B i o g r a p h y (by Matt Collar)
A solo moniker for Philadelphia musician Michelle Zauner, Japanese Breakfast is known for her artfully experimental, deeply intimate brand of indie pop. Taking a break from her band Little Big League, she debuted in 2013 with the melodically lo-fi cassette release June. Along with further work with Little Big League, she has continued to expand her sonic palette, weaving in atmospheric synths, electric guitars, and electronics on 2016's Psychopomp and 2017's Soft Sounds from Another Planet. In 2021, Zauner hit number two on the New York Times nonfiction best-seller list with her memoir, Crying in H Mart, which found her exploring her Korean heritage in the wake of her mother's death from cancer. On the heels of her memoir, Japanese Breakfast released a companion album, Jubilee. Also that year, she supplied the score to the video game Sable. Born in 1989 in Seoul, South Korea to a Korean mother and Jewish-American father, Zauner grew up in Eugene, Oregon, where her parents moved when she was still an infant. Later, she attended Bryn Mawr college and played in several indie rock bands before forming the group Little Big League around 2011. In 2013, she moved back home to Oregon to help care for her mother, who had been diagnosed with cancer. It was during this period that she initially started Japanese Breakfast as part of a month-long, song-a-day writing challenge. The result was 2013's June, an intimate set of melodic, electric guitar-accompanied lo-fi tunes issued on cassette by Ranch Records. She continued to write solo and with her band, releasing Japanese Breakfast's sophomore album, Where Is My Great Big Feeling?, and the Seagreen Records cassette American Sound, in the summer of 2014. Little Big League's Tropical Jinx arrived that October. With a varied palette including markedly bigger, synth-boosted sounds that bridged lo-fi and indie pop, Japanese Breakfast's Yellow K Records debut, Psychopomp, was released in the spring of 2016. The album dealt with the emotional fallout of her mother's death, and was, in Zauner's mind, the one and only Japanese Breakfast record. She soon changed her mind, signed with Dead Oceans (which re-released Psychopomp to a wider audience), and began work on another album with the help of producer Craig Hendrix, who had also helmed Little Big League's debut LP. The pair played the bulk of the instruments on the record and went for a much bigger sound, taking the project out of the bedroom and into a large space. An expansive mix from indie pop alchemist Jorge Elbrecht made it sound even larger, as Zauner delved into themes like grief, dead pop stars, outer space, and moving on. Soft Sounds from Another Planet was released by Dead Oceans in July 2017, hitting the upper reaches of multiple critics' end-of-year lists. Further sessions with Hendrix -- this time with a sprightly, pop-focused, string- and horn-bolstered sound -- led to the completion of another record in 2019. However, the COVID-19 pandemic caused Jubilee's release to be delayed until June 2021, when it debuted at number seven on both the Independent and Alternative albums charts. Productive as ever, Zauner used the downtime to write a memoir, Crying in H Mart, which found her exploring her Korean heritage in the wake of her mother's death. Released several months prior to Jubilee, the book reached number two on the New York Times nonfiction best-seller list. Also, in September 2021, Japanese Breakfast supplied the soundtrack to indie game developer Shedworks' and publisher Raw Fury's video game Sable.
2042 California Dreamin' Dreams Essentially Glider Head Over Heels Here You Come Again I Like Fancy Fins Lovefool Maybes Nobody Sees Me Like You Do Romulus Say It Ain't So Skinny Love The Ballad Of The Witches' Road (Pop Version) The Story
JUNE Day 1 To all deflowered women and men I see your ceremony coming In bloom You're looking weary and used I'm just a shadow in your view Coming And when I see you, I light up like a grocery aisle Stop saving face when I'm like whatever comes out, comes out This boat is filling up with water Day 3 Zuleyka I love to watch you work Zuly with those Puerto Rican eyes Big as baseballs Oh it kills me Who wants a drink, how can I serve you, Chinatown patrons of this karaoke bar While I'm around the corner, those Korean women, they'll sell me the flowers I buy to take you out Zuly, promise me When we make up all of the money We'll buy us a pick up and leave this town Day 4 Pegasus, come out to play Tell me if I did something wrong Did my sneakers kick at your wings Just two days ago, we rode towards the sun Oh pegasus, you're my silver lining Oh pegasus, you're my golden thread Oh pegasus, you're all that I wanted Oh pegasus, just come back to bed Oh pegasus, just come back to bed Oh pegasus, just come back to bed Day 5 I wake to find you bathed and dressed I guess it's no secret that sharing this bed Isn't working Remember that time a bird flew in our house We accidentally killed it, trying to get it to fly back out And for some reason I am thinking of this now With you in that door way leaving Day 6 Your boyish reassurance is not reassuring And I need it And all of my devotion turns violent As you go to her Don't expect to come home to me To me I can't get you off my mind I can't get you off in general Doesn't help that I'm a loser And every woman seems so beautiful Love me, love me Day 7 If you think I'm sexy, you should say it now (just say I'm sexy) I'm not the kind to sit around and wait (to sit around) I know you're scared to feel so much so fast (so much so fast) Why bear your weapons if you're not promising to bleed (bleed) Get that heart On my tide 'Cause Oregon girls never carry an umbrella Even when it looks like it's going to rain Oh this Oregon girl never carries an umbrella 'Cause Oregon girls used to raining everyday Day 8 Take off all your clothes and stand right there for a minute Do you ever look at me and wonder if this is it Or if it's a memory, you are remembering a long time from now Day 9 I work a day job I work a night job I work inbetween jobs everyday Amphetamine salts Amphetamine salts You get me off You get me off In the worst kind of way In the worst kind of way This calls for some drugs This calls for some drugs This calls for some drugs When the whole world doesn't believe in God, it'll be a great place [Philip Roth on CBS "Sunday Morning" TV Show] Drugs Drugs (Oh my God, you are just like your father) (Oh my God, you are just like your father) Day 10 Dad brought the rock down on its head, down on its head Deer head Splitting its skull, its skull open in half Open And the blood shone like VHS tape out of its skull and its severed leg It was the right thing to do And if purity was quantified, divide it in half each year you're alive I was happier before Not quite sure why it was right Day 11 Dreamed a million dreams last night So forgive me if I seem weird Day 12 Oh one of these days when the workweek gets low I am taking you out to the movies And buying everything you want with the money Tell me I did good, baby You're proud of my eight bucks an hour You don't need all of that big shit You just want seats by the aisle And you had me wrapped up around you A paper sleeve To your convenience store fruit pie Day 13 You look kind of different With your hair like that I admire the way you look at your new woman Day 14 No man No woman No dog Or gun Will ever Make you feel safe as a woman Day 15 (PAWS's "Sore Tummy" cover) You don't know what I want You don't know anything Doctors don't know anything It's not right, not right Scream out loud, kick the wall Will you run when I call Doctors don't know anything It's not right, it's not right Well, my belly sure does hurt me But it's okay 'cause I feel alive The contractions come and go like a birth But if a baby's on the way, I'd be surprised Be surprised He looks like a junkie sometimes But junkies have beautiful eyes The doctors don't know anything It's not right, it's not right You're all tired of hearing me Talk about the "sore tummy" Doctors don't know anything It's not right, it's not right Well, my belly sure does hurt me But it's okay 'cause I feel alive The contractions come and go like a birth But if a baby's on the way, I'd be surprised I'd be surprised, surprised Day 16 Jeffrey's last Christmas, we let him go outside The dog was slowly dying, but we wanted him alive For just one more holiday season For just one more holiday season Before we put him down Jeffrey's last Christmas, we kept calling out his name But he never came back to us, so a Christmas dog he remains It was Jeffrey's last Christmas It was Jeffrey's last Christmas Day 17 Summer unfurls our honeymoon stage Did you really think those awful things you said The heat is causing me to sweat Every mental complex I have ever had Sleeping between you and the AC window unit Sleeping between you and the AC window unit Day 18 Oh my sweet companion You should leave me behind I'm sewn to this harp and I'm rotting Waiting for the band to support my lifestyle And I can't wait to see What you grow up to be When you grow up Day 19 Financial security Isn't something that's within my reach Look at the moon Look at the moon Look at the moon Look at the moon Day 20 My heart is an emporium Love for sale deals, deals, deals Day 21 Sue was chewing black gum after giving head I was on the back porch chewing cherry Bubblicious Day 22 Six, six, six Sixteen-year-old kids Hudled around the grocery lot "He punched out my teeth," so you said So did the evidence The blood and the dent On the car door from your head I'm still ashamed Don't say to be quiet More embarrassing Is that I forgave him Day 23 (Liz Phair's "Chopsticks" cover) I met him at a party And he told me how to drive him home He said that he liked to do it backwards I said, "That's just fine with me That way we can fuck and watch TV" It was four a.m. and the light was gray Like it always is in paperbacks He asked if I liked playing jacks I told him that I was good to sixes But all hell broke loose after that I told him that I knew Julia Roberts When I was twelve at summer camp We didn't say anything after that I dropped him off and I drove on home 'Cause secretly I'm timid Day 25 I love the way they love each other Why can't you love me like that With a complimentary facial formatting And perfectly suited astrological signs I hate it when you leave the house I hate it when you leave the house I hate it when you leave the house I hate it when you leave the house Why are we always watching TV When did we get so boring Why don't you ever reach for me in bed Why don't we ever go out Even to like a Chilis or something It's nice to get out of the house It's nice to get out of the house It's nice to get out of the house It's nice to get out of the house Day 26 Desire, desire, do you feel it for me Do you just want to get into trouble 'Cause your sister's getting married So you've got the car I know the guy with amphetamine You and me, we've got some prime life real estate to burn Damn, what you hear about active adult living Desire, desire, someone called the police I thought that we had an alliance I hate when you tell me, "I think you're pretty now" We haven't gone to bed for a week Day 27 Won't you, please Leave that tree In the yard The fuck alone Day 28 Dreaming restaurant dreams Where too many people keep coming in And you're there You don't know half of what I feel When you tell me to close my eyes It's an actors' game Where you envision someone you have done wrong And say that you're sorry 'til the guilt is gone Day 29 I don't feel much of anything I think squirrels are breeding in my ceiling I hear my roommates making love upstairs I'll hang myself in the kitchen That'll show them to keep it down Day 30 I wish I could keep you from abusing yourself for no reason at all
WHERE IS MY GREAT BIG FEELING? Heft I wanna churn like Amish butter I wanna move out Of your way I wanna find what's There in your stomach If it's the same dark And it's too late What if It's the same dark coming, the same dark What if It's the same dark coming, the same dark Oh fuck it all then Pure Handjob One, two, three, four I thought I saw a hand glider I wondered if it was tourist season My body is so warm Because my blood is flowing We thought a nice place could bring us both luck Things start to go our way We thought a nice place could bring us both luck Things start to go our way Boys paint their boats by the water Where is my great big feeling You bought a tai chi sword to practice It flopped around like a thin limp dick We thought a nice place could bring us both luck Things start to go our way We thought a nice place could bring us both luck Things start to go our way Where is my great big feeling Where is my great big feeling Where is my great big feeling to feel My Mommy Is Sick Try not to get so righteous About what's fair for everyone Try not to think about my life without you Try to channel every light in me to render this benign Try not to think about my life without you Try to channel every light in me to render this benign Try not to think about my life without you Try to channel every light in me to render this benign Try not to think about my life without you Try to channel every light in me to render this benign Name Your Sound Oh I guess it's going to be like this Quiet from now on Haven't I felt enough darkness Oh who if not you Will wrap me up in a cotton towel When I'm crying in the shower Every morning You say I'm old enough I feel old enough You beg me not to swell up with anger Like I do, but I do, but I do But I do But I do But I do FF69 Magic being Mystic feelings Final fantasy Every morning Saturday Night Piña colada Piña, piña, piña colada Piña colada, piña, piña colada Piña colada Piña colada, piña colada, piña colada Piña colada Baby You don't need no Reservations With me Baby We don't need no Reservations We're going to Chilis Happier There's not much to show, is there When you see it from far away You don't have to make me proud I just want you to be happy Hey, happy Hey, happy Hey, happy
AMERICAN SOUND The Woman That Loves You You're embarrassing me With a postponed marriage and a stalled out car Then you leave me in the back with half a window rolled down Like a dog Like a dog In the summer heat Don't you think Don't you think You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you Oh we'll stay Oh we'll stay together For the weekend, honey The weekend, babe Me and you Frosted blues But we're gazing out for better things You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you Jane Cum Jane Cum In a year, I'll say, "Your hair got long" And you'll tell me how the band got good Like dust kicked up from a tire Full force through the high beams I was rushing from phantom pain Sweat away our clothes, hatching Jane Cum You swallow me whole Jane Cum Swallow Soulless animal, keep feeding on my meat All my tiny bones between your teeth Jane Cum You swallow me whole Jane Cum Swallow Jane Cum Jane Cum Jane Cum Jane Cum Road Head You gave road Head on a turnpike exit Going home Going home Going home Going home Beating Off Caught you beating off onto photos of my friends While your roommate's hair made figure eights And we each cast up a dry spell Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Bread I awoke without breasts Just a clean, hard slate I ran my hands over the new formed surface Turned to you in bed With some fear, I'm being honest But it's what I've always wanted To be your man Oh to win your bread Oh to win your bread Oh to win your bread Oh to win your bread Triple 7 Don't you know you'll never be the same I look for you through the work week And I love a man in uniform 'Cause he loves me like a slot machine From the valley of loose women In the cruel light of morning You call out my name Like something from the bottom of a well Oh how they want, how they need How they cling to my sleeves Till they're lacerated sails But in the night, I am someone else Don't you know I'll always be this way A pure woman is hard to find To come by these days And I know the looks of urge and scorn And I know the role I'm meant to play The role of the other woman Who will spend her life longing Call out my name Like something from the bottom of a well Oh how they want, how they need How they cling to my sleeves Till they're lacerated sails But in the night, I am someone else Yes, in the night, I am someone else Jimmy Fallon Big! We aren't bound by law We aren't bound by anything at all Just you If you decide to show Just if you decide to show up on time Why walk when you can show up on time Why walk when you show up on time On time PSYCHOPOMP In Heaven The dog's confused She just paces around all day She's sniffing at your empty room I'm trying to believe When I sleep, it's really you Visiting my dreams Like they say that angels do I came here for the long haul Now I leave here as an empty fucking hole Oh do you believe in heaven Like you believed in me Oh it could be such heaven If you believed it was real Is there something you can do, can do with yourself As I sift through the debris While I empty every shelf And flounder in the muck I'll be drowning in so soon You can't watch me from the banks then Turn to say you're swimming too Come here for the long haul Now I leave here just an empty goddamn hole How do you believe in heaven Like you believe in me Oh it could be such heaven If you believed it was real The Woman That Loves You You're embarrassing me With a postponed marriage and this stalled out car Then you leave me in the back with half a window rolled down Like a dog Like a dog In the summer heat Don't you think Don't you think You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you Oh we'll stay Oh we'll stay together For the weekend, honey The weekend, babe Me and you Frosted blue But we're gazing out for better things You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you You should try to do as little harm as you can to the woman that loves you Rugged Country Six, six, six Sixteen-year-old kids Huddled around the grocery lot "He punched out my teeth," so you said So did the evidence The blood and the dent On the car door from your head And this is where I bring you With every laurel I've hung from your neck It will be the noose that hangs you Yes, it will be the noose that hangs you 'Cause I was lonely here and it's lonely still In the rugged country where the weeds grow fierce Quicker than the crop I keep running from In this rugged country I'm the rugged one I'm the rugged one I'm the rugged one I'm the rugged one And this is where we lost you Despite every effort to bring you back Yeah the hope's the one that haunts you And the home's the rope that's wrapped around your neck And it will be the noose that hangs you Yes, it will be the noose that hangs you And it's a heavy hand where I wear your death As a wedding ring in the rugged country I tend to your man in the home you had Oh in this rugged country I'm the rugged one I'm the rugged one I'm the rugged one I'm the rugged one Everybody Wants To Love You Can I get your number Can I get you into bed When we wake up in the morning Will you give me lots of head Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Will you lend me your toothbrush Will you make me breakfast in bed Ask me to get married And then make me breakfast again Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Everybody wants to love you Jane Cum Jane Cum In a year, I'll say, "Your hair got long" And you'll tell me how the band got good Like dust kicked up from a tire Full force through the high beams I was rushing from phantom pain Sweat away our clothes, hatching Jane Cum You swallow me whole Jane Cum Swallow Soulless animal, keep feeding on my meat All my tiny bones between your teeth Jane Cum You swallow me whole Jane Cum Swallow Jane Jane Heft I want to churn like Amish butter I want to move out Of your way I want to find what's There in your stomach If it's the same dark And it's too late What if It's the same dark coming (The same dark coming) The same dark What if It's the same dark coming (The same dark coming) The same dark Oh fuck it all then I spent the summer Trying to be sweeter I spent the summer Staying in I ran a mile I ran another I spent my nights by Hospital beds What if It's the same dark coming (The same dark coming) The same dark What if It's the same dark coming (The same dark coming) The same dark Well then, fuck it all Fuck it all Triple 7 Don't you know I've always been this way I look to you through the workweek And I love a man in uniform 'Cause he loves me like a slot machine From the valley of loose women In the cruel light of morning Call out my name Like something from the bottom of a well How I want, how I need How I cling to your sleeves Till they're like lacerated sails But in the night, I am someone else Don't you know it's always been the same A pure woman is hard to find To come by these days And I know the looks of urge and scorn And I know the role I'm meant to play The role of the other woman Who will spend her life longing Call out my name Like something from the bottom of a well How I want, how I need How I cling to your sleeves Till they're all fucked beyond repair But in the night, I am someone else Yes, in the night, I am someone else Oh in the night, I am someone else SOFT SOUNDS FROM ANOTHER PLANET Diving Woman I want to be a woman of regimen A bride in her home state A diving woman of Jeju-do I want it all I want it all I want it all I want it all I want it The men have gone and left again And no one's shocked or blames them Another day is shot, my friend I'm picking up the pieces That's the third dead dog I've seen on this highway These treads are wearing thin When I get back there, baby I'm gonna make you a home You'll have it all You'll have it all You'll have it all You'll have it all I'll have it Road Head You gave road head On a turnpike exit Going home Going home Last ditch desperate Like a makeshift siphon Pump and run Pump and run Pump and run Pump and run Run Run Run Run Run "Dream on, baby" Were his last words to me "Dream on, baby" So dreaming, baby Took that corkscrewed highway Lightless miles Of big rigs Lightless miles Miles and miles Home... Machinist I don't know how it happened Was it always this way and I just couldn't see it Heart burning hot enough for the both of us I never realized how much you were holding back All the times I felt so plugged in, you were tuning out A muted channel, a cold shell, a hologram, an abyss How can I fight A kingdom of your demons A mist, so palpable You can't have it all Her and all the pleasure a woman can give Do you trust me Can you feel it Total control Can't let go It could be bliss Machinist Can't speak, you wanted it all Let go a piece of the heart All the pleasure it gives Leave me lost in the night Shadows go in and go by I just wanted it all Here's to the night A lullaby a-creeping A song to win your love See me at all Through all of your aggressors The true one Can't speak, you wanted it all Let go a piece of your heart All the pleasure it gives Leave me lost in the night Shadows go in and go by I just wanted it all Soft Sounds From Another Planet I wish I could keep you from abusing yourself for no reason at all Counting backwards things you endured, pitting them up against happier lives That's not the way to hurt me That's not the way to hurt me I'll show you the way to hurt me In search of a soft sound from another planet In search of a quiet place to lay this to rest Striving for goodness while the cruel men win There's no part of me left that can feel or hear it They'll never let you hurt me They'll never let you hurt me I'll never let you hurt me Boyish Your boyish reassurance is not reassuring And I need it And all of my devotion turns violent If you go to her Dn't expect to come home to me To me I can't get you off my mind I can't get you off in general So here we are, we're just two losers I want you and you want something more beautiful Lack of inhibition works wonders In revealing every demon And all this confrontation, this suffering What do you want from me If you don't like how I look then leave I can't get you off my mind You can't get yours off the hostess Watched her lips reserving tables As my ugly mouth kept running Love me Love me 12 Steps I said something cruel, I can't say I quite regret it Twelve steps into the smoking bar I found you Clothes engulfed in a bonfire, I begged you to my room Begging still all these years Oh looking back How did I keep moving I didn't know that half of me was missing It's easy to leave, easy to leave So tell me, "I can't blame you We let love run its course And it's a little bit lonelier I don't blame you It's just our love ran its course And that's a little bit hard" Oh looking back There wasn't a thing to keep me From running around in the wreckage that burned all season It was easy to leave once you'd finally seen me Now tell me, "I can't blame you It's just that love ran its course And it's a little bit lonelier I don't blame you We let love run its course And it's a little bit hard I can't blame you He's the one that you wanted Singing scenes from a restaurant I can't blame you It's just our love ran its course And it's a love that's long gone" Jimmy Fallon Big! We aren't bound by law We aren't bound by anything at all Just you If you decide to show Just if you decide to show up on time Why walk when you can show up on time Why walk when you can show up on time On time On time On time The Body Is A Blade Try not to get so righteous About what's fair for everyone Find what's left in you Channel something good Try your best to slowly withdraw From the darkest impulses of your heart Try your best to feel and receive Your body is a blade that cuts a path from day to day Calling it off, our hoax of trying What's this place if you're not here Emptied the house and staged it for buying Wave goodbye to all your things Try your best to slowly withdraw Try your best to slowly withdraw The body is a blade that moves while your brain is writhing Knuckled under pain you mourn, but your blood is flowing Till Death All our celebrities keep dying While the cruel men continue to win You reassure me in a way you only can Get these days to go by like the swaying of a ship Your shape in the dark Out of state, licensed to me Public pool, Miller moon Don't turn away, I'm still awake Steering on hostile waves of panic Like fighting a wheel that pulls to the right I don't deserve you, but I'm giving it my best Extol your sacrifice with fine caviars and aspics Your voice in the night Sing me to sleep, soothe this insomnia Haunted dreams, stages of grief Repressed memories Anger and bargaining Your embrace healing my wounds Teach me to breathe, teach me to move PTSD, anxiety, genetic disease Thanatophobia This House This house is full of women Playing guitar, cooking breakfast Sharing trauma, doing dishes And where are you What if one day I don't know you What if one day you leave And all confused desire and time-zone changes Change what's left of you and me Maybe it's all the drinks you're buying I was feeling like a kid Spying on the hidden porn store cameras Waiting on your graveyard shift And now you're out in California Just like you always said you'd be And did you ever even love her Or was it rooted in companionship and timing Well, I'm not the one I was then My life was folded up in half I guess I owe it to the timing of companions I survived the year at all At all, at all JUBILEE Paprika Lucidity came slowly I awoke from dreams of untying a great knot It unraveled like a braid into what seemed were thousands Of separate strands of fishing line Attached to coarse behavior, it flowed A calm, it urged, what else is here How's it feel to be at the center of magic To linger in tones and words I opened the floodgates and found No water, no current, no river, no rush How's it feel to stand at the height of your powers To captivate every heart Projеcting your visions to strangers who feel it, who listen to linger on еvery word Oh, it's a rush Oh, it's a rush But alone, it feels like dying All alone, I feel so much I want my offering to woo, to calm, to clear, to solve But the only offering that comes It calls, it screams, there's nothing here How's it feel to be at the center of magic To linger in tones and words I opened the floodgates and found No water, no current, no river, no rush How's it feel to stand at the height of your powers To captivate every heart Projecting your visions to strangers who feel it, who listen to linger on every word Oh, it's a rush Oh, it's a rush Be Sweet Tell the men I'm coming Tell them count the days I can feel the night passing by like a mistake waiting for me Caught up in my feelings Overthink the truth Fantasize you've left me behind and I'm turned back running for you Make it up to me, you know it's better Make it up to me, you know it's better Be sweet to me, baby I wanna believe in you, I wanna believe (Be sweet) Be sweet to me, baby I wanna believe in you, I wanna believе in something So come and get your woman (Comе and get your woman) Pacify her rage (Pacify her rage) Take the time to undo your lies, make it up once more with feeling Recognize your mistakes and I'll let you back in Realize not too late, loved you always Make it up to me, you know it's better Make it up to me, you know it's better Be sweet to me, baby I wanna believe in you, I wanna believe (Be sweet) Be sweet to me, baby I wanna believe in you, I wanna believe in something Be sweet to me, baby I wanna believe in you, I wanna believe (Be sweet) Be sweet to me, baby I wanna believe in you, I wanna believe in something Kokomo, IN If I could throw my arms around you For just another day Maybe it'd feel like the first time Now that you're away I'll just spend my life not knowing How it'd feel to These days, I can't shake the awful feeling I'm missing something I can't place Is that you Manifesting like the fear of an oven left on God, I felt so much back then I was soft as a dune If ever you come back Wherever you find your way to And though it may not last Just know that I'll be here longing I'll wait, passing time just popping wheelies And kicking round this flyover state Watching you show off to the world the parts I fell so hard for God, I wish we could go back there Left alone in my room I know they deserve you too And maybe I'm not that worthy If ever you come back Wherever you find your way to And though it may not last Just know that I'll be here longing If ever you come back Wherever you find your way to And though it may not last You know that I'll be here always Slide Tackle I want to be good I want to navigate this hate in my heart Somewhere better I want to feel it But with the feel there is an ache I meet To desire living Don't mind me while I'm tackling this void Slide tackling my mind This weight feels like I'm wrestling with my head Obsessing in the dark So be good to me, be good to me You and me always had a good time And what else is left, babe So be good to me, be good to me The day's not a wash until you say Don't mind me while I'm tackling this void Slide tackling my mind Long nights where I'm I'm wrestling with my head Obsessing in the dark Obsessing in the dark Obsessing in the dark Posing In Bondage Can you tell I've been posing This way alone for hours Waiting for your affection Waiting for you Done up and drunk Done up and fixed on All of the nights you turned away my touch Closeness Proximity I needed Bondage Closeness Proximity I needed Bondage When the world divides into two people Those who have felt pain and those who have yet to And I can't unsee it although I would like to Posing in bondage, I hope you come home soon Closeness Proximity I needed Bondage Closeness Proximity I need it Bondage Sit Hear my name in your mouth and I'm done for Say to sit on your face in O's and ones It's a chase sequence on loop It's the life that you chose and it kills me Caught up in the idea of someone Caught up in the idea of you That's done too soon It's your name in my mouth I'm repeating It's the taste of your tongue I can't spit out I keep watching the way he looks through you I keep watching your ways, I miss it all Caught up in the idea of someone Caught up in the idea of you That's gone too soon Savage Good Boy (I want to be your man) (I want to be your) I want to be your man I want to be your savage good boy I want to take care of you When everybody's gone Want you to be the one that I come home to The one that's up waiting I want to make the money 'til there's no more to be made And we will be so wealthy, I'm absolved from questioning That all my bad behavior was just a necessary strain They're the stakes in the race to win I've got a five-year plan I've got a pension and six condos A billion-dollar bunker for two And when the city's underwater I will wine and dine you in the hollows On a surplus of freeze-dried food I want to make the money 'til there's no more to be made And as the last ones standing, we'll be tasked to repopulate And as you rear our children, know it's the necessary strain They're the stakes in a race to live In Hell With my luck, you'll be dead within the year I've come to expect it There's nothing left to fear, at least there's that Face to face and at my hands I snowed you in With hydrocodone Layer by layer 'til you disappear Hell is finding someone to love and I can't have you Hell is finding someone to love and I can't see you again Wheeled you and laid on your side I cried and cried and at my signal They stopped your heart and then you died And under the fluorescence, another sterile room Where no one ever tells you just how clinical death looks And I can't unsee it, the two shots it took Hell is finding someone to love and I can't have you Hell is finding someone to love and I can't see you again Hell is finding someone to love and I can't feel you Hell is finding someone to love and I can't, I can't Tactics Tried, tried to recall Memories of peaches, the sun on my neck And I guess, without you, I would attach myself too Without much discretion of who So I had to move a great distance from you Cross a sea, keep you from me Move a great distance from you Cross a sea, keep you from me So say, say what you want Dose up on fiction, disfigure the truth While I walk, life beating on Aching for others with love that stops short A love that has to move a great distance from you Cross a sea, keep you from me Move a great distance from you Cross a sea, keep you from me Posing For Cars Woke from a dream in which you'd left me Posing for cars on the American stoop Don't make me beg you just 'cause you can I'm just a woman with a loneliness I'm just a woman with needs And how could you ever conceive How much I need you, how truly barren I can be They say that time, it is the only certainty But it's been one o'clock for hours Oh the day is long, untangling Can't sort release from what I sold you Is this what it takes to enjoy the day All of my pleasures left on display I'm just a hollow root pushing through I'm just the empty space inside the room And how could you ever conceive This adolescent heart skipping beats When all your love, it grows full and firm beneath Without a festered thought, without an emerald want Just a single slow desire fermenting Be Sweet (Korean Version / Feat. So!YoON!) 그들에게 말해 내가 오고 있다 밤이 깊어져 나를 기다리는 건 실수 밖에 없네 감정에 사로잡혀 현실은 부정하고 상상해봤지 넌 나를 떠나고 난 널 쫓아가는 거 내게 반성해봐 그렇잖아 내게 반성해봐 그게 낫잖아 Be sweet to me, baby 난 너를 믿고 싶어 너무 믿고 싶은데 말이야 (Be sweet) Be sweet to me, baby 난 너를 믿고 싶어 무언가를 믿고 싶은데 나를 데려가요 (나를 데려가요) 진정시켜줘 (진정시켜줘) 돌려놔 너의 거짓말 Make it up once more with feeling 실수라 말해줘 다시 품에 안을게 너무 늦지는 마 I loved you always 내게 반성해봐 그렇잖아 내게 반성해봐 그게 낫잖아 Be sweet to me, baby 난 너를 믿고 싶어 너무 믿고 싶은데 말이야 (Be sweet) Be sweet to me, baby 난 너를 믿고 싶어 무언가를 믿고 싶은데 Be sweet to me, baby 난 너를 믿고 싶어 너무 믿고 싶은데 말이야 (Be sweet) Be sweet to me, baby 난 너를 믿고 싶어 무언가를 믿고 싶은데
FOR MELANCHOLY BRUNETTES (& SAD WOMEN)
Here Is Someone Guilty dreaming of slower days But I don't want to let you down We've come so far Can you see a life where we leave this behind? While last night's drinks bring on your morning tempers And I run my guts back through the spoke again Measure by measure In time with the songs we loved Watching you from the yard Life is sad but here is someone Someone Someone Someone
Orlando In Love Orlando in love Writes sixty-nine cantos For melancholy brunettes and sad women The breeze carries salt And sipping milky broth He cast his gaze toward the sea out the Winneabago As if the sea had bore her to be An ideal woman She came to him from the water Like Venus from a shell Singing his name with all the sweetness of a mother Leaving him breathless and then drowned Orlando Orlando Orlando Orlando
Honey Water Why can't you be faithful Why won't you believe They say only love can change a man But all that changes is me Return through the seasons Make up for the night I dream about leaving But no coward soul is mine So, it goes Any day I don't mind The lure of honey water draws you from my arms so needy You follow in colonies to sip it from the bank In rapturous sweet temptation, you wade in past the edge and sink in Insatiable for a nectar, drinking 'til your heart expires So, it goes I don't mind So, it goes I don't mind So, it goes I don't mind So, it goes I don't mind
Mega Circuit Barreling 'round the mega circuit Kicking mud off ATVs Plotting blood with your incel eunuchs I could be the home you need Oh I'm gonna write my baby a shuffle good C'mon Shooting blanks off a blacktop surface Blue light cast off a sodium beam Sucked you off by the AC unit Caught your breath while the evening steeped Well, I'm better write my baby a shuffle good Or he's gonna make me suffer the way I should Deep in the soft hearts of young boys so pissed off and jaded Carrying dull prayers of old men cutting holier truths
Leda Tell me everything Everybody's fine I can tell you're drunk Wandering somewhere Cretian Gordian-like knot Raveled by the days Tried to cut you off Somehow pulled it tighter Talking to you It's nearly morning where you are While my afternoons move so slow Pacing the room Awaiting a moment gone too far And your special way of ruining the mood Oh, I'm always wondering where you are May this be the year the spirit takes you, takes you, takes you Oh, you always take it way too far Is it the bottle or blood? I can't relate to you at all The ocean in view I'm thinking of all the Grecian Gods The men they all played to get what they want A crashing of waves A sculpture of Leda and the swan You wait, you wait, you wait You wait and wait and wait
Little Girl Pissing in the corner of a hotel suite Do you always remember where you are Drank the gin at noon and watched the ATVs Rounding muddy corners until I found the strength to leave All I need is understanding Pretty girl in my arms Passing days, immolation Little girl, meant no harm Seven years of running at a breakneck speed Convalescing cheaply far abroad Dreaming of a daughter who won't speak to me Running for her father coming home All I need is understanding Little girl never calls Every day, annihilation Pretty girl, all I own
Picture Window My baby loves a port town And a shuffle Only cries on Ferris wheels This baby's on the verge of If she lost him, would most certainly be committed Are you not afraid of every waking minute That your life could pass you by But all of my ghosts are real All of my ghosts are real All of my ghosts are my home Heart breaking like a punch card Keeps his mouth shut Keeps his mind fixed and well hidden You dream enough for two, dear Picture window Looking out at somewhere else Do you not conceive of my death at every minute While your life just passes you by But all of my ghosts are real All of my ghosts are real All of my ghosts are my home All of my ghosts are real All of my ghosts are real All of my ghosts are my home
Men in Bars (Feat. Jeff Bridges) Got lost on the way, I took a route I didn't mean to follow down And I was tempted, sure But I have come home now Remember the day you picked me up You had me screaming, showing off With all those lighter tricks I once was so fond of And who am I to leave behind We built this And even when it falls apart, it's ours But who could say that I'm to blame for wandering I never knew I'd find my way into the arms Of men in bars Got back in the ring, I took a spill I spent a while just tumbling down Found my head again and took to a new town Remember thе day I picked you up Flicked on my torch, you hid it well Humiliation tactics you'd bеcome known for, you said "Who am I to leave behind We built this And even when it breaks apart, it's ours" But who could say that I'm to blame for wondering I never knew I'd wind up here to take up arms With men in bars
Winter in LA I wish you had a happier woman One that could leave the house Someone who loves the sun Loves everyone Loves the sun And California days Sweet and warm Like winter in LA And if I were a happier woman With flowers in a vase Writing the sweetest songs They're for the man she loves, she loves She loves the sun And California days Sweet and warm Like winter in LA Loves the sun And California days Loves the sun And winter in LA Lovеs the sun She loves thе sun Loves the sun And California days She loves the sun And winter in LA Loves the sun Magic Mountain Once the fever subsides I'll return to the flatlands A new man, a new man Playing king, slowing time Bundled for our rest cure with your x-ray in my locket Planting seeds, idle hours Chained to my reflection in the shadow of a mountain Playing king, playing bride Blooming in my leisure, slipping hours left uncounted You and me, and soon ours Bury me beside you in the shadow of my mountain
NON ALBUMS TRACKS 2042 (Polyvinyl 4-Track Singles Series, Vol. 3 EP) Up on dagger creek Watching visions in the spring Of this psychotronic view Who are you, how about you Feeling that the wall's A familiar shape to touch I am seeking in the dark Of my childhood home Oh you I'll miss you more than more I'm lost without you I'm a fraud without you Calling out my name At least, I think that was my name There's this feeling like a gun At the back of my neck This place used to be fun Now it's just an empty fucking space in my heart Now I'm just chasing all the sounds in my head And the sounds in my head Is there a word for the moment You notice all your pores in my heart It's been a while, but I could try anyway And if Mars One ever happens I wonder what their accents will be like Ten years' time, twenty-forty-two I'm lost without you I'm a fraud without you And I lie and I lie and I lie all night And I lie just to lie and I lie California Dreamin' (The Mamas & The Papas cover / Live on SiriusXMU) All the leaves are brown And the sky is gray I've been for a walk On a winter's day I'd be safe and warm If I was in L.A. California dreaming On such a winter's day Stopped in to a church I passed along the way Well, I got down on my knees (I got down on my knees) And I pretend to pray (I pretend to pray) You know the preacher lights the coals (Preacher lights the coals) He knows I'm gonna stay (He knows I'm gonna stay) California dreaming (California dreaming) On such a winter's day All the leaves are brown (All the leaves are brown) And the sky is gray (And the sky is gray) I've been for a walk (I've been for a walk) On a winter's day (On a winter's day) If I didn't tell her (If I didn't tell her) I could leave today (I could leave today) California dreaming (California dreaming) On such a winter's day (California dreaming) On such a winter's day (California dreaming) On such a winter's day Dreams (The Cranberries cover / Recorded at Spotify Studios NYC) Oh my life Is changing every day Every possible way Oh my dreams Never quiet as it seems Never quiet as it seems Never felt like this before Now I'm feeling it even more, Because it came from you Now I open up and see The person falling here is me A different way to be I want more Imposible to ignore Imposible to ignore They'll come true Impossible not to do Impossible not to do Now I tell you openly You have my heart, so don't hurt me You're what I couldn't find Totally amazing mind So understanding and so kind You're everything to me Oh my life Is changing every day Every possible way Oh my dreams Never quiet as it seems, 'Cause you're a dream to me Dream to me Essentially (W Records, Vol. I LP) Ignore me sensually, I won't admit that they were right Who was I to judge your brand of loneliness Who was I to think I was someone above desire Love me asexually, love me like someone else's wife How is it you fall asleep so easy Who is it you're dreaming of tonight (Tonight) Love me essentially (Love, that thing that you can't buy) Love me essentially (Honey, do I fill up your time) Well, you got it all wrong in finding what you're after When you've got it all wrong and can't find what you want I lie awake to reach for the soft sound in the night Try my best to swallow up the jealousy Try to learn to fall hard back in love with all this and Love you essentially (Love, a thing that you can't buy) Love you essentially (Honey, do I fill up your time) When you've got it all wrong in finding what you're after I got it all wrong, I don't know what I want When you've got it all wrong and don't know what you're after When you've got it all wrong if I found what you want Glider (Sable Video Game OST) Come in to me, show us the way I'm caught between the wind and parts of the unknown A door between two worlds A sight to see It feels like everything is moving Around me It feels like it is moving In time Glider caught the breeze Feels like flying Every particle in synch Come on and guide me Glider Glider Head Over Heels (Tears For Fears cover / W Records, Vol. I LP) I wanted to be with you alone And talk about the weather But traditions I can trace Against the child in your face Won't escape my attention You keep your distance with a system of touch And gentle persuasion I'm lost in admiration Could I need you this much You're wasting my time You're just wasting time Something happens and I'm head over heels I never find out 'til I'm head over heels Something happens and I'm head over heels Ah don't take my heart, don't break my heart Don't, don't throw it away I made a fire and watching it burn I thought of your future With one foot in the past now Just how long will it last Have you no ambition My mother and my brothers used to breathe in clean air And dreaming I'm a doctor It's hard to be a man when there's a gun in your hand Oh I feel sorrow Something happens and I'm head over heels I never find out 'til I'm head over heels Something happens and I'm head over heels Ah don't take my heart, don't break my heart Don't, don't throw it away Here You Come Again (Dolly Parton cover / Live) Here you come again Just when I've begun to get myself together You waltz right in the door Just like you've done before And wrap my heart 'round your little finger Here you come again Just when I'm about to make it work without you You look into my eyes And lie those pretty lies And pretty soon I'm wondering how I came to doubt you All you got to do is smile that smile And there go all my defenses Just leave it up to you and in a little while You're messing up my mind, filling up my senses Here you come again Looking better than a body has a right to And shaking me up, so that all I really know Is here you come again And here I go All you have to do is smile that smile And there go all my defenses Just leave it up to you and in a little while You're messing up my mind, filling up my senses Here you come again Looking better than a body has a right to And shaking me up, so that all I really know Is here you come again And here I go Here I go Here I go Here I go Here you come again Here I go Here you come again I Like Fancy Fins (Helpsters, Vol. 3 OST) Fishes with big fins, fishes with small fins You can see fins on a squid or a dolphin But my favorite kind of fishes have fancy fins It's like they're at a party where everybody swims My favorite kind of fishes have fancy fins, yeah I like, I like fancy fins, yeah I like, I like fancy fins, yeah Fancy fins, yeah Fancy fins Fishes with big fins, fishes with small fins You can find fins on a squid or a dolphin Fancy fins, yeah Fancy fins, yeah But my favorite kind of fishes have fancy fins It's like they're at a party where everybody swims My favorite kind of fishes have fancy fins, yeah I like, I like fancy fins, yeah I like, I like fancy fins, yeah Lovefool (The Cardigans cover / Live) Dear, I fear we're facing a problem You love me no longer, I know and Maybe there is nothing that I can do To make you do Mama tells me I shouldn't bother That I ought to stick to another man A man that really deserves me But I think you do And so I cry, I pray and I beg Love me, love me Say that you love me Fool me, fool me Go on and fool me Love me, love me Pretend that you love me Leave me, leave me Just say that you need me So I cry and I pray for you too Love me, love me Say that you love me Fool me, fool me Go on and fool me I can't care 'bout anything but you Lately, I have desperately pondered Spent my nights awake and I wonder What I could have done in another way To make you stay Reason will not lead to solution I will end up lost in confusion I don't care if you really care As long as you don't go And so I cry, I pray and I beg Love me, love me Say that you love me Fool me, fool me Go on and fool me Love me, love me Pretend that you love me Leave me, leave me Just say that you need me So I cry and I pray for you too Love me, love me Say that you love me Leave me, leave me Just say that you need me I don't care 'bout anything but you Anything but you Love me, love me Go on and love me Fool me, fool me I know that you fool me Love me, leave me I know that you'll leave me I can't care 'bout anything but you Maybes (Giraffage feat. Japanese Breakfast / Too Real LP) Do I have it, what you want (what you want) Start to look back, get off easy There were others, took their time (toook their time) Couldn't happen, go down, bring up the AC Let us take a look inside Fan the flame All alone with this drink and After image, fantasize Cool your head, go down, breathe easy, you're under me Go down, down, down, down... Do I have it, what you want (what you want) Start to look back, get off easy There were others, took their time (took their time) Couldn't happen, go down, bring up the AC Go down, down, down, down... Nobody Sees Me Like You Do (Yoko Ono cover / Ocean Child: Songs Of Yoko Ono LP) I see your face looking into the space All tired and worried Why does it have to be like this, you and I I wanted us to be happy No one can see me like you do No one can see you like I do I see your face with a trace of life Being a wife and a woman If I ever hurt you, please, remember I wanted us to be happy Is there anything I want more More than your trust and understanding No one can see me like you do No one can see you like I do I wanna quit moving, I wanna quit running I wanna relax and be tender I wanna see us together again Rocking away in our walnut chairs Even with your warmth and closeness These feelings of loneliness hangs over like a curse No one can see me like you do No one can see you like I do Even with our dreams and yearnings These feelings of loneliness hangs over like a thirst No one can see me like you do No one can see you like I do No one can see me like you do No one can se you like I do No one No one No one No one Romulus (Sufjan Stevens cover / Live on SiriusXM Sessions) One, two, three Once when our mother called She had a voice of last year's cough We passed around the phone Sharing a word about Oregon When my turn came I was ashamed When my turn came I was ashamed Once when we moved away She came to Romulus for a day She moved ? broke down We prayed it never be fixed or be found We touched her hair We touched her hair We touched her hair We touched her hair Once she had her last child Once when she had some boyfriend somewhile She moved away quite far Our grandpa bought us a new VCR We watched it all night We grew up in spite of it We watched it all night We grew up in spite of it We saw her once last fall Our grandpa died in a hospital gown She didn't seem to care She smoked in her room and colored her hair I was ashamed I was ashamed I was ashamed I was ashamed I was ashamed I was ashamed (of her) I was ashamed I was ashamed of her Say It Ain't So (Weezer cover / Live at Electric Lady) Oh yeah Alright Somebody's Heine is crowding my icebox Somebody's cold one is giving me chills Guess I'll just close my eyes Oh yeah Alright Feels good Inside Flip on the telly, wrestle with Jimmy Something is bubbling behind my back The bottle is ready to blow Say it ain't so Your drug is a heartbreaker Say it ain't so My love is a life taker I can't confront you, I never could do That which might hurt you, so try and be cool When I say "This way is a water slide away from me that takes you further every day" So be cool Say it ain't so Our love is a heartbreaker Say it ain't so My love is a life taker Dear daddy, I write you, in spite of years of silence You've cleaned up, found Jesus, things are good or so I hear This bottle of Stephen's awakens ancient feelings Like father, stepfather, the son is drowning in the flood Yeah yeah, yeah yeah Say it ain't so Your drug is a heartbreaker Say it ain't so My love is a life taker Skinny Love (Bon Iver cover / Recorded at Spotify Studios L.A.) Come on, skinny love, just last the year Pour a little salt, we were never here My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer Tell my love to wreck it all Cut out all the ropes and let me fall My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my Right in this moment, this order's tall And I told you to be patient And I told you to be fine And I told you to be balanced And I told you to be kind And in the morning I'll be with you But it will be a different kind 'Cause I'll be holding all the tickets And you'll be owning all the fines Come on, skinny love, what happened here Suckle on the hope in light brassiere My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my Sullen load is full, so slow on the split And I told you to be patient And I told you to be fine And I told you to be balanced And I told you to be kind And now all your love is wasted Then who the hell was I Now I'm breaking at the britches And at the end of all your lines Who will love you Who will fight Who will fall far behind
The Ballad Of The Witches' Road (Pop Version) (Agatha All Along OST) I have learned the lesson Of all that's foul and fair Our love was forged in fire Water, earth, and air The spell is cast, how long it lasts I cannot divine The road is there And so I dare To risk this heart of mine Down, down, down the road Down the witches' road Down, down, down the road Down the witches' road Down, down, down the road Down the witches' road Blood and tears and bone Together and alone If I can't reach you Let my song teach you All you need to keep our love alive If I can't hold you Remember what I told you It's the only way we survive We survive The road is wild and wicked Winding out of time Still we face our fortune Chasing the sublime What's lost is found, what's fierce is bound We're broken and we're burned But take a breath And dance with death My love cannot be turned As we go Down, down, down the road Down the witches' road Down, down, down the road Down the witches' road Down, down, down the road Down the witches' road Wherever it may bend I'll see you at the end I'll see you at the end The Story (Brandi Carlile cover / The North Face's "It's More Than a Jacket" campaign) All of these lines across my face Tell you the story of who I am So many stories of where I've been And how I got to where I am But these stories don't mean anything When you've got no one to tell them to It's true, I was made for you I climbed across the mountain tops Swam all across the ocean blue Crossed all the lines and broke all the rules But, baby, I broke them all for you Oh 'cause even when I was flat broke You made me feel like a million bucks You do, I was made for you You see the smile that's on my mouth It's hiding the words that don't come out And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed They don't know my head is a mess No, they don't know who I really am And they don't know what I've been through like you do And I was made for you All of these lines across my face Tell you the story of who I am So many stories of where I've been And how I got to where I am But these stories don't mean anything When you've got no one to tell them to It's true, I was made for you Oh yeah it's true that I was made for you