on my head
Like I'm about to be trained
Pleasure pleases better
When it comes from every side
But there's nowhere left to run
No, there is nowhere to hide
You wave and chear
Neverending will to charm
Then you shade a single tear
You never meant any harm
Lying on your bed
You said you gave all you could give
Ask me to come over
And give you reasons to live
Bright wave
I will let you get away
Hey, I will forgive
And I will let you get away
With every little thing that you want to do
It might not be you for me, but it is me for you
When you ask me, "Dear
Who's the fairest one of all"
Who gets to be your mirror
If I'm the nail on the wall
I hate to be your dog
But I could use the company
To go out with on walks
Baby, let it be me
I hate to be your dog
I hate to be your dog
I hate to be your dog
I hate to be your dog
I hate to be your dog
I hate to be your dog
Fruit Pit
Whose is this
Not mine
I'd like to use it from time to time
If I lay down, I'm fine
Read there
And smoke
A day's worth of work
Gone through steady and slow
Invisible
And if you go anywhere
Will you take me
And if you lost me there
Would you know where to find me
Tired and true
Shrinking so small
You could fit me into
Something that belongs to you
Your red fanny pack
Your red fanny pack
Fruit pit
Covered in spit
No one to see
Or interpret my body
And if you go to the show
Will you wake me
Tell me and nobody else
Let's not tell anybody
Pale
Spending this much time
In my naked body's
Not making it familiar to me
Trying to get used to it
I read what's on me
See-through blue's the colour
True love leaves in tiny
Marks, gone so soon
Quiet stars in mid-afternoon
Pale
"It doesn't make me feel young"
I say, "It's something more motherly"
I'll leave in his arms if it's not I who has to carry
When the night rolls in
A tongue that holds me softly
I'll melt into sleep
And then am told a different story
In dreams, gone so soon
Roaring streams taking me to you
Pale
Pale
Pale
Pale
Gone
Comfort, Edge
I can never know for sure just what you do
Unless I stick around and see it through
It doesn't ever matter what you say
It always ends up going either way
(So much later
I've gotten used to your sheets
It wakes me up, I can't sleep
And so I reach for
A tall glass of water
Sip at it watch you dream
And all the secrets you keep
They make me wonder)
No, you'll never make a fool of me
No, you'll never make a fool of me
You'll make it so
It's easy for me to get away from you
Without me having to tell you
Where I go or what I do
And all the while protecting and giving me security
I never have to doubt when I come back
You'll still be there for me
Give me comfort, give me edge
Make it easy, make me beg
Let me come for calm and peace
Never stop surprising me
I see your face in the mirror
As it puts on the expression
It only has in reflexions
And I know I'm scared of going further
Into what you choose to show me
A trail of hints I can't see
You'll fuck me over
You'll never make a fool of me
No, you'd never make a fool of me
You'll make it so
It's easy for me to get away from you
Without me having to tell you
Where I go or what I do
And all the while protecting and giving me security
I'll never have to doubt when I come back
You'll still be there for me
Give me comfort, give me edge
Make it easy, make me beg
Let me come for calm and peace
Never stop surprising me
Unless I stick around and see it through
It doesn't ever matter what you say
It always ends up going either way
Seven Hours
Blood on my thigh
You lick your finger
I don't know why
I push your hand away
I push your hand away
Seven-hour drive
With nothing to say
Smoking At
The Gas Station
Smoking at the gas station
Desperate for attention
In small gestures of protest
Trace the outline of my hand
So I'm reminded where I end
Say this is no contest
To be loved by you
To be loved by you
You
You
I need to get out of the house today
To try my face
Out on strangers
And if anyone's to look my way
I'll latch onto their gaze
Demanding answers
How to look more like you
How to look more like you
You
You
How can everything
Feel so familiar
Do I have to mourn
Do I have to mourn
Feeling anything
That's unfamiliar
Do I have to mourn
Do I have to mourn
Everything
That's unfamiliar
Do I have to mourn
Do I have to mourn
Lylz
Lylz
You don't need to worry
We've got this
I've got my driver's license
And you will need to practice
We'll leave on the sly
Blasting the Boulanger sisters
And if one of us dies
The other will make sure
Her life's work goes down in history
You'll be famous
For burning
With desire
For everything
I don't need to worry
We've got this
I'm feeling isolated
And you've got all the gossip
Come over, make face masks, death masks
For future reference
A statue will smirk at tourists
Sitting on park benches
Lylz
Let's get out of here
Yeah, we've had it
It's all smoke and mirrors
The time has come for us to vanish
Burn the bridge to this world
Of terrifying uncertainty
Step on it, hurl us into
Worthwhile mystery
You'll be famous
For burning
And I'll be known for
My taste in choosing
Who's light mine burns out next to
Who I warm my life to
For everything
Mid Practice
I arrange little scenes
That I place in between
Every moment that I can't control
I let hang my head
From the edge of the bed
When you find me like this
You'll know I've been waiting, love
I'm used to being the actrice
Surprised in mid-practice
Rehearsing love 'til it's real
And also the audience
Before velvet curtains part
And finally reveal if I feel anything
Let alone love
Can I sink my teeth into your love, please
I've been practicing so long
Through and through every layer of you
Baby, I could go on and on
What I find worst
Than a love that hurts when it's captive
Is a love that thrives
On being the hunter
And what it is after's a trophy
For its pride
Off I go again
I've got nothing to do
But walk here next to you
We will kiss on the streets, we don't know
Where the light hits us best
We've arranged to impress
All the things we have to show
Off we go again
Can I sink my teeth into your love, please
I do want you to the bone
Through and through every layer of you
Baby, I could go on and on
And I would never want to be left alone...
Clown Neutral
Neither bad nor good
You can ask me what you should
Do
I won't say anything
Neither bad nor good
Don't ask yourself too long how you should
Feel
You can feel anything
Feel
You can feel anything
Fill The Rooms
Now that you've let me
You've let me inside your head
Did you let yourself forget
I was in there and wanted music
Now that you've put me
You've put me in charge of the rest
To entertain your guests
I will fill the rooms with music
You lead me to the basement to
Make me your replacement
You quit
And leave jumping from roof to roof
I guess I'll be the one to choose
The last thing you hear
Is me screaming
"Come back"
"Fill the empty rooms with music"
HILDEGARD
Jour 1
Full room, slippery floors
Glide to the bathroom
Shut the bathroom door
There are two locks
Why not use them both
One's a little hook
One's a heavy bolt
Turns out it's what you do
That speaks of you
You can have it all
But you can't have me too
I will have the very prime
Of the morning gone
Before I end my night
Patterns on the tiles
Look like my veins
They spread out wild
But the blood flows tame
I can almost see you
I can almost feel you
But you can't
What you doing waiting at the door
Like it was me you were waiting for
Turns out it's what you do
That speaks of you
You can have it all
But you can't havе me too
Turns out it's what you do
That speaks of you
You can have it all
But you can't havе me too
Turns out it's what you do
That speaks of you
You can have it
You can have it all
Turns out it's what you do
That speaks of you
You can have it all
But you can't have me too
Turns out it's what you do
That speaks of you
You can have it all
But you can't have me too
Turns out it's what you do
That speaks of you
You can have it all
But you can't have me too
Turns out it's what you do
That speaks of you
You can have it all
But you can't have me too
Jour 2
(Everything between us so fine)
If I could just surprise myself from behind
Me and I would get along just fine...
Familiar stories
Fill in blanks
No point in lying
Reading my mind
Never lonely
Treat myself real nice
Kiss my forehead
Tucked in sleep tight
Leave the house at dusk
Go walking all night
Haven't gotten lost
In such a long time
If I could just surprise myself from behind
Me and I would get along just fine...
(Everything between us just fine)
Jour 3
I'm about to spend another night alone
You could call me up on the telephone
On the telephone
Get doubtful of the texts
When working so hard to impress
Call me up
Call me up
There is so much I'd like to say
I get tired of the delay
Hey, it's me
I just wanted to ask you
How was your day
Is this a good time
I'm afraid I might just misplace
Every memory of your face
But I guess that if given a choice
I would settle for your voice
I'm about to spend another night alone
You could call me on the telephone
I'll speak to you
In the most sensitive words
And it will sound like a purr
Show you what I'm made of
Be better than making love
I'll speak to you
In the most sensitive words
And it will sound like a purr
Show you what I'm made of
Be better than making love
I'll speak to you
In the most sensitive words
And it will sound like a purr
Show you what I'm made of
Be better than making love
I'll speak to you
In the most sensitive words
And it will sound like a purr
Show you what I'm made of
Be better than making love
I'm about to spend another night alone
You could call me up
Just waiting for you
I'll speak to you
In the most sensitive words
And it will sound like a purr
Show you what I'm made of
Be better than making love
Jour 4
Quickly walks on by
Left them high
Quickly walks on by
High and dry
Quickly walks on by
Quickly walks on by
Left them high
I guess she'd do it
I guess she'd do it
I guess she'd do it
Yes, she would
Yes, she would
Yes, she would
She just wanted to save some time
She just wanted to save some time
She just wanted to save her time
She just wanted to save some time
Her time
Her time...
I guess she'd do it
I guess she'd do it
Yes, she would
Yes, she would
Yes, she would
Her time...
Quickly
Quickly
Quickly walks on by
Left them high
Quickly walks on by
High and dry
Jour 5
You don't love your freedom
And I want your affection
In spite of the temptation
We both think we should wait
Is it in the way you give
Or is it in the way I take
How much can you forgive
If I never think to stay
Now I'm about to give it some time
You can take yours and I'll take mine
Now I'm about to give it some time
You can take yours and I'll take mine
Now I'm about to give it some time
You can take yours and I'll take mine
Now I'm about to give it some time
You can take yours and I'll take mine
I chase down my freedom
Seduce it to submission
In spite of the temptation
I want some space
You don't need your freedom
Enough to have it stay
With all of mine around
I can't let yours get in the way
Is it in the way you give
Or is it in the way I take
How much can you forgive
If I never think to stay
Now I'm about to give it some time
You can take yours and I'll take mine
Now I'm about to give it some time
You can take yours and I'll take mine
Now I'm about to give it some time
You can take yours and I'll take mine
Now I'm about to give it some time
You can take yours and I'll take mine
Jour 7
Snake skin, warm sand
Silver desert island
Gleaming for you
So you know
How to get there
Milky eyed in your lair
You no longer are alone
Squinting slightly
Come sit down beside me
Hold your hand out to the sun
You don't need to
Say much to me, do you
Something in you comes undone
Things don't come undone
Things don't come undone
Snake skin, warm sand
Silver desert island
Gleaming for you
So you know
How to get there
Milky eyed in your lair
You no longer are alone
Jour 8
How could you have
Ever even thought you
Could tell me anything
And still be interesting
Who do you think you are
I hardly even know you
Certainly didn't ask to
Conveniently weren't
Listening to me when I told you
I don't give a fuck who you dream of
Leave me out of this
Now you've gone and stuck me in it
Never want to think of you
Now you've gone and forced me to
Can't go on just saying
What you want to
Oblivious to obvious cues
You must think you can
Tell me what I am
The woman you made up to
Put in my place you use
Imagining me in ways
That I will never be
You made it up
I don't give a fuck who you think of
Leave me out of this
Now you've gone and stuck me in it
Never want to think of you
Now you've gone and forced me to
I have got enough on my mind
To go and waste any of my time on this
GOODNIGHT
SUMMERLAND
Saying Something
Cream colored ashes
The day passes
We say goodbye once again
Knowing sure collapses
And knowing that flashes
I forget and learn again
I know you are trying to be a friend
I know you're trying to be a friend
I hear you
Knowing what to say isn't easy
Words feel like treacherous footing
Slippery rocks
But believe me
Saying anything might be crucial
Stepping stones still hold together intervals
Time acquired language
It translated quiet things
After the fact
Into something louder
Notes in the calendar
Now appear some sacred map
To time itself and what was planned ahead
To time, what I could have said
Maria, I might never know what I'd tell you
Is it that questions mean more than their answers could
Let me tell you
The beach isn't empty tonight
The living are shooting the breeze in the moonlight
Saying something isn't easy
Say something to me
Saying something isn't easy
Say something to me
Spring Bug
Bitten by a spring bug
It gets me every time
This year I'm on my own
And the buzz is all mine
When it starts getting fun
Its poison makes my blood rush
Past lives walk by and I blush
They ask to sit
I try leaving fast enough to outrun them
Remember that's a bad plan
Their thing, not mine
I can't decline
Stay just a little longer
Don't be none the wiser
And hey, as long as you don't keep me up at night
It's easy
You can have one on me
Stay just a little longer
Don't be none the wiser
And hey, as long as you don't keep me up at night
It's easy
You can have one on me
Tell me that's right
It all counts
The evasions
Every procrastination
After all
Run down the same streets
I did last time it bit me
And time would act all funny
And I'd stand so still
For all its pauses
Time will buckle down and pass me
This spring's already a memory
And I should leave
Until I go
Stay just a little longer
So that I could never
Say I could live without you
Now all that I want to do is within you
Stay just a little longer
So that I could never
Say I could live without you
Now all that I want to do is within you
Bright Green
Vibrant Gray
You ask me what I'm thinking of
Immediately know because
I laugh and the way that I laugh means
It's something about you
The shimmer this days has
River to swim through
It's true, it's kind of funny
Take my hand and run me to the shore
Dune grass cool wind blows
I know what I didn't know before
Press the palm-size rock to your mouth
Its brighter colors pour right out
The view in the morning rain
Welcomes us like no painting
Bright green, vibrant gray and everything pulsating
Four hundred million years opened wide and no waiting
Rocks you keep in your car door
Have traveled through far more than your life
Windows down, you sing along
I don't think I've heard this song before
Windows down, you sing along
I don't think I've heard this song before
Drawbridge
Coming to the drawbridge
And by drawbridge
I mean you
Taking me right into my past
Both fellow walker and path
How long since you saw her last
We've gone by
I mean, last time you saw me
I called you Tommy
And who was I
When I could only guess about loss
Where it takes you when
You can no longer call
Puddles into the stream
Into the river, ocean between
Live water under our feet
Let me see
Who in the world
You could now be
Let me walk you through
This afternoon
Where will we begin
I'm coming to the town
That you now live in
Admittedly oblivious to
The fact that the drawbridge
Now remains pulled
Puddles into the stream
Into the river
Didn't puzzle me
When we said later
What did you mean
I wanted to know who we have been
So I might know how far I've flown
Roadflower
Wink at me, roadflower
First and last
I'll be good, I'll see
And pick you from the pack
You, you've been so good
To me, so sweet
The hill you're on collides
With the valley that lies behind
Nod now, roadflower
You love someone
Long, rushed, soft, tempered
All at once
Glowing baby cheeks
Smile up at me
Smiling at everyone
You'll age beautifully
Don't wait for me
I'm late for love but having fun
You'll be
Beautiful to me
You, you've been so good
To me, so sweet
The Animals
We went up the mountain
Last Friday night
All of the animals
Were out in plain sight
They didn't bid us to follow them
They didn't hiss us away
No, to us, my love
They had nothing to say
And while you saw the tremor
And you saw the wings
You saw the glistening white teeth
I was busy with things in my mind
Things that I tend to
As though to survive
I'm not proud I was asking you
Do you dim yourself down
Do you say terrible things about me
When I'm not around
You sweep a hand through the clearing
Say can't you see
There ain't anything threatening you here
Least of all me
Put your life on the easel
There, right next to mine
We ain't living like weasels
We don't have the time, never will
All of the creatures made for the dark woods
Whooping, that's what I heard
What if the easel fell over
And the paintings were burned to a crisp
Nights like these I can't quite tell
A fear from a wish
Who I Sound Like
Fear that I am frozen here
I lay down and close my eyes
If I were to open, clear
See you standing in the light
Wouldn't matter who I'd sound like
Whether or not I knew what to say
Whether I could ask for what I need
I just want to talk to you today
Here I'm welcome
Here I am new
With my questions
Learning through
Still and bright blue days
Smudging the nights
I think I'll stay
Paint the walls white
Colors dance behind my eyelids
Trips you said that you would like to take
Not vacations, something different
Your life didn't give you many breaks
Wouldn't matter who I'd sound like
Whether or not I knew what to say
Whether I could ask for what I need
I just want to talk to you
I just want to talk to you
I just want to talk to you today
Swimmer
The sun has hardly warmed the water
When it crashes on the sand
You hoped it would be warmer, you say
Pulling out your hand
The warmer water gets
The more the oceans expand
You told me first and then
I didn't really understand
If I could turn back time
I would and I'd be good
I would always be kind
To you
To you
You say, "Look at this the world still spins
And beauty will never go
It was there before, will be there more
When there's no I to behold"
How suitable, you the buoy
Your arms like silver fins
Your head afloat the golden glow
Of waves crashing in
If I could make this last
Take more of this moment
Trade in some of my past
You swim
You swim
You in it all and letting it all in
Night Soft As Silk
Night's soft as silk
Say you could rip and pocket part of it
And always dress to kill
Kitchen table, cupboard talk, we spill
We could go on 'til
Something made a tear for real
And night pouring in
We can really sit together
Everything is left to say
The shyer part of me, the maker
Come on and make her brave
Pour me another drink
Midnight hours are gone so fast
I'll tell you what I really think
Of your lover, if you ask
He's acting like a child
Moon moves along
There had been no music playing
But the sound not unlike song
Of the deep, dark night on the other side
The room's reflected on
The window you stand up to open
Night pouring in
World's drunk on us, my darling
Everything is left to say
Rarest part of you is open
I've been hoping days
I'll pour you another drink
Early morning hours are wild
Tell me everything you think
Though words can be so mild
Strawberry Moon
Midnight in June
Moonlight sweeping the room
Song of the loon
Alone here and talking to you
And tonight I can't sleep
A thought keeps on wrestling with me
I want to play with it
Cradle it
Say
Love, come to me
If I am ready
To surrender
I have worked hard
Protecting my heart
And I am tired
Give me a clue
Won't you send me a tune
Could it be
Things have been changing for me
And tonight I'll get no rest
A thought is sitting on my chest
I want to play with it
Cradle it
Say
I can tell you
No strawberry moon
Has ever been wasted
If it brought us here
And berries, my dear
They won't to be tasted
JOUR 1596
Bach In Town
I see you're back in town
You've been on my mind so much lately
Thought it could very well be
Someone else would turn around
But then I saw your face
Holy mother of grace
I quit this place
And from the confines of my car
I learned that I could drive considerably far
To avoid surprises
Silence suffices
Even though I've wondered these days
About how it would go
And what we would say
Something in me advises
To leave you to your own devices
Though I don't know
If I'll see you again
If I'll see you again
I'll never ask, I'll never ask
I'll never ask, I'll never ask
I'll never ask you
You'll never say, you'll never say
You'll never say, you'll never say
You'll never have to
I'll never ask, I'll never ask
I'll never ask, I'll never ask
I'll never ask you
You'll never say, you'll never say
You'll never say, you'll never say
You'll never have to
I had drafted something sweet
From the memories of jokes we'd tell
Places we'd meet
Took the draft out on walks
Try it out
Show it around
Show it off
And from the corner of my mind
Came a distant thought
I felt it climb up to my attention
Steer my intentions
And for many weeks in a row
I thought I should reach out, say
"I want you to know I'm not mad
I want to be friendly
If you're around
Would you, please, tell me
'Cause I would love to see you again"
I'll never ask, I'll never ask
I'll never ask, I'll never ask
I'll never ask you
You'll never say, you'll never say
You'll never say, you'll never say
You'll never have to
I'll never ask, I'll never ask
I'll never ask, I'll never ask
I'll never ask you
You'll never say, you'll never say
You'll never say, you'll never say
You'll never have to
I'll never ask, I'll never ask
I'll never ask, I'll never ask
I'll never ask you
You'll never say, you'll never say
You'll never say, you'll never say
You'll never have to
Player
You
Turning days into an endless afternoon
While I signal you
Come now, I don't want to know
All that you control
There's something you could do
You won't lower to
Saying sorry
You don't do humble
No, you, you get along without
Down would be to show
You're sorry
It's too low
Oh being humble
You get along without
You
Spinning 'round from forever afternoons
Night time might show
You won't lower to
Saying sorry
You don't do humble
No, you, you get along without
Down would be to show
You're sorry
It's too low
Oh being humble
You get along without
Paying no mind
Fading away from us to see
To see who's playing
When I'm not
When I'm not
Cruel
Hey, love
What's up
Heard of you giving up
I don't ever want to be cruel to you
I'm not making up any new rules
I can never hide the mess in my eyes
Dilating into the rest
Fantasize
I don't want regrets any
Parts of me tempted to feel
What this idea of us could be
If I stutter your name
Because each syllable is profane
What are these things you do to me
To me
Promise
My love is honest
Clear, sure
Simple, pure
I don't ever want to be cruel to you
I'm not making up any new rules
Rememember Me
Did I
Embellish the truth
'Til it came out a lie
To deserve your time
Told you nobody's stories
They sure as hell weren't mine
Nobody's stories
They sure as hell weren't mine
Anymore
Little things you'd forgive, I'm sure
Do you think of me
How do, how do you think of me
Do you think of me
How do, how do you think of me
Do you think of me
How do, how do you think of me
Do you think of me
How do, how do you think of me
Ran into your friend
Thought I'd steer the small talk
So that we might end up
Mentioning you
How you might even have said
Something that alludes to
Do you think of me
(Remembering me)
How do, how do you think of me
Do you think of me
How do, how do you think of me
Do you think of me
How do, how do you think of me
Do you think of me
How do, how do you think of me
Pour Your Heart
Out
Pour your heart out
Lips to my cup
On an easy evening
For you last drought
Sip on my luck
Baby, you are coming clean
Dark pink on the inside
Orange is the melting color of the
Parked dreams that we could ride
You have got your own
Burning bright through your eyes
Things holding you back
Comfort you, pressing down warmly
Feminine sap flows through the walls
You get up to leave
Dark is the night and you can still see
Milk and honey, sweeter
I forgot to doubt my body
Limbs are light in water
Waxing moon pulling up the sea
Soft in water, we can still breathe
I have heard it
Ringing clear through the messy evenings
And want to preserve it
Brimming here, your softness
Seeping through
Everything I give back to you
Milk and honey, sweeter
I forgot to doubt my body
Limbs are light in water
Waxing moon pulling up the sea
Soft in water, we can still breathe
Quench your thirst for safety
When you come to need it badly
I know how to 'cause you taught me
Cupped my hands and you were the stream
Night turned warm and fear into steam
Melody I Heard
I thought the air here remembered be
Wrapped all around
Like something I could sleep in
Meaning fell from every word
And then dissolved
With a melody I'd heard
And as I slept, smaller worlds sang
Their signals not for me
But I could understand
I thought the air here remembered be
Wrapped all around
Like something I could breathe
I heard the earth
She talked to me
And said it'd be over
Unless I fall asleep
To Love Again
Tempted to
Tempted to
Tempted to
Tempted to
Love
To love
To love
Again
Non Albums Tracks
A Stone Is A Stone
(Altogether Unaccompanied Vol. III EP)
Think of something you've seen
Break it down
Tell me as much as you can
Break it down for me
Oh how I love what you see
Make it sound like I haven't even been listening
To a word you say
With your back to the wall
Somehow now, how I got here, I can't recall
But then again here I am
Thinking there has to have been
Something wrong
Since the time when a stone was a stone
Now what do I know
This is how you go
Now what do I know
This is how I go
And if again we must go this time
I know how to go about it like I don't mind
It's my plight
To you, my dear, again, good night
Aix
(Drawing Room EP)
Aiming for the waterfront
I felt like quite an enthusiast
Silence never came
I sat writing our names
In the sand that the backwash took first
We do need each other's company
If only to describe
Mountains shape steep
Like giant bodies sleep
Covered by a sheet that runs for miles
You and I have decided to try to avoid
Thinking in terms of what we're downright terrified of losing
Early morn', you sing your song
Sing, sleepy golden storm
We have other lives, we live together while
In this one, we woke up boisterous and we tried
With our busy hands on strangers' lens
Our breathes are held enticed
Left on the headlights in the middle of the night
Though the darkness holds the prettiest of sights
Oh your eyes can't be denied
They see the tiniest of lies
You and I have decided to try to avoid
You and I have been doing just fine
Drinking others' wine, preoccupied
But time that passes
Oh how will we ever remember
Baby
(Drawing Room EP)
Take off your wig
Oh let me stare
I'll keep un-cross-dressing you no matter where
Paint my nails
And when they're dry
Undo my hair, you're taking me out for a drive
Oh I can live without
You, but I forgot
'Cause you're so baby
Take me upstairs
Let's go get down
And if I don't know the tune, I'll dance around
'Cause you've got ways, you've got ways
You've got ways, you've got ways
You've got ways I haven't seen on anyone
Oh I can live without
You, but I forgot
'Cause you're so baby
Ooh I can live without
You, but I forgot
'Cause you're so baby
You've got ways I haven't, and ways I haven't, no
You've got ways I haven't, and ways I haven't, no
You've got ways I haven't, and ways I haven't
And ways I haven't, no
You've got ways I haven't seen on anyone
Beau Beam
(Larynx feat. Helena Deland / Applaudissez, Bande De
Chameaux LP)
J'ai regardé tout droit dans le soleil
Rien que pour voir sans plisser les yeux
Ils se sont mis à pleurer
Mais j'ai quand même continué
J'ai fini par voir ton visage voler
Un peu partout dans le ciel
J'ai envie d'être aveuglé pour enfin
M'y habituer
Oui, c'est plus fort que moi de regarder vers toi
Toi qui me rayonnes dessus
Je crois renaître chaque minute
Aussi bien finir aveugle que seul
Dans un sens, c'еst bien plus moelleux
On finit par voir parеil à travers
Les rayons
De toute façon, j'vais regarder ou je veux
C'est impossible d'y résister
Mais au fond de moi je doute que je l'aie bien mérité
Oui, c'est plus fort que moi de regarder vers toi
Toi qui me rayonnes dessus
Je crois renaître chaque minute
Black Metal
(Drawing Room EP)
I've got nothing but my one track mind, baby
Is anybody going to save me from its toll
Waiting in the corner
Wonder why things do not change as they get older
Meet me
I will go as far
As waiting for you where you are
Oh man, doesn't matter if I love you
Sometimes much more than I say
Doesn't matter if I do so with my makeshift loneliness meters away
Oh so patiently I see it standing by the door
Probably take a step leading outside
If I weren't so needy asking for
More love, more
I will take what I can get
And repudiate guilt by trying as hard as I can to forget
That
That
It's gone too far, it seems
It's gone too far, it seems to me
No, wait for me
This is far as I can go
And with my arms around myself
I'm taking it, taking it, taking it slow
With my arms around myself
I'm taking it, taking it, taking it slow
With my arms around myself
I'm taking it, taking it, taking it slow
With my arms around myself
I'm taking it, taking it, taking it slow
Body Language
(Altogether Unaccompanied Vol. II EP)
I admit it's late
To show up here and in this state but
I disagree
We should talk there are some things that I need
To hear you say
Now that it's too late
To figure out how to separate
I still could get comfortable
If you only let me in on what's on your mind
What is on your mind
Body language gets old with time
And I can’t read your mind
I can't talk to you
Something happens when I try to
I can't talk to you
Something happens when I try to
Fool to think I'd leave with all I need to know and free to go
All I need to know and free to go
At last
Who do you want to be
Who you think you are to me
Let me in before
I've forgotten what I'm waiting for
What do you take this to be
What is it that you want from me
Let me in before
I've forgotten what I'm waiting for
How could I explain
When our inventions leaves out the name
I cannot explain
If I can't talk to you
Something happens when I try to
If I can't talk to you
Something happens when I try to
Fool to think I’d leave with all I need to know and free to go
All I need to know and free to go
At last
What is on your mind
Body language gets old with time
And I can’t read your mind
Body language gets old with time
And I can’t read your mind
Free at last
Free at last
Break For Lovers
(Men I Trust feat. Helena Deland / Headroom LP)
Let's lay down our masks
And be true
So that our eyes
Be bound in affection
Aware of our lust
And our shared trust
We can know each other
And hear nature's words
My dear friend
But let's not talk this through, I used to
'Cause long words widen gaps between lovers
We ought to be lone, my home's your own
Until we have each other, we're strangers
I know there's a reason
We use such curves
Riddles in smiles
Rather than small talk
I know we both want
Things to be done
In a truthful manner
There lies our rest
My dear friend
Let's not talk this through, I used to
'Cause long words widen gaps between lovers
We ought to be lone, my home's your own
Until we have each other, we're strangers
Let's not talk this through, I used to
'Cause long words widen gaps between lovers
We ought to be lone, my home's your own
Until we have each other, we're strangers
Let's not talk this through
Claudion
(Altogether Unaccompanied Vol. IV EP)
I broke into our home
Had we even been living here all along
And I forget who I'm with
All I remember is trying to get here safe
And your face that I know
And your face that I know says
"Night falls
And day breaks"
I was only thinking 'bout trying it out
I was only thinking 'bout trying it out
I break into our place
Step back and take a look at what has changed
And when I turn around
I see you lying on the ground, it's you
When I go down as myself
I don't come up as someone else, it's true
And your face that I know
And your face that I know says
"What comes over you
When you wish you were somewhere else
I can look after you
But, girl, you should look after yourself
'Cause night falls
And day breaks"
I was only thinking 'bout trying it out
I was only thinking 'bout trying it out
When night falls
And I'm all thinking 'bout trying it out
And day breaks
And I can't help it, I can't help it
Day breaks
And I can't help it
Breaks
Deceiver
(Claire Rousay & Helena Deland)
There's one park in the city
No one we know goes so we
Sit down there and have a fight
Moonlight through the tea trees
Street lights sweeping through me
Catching shady business of mine
And I'm spending my time
Trying to convince you
To believe me
You don't believe me
You see future betrayals
Tucked in every tale
And tell me over dep red wine
"My lady, I'm your taster
Jester courting favor"
Condemn me, locking eyes
And again this time
I'm trying to remind you
I am your friend
Not the deceiver
I'm not the deceiver
If in me you see her
Treat her right
Drawing Room
(Drawing Room EP)
I find it hard to catch my breath, it takes up all my time
There's a portrait of an older woman I'd love to hide behind
She had sheep drawn for her so she had them finally
And her sleep looked over by a man, she spent her life loving
Still, I see you outside in the light of noon
And I parting the curtains looking after you
While stuck with the others talking about the beautiful weather
The beautiful weather from the drawing room
You in the garden, me in the drawing room
So the half-life of love lasts forever lest we be true
It's hard to treat myself well after what I put you through
Still, I stay forgetful somehow laugh the week away
And run so lightly from the bonds we left there to decay
Still, I see you outside in the light of noon
And I parting the curtains looking after you
While stuck with the others talking about the beautiful weather
The beautiful weather
Our beautiful weather
Beautiful weather from the drawing room
You in the garden, me in the drawing room
In the garden, me in the drawing room
In the garden, you in the drawing room
In the garden, me in the drawing room
(You in the drawing room)
Free The Frail
(JPEGMANIA feat. Helena Deland / All My Heroes Are
Cornballs LP)
You think you know me
You think you fucking knew me
Don't rely on the strength of my image, baby
If it's good, then it's good
Break it down, this shit is outta my hands, hey
I feel it, I feel it
I feel, I feel it, I feel it
I feel annoyed (Feel annoyed)
I'm feeling strange, I feel the gains, I fill a void (void)
I'm still a roach, I'm doing shows, I feel employed (feel employed)
Even though I'm coy (though I'm coy) and you know that, boy
C'mon, I still feel the same (same)
I feel afraid, this Easy A, I'm feeling framed (feeling framed)
I wear a mask, I see the Banes
I'm still ashamed ('shamed)
Even though they aim, it's crazy, man
Feel like I'm losing hope (losing hope)
I'm on the web, I net the gross, I see the growth (see the growth)
I feel engaged, I'm in the game, don't need a coach
But I really do (really do), really don't (nigga)
I just been in my head (in my head)
I'm getting fried, I'm on the side, I'm Kevin Fed (Kevin Fed)
I played with fire, I can't retire, I need the bread, stat (man)
Don't rely on the strength of my image, hey
If it's good, then it's good
Break it down, the shit is outta my hands
Said, don't rely on the strength of my image, hey
If it's good, then it's good
Break it down, the shit is outta my hands, yeah
Look, I used to walk around with guns on me (stupid-ass nigga)
I used to spin that bass to Michael Prophet (yeah)
I used to think you wasn't popping until you had a stalker
I'm not no alpha male, I'm Carly Rae, you Braden Walker (damn)
Look, ninety-nine ain't a stack, baby
Say it, two times, feel like Casanova
Y'all be praying to Jehovah, I be praying to Hova (let's go)
I never whipped or sold the yola, still sold out the Nova (damn)
Two claps right here
And that's real too
Alright, let's clap
Try to find mine
I don't wanna die
I don't wanna
Don't rely on the strength of my image, hey
If it's good, then it's good
Break it down, the shit is outta my hands, no
Such a cool chord change
Said, don't rely on the strength of mine, mine
If it's good, then it's good
Break it down, the shit is outta my hands, no (baby)
Oh you think I'm lying
Fuck outta here, dawg
Saying
Quicksand's (alright, man, yeah)
Too thick to stand (go on, then)
Figure out now what it is that you need
I'll step out for a minute to breathe
One set of footsteps in the sand, but I'm not being carried
If it gets out of hand, you can go on without me
Huxley
(P.A.P.A Feat. Helena Deland)
Lights, lights, idle signs
Reflected on the seabound ice
We respond, keep keeping on
Troisième œil vers l'infini, les deux pieds dans l'asphalte
Ta salive coule sur le béton, je vois mon reflet dans' flaque
Syndrome de Narcisse, m'en va me noyer dans' bave
Pour voir si c'est de l'eau ou mon âme qui sort de moi quand je crache
Fek check moi bin aller
Le kemé est ailé
Un fuckin' aigle qui s'dirige droit vers le zénith
Pi si t'es assez zélé tu peux voir ma plume se promener dans ta télé kemé
Check moi respirer l'eau de mer, me baigner dans les plantes vertes
Pendant que j'verse une larme pour nos ancêtres
Une rivière de larmes pour nos ancêtres
Pas besoin de puffer pour que l'esprit s'élève
Je regarde la vie comme elle est vraiment pis je deviens son élève
Pis en bonne enseignante, elle m'a appris que si un soleil se couche là-bas,
ici, un autre soleil se lève
Que moi aussi j'suis un esclave
Que leur système craque et si on veut qu'il casse
Que le système crash et si on veut que ça se fasse
Il faut se libérer des chaînes qu'on a de pognées dans le crâne
On est tous tout, y'a rien qui est rien
Petit à côté du cosmos
Des géants devant l'atome
Ça dépend de comment tu vois qui que t'es
Huxley te le dirait mon pot
C'est du pareil au même anyway
Un jour tu comprendras ta place every day
Tu verras qu'on est au même rang que le vent dans les fleurs
Que la couronne d'une reine ou qu'un battement de cœur kemé
Tout est tout
Ça fait des millénaires que les prophètes le disent
Ce que t'appelles Dieu, c'est l'Alpha et l'Omega. Le rien est le tout
Garde ta Religion, détruis l'Église
Laisse les se baigner dans le sang des diamants d'Afrique
Y z'ont construit leur château sur une plaque de vitre
L'empire va s'écrouler bin vite
S'écrouler bin vite
Lights, lights, iddle signs
Reflected on the seabound ice
We respond, keep keeping on
As soon as ice smelts, the feeling's lost
Lean On You
(Altogether Unaccompanied Vol. III EP)
It's like asking me
"Why don't you stop looking my way
If you can see me
With your eyes shut anyway"
You run around and walk along
If I walk away
Feel like a child
Lean in and ask you how to play
Been working hard
Holding back, putting away
Every perverted things
I've thought of saying
To you
To you
To you
Instead I am
Asking why don't we go
Mingle with the people
'Cause I don't need
I don't need
I, I, I don't need
To lean on, on, on, on you, no
Even though
That's what other people do
It's effective though I haven't gone as far
As swimming in the poison that we are
It's impossible as always to forget
Something that hasn't happened yet
Not yet
Not yet
Meanwhile why don't we go
Mingle with the people
'Cause I don't need
I don't need
I, I, I don't need
To lean on, on, on, on you, no
Even though
That's what other people do
They lean on you
Perfect
Weather For A Crime
(Altogether Unaccompanied Vol. I EP)
I shiver with delight
Tonight's the perfect weather for a crime
The air's so thick, it sticks to you
Easy layer to break through
The street lights flicker earily
Wet pavement reflects the trees
We slither down the avenue
You ask me if I'd think of you
I don't know
I don't know
We wish away this weekday night
Looking for an acolyte
We let go every other day
Mess it up and watch it sway
It is not a waste of time
To want what can't be mine
I do it for the sake of it alone
At a distance, on my own
We slither down the avenue
You ask me if I'd think of you
I don't know
I don't know
I shiver with delight
Tonight's the perfect weather for a crime
Rise
(Altogether Unaccompanied Vol. IV EP)
Moonrise
You won't, you won't believe your eyes
But you could mine
As if you were by my side
Tender, tender, love me tenderly
I want to read your mind
Rigour, vigour, come and shatter me
Until I become skeptical of all the things I like
And walk away as fast as day at night
Sunrise
Arm's distance, I will sleep all night
If I wake, I'll move
Closer without waking you
Sleeper, sleeper, tell me what has been so tiring
You're gone
Lover, lover, I will think of you
When red meets blue and fades into the greater black
Won't you come back and hold me 'til it's through
Moonrise
You draw your eyes
On faces of people you won't come to know
On faces of people you won't come to know
You leave all the people before they know you
You leave all the people before they know you
Before they know you
Before they know you
Before they know you
Before they know you
Sigh In My Ear
(Claire Rousay feat. Helena Deland)
I wish I was dying laughing
On your bedroom floor
Just one more time
Hearing you sigh in my ear
Telling me tonight is all you need
"Doesn't matter what's outside of here"
I can still hear you sigh in my ear
What was it that I stopped myself from saying
What was it that I stopped myself from saying
I can't recall
Now it's four in the morning
And I'm running through the old times
Before you bled out your arms
Leaving scissors on the floor
Doesn't matter 'cause you're outside of here
Fuck what you did there
What was it that I stopped myself from saying
What was it that I stopped myself from saying
I can't recall
Sleep on it
(Carpenè Malvolti)
(P.A.P.A Feat. Helena Deland)
The nights of those we slept on it
And woke up again
They try to sweet talk us to sleep
But we speak in toungs unknownh
Dave! Call moi un plateau de shots
Fume ton stock devant les fuckin' cops
J't'ai jamais parlé d'épices
J'te parle du genre de shit qui empoisonne la tête
Le corps et l'âme des fils des villes
Le truc se calcule pas en trois décimales
Pollue l'béton des villes pour qu'y polissent leur palais d'marbre
Et c'est pas des diss c'est juste une constatation
Autant de crosses dans leurs murs qu'y a d'étoiles dans une constellation
Volent l'argent des pauvres pour le donner aux maires
Empoisonnent le peuple l'antidote dans leur mains
Polluent les mers, font pleurer nos mères
Pas de cash pour le pain, coupe de vin dans leurs mains
Vient pas me dire que c'est facile à dire, pour le dire faut le vivre
Ma famille le vit, je peux le dire
Pas de cash pour les founds il faut nourrir les kids
Yo reste wise, faut payer les bills
Hey Céline, tu connais rien des kayaks
Jacques, redis-moi que je suis un enfant roi encore
Pis j'te criss une claque
Le shit est deep et je suis en plein dedans
Je le sais c'est weak, mais j'veux du cash mom
The nights of those we slept on it
And woke up again
They try to sweet talk us to sleep
But we speak in toungs unknownh
Roule un blunt, roule un spliff
Pas de weed pour oim, fumée de sauge dans le pif
Pas de canines, pas de griffes
Pas de collier, pas de gamelle, pas de bitch, pas de laisse
Un amour grandissant dans l'chest
J'suis libre comme une pensée pas réfléchie
Freedom, Richie Haven
Mon ciel est bleu derrière les nuages qui le cachent
Un grand arbre d'amour derrière un brouillard de cash
Ses feuilles sont tellement belles
Si seulement tu pouvais les voir
Mais je te comprends, fais ton biz 'tite abeille
Désolé pour le bite, mais des gencives ça fait pas mal
Anyway, j'espère qu'on se feel, fuck on est pas des automates
Macaques robonobos, milionnaires, clodos, hobbos, anti bobos
Caviar gauche, Xtreme Centre bande de Bozos
Fuck la popo, mon cerveau à la place du 44
Slowmo, mofo, tag ça sur ma photo
The nights of those we slept on it
And woke up again
They try to sweet talk us to sleep
But we speak in toungs unknown
Stay True
(Men I Trust feat. Helena Deland / Men I Trust LP)
I have these thoughts going on in my head
My hopes are placed in some future ahead
My finite means tune the world to its will
My higher verb is forever fulfilled
If I live old
To see my grey days
(My heart will stay true and forever young)
This minute of gold
I won't let it daze
(Catching the fleeing moment bid it remain)
If I live old
To see my grey days
(My heart will stay true and forever young)
This minute of gold
I won't let it daze
(Catching the fleeing moment bid it remain)
I have these thoughts going on in my head
My hopes are placed in some future ahead
My finite means tune the world to its will
My higher verb is forever fulfilled
I contemplate this immortal outcome
A timeless trace of future times to come
I know I'm more than the span of my life
I know I'm more than my own local strife
If I live old
To see my grey days
(My heart will stay true and forever young)
This minute of gold
I won't let it daze
(Catching the fleeing moment bid it remain)
If I live old
To see my grey days
(My heart will stay true and forever young)
This minute of gold
I won't let it daze
(Catching the fleeing moment bid it remain)
Take It All
(Altogether Unaccompanied Vol. II EP)
I couldn't help it, no
I made it up
The life I danced in
And could get enough
I couldn't help it, no
I wondered who let you call them baby
I wondered who let you call them baby
You do have a way with the ladies
Take it all
Bring it back to my bed
Take it all
Nothing needs to be said
Take it all
I'll use the space it frees up in my head
For thoughts of you to spread
I couldn't help it, no
I came back
Saying "if it's a cruel game
Well, I came to know
If I'd met my match"
I wasn't playing though
Holding you close I froze in motion
Holding you close I froze in motion
Now I can't wait to join the commotion
It isn't easy
It isn't easy as a friend
To pretend you can
Take it all
Bring it back to my bed
Take it all
Like nothing needs to be said
Take it all
I'll use the space it frees up in my head
For thoughts of you to spread
There Are A
Thousand
(Altogether Unaccompanied Vol. I EP)
I look for ways in which this could end
So I can look forward to something
And wrap and wrap and wrap my mind around it
Pull it in close
And wrap and wrap and wrap my mind around it
And pull it in close
There are a thousand of each of us here
How will we recognize each other, dear
I look for places to hide what I've found so far
I can look for more
And wrap and wrap and wrap my mind around it
Pull it in close
And wrap and wrap and wrap my mind around it
Pull it in close
There are a thousand of each of us here
How will we recognize each other, dear
How will we recognize each other, dear
Two Queries
(Altogether Unaccompanied Vol. III EP)
Wait
What
Do you love
About the way
They move around you
(They circle you the most)
Around you
(They circle you the most)
Wait
What
Did you say
About your mom
And how she had to
Get used
To being alone
(They circle you the most)
To being alone
(They circle you the most)
To being alone
(They circle you the most)
To being alone
(They circle you the most)
