Nina Gordon Complete Lyrics Archive

B i o g r a p h y
(by Official Press)

Nina Gordon, former singer/songwriter/guitarist for Veruca Salt began getting ready for her first solo release soon after leaving the band in early 1998. Tonight and the Rest of My Life, her first album without the Veruca Salt gang, was filled with the hard guitar sounds and mad lyrics that made Veruca Salt popular with such songs as "Seether" and "Volcano Girls." The album was produced by Bob Rock, who also handled production duties on Veruca Salt's 1997 album, Eight Arms to Hold You. When you're from the Midwest, any place with a warm climate feels like paradise. But to Nina Gordon, the Hollywood hillside community of Laurel Canyon, with its eucalyptus-scented air, glittering city views, and silent star-swept skies, seemed like the perfect respite for the Chicago-bred singer-songwriter who was looking for somewhere to decompress after finishing a year-long tour supporting her debut solo album Tonight and the Rest of My Life. “I always felt really inspired whenever I visited Los Angeles,” Gordon says. “To me, it's the romance of the '70s, Joni Mitchell, Linda Rondstadt, and all the records I loved. I see the physical beauty of the place. There's something about the spirit and feeling—it just feels kind of sleepy. I left Chicago because there was too much baggage and history in that city for me. Of course it will always be my home-- all my family is there-- but I really needed to pioneer some new territory for myself. So in July 2001, Gordon packed up her guitars and headed to L.A. She signed a three-month lease on a small furnished house in the hills, rented a piano, and began to write. And write. And write. She had no family around. No boyfriend to speak of, (“It was the first time I was single since I was 16”), and the songs came pouring out. “There were many nights where I would just hang out in my little house with my piano and just write,” she says. The record that arose out of those writing jags, Bleeding Heart Graffiti, is a concept album about the beginning, middle, and end of a relationship. “It's about being alone, finding yourself, and becoming strong again,” Gordon says.

Listen carefully and the songs break down into categories: those about the hope and newness in a relationship (“Christmas Lights,” “Don't Let Me Down”); those about being helpless to fight off love (“Kiss Me Til It Bleeds,” “Superstar”) and those about the inevitable break-up (“Turn On Your Radio,” “Bones And A Name”). But even the sad songs, like “Watercolors” and “When You Don't Want Me Anymore,” bloom with optimism, as Gordon realizes that not being in anyone's heart is not necessarily a bad thing. “It was a positive time for me sitting, knowing that there wasn't this person who was thinking about me,” she says. “It was very freeing.” Hence, “Pure,” which is about waking up on your own with no one around to define how you feel about yourself that day; and the gutsy rocker “Suffragette,” which Gordon wrote with former Prince guitarist Wendy Melvoin and her sister Susannah. “Those two are definitely the empowerment songs,” she says. Gordon first recorded most of the tracks on Bleeding Heart Graffiti in 2004 with producer Ethan Johns, but ended up scrapping them. “Maybe at the time I was recording, I wasn't feeling very optimistic, so it ended up being very maudlin and sad,” she says. “Sonically, I wanted my next album to be brighter and more up-tempo, not dour and funerary.” Gordon knew the songs had potential, so she decided to re-record them, this time with her friend and mentor Bob Rock, who produced Tonight And The Rest Of My Life as well as Eight Arms To Hold You, the second album from Gordon's previous band, the blistering power-grunge quartet Veruca Salt. Though Rock is mainly known for his work with Metallica and other hard-rock bands, “he really is a pop guy,” says Gordon. “I think he enjoys working with me because it's totally different from a lot of the stuff he does. And I enjoy working with him because he's totally honest with me. Some producers can be very controlling or a little too hands-off, but Bob is the perfect mix of someone who is not a Svengali, but is very involved. I trust his taste and his opinions about things.”

Where Tonight And The Rest Of My Life was recorded over a leisurely seven months in Rock's studio in Hawaii, the basic tracks for Bleeding Heart Graffiti were recorded over two days in April 2005 in Los Angeles with some of the best musicians in the business, including Josh Freese, Joey Waronker, and session whiz Abe Laboriel Jr. on drums; Joel Shearer and Gordon's boyfriend and musical collaborator Jeff Russo on guitar; Paul Bushnell on bass; and Jamie Edwards and Peter Adams on piano. Audioslave's Tom Morello contributes the noisy guitar solo on “Don't Let Me Down” (“He's a friend so I just thought it would be cool to have him come and play, Gordon says). “It was so great to get a group of people in a room, teach them the song, and immediately bang it out,” Gordon says. “I knew everyone, but had never played with any of them, so it was like, ‘Here's how it goes; here are the chords.' I was in the vocal booth with my headphones on freaking out because it sounded so amazing.” Once basic tracks were completed, Gordon flew to Rock's studio in Maui to do vocals, harmonies, and guitar overdubs. “We did the whole thing in about a month,” she says. The result is a more organic-sounding album than its predecessor. “We didn't want it to be that polished,” she says. “Doing the record in a limited amount of time forced me to abandon some of the bells and whistles and leave things more open and raw. Because it's a bit less polished, I think there ends up being more of me in there; it feels more personal.”
As on her debut, Gordon's clear, sunlit vocals are front and center, infusing each tale of love lost and found with a lovely, reflective intimacy. Her expressive voice is the perfect vehicle to illuminate her theme of building a life out of memories and dreams. “I let my guard down and said what I wanted to say. No holding back.”

Now I can die

He takes me everywhere
He goes and he goes everywhere
He likes to try on all my clothes
But not my underwear

And he never hates me
Just wants to levitate me
Now I know the secret of the world

I am the girl
And he is the guy
I never dared to be simple and wise
Surprise surprise
He opened up my eyes
I understand everything
And now I can die

He gives me everything
He's got and he's got everything
He calls me on the phone a lot
He's got a special ring

Yeah he really loves me
Sweethearts and turtledoves me
Now I know the meaning of that word

I am the girl
And he is the guy
I never dared to be simple and wise
Surprise surprise
He opened up my eyes
I understand everything
And now I can die

I'm not trying to say
That I don't want to live
'Cause I do
I've got more to take

And i've got some more to give you know I do
But if tomorrow my number should be called
I won't be sad
I won't feel bad at all
Waouh !

Yeah he really loves me
Sweethearts and turtledoves me
Now I know the meaning of that word
I am the girl
And he is the guy
I never dared to be simple and wise
Surprise surprise
He opened up my eyes
I understand everything
And now I can die
Oh he gives me everything
And now I can die

2003

Hey baby
Why'd you turn away
I was about to say that
Something baby
I thought would make you smile
At least for a little while

Oh well baby
That's the way it goes
Right from my head to my toes
And you're the first to know
That i've got a brilliant plan
I hope you understand

I want to meet in two thousand and three
I want to see what the future can bring to me
I want to
And when I do i'll meet you here my darling yeah
And when i'm free
i'll be waiting where I said I would be my love
Will you wait for me

What we've found
Is such a precious thing
And that's what i'm trying to sing but
Before I lose my nerve
I better write down these words
'Cause I don't know what you heard

I want to meet in two thousand and three
I want to see what the future can bring to me
I want to
And when I do i'll meet you here my darling yeah
And when i'm free
I'll be waiting where I said I would be my love
Will you wait for me

And you know that I won't change my mind
I made a promise to be true
Let them say that it's a selfish game
But I won't play with anyone but you

I want to meet in two thousand and three
I want to see what the future can bring to me
I want to
And when I do i'll meet you here my darling yeah
And when i'm free
i'll be waiting where I said I would be my love
I meet you here in two thousand and three
I want to see what the future can bring to me
I want to
And when I do i'll meet you here my darling yeah
And when i'm free
i'll be waiting where I said I would be my love
i'll be waiting where I said I would be my love
Will you wait for me

Tonight and the rest of my life

Down to the earth
I fell with dripping wings
Heavy things won't fly
And the sky might catch on fire
And burn the axis of the world that's why
I prefer a sunless sky
To the glittering and stinging in my eyes

And I feel so light
This is all I want to feel tonight
And I feel so light
Tonight and the rest of my life

Gleaming in the dark sea
I'm as light as air floating there breathlessly
When the dream dissolves
I open up my eyes
I realize that
Everything is shoreless sea
A weightlessness is passing over me

And I feel so light
This is all I want to feel tonight
And I feel so light
Tonight and the rest of my life
Tonight and the rest of my life
And I

Everything is waves and stars
The universe is resting in my arms

I feel so light
This is all I want to feel tonight
I feel so light
Tonight and the rest of my life

And I feel so light
This is all I want to feel tonight
And I feel so light
Tonight and the rest of my life
Tonight and the rest of my life

Badway

The pinch
One inch
Half a head
And half dead
No pain
No gain
There's a million voices in my brain

It's like a game of hide and seek
And I play every day
I close my eyes and I count to ten
One two three and everybody runs away

I'm in a bad way
It's such a bad way
Can't you give a damn on a better day
I can't come out to play
When i'm in such a bad bad way

Purple leather
Makes it better
A purple coat or a purple sweater
Clothes make the girl I know but
I can't get dressed when i'm this low

I'm like a self made hand grenade
But I can't pull the pin
I set the bait and sit back and wait
Then I try to see if I can reel you in

I'm in a bad way
It's such a bad way
Can't you give a damn on a better day
I can't come out to play
I'm in such a bad bad way

Go away
Don't go away
Don't go away yeah !

Little peach
Little blue
A little water and
I'm as good as new
I want to swallow all of you
But i'm biting more than I can chew

It's like a game of hide and seek
And I play every day
I close my eyes and I count to ten
One two three and everybody runs away

I'm in a bad way
It's such a bad way
Can't you give a damn on a better day
I can't come out to play
I'm in such a bad bad way

Horses in the city

They walk the horses home at night right by my window
They pull their carriages along busy city streets
It's from another time it's like a lullaby
But I don't think that I can sleep tonight

So I count the streetlights
I count the stars
I make a wish and wonder where you are
I wonder if i'll live
Long enough to feel again

Help me 'cause i'm falling out of grace
I hang my head and hide my face
I don't know what it is I just feel out of place
Like horses in the city

I played the game I dropped the ball I lost another friend
I gained a future but I can't see where the future ends
I'd write a letter or write a song
But once again my voice just comes out wrong
Tonight I I wonder if i'll live long enough to sing again

Help me 'cause i'm falling out of grace
I hang my head and hide my face
I don't know what it is I just feel out of place
Like horses in the city
In the city yeah hey

But they don't seem frightened
As the cars go speeding by
So why am I so terrified to close my eyes tonight
I'm just afraid there's no time no time this time

They walk the horses home at night right by my window
They pull their carriages along busy city streets
I wonder if they'll live to run without the reins again

Help me 'cause i'm falling out of grace
I hang my head and hide my face
No I don't know what it is I just feel out of place
No don't know what it is
Know what it is
I just feel out of place
And don't know what it is
Know what it is
I just feel out of place
Like horses in the city
In the city yeah

We're the same and you don't even know it
We're afraid and we try not to show it
And you're tired and I am too
So there's only one thing you can do

You've got to hold me and tell me what you need
And don't be afraid of what you're feeling when
You know me then i'll never want to leave you just
Hold on to me

When we're apart
I still feel together
I still believe in a thing called forever
But we're drifting apart
It's true
And it's breaking my heart in two

You've got to hold me and tell me what you need
And don't be ( don't be ) afraid of what you' re feeling when
You ( know me ) know me then i'll never want to leave you just
Hold on to me
Hold on to me

We'll drive away where no one can find us
It's time to leave those dark days behind us
In my dreams it's always you
So there's only one thing we can do

You've got to hold me and tell me what you need
And don't be ( don't be ) afraid of what you' re feeling when
You ( know me ) know me then i'll never want to leave you just
Hold on to me
Just hold on to me

Still believe in a thing called forever
Still believe in a thing called forever
Still believe

Normally i'd be french-twisting my hair
And selecting the right earrings to wear
Oh it's a special evening for most
Normally i'd be proposing a toast
But not this year

Because i'm here the party's all around me
You're there indifference has found me
I know it's not in fashion
Wearing heartache on your sleeve
But i'm here and you're there so who cares what I wear on new year's eve

Normally i'd be knee-deep in champagne
I'd kick my heels up until neighbors complain
Oh It's a glamorous evening for most
And normally i'd be upstaging the host

But not this year
Because i'm here the party's all around me
You're there indifference has found me
I know I should have dressed up
But I just can't make believe
Now i'm here and you're there so who cares what I wear on new year's eve

If you're flirting with some other girl tonight
I'm not flirting with some other guy
I just keep thinking how last year at midnight you blew me away
With the resolution that you made

I'm here the party's all around me
You're there indifference has found me
And tonight before the ball drops
I'll grab my coat and leave
I'm here and you're there so who cares what I wear on new year's eve
I'm here and you're there so who cares what I wear
On new year's eve

Fade to black

And it feels like a movie
'Cause i've done something heavy
And now i'm all alone
And you know I like it

Well I wish I was older
I could hold my liquor
And then i'd blow your cover
Instead of my own

'Cause there's nothing I can do
To prove that I still love you
And I think I hear my friends through the walls

I'm gonna fade to black
I think i'm gonna fade to black
And I swear to god i'd take it back
But it's just no use what's done is done
I can't blame anyone but me

Everybody's out there without me
They're not even talking about me
Flying out of the city
And they don't even miss me

But there's nothing I can do
To prove that I still love you
And I think I hear my friends through the walls

I'm gonna fade to black
I think i'm gonna fade to black
And I swear to god i'd take it back
But it's just no use what's done is done
I can't blame anyone but me

Four days in the haze
Of the biggest mistake i've ever made
And now i've got to get out of this place
'Cause everybody knows even the ones who don't

Fade to black
I'm gonna fade to black
I'd take it back
But it's just no use what's done is done
I can't blame anyone but me
But me
I'm gonna fade to black

Number one camera

So here I go I know this feeling awfully well
I could build a camera custom made to tape record the smell
Of the perfume that we used to share until you spilled it on the floor what more
Could anybody ask for

I remember you in polaroid
The glitter and the glue and all that noise
I should probably sort of miss you
But I see you all the time in polaroid

Up up and away in my beautiful cliché
I have wasted too much precious time pretending i'm o.k.
Oh I got to get out of the kitchen next time
When I can not stand the heat my feet
Were colder than the hebrides

I remember you in polaroid
The glitter and the glue and all that noise
I should probably sort of miss you
But I see you all the time in polaroid

We were bored there was nothing else to do
Playing records and posing in the nude
It was dirty mind so it was cool
And I always thought i'd know you

Everybody knew the score they knew they could not trust us
But I could peel you like a pear and god would call it justice
Oh I guess there's nothing left to do but live with just the memory of you I do
In sixties pink and light blue

I remember you in polaroid
The glitter and the glue and all that noise
I should probably sort of miss you
I should probably sort of miss you
I should probably sort of miss you
But I see you all the time in polaroid

Got me down

And this is the way it's going to be
I gave him away and now i'm free
But he was the life I meant to lead
There's nothing left of me but
This is my melody

And why must the night crawl by like this
And why do we dwell on what we'll miss
I've got to be careful what I wish my happiness was his
But this is my goodbye kiss

He got me down
And now i'm only singing for my health
Got me down and now I can't get up myself
Got me down oh turn around and tell me when it's over
And it's time for me to get up off the ground

And there's really nothing left to say
But this couldn't wait another day
'Cause something confusing but Ok
Has got me in its sway
And this is my getaway

He got me down
And now i'm only singing for my health
Got me down and now I can't get up myself
Got me down oh turn around and tell me when it's over
And it's time for me to get up off the ground

And though I try to hear you
Now I think we've built a wall of sound
Between us
And though you know I love you still
I think we've both just lost the will

He got me down
And now i'm only singing for my health
Got me down and now I can't get up myself
Got me down oh turn around and wake me when it's over
And it's time for me to get up off the ground

He got me down
He got me down
He got me down

Too slow to ride

From the moment I arrived
Until the day that I died
I was selfish and slow
Too slow to ride by your side
But I was so afraid
That I began to fade

Now another bright has turned to gray
And someone else's light will take my place
And though i'm getting used to the aftertaste
You know I miss your eyes
I miss your face

And when the sun went dead
And the moon was up ahead
I finally figured out what I should have said to you then
And no one is to blame
But we'll never be the same

Now another bright has turned to gray
And someone else's light will take my place
And though i'm getting used to the aftertaste
You know I miss your eyes
I miss your face

There's no use in trying
I can't be what I was
I can't be what I was

Now another bright has turned to gray
And someone else's light will take my place
And though i'm getting used to the aftertaste
And though i'm getting used to the aftertaste
And though i'm getting used to the aftertaste
You know I miss your eyes
I miss your face

Hate your way

I hate your way
I don't care what you say
I hate your way
I don't care
And i'm only half there
So I don't care

They can cut me down
'Til i'm the talk of the town
I'm a fool for you
Had to sell my soul but you were so rock and roll
I'm a fool for you
I hate your way
A little more every day
I hate your way
A little more
And I could leave but what for
A little more

They can cut me down
'Til i'm the talk of the town
I'm a fool for you
Had to sell my soul but you were so rock and roll
I'm a fool for you
You

And it's wicked
To be so stupid
Man it's stupid
To be so dumb
I'm getting crooked
I can feel it
I can feel it in my bones

They can cut me down
'Til i'm the talk of the town
I'm a fool for you
Had to sell my soul but you were so rock and roll
I'm a fool for you
I'm a fool for you
You were so rock and roll
I'm a fool for you
I'm a fool for you

Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
If you don't love me anymore.

Why do the birds go on singing?
Why do the stars glow above?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when I lost your love.

I wake up in the morning and I wonder.
Why everything is the same as it was.
And I can't understand,
No I can't understand Why life goes on the way it does.

Why does my heart go on beating?
Why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when we said goodbye.

I wake up in the morning and I wonder.
Why everything is the same as it was.
Cuz I can't understand,
No I can't understand
Why life goes on the way it does.

Tell me why does my heart go on beating?
And why do these eyes of mine cry?
Don't they know it's the end of the world?
It ended when we said goodbye.
Why?
It ended when we said goodbye.

What's that sound, what's that sound, what's that sound

You got me hanging on and listening to confessions on the telephone

Hear me now, hear me now, hear me now

You beat me black and blonde somebody tell me what the hell is going on
God save the middle child she's never what she seems
Can't blame the middle child she's drowning in her dreams

Dumb it down, dumb it down, dumb it down

You've got the wrong address I'm a mortar and a pestal, not a garlic press
Beware the middle child she'll bring you to your knees
She's just a little child who's falling in between
Save the middle child she's never what she seems
You can't blame the middle child she's drowning in her dreams

Hear me now, hear me now, hear me now
You beat me black and blonde somebody tell me what the hell is going on

Beware the middle child she'll bring you to your knees
She's just a little child who's falling in between
Save the middle child she's never what she seems
You can't blame the middle child she's drowning……she's drowning

The ringing in my ears from playing too loud
I hear the ocean I hear the crowd

Bleeding Heart Graffiti

This is a prayer to anyone who's up there
This is a call, kneeling at your wailing wall
I've never talked to you
But I don't know what else to do so
I sing these songs and all my friends will sing along

Christmas lights

Dream we're out on the runway
And you're right there by my side
And we're taking off in your j5
Baby, I love it when we fly

‘Cause you're mighty like a knockout, baby
You're desperate like a rose
And you stumble in to the spot light
And you watch the crowd grow

But my hero said, "you can't hold the hand
Of a rock and roll and man"
But what if I can, what if I can?

What if I look to the sky
And check out the stars
How they shine in to your eyes
They're just like mine
Searching the darkness for some kind of sign
We're building our life on the dreams we string together
Like Christmas lights

I can't wait till the night comes
For that sweet blue summer sky
Because I've got something to tell you baby
And the daylight makes me shy

But tonight I'll sing out as loud as I can
Like a die hard fan for my favourite band
Loud as I can, and I'm gonna

What if I look to the sky
And check out the stars
How they shine in to your eyes
They're just like mine
Searching the darkness for some kind of sign
We're building our life on the dreams we string together
Like Christmas lights

Slow down baby, summer is over
It's almost time to go home
Well don't worry baby, the nights may get colder
But you're not alone

And my hero said, "you can't hold the hand
Of a rock and roll and name"
But what if I can, what if I can?

What if I look to the sky
And check out the stars
How they shine in to your eyes
They're just like mine
Searching the darkness for some kind of sign
We're building our life on the dreams we string together
Like Christmas lights

Christmas lights
Look in your eyes
Look in your eyes
Look in your eyes
Look in your eyes

Kiss me till it bleeds

Destructive, exciting
And I can't let go
Inciting a riot on my radio
I'm going, I'm gone
Even though I know it's wrong

He's a Saturday night
And a Sunday morning rolled into one
With a dirty smile
That could shame the sun

I'm gonna hang myself on someone else
Who's just enough rope
And I know it's bad news but I can't say no
If bitter is sweet
Then he's just what I need
So kiss me till it bleeds

I'm stupid, a sucker
He's a loaded gun
A lover, a leaver
Just a hit and run
When our worlds collide
Breathe deep and hold on tight

‘Cause he's so rock and roll
I'm a tortured soul
With him in my bones
And he leaves me shattered
Like a rolling stone

I'm gonna hang myself on someone else
Who's just enough rope
And I know it's bad news but I can't say no
If bitter is sweet
Then he's just what I need
So kiss me till it bleeds

So what do you do now?
You know he's gonna take you down
But you're addicted to the sound
So you'll hang around

I'm going, I'm gone
Even though I know it's wrong

He's a Saturday night
And a Sunday morning rolled into one
With a dirty smile
That could shame the sun

I'm gonna hang myself on someone else
Who's just enough rope
And I know it's bad news but I can't say no
If bitter is sweet
Then he's just what I need
So kiss me till it bleeds

Just kiss me till it bleeds

Suffragette

Here I go
One, two, three, four

I'll make history
A suffragette said
I'm clever to do this forever

Well you don't know me yet
But I'm a suffragette
I suffer for your sins and wash them all away
Some kind of Jesus Christ, check out my sacrifice
A pretty poison flower bringing you the sweetest juice

And you'll remember me
I'm making history
Just you wait, just you wait and see

I'll make history
A suffragette said
I'm clever to do this forever

So don't try to stone me
You don't own me
Baby you don't know me yet
Don't try to break you, you can't take me
‘Cause baby I'm a suffragette

My momma said to me
Be what you wanna be
Just take you time
Enjoy the ride along the way

And you'll remember me
I'm making history
Just you wait, just you wait and see

I'll make history
A suffragette said
I'm clever to do this forever

So don't try to stone me
You don't own me
Baby you don't know me yet
Don't try to break you, you can't take me
‘Cause baby I'm a suffragette

You cannot fight me
You don't have to like me
You don't even know me yet
Don't try to break me, you can't take me
‘Cause baby I'm a suffragette

Suffragette

It's like you fell asleep in a cab
And woke up in another land
And everything's changed, so its ok
It's better this way

It's like you fell asleep in a cab
And woke up in another land
And everything's changed, so its ok
It's better this way

So come along girls
Without hesitation
Change the channel baby, try another station
I fill you up with a sense of elation
I build you up with the sex education

You cannot fight me
You don't have to like me
You don't even know me yet
Don't try to break me, you can't take me
‘Cause baby I'm a suffragette

Here I go
One, two, three, four

This was the year I fell apart,
This was the year I went to war with my heart
This was a bad year for girls like me
Who want love
But want to be free

Don't let me down

Rolling down the hill
To see my friends, I don't feel well
And I'm not happy but I'm going to be
Summer starts and summer ends
I look around at all my friends
And they don't seem happy but they're going to be

They say that life's a dream
We believe what we want to believe
And we want to believe
In something please

So don't let me down
Please place me gently on the ground
Took all this time to figure out
What I need and the journey made me bleed
Don't let me down, this time don't let me down
Don't let me down, this time don't let me down

I needed more, so I thought,
I needed a love that couldn't be bought
But I kept on spending till he loved me not
Now someone new is coming in
Oh god, it's so sweet when it begins
But I'm so bitter, what if I poison him

And he says that I'm the dream
He's been praying down on his knees
I want to believe him
Oh please believe

So don't let me down
Please place me gently on the ground
Took all this time to figure out
What I need and the journey made me bleed
Don't let me down, this time don't let me down
Don't let me down, this time don't let me down

And I feel like I'm running, don't let me down
‘Cause I feel like its coming, this time don't let me down
Yeah I feel like its coming, this time don't let me down
Oh please don't let me down

All this time to figure out
What I need
And the journey made me bleed

So don't let me down
Please place me gently on the ground
Took all this time to figure out
What I need and the journey made me bleed
Don't let me down, this time don't let me down
Don't let me down, this time don't let me down

Pure

Is this the future that I've promised myself?
A pretty perfume bottle on the shelf
Take it down and I'm someone else
A perfect spell is

Pure, the dark night is far behind me
And I'm sure the white light will come and find me
And I'm pure and now I know that I'm all I ever want to be

Are you some silent god that I can't see
‘Cause I feel you building up inside of me
There's nowhere else I would rather be
Memory is

Pure, the dark night is far behind me
And I'm sure the white light will come and find me
And I'm pure and now I know that I'm all I ever want to be

I'm lost in time in my head
Floating through the sky from my bed
I'm imagining that I am dead
It's a lonely view

If this is the beginning of some heavenly dream
Well I'll just sit back and enjoy the scene
My heart beats slow like a soft machine
So tenderly I'm

Pure, the dark night is far behind me
And I'm sure the white light will come and find me
And I'm pure and now I know that I'm all I ever want to be

So pure and I'm pure and
Lost in time and in my head
Floating through the sky from my bed
I'm gone, I'm dead

Watercolors

Once in a while
You ask for a smile
What am I going to say?
‘Cause my tears are real
Like how they feel
I like how they carry me away

Baby I'm warning you
I'm happiest when I'm blue

Now I'm bleeding like watercolors
Keep me dreaming in pale blues and greens
Keep on running like watercolors
Lead me back to the sea

I'm just a fool
I talk out of school
I do things I should not do
I'm not ashamed, its the way that I'm made
I'm sorry but I'll never change for you

At least I can tell the truth,
I'm happiest when I'm blue

Now I'm bleeding like watercolors
Keep me dreaming in pale blues and greens
Keep on running like watercolors
Lead me back to the sea

Nightshade and opaline
Blackbirds and painted dreams
And I'm falling, falling down
I keep falling, falling down

Baby I'm warning you
I'm happiest when I'm blue
When I'm blue

Now I'm bleeding like watercolors
Keep me dreaming in pale blues and greens
Keep on running like watercolors
Lead me back to the sea

Superstar

Somebody stop me
Before I throw it all away
‘Cause I know he's gonna drop me
If I wait another day

You are a superstar
And I've pushed you way too far
I don't know if I can get to where you are but darling,
I am on my way

And everybody asked me
If I fell for someone new
And I wouldn't put it past me
But this time I've been true

You are a superstar
And I've pushed you way too far
I don't know if I can get to where you are but baby,
I am on my way
I am on my way

And there's a half a million reasons
Why I'm on this plane tonight
And a half a million reasons
Why I almost missed my flight

And you are a superstar
And I've pushed you way too far
I don't know if I can get to where you are but baby,
I am on my way
I am on my way

Turn on your radio

I wanna write a song that will break your heart
I want you to hear it and fall apart
I wanna be there when the tears fall from your eyes
I want to see it in your face when you realise

Turn on your radio
And listen to these words as I repeat them
You have lost me, you have lost me
Turn on your radio
And listen to these words 'till you believe them
You have lost me, you have lost me this time

I don't know where you are tonight,
If there someone sleeping by your side,
But I'm gonna write it with my airplane in your sky
And you're gonna read it on a billboard when you drive by

Turn on your radio
And listen to these words as I repeat them
You have lost me, you have lost me
Turn on your radio
And listen to these words 'till you believe them
You have lost me, you have lost me this time

Taking over the airwaves
Loud and clear so you can hear me
Over and over till you sing it in your sleep
No matter where you are, I'll be right there in stereo

I wanna be there when the tears fall from your eyes
I want to see it in your face when you realise

Turn on your radio
And listen to these words as I repeat them
You have lost me, you have lost me
Turn on your radio
And listen to these words 'till you believe them
You have lost me, you have lost me this time

When you don't want me anymore

This is not a dream
I am not asleep
This is not a game that I'm playing here
Somewhere in between what's real and how it seems
I find myself forgetting how to speak

And it's good to be alone
And it's good to see what I've become
When you don't want me anymore

Everybody knows how the story goes
Summer fades away and you're leaving
Welcome to the world of your former favorite girl
September comes and washes her away

And it's good to be alone
And it's good to see what I've become
When you don't want me anymore
When you don't want me anymore

Love dies everyone lies
You did your best and so did I
But everybody has to give up sometime
Young gods, alien gods
Star by star we all must fall, yeah,
Everybody has to burn out sometime

Young gods alien gods
Star by star we all must fall, yeah,
Everybody has to burn out sometime

And it's good to be alone
And it's good to see what I've become
And it's good to be alone
And it's good to see what I've become
When you don't want me anymore
When you don't want me anymore
And you don't want me

*** Thanx a lot to Stina for this one ***

Bones and a name

Rolling through the canyon blasting 'heartbreaker'
I see your famous face riding next to me
We smile at each other 'cause we know we know each other
But damn if I'm going to talk to you again
I always thought that you were funny
I always thought we could be friends
But the way you treated her in the end...

All the horses and all the men
Couldn't bring her back again
And we tried so hard
But couldn't save her day
All the millions and the billions of stars that shined into her eyes
Were barely bright enough to light her way

So she covered herself in sorrow and shame
And smoke and mirrors and fame
And fake love
Angry love
Bad love and sad love
And damn if I didn't almost do the same
And now sometimes I think I see her
I can almost hear her cry
I hear those chilling words she chose to say goodbye

And all the horses and all the men
Couldn't bring her back again
And we tried so hard
But couldn't save her day
All the millions and the billions of stars that shined into her eyes
Were barely bright enough to light her way

He was predictable, cliché, and cruel to you
He made it ugly, and he made it high school
He said I love you
I need you
I want you
I'll feed you
I get you
I've got you
I'll catch you
And I'll keep you, my sweet
And you will never be sad again
He said my sweet you will never be sad again

And all the horses and all the men
Couldn't bring her back again
And we tried so hard
But couldn't save her day
All the millions and the billions of stars that shined into her eyes
I swear sometimes I can almost hear her say

That we're just bones and a name
We all go out the way we came
So don't you try to tell me
That love is all we need
We're just bones and a name
We all go out the way we came
So don't you try to tell me
That love is all we need
Don't you try to tell me
That love is all we need

The time comes

I wait for the day to break me
I look up to the sky
I look back on the life that graced me
When you were mine

The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
Then it goes and it goes away

Don't try to read the silence
And don't try to live it down
Cause I've learned a thing of two about patience
And I have found

The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
Then it goes and it goes away

I wait for the day to break me
I look up to the sky
I look back on the life that graced me
When you were mine

The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
The time comes
Then it goes and it goes away

The crickets sound like sleigh bells
As they sing through the night
So August feels like Christmas when I close my eyes
I'm seconds from sleeping as it crosses my mind
That everything changes and this is my time

Out of my body
And out of my mind
We'll have to suffer a while
It was so sweet before
But I blew it some more
And now I'm back on the downlow

The best that I can do
You got your point of view
I got one too

I don't wanna be alone with you
The walls are thin and it might bleed through
You're sucking me in like you used to do
You don't believe me but it's true
Well I don't wanna be alone

A needle and thread
I need a kick in the head
There's no excuse for this mess
'Cause I knew the drill
Yeah, I knew the dry
And that's exactly what

I am that made it bat
But when I turn my back
Your heart attacks

I don't wanna be alone with you
The wall are thin and it might bleed through
You're sucking me in like you used to do
You don't believe me but it's true
Well I don't wanna be alone

And every gets to know you
But I can
Always getting closer to you
And I can
Right until the bitter end
You know I still believed that we might be friends
Yeah right

As far as I know
This is as far as it goes
God, I really hope so
I'll stick to the limelight
Flies in the night
But I'll be eaten alive

By the time the morning comes
I'm hanging by my thumbs
I must be dumb

I don't wanna be alone with you
The wall are thin and it might bleed through
You're sucking me in like you used to do
You don't believe me but it's true
Well I don't wanna be alone

Alone with you

Beauty

( Nina Gordon with James Lha LP "Let it come down )

In a minute dear, in a whole second, it?ll come clear
Do you see beauty, do you see love
Right away dear, in the desperate way, no one hears you call
Do you see beauty, do you see love

In the morning light you lay by my side
In the evening it gets so your love begins to shine

The world is changing but my love will remain
Do you see beauty, do you see love, do you see anything at all

Theres a love that never comes back down
It feels like something is gonna happen now

Love it calls your name no matter how you try
And I can't recall a time when I didn?t love you

Do you see beauty, do you see love, do you see anything at all
In all this time we waste precious time you waste
I can?t hide it anymore x2

Love, love, love
Love is what you keep
Love is what you need

*** A great thanx to Rafet For this one ***

December

( Live / Duet of Wendy & Lisa's song with brother Jim Shapiro )

There was a time
I think it was December
Just like a fire
I lost my mind
And this I do remember
I was a child
Pretty and wild
I thought I was an angel

Oh, what a day
Wonderful day
I know that God, he heard me pray
Oh, on that day
He heard me say
I'll spread my wings and fly away

Just like the sky
I don't like stormy weather
Cause it's the power
That I once knew
And it makes me feel better
I have a child
Pretty and wild
And this I'm gonna tell her

Oh, what a day
Wonderful day
I know that God, he heard me pray
Oh, on that day
He heard me say
I'll spread my wings and fly away

Fly away
Fly away

When I grow old
I know I won't forget that I'm still that child
Pretty and wild
In this late December
I'll fly away
The story remains
And I hope you will remember

You're an angel
Everybody sing
We're all angels
And together we can fly away

Oh, what a day
Wonderful day
I know that God, he heard me pray
Oh, on that day
He heard me say
I'll spread my wings and fly away

Oh, what a day
Wonderful day
I know that God, he heard me pray
Oh, on that day
He heard me say
I'll spread my wings and fly away

'Bad finger' in a hotel room
I play guitar now
Nobody plays me.
Bad rumor in a minor key
I can tune it up myself now
When nobody tunes to me

If you wanted to stay
I could behave
I won't tell anybody
If you wanted to wait
Know that I'm safe
I won't tell anybody

Unconscious
I don't feel a thing
You get the picture
Nobody gets me.
Slow, slow torture
The punishment I need
I can speed it up myself
When nobody tortures me

If you wanted to stay
I could behave
I won't tell anybody
If you wanted to wait
Know that I'm safe
I won't tell anybody

If you wanted to stay
I could behave
I could behave
Like it happens everyday
Like it happens everyday

Said sadly

( Performed with James Iha on Bullet with Butterfly wings EP )

[N = Nina Gordon / J = James Iha]

J: You should know that I love you
And I can't help but fall for you
Oh honey I'm just a fool
Now you know

N: Darling, I'll never be true
You see, for so long I was blue
J: I'm not the lonely one
N: And if I hurt, then you will, too
Oh honey I always lose
Now you know

J&N: Lover, when will you?
J: I'm so afraid that noone cares
J&N: Lover, can't find you
J: I swear to God don't leave me here
J&N: Now you know

J&N: Only you know that it can't be
When noone else here really means
J: Anything to me
J&N: If you hurt inside
If you confide in me again

N: Since you ran away
J: Hold me now, tell me how
Nothing's lost

J&N: Lover, when will you?
I'm so afraid that noone cares
Lover, can't find you
And noone knows what brings us here
Lover
J: Hold me now
N: Hold me now
J: Tell me how
J&N: Nothings lost

( Lost B-Sides )

Everybody wants to want it
and everybody tries
But take a look at all their wishes
My pile is twice their size

So forget the little people waiting in the wings
Cause now is everything

The only survivor is the driver
Look out look out now
The passenger's dead they can't revive her
Look out look out now
Gotta stop pretending that you know better
Cause I know what I need
With you I'm unsafe, I'm unsafe at any speed

Once upon a time I wondered
How to leave the ground
I learned you never make it anywhere
If you pussyfoot around

You gotta spit out the sour grapes
They're dying on the vine
You're running out of time

The only survivor is the driver
Look out look out now
The passenger's dead they can't revive her
Look out look out now
You gotta stop pretending that you know better
Cause I know what I need
With you I'm unsafe, I'm unsafe at any speed

I could give it up
And try to play it down for a while
I'd rather live it up
I'm warning you now
I'm cruising out of town

The only survivor is the driver
Look out look out now
The passenger's dead they can't revive her
Look out look out now
You gotta stop pretending that you know better
Cause I know what I need
With you I'm unsafe, I'm unsafe at any speed

Voices carry

( Til Tuesday Cover / Demo )

I'm in the dark, I'd like to read his mind
But I'm frightened of the things I might find
Oh, there must be something he's thinking of
To tear him away
When I tell him that I'm falling in love
why does he sayy

Hush hush, keep it down now, voices carry
Hush hush, keep it down now, voices carry

I try so hard not to get upset
'Cause I know all the trouble I'll get
Oh, he tells me tears are something to hide
And something to fear
And I try so hard to keep it inside
so no one can hear

Hush hush, keep it down now, voices carry
Hush hush, keep it down now, voices carry

He wants me, but only part of the time
He wants me, if he can keep me in line

Hush hush, keep it down now, voices carry
Hush hush, keep it down now, voices carry
Hush hush, darling, she might overhear
Hush, hush, voices carry
He said shut up, he said shut up
Oh God can't you keep it down
Oh no voices carry