Japanese Breakfast Complete Lyrics Archive

B i o g r a p h y
(by Matt Collar)

A solo moniker for Philadelphia musician Michelle Zauner, Japanese Breakfast is known for her artfully experimental, deeply intimate brand of indie pop. Taking a break from her band Little Big League, she debuted in 2013 with the melodically lo-fi cassette release June. Along with further work with Little Big League, she has continued to expand her sonic palette, weaving in atmospheric synths, electric guitars, and electronics on 2016's Psychopomp and 2017's Soft Sounds from Another Planet. In 2021, Zauner hit number two on the New York Times nonfiction best-seller list with her memoir, Crying in H Mart, which found her exploring her Korean heritage in the wake of her mother's death from cancer. On the heels of her memoir, Japanese Breakfast released a companion album, Jubilee. Also that year, she supplied the score to the video game Sable.

Born in 1989 in Seoul, South Korea to a Korean mother and Jewish-American father, Zauner grew up in Eugene, Oregon, where her parents moved when she was still an infant. Later, she attended Bryn Mawr college and played in several indie rock bands before forming the group Little Big League around 2011. In 2013, she moved back home to Oregon to help care for her mother, who had been diagnosed with cancer. It was during this period that she initially started Japanese Breakfast as part of a month-long, song-a-day writing challenge. The result was 2013's June, an intimate set of melodic, electric guitar-accompanied lo-fi tunes issued on cassette by Ranch Records. She continued to write solo and with her band, releasing Japanese Breakfast's sophomore album, Where Is My Great Big Feeling?, and the Seagreen Records cassette American Sound, in the summer of 2014. Little Big League's Tropical Jinx arrived that October.

With a varied palette including markedly bigger, synth-boosted sounds that bridged lo-fi and indie pop, Japanese Breakfast's Yellow K Records debut, Psychopomp, was released in the spring of 2016. The album dealt with the emotional fallout of her mother's death, and was, in Zauner's mind, the one and only Japanese Breakfast record. She soon changed her mind, signed with Dead Oceans (which re-released Psychopomp to a wider audience), and began work on another album with the help of producer Craig Hendrix, who had also helmed Little Big League's debut LP. The pair played the bulk of the instruments on the record and went for a much bigger sound, taking the project out of the bedroom and into a large space. An expansive mix from indie pop alchemist Jorge Elbrecht made it sound even larger, as Zauner delved into themes like grief, dead pop stars, outer space, and moving on. Soft Sounds from Another Planet was released by Dead Oceans in July 2017, hitting the upper reaches of multiple critics' end-of-year lists.

Further sessions with Hendrix -- this time with a sprightly, pop-focused, string- and horn-bolstered sound -- led to the completion of another record in 2019. However, the COVID-19 pandemic caused Jubilee's release to be delayed until June 2021, when it debuted at number seven on both the Independent and Alternative albums charts. Productive as ever, Zauner used the downtime to write a memoir, Crying in H Mart, which found her exploring her Korean heritage in the wake of her mother's death. Released several months prior to Jubilee, the book reached number two on the New York Times nonfiction best-seller list. Also, in September 2021, Japanese Breakfast supplied the soundtrack to indie game developer Shedworks' and publisher Raw Fury's video game Sable.

JUNE

Day 1

To all deflowered women and men
I see your ceremony coming
In bloom

You're looking weary and used
I'm just a shadow in your view
Coming

And when I see you, I light up like a grocery aisle
Stop saving face when I'm like whatever comes out, comes out
This boat is filling up with water

Day 3

Zuleyka
I love to watch you work
Zuly with those Puerto Rican eyes
Big as baseballs
Oh it kills me

Who wants a drink, how can I serve you, Chinatown patrons of this karaoke bar
While I'm around the corner, those Korean women, they'll sell me the flowers I buy to take you out

Zuly, promise me
When we make up all of the money
We'll buy us a pick up and leave this town

Day 4

Pegasus, come out to play
Tell me if I did something wrong
Did my sneakers kick at your wings
Just two days ago, we rode towards the sun

Oh pegasus, you're my silver lining
Oh pegasus, you're my golden thread
Oh pegasus, you're all that I wanted
Oh pegasus, just come back to bed
Oh pegasus, just come back to bed
Oh pegasus, just come back to bed

Day 5

I wake to find you bathed and dressed
I guess it's no secret that sharing this bed
Isn't working

Remember that time a bird flew in our house
We accidentally killed it, trying to get it to fly back out
And for some reason I am thinking of this now
With you in that door way leaving

Day 6

Your boyish reassurance is not reassuring
And I need it
And all of my devotion turns violent
As you go to her
Don't expect to come home to me
To me

I can't get you off my mind
I can't get you off in general
Doesn't help that I'm a loser
And every woman seems so beautiful
Love me, love me

Day 7

If you think I'm sexy, you should say it now (just say I'm sexy)
I'm not the kind to sit around and wait (to sit around)
I know you're scared to feel so much so fast (so much so fast)
Why bear your weapons if you're not promising to bleed (bleed)

Get that heart
On my tide

'Cause Oregon girls never carry an umbrella
Even when it looks like it's going to rain
Oh this Oregon girl never carries an umbrella
'Cause Oregon girls used to raining everyday

Day 8

Take off all your clothes and stand right there for a minute
Do you ever look at me and wonder if this is it
Or if it's a memory, you are remembering a long time from now

Day 9

I work a day job
I work a night job
I work inbetween jobs everyday

Amphetamine salts
Amphetamine salts
You get me off
You get me off
In the worst kind of way
In the worst kind of way

This calls for some drugs
This calls for some drugs
This calls for some drugs

When the whole world doesn't believe in God, it'll be a great place
[Philip Roth on CBS "Sunday Morning" TV Show]

Drugs
Drugs
(Oh my God, you are just like your father)
(Oh my God, you are just like your father)

Day 10

Dad brought the rock down on its head, down on its head
Deer head
Splitting its skull, its skull open in half
Open

And the blood shone like VHS tape out of its skull and its severed leg
It was the right thing to do
And if purity was quantified, divide it in half each year you're alive
I was happier before
Not quite sure why it was right

Day 11

Dreamed a million dreams last night
So forgive me if I seem weird

Day 12

Oh one of these days when the workweek gets low
I am taking you out to the movies
And buying everything you want with the money

Tell me I did good, baby
You're proud of my eight bucks an hour
You don't need all of that big shit
You just want seats by the aisle

And you had me wrapped up around you
A paper sleeve
To your convenience store fruit pie

Day 13

You look kind of different
With your hair like that

I admire the way you look at your new woman

Day 14

No man
No woman
No dog
Or gun
Will ever
Make you feel safe as a woman

Day 15

(PAWS's "Sore Tummy" cover)

You don't know what I want
You don't know anything
Doctors don't know anything
It's not right, not right

Scream out loud, kick the wall
Will you run when I call
Doctors don't know anything
It's not right, it's not right

Well, my belly sure does hurt me
But it's okay 'cause I feel alive
The contractions come and go like a birth
But if a baby's on the way, I'd be surprised
Be surprised

He looks like a junkie sometimes
But junkies have beautiful eyes
The doctors don't know anything
It's not right, it's not right

You're all tired of hearing me
Talk about the "sore tummy"
Doctors don't know anything
It's not right, it's not right

Well, my belly sure does hurt me
But it's okay 'cause I feel alive
The contractions come and go like a birth
But if a baby's on the way, I'd be surprised
I'd be surprised, surprised

Day 16

Jeffrey's last Christmas, we let him go outside
The dog was slowly dying, but we wanted him alive
For just one more holiday season
For just one more holiday season
Before we put him down

Jeffrey's last Christmas, we kept calling out his name
But he never came back to us, so a Christmas dog he remains
It was Jeffrey's last Christmas
It was Jeffrey's last Christmas

Day 17

Summer unfurls our honeymoon stage
Did you really think those awful things you said
The heat is causing me to sweat
Every mental complex I have ever had

Sleeping between you and the AC window unit
Sleeping between you and the AC window unit

Day 18

Oh my sweet companion
You should leave me behind
I'm sewn to this harp and I'm rotting
Waiting for the band to support my lifestyle

And I can't wait to see
What you grow up to be
When you grow up

Day 19

Financial security
Isn't something that's within my reach
Look at the moon
Look at the moon
Look at the moon
Look at the moon

Day 20

My heart is an emporium
Love for sale deals, deals, deals

Day 21

Sue was chewing black gum after giving head
I was on the back porch chewing cherry Bubblicious

Day 22

Six, six, six
Sixteen-year-old kids
Hudled around the grocery lot
"He punched out my teeth," so you said
So did the evidence
The blood and the dent
On the car door from your head

I'm still ashamed
Don't say to be quiet
More embarrassing
Is that I forgave him

Day 23

(Liz Phair's "Chopsticks" cover)

I met him at a party
And he told me how to drive him home
He said that he liked to do it backwards
I said, "That's just fine with me
That way we can fuck and watch TV"

It was four a.m. and the light was gray
Like it always is in paperbacks
He asked if I liked playing jacks
I told him that I was good to sixes
But all hell broke loose after that

I told him that I knew Julia Roberts
When I was twelve at summer camp
We didn't say anything after that
I dropped him off and I drove on home
'Cause secretly I'm timid

Day 25

I love the way they love each other
Why can't you love me like that
With a complimentary facial formatting
And perfectly suited astrological signs

I hate it when you leave the house
I hate it when you leave the house
I hate it when you leave the house
I hate it when you leave the house

Why are we always watching TV
When did we get so boring
Why don't you ever reach for me in bed
Why don't we ever go out
Even to like a Chilis or something

It's nice to get out of the house
It's nice to get out of the house
It's nice to get out of the house
It's nice to get out of the house

Day 26

Desire, desire, do you feel it for me
Do you just want to get into trouble
'Cause your sister's getting married
So you've got the car
I know the guy with amphetamine

You and me, we've got some prime life real estate to burn
Damn, what you hear about active adult living

Desire, desire, someone called the police
I thought that we had an alliance
I hate when you tell me, "I think you're pretty now"
We haven't gone to bed for a week

Day 27

Won't you, please
Leave that tree
In the yard
The fuck alone

Day 28

Dreaming restaurant dreams
Where too many people keep coming in
And you're there
You don't know half of what I feel
When you tell me to close my eyes

It's an actors' game
Where you envision someone you have done wrong
And say that you're sorry 'til the guilt is gone

Day 29

I don't feel much of anything
I think squirrels are breeding in my ceiling
I hear my roommates making love upstairs
I'll hang myself in the kitchen
That'll show them to keep it down

Day 30

I wish I could keep you from abusing yourself for no reason at all

WHERE IS MY GREAT BIG FEELING?

Heft

I wanna churn like
Amish butter
I wanna move out
Of your way
I wanna find what's
There in your stomach
If it's the same dark
And it's too late

What if
It's the same dark coming, the same dark
What if
It's the same dark coming, the same dark
Oh fuck it all then

Pure Handjob

One, two, three, four

I thought I saw a hand glider
I wondered if it was tourist season
My body is so warm
Because my blood is flowing

We thought a nice place could bring us both luck
Things start to go our way
We thought a nice place could bring us both luck
Things start to go our way

Boys paint their boats by the water
Where is my great big feeling
You bought a tai chi sword to practice
It flopped around like a thin limp dick

We thought a nice place could bring us both luck
Things start to go our way
We thought a nice place could bring us both luck
Things start to go our way

Where is my great big feeling
Where is my great big feeling
Where is my great big feeling to feel

My Mommy Is Sick

Try not to get so righteous
About what's fair for everyone

Try not to think about my life without you
Try to channel every light in me to render this benign
Try not to think about my life without you
Try to channel every light in me to render this benign
Try not to think about my life without you
Try to channel every light in me to render this benign
Try not to think about my life without you
Try to channel every light in me to render this benign

Name Your Sound

Oh I guess it's going to be like this
Quiet from now on
Haven't I felt enough darkness

Oh who if not you
Will wrap me up in a cotton towel
When I'm crying in the shower
Every morning

You say I'm old enough
I feel old enough
You beg me not to swell up with anger
Like I do, but I do, but I do
But I do
But I do
But I do

FF69

Magic being
Mystic feelings
Final fantasy
Every morning

Saturday Night

Piña colada
Piña, piña, piña colada
Piña colada, piña, piña colada
Piña colada
Piña colada, piña colada, piña colada
Piña colada

Baby
You don't need no
Reservations
With me

Baby
We don't need no
Reservations
We're going to Chilis

Happier

There's not much to show, is there
When you see it from far away
You don't have to make me proud
I just want you to be happy
Hey, happy
Hey, happy
Hey, happy

AMERICAN SOUND

The Woman That Loves You

You're embarrassing me
With a postponed marriage and a stalled out car
Then you leave me in the back with half a window rolled down
Like a dog
Like a dog
In the summer heat

Don't you think
Don't you think
You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you

Oh we'll stay
Oh we'll stay together
For the weekend, honey
The weekend, babe
Me and you
Frosted blues
But we're gazing out for better things

You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you
You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you

Jane Cum

Jane Cum
In a year, I'll say, "Your hair got long"
And you'll tell me how the band got good
Like dust kicked up from a tire

Full force through the high beams
I was rushing from phantom pain
Sweat away our clothes, hatching

Jane Cum
You swallow me whole
Jane Cum
Swallow

Soulless animal, keep feeding on my meat
All my tiny bones between your teeth

Jane Cum
You swallow me whole
Jane Cum
Swallow

Jane Cum
Jane Cum
Jane Cum
Jane Cum

Road Head

You gave road
Head on a turnpike exit
Going home
Going home
Going home
Going home

Beating Off

Caught you beating off onto photos of my friends
While your roommate's hair made figure eights
And we each cast up a dry spell
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Bread

I awoke without breasts
Just a clean, hard slate
I ran my hands over the new formed surface

Turned to you in bed
With some fear, I'm being honest
But it's what I've always wanted
To be your man

Oh to win your bread
Oh to win your bread
Oh to win your bread
Oh to win your bread

Triple 7

Don't you know you'll never be the same
I look for you through the work week
And I love a man in uniform
'Cause he loves me like a slot machine
From the valley of loose women
In the cruel light of morning

You call out my name
Like something from the bottom of a well
Oh how they want, how they need
How they cling to my sleeves
Till they're lacerated sails
But in the night, I am someone else

Don't you know I'll always be this way
A pure woman is hard to find
To come by these days
And I know the looks of urge and scorn
And I know the role I'm meant to play
The role of the other woman
Who will spend her life longing

Call out my name
Like something from the bottom of a well
Oh how they want, how they need
How they cling to my sleeves
Till they're lacerated sails
But in the night, I am someone else
Yes, in the night, I am someone else

Jimmy Fallon Big!

We aren't bound by law
We aren't bound by anything at all
Just you
If you decide to show
Just if you decide to show up on time

Why walk when you can show up on time
Why walk when you show up on time
On time

PSYCHOPOMP

In Heaven

The dog's confused
She just paces around all day
She's sniffing at your empty room

I'm trying to believe
When I sleep, it's really you
Visiting my dreams
Like they say that angels do

I came here for the long haul
Now I leave here as an empty fucking hole

Oh do you believe in heaven
Like you believed in me
Oh it could be such heaven
If you believed it was real

Is there something you can do, can do with yourself
As I sift through the debris
While I empty every shelf
And flounder in the muck I'll be drowning in so soon
You can't watch me from the banks then
Turn to say you're swimming too

Come here for the long haul
Now I leave here just an empty goddamn hole

How do you believe in heaven
Like you believe in me
Oh it could be such heaven
If you believed it was real

The Woman That Loves You

You're embarrassing me
With a postponed marriage and this stalled out car
Then you leave me in the back with half a window rolled down
Like a dog
Like a dog
In the summer heat

Don't you think
Don't you think
You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you

Oh we'll stay
Oh we'll stay together
For the weekend, honey
The weekend, babe
Me and you
Frosted blue
But we're gazing out for better things

You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you
You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you

Rugged Country

Six, six, six
Sixteen-year-old kids
Huddled around the grocery lot
"He punched out my teeth," so you said
So did the evidence
The blood and the dent
On the car door from your head

And this is where I bring you
With every laurel I've hung from your neck
It will be the noose that hangs you
Yes, it will be the noose that hangs you

'Cause I was lonely here and it's lonely still
In the rugged country where the weeds grow fierce
Quicker than the crop I keep running from
In this rugged country
I'm the rugged one
I'm the rugged one
I'm the rugged one
I'm the rugged one

And this is where we lost you
Despite every effort to bring you back
Yeah the hope's the one that haunts you
And the home's the rope that's wrapped around your neck
And it will be the noose that hangs you
Yes, it will be the noose that hangs you

And it's a heavy hand where I wear your death
As a wedding ring in the rugged country
I tend to your man in the home you had
Oh in this rugged country
I'm the rugged one
I'm the rugged one
I'm the rugged one
I'm the rugged one

Everybody Wants To Love You

Can I get your number
Can I get you into bed
When we wake up in the morning
Will you give me lots of head

Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you

Will you lend me your toothbrush
Will you make me breakfast in bed
Ask me to get married
And then make me breakfast again

Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you

Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you
Everybody wants to love you

Jane Cum

Jane Cum
In a year, I'll say, "Your hair got long"
And you'll tell me how the band got good
Like dust kicked up from a tire

Full force through the high beams
I was rushing from phantom pain
Sweat away our clothes, hatching

Jane Cum
You swallow me whole
Jane Cum
Swallow

Soulless animal, keep feeding on my meat
All my tiny bones between your teeth

Jane Cum
You swallow me whole
Jane Cum
Swallow
Jane
Jane

Heft

I want to churn like
Amish butter
I want to move out
Of your way
I want to find what's
There in your stomach
If it's the same dark
And it's too late

What if
It's the same dark coming
(The same dark coming)
The same dark
What if
It's the same dark coming
(The same dark coming)
The same dark
Oh fuck it all then

I spent the summer
Trying to be sweeter
I spent the summer
Staying in
I ran a mile
I ran another
I spent my nights by
Hospital beds

What if
It's the same dark coming
(The same dark coming)
The same dark
What if
It's the same dark coming
(The same dark coming)
The same dark
Well then, fuck it all
Fuck it all

Triple 7

Don't you know I've always been this way
I look to you through the workweek
And I love a man in uniform
'Cause he loves me like a slot machine
From the valley of loose women
In the cruel light of morning

Call out my name
Like something from the bottom of a well
How I want, how I need
How I cling to your sleeves
Till they're like lacerated sails
But in the night, I am someone else

Don't you know it's always been the same
A pure woman is hard to find
To come by these days
And I know the looks of urge and scorn
And I know the role I'm meant to play
The role of the other woman
Who will spend her life longing

Call out my name
Like something from the bottom of a well
How I want, how I need
How I cling to your sleeves
Till they're all fucked beyond repair
But in the night, I am someone else
Yes, in the night, I am someone else
Oh in the night, I am someone else

SOFT SOUNDS FROM ANOTHER PLANET

Diving Woman

I want to be a woman of regimen
A bride in her home state
A diving woman of Jeju-do

I want it all
I want it all
I want it all
I want it all
I want it

The men have gone and left again
And no one's shocked or blames them
Another day is shot, my friend
I'm picking up the pieces
That's the third dead dog I've seen on this highway
These treads are wearing thin
When I get back there, baby
I'm gonna make you a home

You'll have it all
You'll have it all
You'll have it all
You'll have it all
I'll have it

Road Head

You gave road head
On a turnpike exit
Going home
Going home

Last ditch desperate
Like a makeshift siphon
Pump and run
Pump and run
Pump and run
Pump and run

Run
Run
Run
Run
Run

"Dream on, baby"
Were his last words to me
"Dream on, baby"
So dreaming, baby
Took that corkscrewed highway
Lightless miles
Of big rigs
Lightless miles
Miles and miles

Home...

Machinist

I don't know how it happened
Was it always this way and I just couldn't see it
Heart burning hot enough for the both of us
I never realized how much you were holding back
All the times I felt so plugged in, you were tuning out
A muted channel, a cold shell, a hologram, an abyss

How can I fight
A kingdom of your demons
A mist, so palpable
You can't have it all
Her and all the pleasure a woman can give

Do you trust me
Can you feel it
Total control
Can't let go
It could be bliss
Machinist

Can't speak, you wanted it all
Let go a piece of the heart
All the pleasure it gives
Leave me lost in the night
Shadows go in and go by
I just wanted it all

Here's to the night
A lullaby a-creeping
A song to win your love
See me at all
Through all of your aggressors
The true one

Can't speak, you wanted it all
Let go a piece of your heart
All the pleasure it gives
Leave me lost in the night
Shadows go in and go by
I just wanted it all

Soft Sounds From Another Planet

I wish I could keep you from abusing yourself for no reason at all
Counting backwards things you endured, pitting them up against happier lives

That's not the way to hurt me
That's not the way to hurt me
I'll show you the way to hurt me

In search of a soft sound from another planet
In search of a quiet place to lay this to rest
Striving for goodness while the cruel men win
There's no part of me left that can feel or hear it

They'll never let you hurt me
They'll never let you hurt me
I'll never let you hurt me

Boyish

Your boyish reassurance is not reassuring
And I need it
And all of my devotion turns violent
If you go to her
Dn't expect to come home to me
To me

I can't get you off my mind
I can't get you off in general
So here we are, we're just two losers
I want you and you want something more beautiful

Lack of inhibition works wonders
In revealing every demon
And all this confrontation, this suffering
What do you want from me
If you don't like how I look then leave

I can't get you off my mind
You can't get yours off the hostess
Watched her lips reserving tables
As my ugly mouth kept running

Love me
Love me

12 Steps

I said something cruel, I can't say I quite regret it
Twelve steps into the smoking bar I found you
Clothes engulfed in a bonfire, I begged you to my room
Begging still all these years

Oh looking back
How did I keep moving
I didn't know that half of me was missing
It's easy to leave, easy to leave

So tell me, "I can't blame you
We let love run its course
And it's a little bit lonelier
I don't blame you
It's just our love ran its course
And that's a little bit hard"

Oh looking back
There wasn't a thing to keep me
From running around in the wreckage that burned all season
It was easy to leave once you'd finally seen me

Now tell me, "I can't blame you
It's just that love ran its course
And it's a little bit lonelier
I don't blame you
We let love run its course
And it's a little bit hard
I can't blame you
He's the one that you wanted
Singing scenes from a restaurant
I can't blame you
It's just our love ran its course
And it's a love that's long gone"

Jimmy Fallon Big!

We aren't bound by law
We aren't bound by anything at all
Just you
If you decide to show
Just if you decide to show up on time

Why walk when you can show up on time
Why walk when you can show up on time
On time
On time
On time

The Body Is A Blade

Try not to get so righteous
About what's fair for everyone
Find what's left in you
Channel something good

Try your best to slowly withdraw
From the darkest impulses of your heart
Try your best to feel and receive
Your body is a blade that cuts a path from day to day

Calling it off, our hoax of trying
What's this place if you're not here
Emptied the house and staged it for buying
Wave goodbye to all your things

Try your best to slowly withdraw
Try your best to slowly withdraw

The body is a blade that moves while your brain is writhing
Knuckled under pain you mourn, but your blood is flowing

Till Death

All our celebrities keep dying
While the cruel men continue to win
You reassure me in a way you only can
Get these days to go by like the swaying of a ship

Your shape in the dark
Out of state, licensed to me
Public pool, Miller moon
Don't turn away, I'm still awake

Steering on hostile waves of panic
Like fighting a wheel that pulls to the right
I don't deserve you, but I'm giving it my best
Extol your sacrifice with fine caviars and aspics

Your voice in the night
Sing me to sleep, soothe this insomnia
Haunted dreams, stages of grief
Repressed memories
Anger and bargaining

Your embrace healing my wounds
Teach me to breathe, teach me to move
PTSD, anxiety, genetic disease
Thanatophobia

This House

This house is full of women
Playing guitar, cooking breakfast
Sharing trauma, doing dishes
And where are you

What if one day I don't know you
What if one day you leave
And all confused desire and time-zone changes
Change what's left of you and me

Maybe it's all the drinks you're buying
I was feeling like a kid
Spying on the hidden porn store cameras
Waiting on your graveyard shift

And now you're out in California
Just like you always said you'd be
And did you ever even love her
Or was it rooted in companionship and timing

Well, I'm not the one I was then
My life was folded up in half
I guess I owe it to the timing of companions
I survived the year at all
At all, at all

JUBILEE

Paprika

Lucidity came slowly
I awoke from dreams of untying a great knot
It unraveled like a braid into what seemed were thousands
Of separate strands of fishing line
Attached to coarse behavior, it flowed
A calm, it urged, what else is here

How's it feel to be at the center of magic
To linger in tones and words
I opened the floodgates and found
No water, no current, no river, no rush
How's it feel to stand at the height of your powers
To captivate every heart
Projеcting your visions to strangers who feel it, who listen to linger on еvery word

Oh, it's a rush
Oh, it's a rush

But alone, it feels like dying
All alone, I feel so much

I want my offering to woo, to calm, to clear, to solve
But the only offering that comes
It calls, it screams, there's nothing here

How's it feel to be at the center of magic
To linger in tones and words
I opened the floodgates and found
No water, no current, no river, no rush
How's it feel to stand at the height of your powers
To captivate every heart
Projecting your visions to strangers who feel it, who listen to linger on every word

Oh, it's a rush
Oh, it's a rush

Be Sweet

Tell the men I'm coming
Tell them count the days
I can feel the night passing by like a mistake waiting for me
Caught up in my feelings
Overthink the truth
Fantasize you've left me behind and I'm turned back running for you

Make it up to me, you know it's better
Make it up to me, you know it's better

Be sweet to me, baby
I wanna believe in you, I wanna believe
(Be sweet)
Be sweet to me, baby
I wanna believe in you, I wanna believе in something

So come and get your woman
(Comе and get your woman)
Pacify her rage
(Pacify her rage)
Take the time to undo your lies, make it up once more with feeling

Recognize your mistakes and I'll let you back in
Realize not too late, loved you always

Make it up to me, you know it's better
Make it up to me, you know it's better

Be sweet to me, baby
I wanna believe in you, I wanna believe
(Be sweet)
Be sweet to me, baby
I wanna believe in you, I wanna believe in something
Be sweet to me, baby
I wanna believe in you, I wanna believe
(Be sweet)
Be sweet to me, baby
I wanna believe in you, I wanna believe in something

Kokomo, IN

If I could throw my arms around you
For just another day
Maybe it'd feel like the first time
Now that you're away
I'll just spend my life not knowing
How it'd feel to

These days, I can't shake the awful feeling
I'm missing something I can't place
Is that you
Manifesting like the fear of an oven left on
God, I felt so much back then
I was soft as a dune

If ever you come back
Wherever you find your way to
And though it may not last
Just know that I'll be here longing

I'll wait, passing time just popping wheelies
And kicking round this flyover state
Watching you show off to the world the parts I fell so hard for
God, I wish we could go back there
Left alone in my room
I know they deserve you too
And maybe I'm not that worthy

If ever you come back
Wherever you find your way to
And though it may not last
Just know that I'll be here longing
If ever you come back
Wherever you find your way to
And though it may not last
You know that I'll be here always

Slide Tackle

I want to be good
I want to navigate this hate in my heart
Somewhere better
I want to feel it
But with the feel there is an ache I meet
To desire living

Don't mind me while I'm tackling this void
Slide tackling my mind
This weight feels like
I'm wrestling with my head
Obsessing in the dark

So be good to me, be good to me
You and me always had a good time
And what else is left, babe
So be good to me, be good to me
The day's not a wash until you say

Don't mind me while I'm tackling this void
Slide tackling my mind
Long nights where I'm
I'm wrestling with my head
Obsessing in the dark
Obsessing in the dark
Obsessing in the dark

Posing In Bondage

Can you tell I've been posing
This way alone for hours
Waiting for your affection
Waiting for you
Done up and drunk
Done up and fixed on
All of the nights you turned away my touch

Closeness
Proximity
I needed
Bondage
Closeness
Proximity
I needed
Bondage

When the world divides into two people
Those who have felt pain and those who have yet to
And I can't unsee it although I would like to
Posing in bondage, I hope you come home soon

Closeness
Proximity
I needed
Bondage
Closeness
Proximity
I need it
Bondage

Sit

Hear my name in your mouth and I'm done for
Say to sit on your face in O's and ones
It's a chase sequence on loop
It's the life that you chose and it kills me

Caught up in the idea of someone
Caught up in the idea of you
That's done too soon

It's your name in my mouth I'm repeating
It's the taste of your tongue I can't spit out
I keep watching the way he looks through you
I keep watching your ways, I miss it all

Caught up in the idea of someone
Caught up in the idea of you
That's gone too soon

Savage Good Boy

(I want to be your man)
(I want to be your)

I want to be your man
I want to be your savage good boy
I want to take care of you

When everybody's gone
Want you to be the one that I come home to
The one that's up waiting

I want to make the money 'til there's no more to be made
And we will be so wealthy, I'm absolved from questioning
That all my bad behavior was just a necessary strain
They're the stakes in the race to win

I've got a five-year plan
I've got a pension and six condos
A billion-dollar bunker for two

And when the city's underwater
I will wine and dine you in the hollows
On a surplus of freeze-dried food

I want to make the money 'til there's no more to be made
And as the last ones standing, we'll be tasked to repopulate
And as you rear our children, know it's the necessary strain
They're the stakes in a race to live

In Hell

With my luck, you'll be dead within the year
I've come to expect it
There's nothing left to fear, at least there's that

Face to face and at my hands I snowed you in
With hydrocodone
Layer by layer 'til you disappear

Hell is finding someone to love and I can't have you
Hell is finding someone to love and I can't see you again

Wheeled you and laid on your side
I cried and cried and at my signal
They stopped your heart and then you died

And under the fluorescence, another sterile room
Where no one ever tells you just how clinical death looks
And I can't unsee it, the two shots it took

Hell is finding someone to love and I can't have you
Hell is finding someone to love and I can't see you again
Hell is finding someone to love and I can't feel you
Hell is finding someone to love and I can't, I can't

Tactics

Tried, tried to recall
Memories of peaches, the sun on my neck
And I guess, without you, I would attach myself too
Without much discretion of who

So I had to move a great distance from you
Cross a sea, keep you from me
Move a great distance from you
Cross a sea, keep you from me

So say, say what you want
Dose up on fiction, disfigure the truth
While I walk, life beating on
Aching for others with love that stops short

A love that has to move a great distance from you
Cross a sea, keep you from me
Move a great distance from you
Cross a sea, keep you from me

Posing For Cars

Woke from a dream in which you'd left me
Posing for cars on the American stoop
Don't make me beg you just 'cause you can
I'm just a woman with a loneliness
I'm just a woman with needs

And how could you ever conceive
How much I need you, how truly barren I can be
They say that time, it is the only certainty
But it's been one o'clock for hours
Oh the day is long, untangling

Can't sort release from what I sold you
Is this what it takes to enjoy the day
All of my pleasures left on display
I'm just a hollow root pushing through
I'm just the empty space inside the room

And how could you ever conceive
This adolescent heart skipping beats
When all your love, it grows full and firm beneath
Without a festered thought, without an emerald want
Just a single slow desire fermenting

Be Sweet

(Korean Version / Feat. So!YoON!)

그들에게 말해
내가 오고 있다
밤이 깊어져 나를 기다리는 건 실수 밖에 없네
감정에 사로잡혀
현실은 부정하고
상상해봤지 넌 나를 떠나고 난 널 쫓아가는 거

내게 반성해봐 그렇잖아
내게 반성해봐 그게 낫잖아

Be sweet to me, baby
난 너를 믿고 싶어 너무 믿고 싶은데 말이야
(Be sweet)
Be sweet to me, baby
난 너를 믿고 싶어 무언가를 믿고 싶은데

나를 데려가요
(나를 데려가요)
진정시켜줘
(진정시켜줘)
돌려놔 너의 거짓말
Make it up once more with feeling

실수라 말해줘
다시 품에 안을게
너무 늦지는 마
I loved you always

내게 반성해봐 그렇잖아
내게 반성해봐 그게 낫잖아

Be sweet to me, baby
난 너를 믿고 싶어 너무 믿고 싶은데 말이야
(Be sweet)
Be sweet to me, baby
난 너를 믿고 싶어 무언가를 믿고 싶은데
Be sweet to me, baby
난 너를 믿고 싶어 너무 믿고 싶은데 말이야
(Be sweet)
Be sweet to me, baby
난 너를 믿고 싶어 무언가를 믿고 싶은데

NON ALBUMS TRACKS

2042

(Polyvinyl 4-Track Singles Series, Vol. 3 EP)

Up on dagger creek
Watching visions in the spring
Of this psychotronic view
Who are you, how about you

Feeling that the wall's
A familiar shape to touch
I am seeking in the dark
Of my childhood home

Oh you
I'll miss you more than more
I'm lost without you
I'm a fraud without you

Calling out my name
At least, I think that was my name
There's this feeling like a gun
At the back of my neck

This place used to be fun
Now it's just an empty fucking space in my heart
Now I'm just chasing all the sounds in my head
And the sounds in my head

Is there a word for the moment
You notice all your pores in my heart
It's been a while, but I could try anyway
And if Mars One ever happens
I wonder what their accents will be like
Ten years' time, twenty-forty-two

I'm lost without you
I'm a fraud without you
And I lie and I lie and I lie all night
And I lie just to lie and I lie

California Dreamin'

(The Mamas & The Papas cover / Live on SiriusXMU)

All the leaves are brown
And the sky is gray
I've been for a walk
On a winter's day
I'd be safe and warm
If I was in L.A.
California dreaming
On such a winter's day

Stopped in to a church
I passed along the way
Well, I got down on my knees
(I got down on my knees)
And I pretend to pray
(I pretend to pray)
You know the preacher lights the coals
(Preacher lights the coals)
He knows I'm gonna stay
(He knows I'm gonna stay)
California dreaming
(California dreaming)
On such a winter's day

All the leaves are brown
(All the leaves are brown)
And the sky is gray
(And the sky is gray)
I've been for a walk
(I've been for a walk)
On a winter's day
(On a winter's day)
If I didn't tell her
(If I didn't tell her)
I could leave today
(I could leave today)
California dreaming
(California dreaming)
On such a winter's day
(California dreaming)
On such a winter's day
(California dreaming)
On such a winter's day

Dreams

(The Cranberries cover / Recorded at Spotify Studios NYC)

Oh my life
Is changing every day
Every possible way
Oh my dreams
Never quiet as it seems
Never quiet as it seems

Never felt like this before
Now I'm feeling it even more,
Because it came from you
Now I open up and see
The person falling here is me
A different way to be

I want more
Imposible to ignore
Imposible to ignore
They'll come true
Impossible not to do
Impossible not to do

Now I tell you openly
You have my heart, so don't hurt me
You're what I couldn't find
Totally amazing mind
So understanding and so kind
You're everything to me

Oh my life
Is changing every day
Every possible way
Oh my dreams
Never quiet as it seems,
'Cause you're a dream to me
Dream to me

Essentially

(W Records, Vol. I LP)

Ignore me sensually, I won't admit that they were right
Who was I to judge your brand of loneliness
Who was I to think I was someone above desire
Love me asexually, love me like someone else's wife
How is it you fall asleep so easy
Who is it you're dreaming of tonight
(Tonight)

Love me essentially
(Love, that thing that you can't buy)
Love me essentially
(Honey, do I fill up your time)

Well, you got it all wrong in finding what you're after
When you've got it all wrong and can't find what you want

I lie awake to reach for the soft sound in the night
Try my best to swallow up the jealousy
Try to learn to fall hard back in love with all this and

Love you essentially
(Love, a thing that you can't buy)
Love you essentially
(Honey, do I fill up your time)

When you've got it all wrong in finding what you're after
I got it all wrong, I don't know what I want
When you've got it all wrong and don't know what you're after
When you've got it all wrong if I found what you want

Glider

(Sable Video Game OST)

Come in to me, show us the way
I'm caught between the wind and parts of the unknown
A door between two worlds
A sight to see

It feels like everything is moving
Around me
It feels like it is moving
In time

Glider caught the breeze
Feels like flying
Every particle in synch
Come on and guide me
Glider
Glider

Head Over Heels

(Tears For Fears cover / W Records, Vol. I LP)

I wanted to be with you alone
And talk about the weather
But traditions I can trace
Against the child in your face
Won't escape my attention

You keep your distance with a system of touch
And gentle persuasion
I'm lost in admiration
Could I need you this much
You're wasting my time
You're just wasting time

Something happens and I'm head over heels
I never find out 'til I'm head over heels
Something happens and I'm head over heels
Ah don't take my heart, don't break my heart
Don't, don't throw it away

I made a fire and watching it burn
I thought of your future
With one foot in the past now
Just how long will it last
Have you no ambition

My mother and my brothers used to breathe in clean air
And dreaming I'm a doctor
It's hard to be a man when there's a gun in your hand
Oh I feel sorrow

Something happens and I'm head over heels
I never find out 'til I'm head over heels
Something happens and I'm head over heels
Ah don't take my heart, don't break my heart
Don't, don't throw it away

Here You Come Again

(Dolly Parton cover / Live)

Here you come again
Just when I've begun to get myself together
You waltz right in the door
Just like you've done before
And wrap my heart 'round your little finger

Here you come again
Just when I'm about to make it work without you
You look into my eyes
And lie those pretty lies
And pretty soon I'm wondering how I came to doubt you

All you got to do is smile that smile
And there go all my defenses
Just leave it up to you and in a little while
You're messing up my mind, filling up my senses

Here you come again
Looking better than a body has a right to
And shaking me up, so that all I really know
Is here you come again
And here I go

All you have to do is smile that smile
And there go all my defenses
Just leave it up to you and in a little while
You're messing up my mind, filling up my senses

Here you come again
Looking better than a body has a right to
And shaking me up, so that all I really know
Is here you come again
And here I go
Here I go
Here I go
Here I go
Here you come again
Here I go
Here you come again

I Like Fancy Fins

(Helpsters, Vol. 3 OST)

Fishes with big fins, fishes with small fins
You can see fins on a squid or a dolphin

But my favorite kind of fishes have fancy fins
It's like they're at a party where everybody swims
My favorite kind of fishes have fancy fins, yeah

I like, I like fancy fins, yeah
I like, I like fancy fins, yeah
Fancy fins, yeah

Fancy fins
Fishes with big fins, fishes with small fins
You can find fins on a squid or a dolphin

Fancy fins, yeah
Fancy fins, yeah

But my favorite kind of fishes have fancy fins
It's like they're at a party where everybody swims
My favorite kind of fishes have fancy fins, yeah

I like, I like fancy fins, yeah
I like, I like fancy fins, yeah

Lovefool

(The Cardigans cover / Live)

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem
You love me no longer, I know and
Maybe there is nothing that I can do
To make you do
Mama tells me I shouldn't bother
That I ought to stick to another man
A man that really deserves me
But I think you do

And so I cry, I pray and I beg

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me, love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me

So I cry and I pray for you too

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, fool me
Go on and fool me
I can't care 'bout anything but you

Lately, I have desperately pondered
Spent my nights awake and I wonder
What I could have done in another way
To make you stay
Reason will not lead to solution
I will end up lost in confusion
I don't care if you really care
As long as you don't go

And so I cry, I pray and I beg

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Fool me, fool me
Go on and fool me
Love me, love me
Pretend that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me

So I cry and I pray for you too

Love me, love me
Say that you love me
Leave me, leave me
Just say that you need me
I don't care 'bout anything but you
Anything but you

Love me, love me
Go on and love me
Fool me, fool me
I know that you fool me
Love me, leave me
I know that you'll leave me
I can't care 'bout anything but you

Maybes

(Giraffage feat. Japanese Breakfast / Too Real LP)

Do I have it, what you want (what you want)
Start to look back, get off easy
There were others, took their time (toook their time)
Couldn't happen, go down, bring up the AC

Let us take a look inside
Fan the flame
All alone with this drink and
After image, fantasize
Cool your head, go down, breathe easy, you're under me

Go down, down, down, down...

Do I have it, what you want (what you want)
Start to look back, get off easy
There were others, took their time (took their time)
Couldn't happen, go down, bring up the AC

Go down, down, down, down...

Nobody Sees Me Like You Do

(Yoko Ono cover / Ocean Child: Songs Of Yoko Ono LP)

I see your face looking into the space
All tired and worried
Why does it have to be like this, you and I
I wanted us to be happy

No one can see me like you do
No one can see you like I do

I see your face with a trace of life
Being a wife and a woman
If I ever hurt you, please, remember
I wanted us to be happy
Is there anything I want more
More than your trust and understanding

No one can see me like you do
No one can see you like I do

I wanna quit moving, I wanna quit running
I wanna relax and be tender
I wanna see us together again
Rocking away in our walnut chairs
Even with your warmth and closeness
These feelings of loneliness hangs over like a curse

No one can see me like you do
No one can see you like I do

Even with our dreams and yearnings
These feelings of loneliness hangs over like a thirst

No one can see me like you do
No one can see you like I do
No one can see me like you do
No one can se you like I do
No one
No one
No one
No one

Romulus

(Sufjan Stevens cover / Live on SiriusXM Sessions)

One, two, three

Once when our mother called
She had a voice of last year's cough
We passed around the phone
Sharing a word about Oregon

When my turn came
I was ashamed
When my turn came
I was ashamed

Once when we moved away
She came to Romulus for a day
She moved ? broke down
We prayed it never be fixed or be found

We touched her hair
We touched her hair
We touched her hair
We touched her hair

Once she had her last child
Once when she had some boyfriend somewhile
She moved away quite far
Our grandpa bought us a new VCR

We watched it all night
We grew up in spite of it
We watched it all night
We grew up in spite of it

We saw her once last fall
Our grandpa died in a hospital gown
She didn't seem to care
She smoked in her room and colored her hair

I was ashamed
I was ashamed
I was ashamed
I was ashamed
I was ashamed
I was ashamed (of her)
I was ashamed
I was ashamed of her

Say It Ain't So

(Weezer cover / Live at Electric Lady)

Oh yeah
Alright

Somebody's Heine is crowding my icebox
Somebody's cold one is giving me chills
Guess I'll just close my eyes

Oh yeah
Alright
Feels good
Inside

Flip on the telly, wrestle with Jimmy
Something is bubbling behind my back
The bottle is ready to blow

Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker

I can't confront you, I never could do
That which might hurt you, so try and be cool
When I say
"This way is a water slide away from me that takes you further every day"
So be cool

Say it ain't so
Our love is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker

Dear daddy, I write you, in spite of years of silence
You've cleaned up, found Jesus, things are good or so I hear
This bottle of Stephen's awakens ancient feelings
Like father, stepfather, the son is drowning in the flood
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah

Say it ain't so
Your drug is a heartbreaker
Say it ain't so
My love is a life taker

Skinny Love

(Bon Iver cover / Recorded at Spotify Studios L.A.)

Come on, skinny love, just last the year
Pour a little salt, we were never here
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer

Tell my love to wreck it all
Cut out all the ropes and let me fall
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Right in this moment, this order's tall

And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind
And in the morning I'll be with you
But it will be a different kind
'Cause I'll be holding all the tickets
And you'll be owning all the fines

Come on, skinny love, what happened here
Suckle on the hope in light brassiere
My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my
Sullen load is full, so slow on the split

And I told you to be patient
And I told you to be fine
And I told you to be balanced
And I told you to be kind
And now all your love is wasted
Then who the hell was I
Now I'm breaking at the britches
And at the end of all your lines

Who will love you
Who will fight
Who will fall far behind

The Ballad Of The Witches' Road (Pop Version)

(Agatha All Along OST)

I have learned the lesson
Of all that's foul and fair
Our love was forged in fire
Water, earth, and air
The spell is cast, how long it lasts
I cannot divine
The road is there
And so I dare
To risk this heart of mine

Down, down, down the road
Down the witches' road
Down, down, down the road
Down the witches' road
Down, down, down the road
Down the witches' road
Blood and tears and bone
Together and alone

If I can't reach you
Let my song teach you
All you need to keep our love alive
If I can't hold you
Remember what I told you
It's the only way we survive
We survive

The road is wild and wicked
Winding out of time
Still we face our fortune
Chasing the sublime
What's lost is found, what's fierce is bound
We're broken and we're burned
But take a breath
And dance with death
My love cannot be turned

As we go
Down, down, down the road
Down the witches' road
Down, down, down the road
Down the witches' road
Down, down, down the road
Down the witches' road
Wherever it may bend
I'll see you at the end
I'll see you at the end

The Story

(Brandi Carlile cover / The North Face's "It's More Than a Jacket" campaign)

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true, I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
Crossed all the lines and broke all the rules
But, baby, I broke them all for you
Oh 'cause even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
You do, I was made for you

You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through like you do
And I was made for you

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true, I was made for you

Oh yeah it's true that I was made for you