B i o g r a p h y (by Official Press)
If security is a kind of death, as Tennessee Williams wrote, then Rilo Kiley are doing their damndest to elude mortality. They have spent their young career going all over the place — literally, metaphorically, thematically, and emotionally — in an almost obsessive fight against predictability and stagnation. "More Adventurous" is the brand new Rilo Kiley album, and it is — from the very first minute — simultaneously bold and understated, bombastic and intimate, and tragic and triumphant — an 11 track tribute to instability as a virtue. It’s an album full of uplifting songs of heartbreak, traditional pop from the future, country music from the city, and all other manner of oxymoronic perfection -- RK’s stock in trade over the course of their bright lifetime as a band. After the release of their last album, "The Execution of All Things" (which got raves from sources as diverse as the smallest cut ‘n’ paste ‘zines, to the Village Voice, to the New York Times, who called it "impressive" and "self-assured"), the band crisscrossed the country on a series of several far-reaching headlining tours (including one where the band pulled double-duty as the backing band for Merge Records troubadour M Ward). When the tours ended, side projects kicked in: Jenny Lewis sang on the The Postal Service album and toured with them; Drummer Jason Boesel recorded with Bright Eyes; and guitarist/singer Blake Sennett recorded, released, and toured behind his solo album under the name The Elected (on Sub Pop). But where many bands would then stop to take a breather, or at least let the events of the last couple years soak in, RK instead decided to kick things UP a notch. They started to work on a new album, with one clear goal in mind: This disc would be their best album yet. The songwriting began simply enough, from the hushed and lightly picked acoustic guitars on "The Absence of God," where Lewis offers some of her most insightfully fierce lyrics yet ("And I say there's trouble / when everything is fine / the need to destroy things / creeps up on me every time," she sings, giving in); to the punchy new wave sheen of "Portions for Foxes." The rhythm section of drummer Jason Boesel and bassist Pierre de Reeder anchored the songs with carefully assigned gravity for the new material’s often expansive and soaring melodies. They went back into the studio with an array of hot producers, including Saddle Creek mainstay Mike Mogis, Dntel/Postal Service genius Jimmy Tamborello, Beachwood Sparks/All-Nite Radio’s Dave Sher, and Mark Trombino (who cut his teeth on legendary records by Drive Like Jehu and Rocket From the Crypt, and then oversaw Jimmy Eat World’s massive breakthrough). String arrangements, by Bright Eyes’ Nate Walcott, were incorporated. "This is definitely the album where we were finally able to truly understand how to use the studio," explains Blake. "There’s a lot more going on in all the songs; moments where these little subtle details rise to the surface." It’s these flourishes — Jenny making the "salt shaker" noise in "It’s A Hit" to reference the deployment of troops into battle; or the cracked A.M.-radio production hiss of "Rip Chord" — that back up Blake’s claim. On the album’s title track, Jenny Lewis sings "and it's only doubts that we're counting on fingers broken long ago / I read that with every broken heart we should become more adventurous," and it’s clear that with this record, the band have continued to be driven by the fierce independence that has brought them on such a sweeping journey over the course of their career — from the self-released e.p. and album that was then picked up by Barsuk Records, to being welcomed into the Saddle Creek Records family for their last full-length, to deciding that it would be appropriate to do something new for this album. As another challenge, Rilo Kiley decided to release the new album themselves. They founded their own label and called it "Brute/Beaute Records" -- (fitting, considering RK’s propensity for unlikely combinations) — and then secured major label distribution for the imprint. The band is set to tour all over the country in support of the record. The great irony of Rilo Kiley is that as they begin to become better known — they are now one of the true constants in indie rock, dependable and confident, and selling out shows all over the country — it would seem that their songs are becoming more and more personal. Listeners can’t help but believe that Rilo Kiley is singing just for them, but the fact is that the world at large could use these songs right now. In these unstable times of love and war, with countless miserable personal and political histories threatening to repeat themselves every day, we could all benefit from Rilo Kiley’s charge to lead by example and live a life more adventurous.
Self-Titled / The Initial Friend EP - 1999-2000 -
The Frug Papillon Always 85 Glendora Teenage Love Song Sword Asshole Gravity Troubadours
Take Offs and Landings - 2001-07-31 -
Go Ahead Science Vs. Romance Wires and Waves Pictures of Success August Bulletproof Plane Crash in C Small Figures in a Vast Expanse Don't Deconstruct Always We'll Never Sleep (God Knows We'll Try) Rest of My Life Salute My Shorts
The Good That Won't Come Out Paint's Peeling The Execution of All Things So Long Capturing Moods A Better Son/Daughter Hail To Whatever You Found in the Sunlight That Surrounds You My Slumbering Heart Three Hopeful Thoughts With Arms Outstretched Spectacular Views And That's How I Choose to Remember It
It's A Hit Does He Love You Portions For Foxes Ripchord I Never Absence of God Accidntel Deth More Adventurous Love and War (11/11/46) A Man/Me/Then Jim It Just Is
Self-Titled / The Initial Friend EP
The frug And I can do the frug I can do the robocop I can do the freddie I cannot do the smurf And i can hate your girl I can tell ya that she's real pretty I can take my clothes off I cannot fall in love And i can do the frug I can do the robocop I can do the freddie I cannot do the smurf She cannot do the smurf And i can watch tv I can shuffle off to buffalo I can do a back bend I will not call you back And i can start a book I can make some mac 'n cheese I can sleep twelve hours You'll never see my eyes And i can do the frug I can do the robocop I can do the freddie I cannot do the smurf She cannot do the smurf And i can hate your girl I can tell ya that she's real pretty I can take my clothes off I cannot fall in love You'll never see my eyes I will not call you back I cannot do the smurf I cannot fall in love I'll never fall in love I cannot fall in love I cannot fall in love I cannot fall in love I cannot fall in love And i can do the frug I can do the robocop I can do the freddie I cannot do the smurf She cannot do the smurf Papillon Papillon busted free Though it took him 'til he was sixty-three And nobody cared about the goddamned inquiry And daga stayed on the farm Though he found no cause for alarm It was a hell of a swim but he still had two good arms Gorillas are for eating Don't you know it's true I fell in love with you And don't you think it's sad 'Cause here we both stand Amidst the wreckage of our past And i'll spend the day with you We'll meet at your house after two You're the most exhausting girl i ever knew And when you let me leave i'll go I'll let you get back to your phone You mean well, mel, but you're all talk and no show Pick you lips 'til they're bleeding Don't you know i fell The lair of the queer devil Is deeper than you thought The computer's still on And the webpage is alt.com And i hope you'll come back soon And i feel like a million buck today, a million bucks today 'Cause i know it can only go up from here 'Cause she says it's so much better after all After all we been through I can't get my mind off of you It's a hell of a way to spend the whole day through And you left your name on the bar You hopped your little brown car You moved in with gramps and you got yourself a job And the room is slowly sinking But i can play guitar And morgan you're so far Away from me tonight And i'll try to make it right By putting you in this here song Oh yeah Okay Okay wait Oh my god, blake That's what she said In bed Papillon busted free We watched him at 4:53 And i'm glad you chose to spend the night with me Always I should've known With a boy like you Your middle name is always I'd always love you Uh-huh yeah You let the needle drop I think that you could do so much better Those conventions are taking their toll on you The phantom is disguised It's horrifyin' right before your eyes The phantom is inside And i should've known With a boy like you Your middle name is always I'd always want you Uh-huh yeah The phantom is disguised It's horrifyin' right before your eyes The phantom is inside It's hideous right before your eyes The phantom he's watchin' you The phantom is watchin' you You 85 I'm just of real sad folk and '85 was our best year and She says it gets much worse 'fore It gets any better So i take it with a grain of salt For the other means i Wonder why it doesn't keep her Up at night night Like it does me. We talk the way you do and I have a sweet or two for My only plus you say they're Gettin' bigger everyday So i take it with a grain of salt For the other means i Wonder why it doesn't keep him Up at night night Like it does me. I'll be in your car I locked the keys in your car I'll be in your car For now You wanna fool around, i ask I get a sour reply From the other wheel that always Rises to the occasion So i take it with a grain of salt For the other means i Wonder why it doesn't keep you Up at night night I'll be in your car I locked the keys in your car I'll be in your car For now I've been a mess for some time Now i get what i deserve For someone who leaves behind a Life i can't do better So i take it with a grain of salt For the other means i Wonder why it doesn't keep you Up at night Up at night Up at night Up at night Like it does me Glendora It's new year's eve, i'm in glendora I'm the only living person in glendora Headin' east on the freeway I left my prom dress on the busstop in duarte I switch the rules, you take advantage You know i always like to play the victim And would you fuck me? 'Cause i'd fuck me Am i your wetnap? Freestyle walkin' I cry, cry, cry, then i complain Come back for more, do it again I cry, cry, cry, then i complain Come back for more, do it again I'm on my way, i want to see you You're in your bedroom with some dancers, i'm beneath you I come inside, i hear the door slam You tell me if i really loved you i'd get with them They make me sick, you make me sicker But i want to please you so i go and i get with her I close my eyes, i think about me I'm just your wetnap Freestyle walkin' I cry, cry, cry, then i complain Come back for more, do it again I cry, cry, cry, then i complain Come back for more, do it again I should find someone better for me But mom says we're born this way Everytime i come over to your house You just shit on my face And you know it, you know it You know, you know it really freaks me out I drove for hours on bad directions I arrive, there's something you forgot to mention An afterthought, straight to the tabby Sorry, angel, went to reno, happy happy It ain't the rest, why do you jenny I'm in a booth it's almost twelve, your favorite denny's Another year, i need a sundae I'm just your sidebet Freestyle walkin' I cry, cry, cry, then i complain Come back for more, do it again I cry, cry, cry, then i complain Come back for more, do it again I cry, cry, cry, then i complain Come back for more, do it again Teenage love song We were teenagers the first time we met You were so famous, i couldn't resist I was your girl then, that's what you said When you kissed me, kissed me, kissed me I gave you sweet love, boy, you said it was nice It was my first time, we did it just twice Went out for some sodas, when will you return? But you dissed me, dissed me, dissed me I went away for reasons disclosed You broke my heart man, oh you didn't know But now i'm back to see you again Did you miss me? Miss me? Miss me? We were teenagers the first time we met You were so famous, i couldn't resist I was your girl then, that's what you said When you kissed me, kissed me, kissed me Oh davey, why did you leave me All alone when we went all the way? But maybe someday davey We'll be together for more than a day I still love you and always will All those motel rooms, you fronted the bill I am not bitter, i want you to know Got yours comin', i've seen it before So now we're standin' so damn close You've been in rehab, you think i don't know I just remind you of yesterday Places forgotten and friends passed away But if you want me please won't you say So i can dis you, dis you, dis you, dis you, dis you And go away
Sword He fell on his sword Not two years ago today And if you haven't noticed Been waitin' for you to take me away If nothin' warrants nothin' I'll galdly give you away For every goddamned moment There's something of mine that gets in the way It's all in the movies i've seen It's all in the movies i've seen Lawrence of arabia He failed eleven plus I never went to college I'm sure it's obvious I know it's off the subject And i'm startin' to feel uncomfortable 'Cause when i talk about you It's just like the movies i've seen There i go i fucked it up for you i know I should let you go That's my reasoning But there's no reasoning With a melodramatic fool like me Aw, fuck it, here's your love song That you been askin' for It's the best i could do without Sayin' i love Asshole You woke up an asshole I couldn't believe my eyes I really hate my bad eye And i thought you knew You woke up my girlfriend I can't believe my luck I can't believe my bad luck And i should've known You told your friends about me I'm not as smart as you And all your stupid questions I don't laugh at you And i hope things work out well for you And i am not comin' back And you knew all along And you stole my best line And you're right You know i'd go to fucking hell for you There i go believin' you again There i go believin' you again Gravity Then they came along in their giant truck And they knocked you, they knocked you down You shoulda seen yourself lyin' there all broken Woah, gravity it got you good I walked away pretendin' not to know you And i hoped that you were still out cold And i thought of the time you said i was your favorite And that i looked like just like a holiday Woah, gravity-hee Oh, gravity-hee Oh, gravity-hee Oh, gravity-hee I was younger then, barely in high school When you found me, you took me in And then one day, you put me on the highway You said that gravity was gonna do me in Woah, gravity-hee Oh, gravity-hee Oh, gravity-hee Oh, gravity-hee Oh, gravity-hee Oh, gravity-hee Troubadours It was an eight-minute ceremony Everyone was there The groom wore a black cape The bride with diamonds in her hair They've disappeared like the troubadours They're not comin' back We really knew how to have some fun They're not alive, not one of 'em Yeah I sit alone in my room I'm so damned depressed I re-enact plays on the polo field I've never ridden a horse That's just the trouble with magazines I get so involved Recalling my days in north africa I've never crossed the atlantic Yeah My parents lived a life less glamorous Workin' away in las vegas '72 vista cruiser They even lived in it I'll gladly tell you all about it I can't remember it I'll say "those were the days of the troubadours They're not comin' back" We really knew how to have some fun Before my parents got divorced
Take Offs and Landings
Go ahead If you want to find yourself by travelling out west Or if you want to find somebody else that's better Go ahead Go ahead If you want to buy a brand new fancy automobile Or if you want to build a place up in coldwater canyon Go ahead Go ahead Go ahead I wish you would Go ahead If you want to hold your own hand going up that cliff Or if you want to just hold back cause you ain't up to it Go ahead Go ahead Go ahead Be my guest Go ahead If you want to hold on to the first girl that you meet Or if you want to settle down and plant roses at my feet Go ahead Go ahead Go ahead I wish you would Go ahead If you want to have your cake and eat it too And if you want to have other people watch you while you eat it Go ahead Go ahead Go ahead Be my guest Go ahead If you want better things I want you to have them If you want better things Then i want you to have them Go ahead Go ahead Go ahead I wish you would Go ahead Go ahead I wish you would Go ahead Science vs. Romance I used to think if i could realize i'd die Then i would be a lot nicer Used to believe in a lot more Now i just see straight ahead That's not to say i don't have good times But as for my days I spend them waiting Crash sites keep me up at night Impact division it splits in two Directly underneath you As for those things (as for those things) That act as markers in your life But in between (but in between) You can't remember And so it seems (and so it seems) That you've grown up and over me (up and over me) And these silly things (these silly things) I like to dwell on Test sites keep me up at night Chainlink and meters I talk to you It's cold out there But i'm telling you I'm lonely too Facts versus romance You go and call yourself the boss But we're not robots inside a grid Text versus romance You go and add it all you want Still we're not robots inside a grid Zeros and ones Wires and waves There are twelve hours There's a day between us And you called to say you're sorry in your own way There are oceans and waves and wires between us And you called to say you're getting older And sometimes planes they smash up in the sky And sometimes lonely hearts they just get lonelier How did you survive all those fires and floods How did you survive your insufferable friends It was the plow that broke the western plains And its just my heart gets rejected by my veins And sometimes planes they smash up in the sky And sometimes lonely hearts they just get lonelier And lonelier And lonelier And lonelier And lonelier And lonelier And lonelier And lonelier And sometimes planes they smash up in the sky And sometimes lonely hearts they just get lonelier Pictures of success Build your own television receiver Staying home can't be that bad for me 'Cause i'm not scared But i'd like some extra spare time Easily earn me big money I'm a modern girl but i fold in half so easily When i put myself in the picture of success I could learn world trade Or try to map the ocean When you're dead In hospitals and freeways When you're dead In resting homes and clinics When you're dead It must be nice to finish When you're dead I've had it with you And mexico can fucking wait And all of those french films about trains 'Cause i'm not scared But i'd like some extra spare time I'm not scared But the bills keep changing colors When you're dead In hospitals and freeways When you're dead In dress shirts and neckties When you're dead In apartments and on beaches When you're dead They say california is a recipe for a black hole And i say i've got my best shoes on I'm ready to go (ready to go) Ready to go Ready to go I'm ready to go Ready to go Ready to go Ready to go I'm ready to go Ready to go Ready to go Ready to go I'm ready to go Ready to go Ready to go Ready to go I'm ready to go These are times that can't be weathered and We have never been back there since then These are times that can't be weathered and We have never been back there since then These are times that can't be weathered and We have never been back there since then These are times that can't be weathered and We have never been back there since then August August I'll see you soon Under yellow moons Where i'll gather what's left of you And august I'm on your side Or did i speak to soon? Now we've crossed the great divide Someday we'll meet beyond the stars And it'll be away from here Somebody we'll meet beyond the time and the bars And it will be away from here August August of last year Before the leaves disappeared Told me you were not the one August Something in your eyes Or was it that you lied? Told me not to take it to heart Someday we'll meet beyond the stars And it will be away from here Someday we'll meet beyond the limits of who we are And it will be away from here Someday we'll meet beyond the stars And it'll be away from here Someday we'll meet beyond the land that you call miles away Away from here Bulletproof If you think you're bulletproof, you're right Because you've weathered all my slings and arrows well If you think i'm paranoid, that's fine Cause i've got evidence on my side If you want to come over tonight That's fine because i have no plans Please be kind, don't drop the rock on me How many blows to the belly will this thing take That we refer to as our true love? We both knows it dead and its been dying for some time But we refuse to let it go Please be kind, don't drop the rock on me Don't go outside and discover that you like being free Cause if you did you'd be dropping the rock on me Plane crash in c If you're scared and it shows cause you're watching them grow And traveling blows when you're out of road And when you jump up the earth wants you back Your resentment grow till you're all alone But you're so smart how could they not know When you're standing there in good humored white And how do you do it? And make it seem effortless When its all the stupid things So overwhelming to me Like paying my bills Or showing up for work early Or laughing at your jokes When you first said that anything goes Or a problem is a task disguised in work clothes That's when i knew i had to move And do you do it? And make it seem delicate When its all the stupid things So damn confusing to me Like talking it through Controlling my temper Like letting it go Saying please forgive me Or laughing at your jokes I have no idea what's been going on lately And i just wish you'd come over and explain things And i have no idea what's been going on lately And i just wish you'd come over and explain things I have no idea what's been going on lately And i just wish you'd come over and explain things I have no idea what's been going on lately And i just wish you'd come over and explain things Why do they do it? Show up anyway When they know that damn well There is no room for promotions out here And maybe it's wise And maybe i'm just stupid For laughing at your jokes Small figures in a vast expanse Let's try a new change Let's try a new change Let's try a new change Then we'll go on back to the old one Like we've done so many times before And i'll buy a new brain I'll buy a new brain You'll administer new pain Then we'll go on back to our old school That we left so many times before And you'll ask for more And more I've just begun a new phase I'm trying these days I've watched you close I'm versed in all your ways I'm just beginning to realize I'll get you one of these days But in the end If it was all pretend Isn't that what friends are for? But this is real life It's supposed to be real life So let's pretend that we're not bored That we exist and that we're resolved To real things happening to me (2, 3, 4) Don't deconstruct Something is changing inside of me Colors seem darker in light And i don't know what that means But it's not a good sign You can just add them upthen you could memorize prehistoric bones All of those old memories you can push them out and prep yourself for brand new information Don't deconstruct and then fill me in I'm not that basic i swear I've had enough of break downs and diagrams Judging from picture books apparently heaven is a partly cloudy place And if the sky opened up and they let you in and gave you a formal invitation Would you go? You can work for home Always I should've known With a boy like you Your middle name is always I'd always love you Uh-huh yeah You let the needle drop I think that you could do so much better Those conventions are taking their toll on you The phantom is disguised It's horrifyin' right before your eyes The phantom is inside And i should've known With a boy like you Your middle name is always I'd always want you Uh-huh yeah The phantom is disguised It's horrifyin' right before your eyes The phantom is inside It's hideous right before your eyes The phantom he's watchin' you The phantom is watchin' you You We'll never sleep (god knows we'll try) Stealing away into the night Won't get you any higher We'll never sleep God knows we'll try The hospital is closed And how long will it last Before we go insane? We circle your uncle's parking lot Just to se how many Times that we can before we get caught You guessed on twenty And how long will you stare Before i look away? I don't wanna go Begged them to stay they're on holiday Just close the door You can watch final four And just fall away Sailing away just isn't right Just because you're angry If you go I think i might Lose it all together And how long will we last Before we go insane? I don't wanna Rest of my life There are worse ways for a guy to spend his time Than to sit and think of you I think i'd marry you Just your smile Leaves me satisfied Though you're not mine So for the rest of my life I'm gonna search for someone just like you And we tend the garden all day long Watching history unfold And i'd be enough And you'd be enough And we'd grow old So for the rest of my life I'm gonna search for someone just like you For the rest of my life I'm gonna search for someone just like you Yeah, for the rest of my life I'm gonna search for someone just like you Salute my shorts When we broke down In that small mining town I was ready for quitting My guard was down It was summer all day In your dad's chevrolet And so we decided to stay And we want spectacular views If we're to stay for the weekend And you swear There'll be no bad news If we stay, if we stay without looking back We'll take a small private room With a window please If it opens that's fine To let in the breeze We've been waiting all year For someone to just say Everyone fucks up it's going to be ok And the prop planes They fly overhead You can hear them returning And maybe it's all in my head But i'll save my complaints for tomorrow And when you got sick i was sad for some days But i'm feeling much better I just sleep it away Now it's just like We never was Some things go bad just because And the freeways They go coast to coast They've taken away all my good friends And i don't care if you're broke You can't stay here tomorrow And the dreams have come back again But this time i'm not just watching them It's me as pilot instead And i land the plane all by myself No you can't stay here tomorrow
The Execution of All Things
The good that won't come out Let's get together and talk about the modern age All of our friends were gathered there with their pets just talking shit About how we're all so upset about the dissapearing ground As we watch it melt It's all of the good that won't come out of us And how eventually our hands will just turn to dust If we keep shaking them, standing here on this frozen lake I do this thing where i think i'm real sick But i won't go to the doctor to find out about it 'Cause they make you stand real still in a real small place As they chartup your insides and put them on display They'd see all of it, all of me, all of it All of the good that won't come out of me And all the stupid lies i hide behind It's such a big mistake, lying here in your warm embrace Oh, you're almost home I've been waiting for you to come in Dancing around in your old suits going crazy in your room again I think i'll go out and embarrass myself by getting drunk and falling down in the street You say i choose sadness, that it never once has chosen me Maybe you're right Let's talk about all of our friends who lost the war And all of the novels that had yet to be written about them It's all of the good that won't come out of them And all the stupid lies they hide behind It's such a big mistake, standing here on this frozen lake It's all the good that won't come out of me And how eventually my mouth will just turn to dust If i don't tell you quick Standing here on this frozen lake Paint's peeling The paint's peeling off the streets again And i'll drive and close my eyes in michigan And i feel nothing, not brave It's a hard day for breathing again The heat is chasing off all of your friends And their scattered bodies part to the shore again And i feel nothing, not sane It's a hard day for dreaming again I'm not going back to the assholes that made me And the perfect display of random acts of hopelessness I wish i could stay here But i think we're all ready, i think we're all ready And i feel nothing, not safe It's a hard day for dreaming again Now that you've seen almost all of america All you can say is, "where is all the water?" The war has been over for years since you gave up Last night, where the road had started And last night, when my hands were choking you Last night, when the room and your mood was dipping And last night when the ropes were pulling you in... You said, "hey, how could you love me this way?" You said, "hey, i think we're all ready..." I think we're all ready The execution of all things Soldiers come quickly, i feel the earth beneath my feet I'm feeling badly, but it's not an attempt at decency And if you're well off, well then i'm happy some for you But i'd rather not celebrate my defeat and humiliation here with you Someone come quickly, this place was built for moving out Leave behind buildings, the city planners got mapped out Bring with you history and make your hard earned feast Then we'll go to omaha, to work and exploit the booming music scene and humility And we've been talking all night Oh god come quickly, for the execution of all things Let's start with the bears and the air and then mountains rivers and streams Then we'll murder what matters to you and move on to your neighbors and kids Crush all hopes of happiness with disease 'cause of what you did Lastly, you're all alone with nothing left but sleep But sleep never comes to you, it's just the guilt and forever wakefulness of the weak It's just you and me The execution of all things So long Watch me fly away Through the night sky yeah Now that all you touched Has finally turned to gray And roads can't hold us down Winds will move us around With no need to return To this gray town Want to bet i can tell You've been in bed for too long So let's just say so long And i watched you at the cove You read on rocks below And i turned home Without so much as hello Want to know where i go I've been away for too long And it's hard to leave When i haven't seen You in so long And if we Had just held out for tomorrow We might have seen What seemed so far away We didn't even bother to stay There it goes i can tell You're going to keep Your eyes on the ground Waiting for someone To finally come around And tell you what you knew That you weren't wrong And it's finally time for so long Capturing moods Moods don't command you if you don't know what you're going through There's love for you up where the population grows There are friendly people in cities too, just ask them where they are going to There's life and work up where the clouds meet the snow And i don't waiting I'm always one step ahead of you if you don't know what you're going through There's laughs and fun up where the conversation flows I don't mind waiting if it takes a long, long time I don't mind braving the coldest winters of our time I don't mind racing through our goodbyes This is your last line of defense You can sell your baseball cards just to pay your rent, yeah I don't mind waiting if it takes a long, long time I don't mind wasting the best years of our lives I don't mind racing through our goodbyes A better son/daughter Sometimes in the morning i am petrified and can't move Awake but cannot open my eyes And the weight is crushing down on my lungs i know i can't breath And hope someone will help me this time Your mother's still calling you insane and high Swearing it's different this time And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her And that godnever blessed her insides Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things And crawl back into bed to dream of a time When your heart was open wide and you loved things just because Like the sick and the dying And sometimes when you're on you're really fucking on And your friends they sing along and they love you But the lows are so extreme that the good seems fucking cheap And it teases you for weeks in its absense But you'll fight and you'll make it through You'll fake it if you have to And you'll show up for work with a smile And you'll be be better you'll be smarter More grown up and a better daughter Or son and a real good friend And you'll be awake and you'll be alert You'll be positive though it hurts And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends And you'll be a real good listener You'll be honest you'll be brave You'll be handsome you'll be beautiful You'll be happy Your ship may be coming in You're weak but not giving in To the cries and the wails of the valley below Your ship may be coming in You're weak but not giving in And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them... Hail to whatever you found in the sunlight that surrounds you Hail to those who have come from the sunlight that surrounds you Pray for those who have gone from the sunlight that surrounds you Hail to whatever you found in the sunlight that surrounds you Pretend all the good things are for you Pretend all the good things are for me too And the weather changes not halfway between your house and mine My slumbering heart In my dreams, i see myself hitting a baseball In a green field somewhere near a freeway I'm all tan and smiling and running from third base It's hot and the kids keep on playing the driving game And they're singing the same goddamn refrain And the sky is a bluish gray It's become just like a chemical stress Tracing the lines in my face for Something more beautiful than is there I've barely been gone In my dreams, i see you at the foot of some mountains And we're taking some pictures or something And we'd better hurry up It's late and the sun keeps shooting through pine trees And the grass stains are wet on your new jeans And we'd better hurry up I've become just like a terrible mess Searching the lines in my face for Something more beautiful than is there But the crowds keep me coming back Cheering In my dreams, i see you asleep in a twin bed The covers pulled up over your head Am i asleep or awake? It's morning and the captain is playing the radio And he's just put the paint on his new boat Am i asleep or awake? It just feels good when we're waking up It just feels good when you're next to me It just feels good when you're coming home It just feels good when it's waking up My slumbering heart It's become just like a chemical stress Tracing the lines in my face for Something more beautiful than is there I've barely been gone I'm not a failure i swear I wish you could see it from over there I've got a lot over here without you I've barely been gone Dreaming Three hopeful thoughts All this talk about your sweet girlfriend Is starting to pay off And the charms that you got from travel Are starting to wear off And i hope that you Smile tonight Watching the last of your friends arrive You'll smile and shake their hands And the hero that you'd hoped you'd be Never seemed to show up And if i can keep from talking There won't be time to give up And i hope that i Drive tonight Into the last of the great sunrises I'll smile and wave my hand Goodbye If things don't work out Quite the way you planned It's almost half past two and I've begun to hate the way you Smile so smile And i hope that you Close your eyes Block out the pain Of a thousand lives I hope that you Die tonight Just close your eyes There goes the light Smile i'll brave it While you wave your hand Goodbye With arms outstretched It's sixteen miles to the promised land And i promise you i'm doing the best i can Don't fool yourself in thinking you're more than a man 'Cause you'll probably end up dead I visit these mountains with frequency and i stand here with my arms up Some days last longer than others But this day by the lake went too fast And if you want me you better speak up I won't wait So you'd better move fast Don't fool yourself in thinking you're more than you are With your arms outstretched to me Spectacular views In steep cliffs with rocks all piled up mysteries of your passing luck Ages past shells and bits of bone forming new limestone To give things their turn There are no bad words for the coast today You never knew why you felt so good In the strangest of places Like in waiting rooms and long lines that made you late and mall parking lots On holidays There are no bad words for the coast today When we hold our breath until nothing's left It all starts to fade We can see the stars from where the birds make their homes Staring back at us Indifferent but distanced perfectly projected endlessly It's so fucking beautiful There are no bad words for the coast today Then you ask what's a palisade And if we're too late for happiness? And that's how i choose to remember it When dad moved out to a frozen land The tv was jumping and it didn't quite feel right The cards they came with pictures of frozen lights And giant frozen sculptures So big right beside him Carved out of snow We traveled all night The clouds fooled us into seeing snow As far as we could see But it was summer and the sun came up And never went down for two whole weeks My mom she cried about money and time And how she felt older I didn't understand much She left and i stayed My dad played in the bar I wondered if i looked like him He was small evevn with boots on He looked like an eskimo And we were in alaska In the airport i had seen or imagined a mural of an arctic scene With seals and people that seemed nicer than me Where they smoked and talked about the dissapearing ground My dad was nice and seemed sorry for not being around He left work early and took me to a skating rink Where all of the kids in the world could have been I was scared and tall with skates on And my favorite jeans There was a boy who wanted to skate with me He held my hand And we went around More times i counted By a mural of an arctic scene I was looking at my feet because It was perfect and the air was clean My dad was there It was summer's last eve And that's how i choose to remember it
More Adventurous
It's a hit Any chimp can play human for a day And use his opposable thumbs to iron his uniform; And run for office on election day; And fancy himself a real decision maker, Then deploy more troops than salt in a shaker. But it's a jungle when war is made, And you'll panic and throw your own shit at the enemy. The camera pulls back to reveal your true identity. Look, it's a sheep in wolf's clothing, A smoking gun holding ape. Any asshole can open up a museum; Put all of the things he loves on display So everyone can see them. The house, the car, a thoughtful wife; Ordinary moments in his ordinary life. But if she blinks or smiles, she'll give you away; 'Cause no one wants to pay to see her happiness. No one wants to pay to see her day to day And i'm not buying it either, But i'll try selling it anyway. Any idiot can play greek for a day And join a sorority or write a tragedy; And articulate all that pain, And maybe you'll get paid. But it's a sin when success complains, And your writers block- it don't mean shit. Just throw it against the wall and see what sticks. Gotta write a hit -- i think this is it. It's a hit. And if it's not, Then it's a holiday for a hanging, Yeah it's a holiday for hanging Yeah it's a holiday for hanging, yeah Shoo-bop-shoo-bop my baby Any fool can play executioner for a day, And say with fingers pointed in both directions 'He went that way, It's only a switch or syringe, I'm exempt from eternal sins...' But you still wear a cross, And you think you're gonna get in... Ah, but the pardons never come from upstairs; They're always a moment too late, But it's entertainment; keep the crowd on their toes, It's justice, we're safe. It's not a hit, it's a holiday. Shoo-bop-shoo-bop my baby It's a holiday for hanging, yeah It's a holiday for hanging, yeah It's a holiday for hanging, yeah It's a holiday for hanging, yeah I'm a holiday for hanging, I'm a holiday for hanging, I'm a holiday yeah I'm a holiday for hanging, It's a holiday for hanging, yeah. Does he love you Get a real job, keep the wind at your back and the sun on your face. All the immediate unknowns are better than knowing this tired and lonely fate. Does he love you, does he love you? Will he hold your tiny face in his hands? I guess it's spring; i didn't know; it's always seventy-five with no melting snow. A married man, he visits me. I recieve his letters in the mail twice a week. I think he loves me and when he leaves her,he's coming out to california! I guess it all worked out; there's a ring on your finger and the baby's due out. You share a place by the park and run a shop for antiques downtown. And he loves you, yeah he loves you, and the two of you will soon become three. And he loves you, even though you used to say you were flawed if you weren't free. Let's not forget ourselves, good friend. You and i were almost dead. You're better off for leaving, you're better off for leaving. Late at night, i get the phone. You're at the shop sobbing all alone. Your confession, it's coming out. You only married him because you felt your time was running out. Now you love him, and your baby. At last, you are complete. But he's distant and you found him on the phone pleading, saying 'Baby i love you and i'll leave her and i'm coming out to california...' Let's not forget ourselves, good friend. I am flawed if i'm not free. Your husband will never leave you, he will never leave you for me. Portions for foxes There's blood in my mouth 'cause i've been biting my tongue all week. I keep on talking trash, but i never say anything. And the talking leads to touching, And the touching leads to sex, And then there is no mystery left. And it's bad news, baby i'm bad news I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news I know i'm alone if i'm with or without you, But just being around you offers me another form of relief When the lonliness leads to bad dreams, And the bad dreams lead me to calling you, And i call you and say "c'mere!" And it's bad news, baby i'm bad news I'm just bad news, bad news, bad news And it's bad news,baby it's bad news It's just bad news, bad news, bad news 'Cause you're just damage control For a walking corpse like me, Like you, 'Cause we'll all be portions for foxes. Yeah, we'll all be portions for foxes. There's a pretty young thing in front of you And she's real pretty, and she's real into you And then she's sleepin'inside of you. And the talking leads to touching, then the touching leads to sex And then there is no mystery left. And it's bad news. I don't blame you, I do the same thing. I get lonely too. And you're bad news; my friends tell me to leave you, That you're bad news, bad news, bad news You're bad news,baby you're bad news And you're bad news, baby you're bad news And you're bad news I don't care i like you And you're bad news I don't care i like you I like you Ripchord Pull the ripcord, the ship has lost its sail. Your momma's got a new man. Your daddy always fails. And you're eating again, at them, 'cause nobody loves you. And even fancy things have finally lost their charm. Wine and diamond rings, they never get you anymore. You're sleeping again, alone, 'cause nobody loves you. And ooh ooh ooh ooh, they should have seen you, Should have known you, should've known what It was like to be you. So come on kid, look at what you did. I don't know if you meant it,but you did yourself in and I was even havin' a good day when i found out we lost you. So aye aye aye and a Oh oh oh and a yeah yeah yeah Yeah yeah oh oh Bad-da-da-da-dada... And ooh ooh ooh ooh she said "it was in the singing and the Strumming-- oh man, i even saw it coming" (whistling) Bada-da-da-da-da I never I'm only a woman of flesh and bone And i wept much, we all do. I thought i might die alone But i had Never, never, never, Never, never, never, Never, never, never, Never, never met you. So baby be good to me. I got nothing to give you, you see Except Everything, everything, Everything, everything, All the good and the bad, 'Cause i've been bad. I've lied, cheated, stolen and been ungrateful for what i have And i'm afraid habits rule my waking life. I'm scared and i'm runnin'in my sleep For you but all the oceans, and rivers and showers Will wash it all away and make me clean For you 'Cause i have Never, never, never, Never, never, never, Never, never, never, Never, never, met you. So lets take a loan out, put it down on a house In a place we've never lived. In a place that exists in the pages of scripts And the songs that they sing And all of the beautiful things That make you weep, but don't have to make you weak 'Cause i've Never, never, never, never, Never, never, never, never, Never, never, never, never, Never, never, never, never, Never, never, never, never, Never, never, never, never, Never, never, never, never Loved somebody the way That i loved you. Absence of god The absence of god will bring you comfort, baby, And planning's for the poor so let's pretend that we're rich, And i'm not my body or how i choose to destroy it. Folk singers sing songs for the workin' baby. We're just recreation for all those doctors and lawyers, But there's no relief for the bleeding heart 'Cause they'll be losing bodies tonight. And rob says "you love, love, love, love and then you die..." I've watched him while sleeping and seen him crying With closed eyes. And you're not happy, but you're funny, and i'm tripping over my joy. I just keep on getting up again. We could be daytime drunks if we wanted, But we'd never get anything done that way, baby, And we'd still be ruled by our dueling perspectives. And i'm not my perspective, or the lies i'll tell you every time. And morgan says, "maybe love won't let you down. All of your failures are training grounds And just as your back's turned, you'll be surprised," she says, "as your solitude subsides." And mike, i'll teach you how to swim If you turn the bad in me into good again. And i say "there's trouble when everything is fine..." The need to destroy things creeps up on me every time, And just as love's silhouette appears i close my eyes And disappear, tonight... And something's got to change 'Cause our love's the slowest moving train. Accidntel deth You're obsessed with finding a new brain, But what you need is a new body. It feels your brain has lived a thousand lives before And the skin you call your home Holds a heart that quits, And knees that buckle in, And lungs that can't breathe when they're alone. And the days come to you like sailors; You watch them as they drift away. They meet the sunrise out at the horizon And it's neither sink nor swim; Least the water's beneath your chin. There's blood spilled on the floor. Everyone's staring at you-- what for? Till you realize the blood is probably yours... You feel you lost something. You want it back. You're lying motionless on your back, And your legs aren't taking anymore requests. Those disobedient wrecks! How you cared for them as they carried you From class to class and coast to coast; When you owed rent and you were broke, Through recessions and addictions. It's just your accidental death; Your accidental death. It's just your accidental death. You're the indian in the cougar's nest. Your fright gives way to memory; Having coffee with your love, Or the story your father told you long ago: He was hunting with his own father For deer. He pointed and spotted her, Then tripped over some roots or some dead trees. The gun went off; it was a mistake And my father was only eight. And as he watched the dying deer, he was changed 'Cause he felt sorry for what he'd done, And then he put down his gun. Will you feel sorry for what you've done? Will you put down your gun? It's just your accidental death; Your accidental death. But there's no accidental death When you're the indian in the cougar's nest. It's just your accidental death; Your accidental death. It's just your accidental death; You're the indian in the cougar's nest. More adventurous And it's only doubts that we're counting on fingers broken long ago. I read with every broken heart, we should become more adventurous. And if you banish me from your profits and if i get banished from the kingdom up above; I'd sacrifice money and heaven, all for love. Let me be loved! Let me be loved! If my brain quits, well, i guess then that's just it. And if my hands stop working, you can call me lazy. And if i get pregnant, i guess i'll just have the baby. Let it be loved! Let me be loved! I've been trying to nod my head, but it's like i've got a broken neck. Wanting to say 'i will' as my last testament... For me to be saved and you to be brave, We don't have to walk down that aisle 'Cause if marriage ain't enough, Well, at least we'll be loved. I've felt the wind on my cheek coming down from the east And thought about how we are all as numerous as leaves on trees. And maybe ours is the cause of all mankind: Get loved, make more, try to stay alive. I've been trying to nod my head, but it's like i've got a broken neck. Wanting to say 'i will' as my last testament... For you to be saved and me to be brave, We don't have to walk down that aisle 'Cause if marriage ain't enough, Well, at least we'll be loved. Love and war (11/11/46) All is fair in love and we're in love. Now that everybody's dead, we can finally talk. Can vanity and happiness coexist? All the lovers we've taken in direct view of the enemy. And we shift each other's body to accept the bullet And continue the pleasure; the treasures of battle. It's only for the wounded, the purple-hearted. Why must you try to ruin my peace of mind? And they were only words and i've never meant them I never loved you, even in my weakness. You were fuel for the fire, cannon fodder. When my grandpa drank, fell and broke his face in two; When the cops arrived, he exclaimed "i fought in world war ii" And then they carried him to a darkened hospital room And said "no modern person here remembers you, And we can't identify the enemy, And it could be you, so it'll cost you." "it already cost me my wife and my job, now what?" When my mom and i went to identify the body, And i wanted to see but she wouldn't let me. I had to wait for the military cemetary And when we got there, this is what she said to me: "love and war, in heaven and in hell, You get what you deserve-- you'd better spend it well. All is fair in love and war-- and love, A civil war like this, it always sells itself." A man/me/then jim I had one friend in high school, recently he hung himself with string. His note said, 'If living is the problem, well, that's just baffling.' And at the wake i waited around to see my ex first love. And i barely recognized her, but i knew exactly what she was thinking of. We sat quietly in the corner, whispering close about loss. And i remembered why i loved her, and i asked her why i drove her off. She said, "the slow fade of love, Its soft edge might cut you And our poor friend jim, Well, he just lived within The slow fade of love." A woman calls my house once a week, she's always selling things. Some charity, a phone plan, a subscription to a magazine. And as i turned her down (i always do), there was something trembling in her voice. I said, "hey, what troubles you?" She said, "i'm surprised you noticed. Well, my husband, he's leaving,and i can't convince him to stay. And he'll take our daughter with him, she wants to go with him anyway. I'm sorry i'm hard to live with, but living is the problem for me. I'm selling people things they don't want when i don't know what you need." He said, "the slow fade of love, And its mist might choke you. It's my gradual descent Into a life i never meant. It's the slow fade of love." I was driving south of melrose. When i happened upon my old lover's old house. I found myself staring at the closed oak door like the day she threw me out. "diana, diana. Diana, i would die for you. I'm in love with you completely, i'm afraid that's all i can do." She said, "you can sleep upon my doorstep, you can promise me indifference, jim. But my mind is made up, and i'll never let you in again." For the Slow fade of love. It might hit you from below. It's your gradual descent Into a life you never meant. It's the slow fade of love. It's the slow fade of love. It's the slow fade of love. It's the slow fade of love. Baby, it's the slow fade of love. It's the slow fade of love. It's the slow fade of love. It's the slow fade of love. Slow fade of love. It's the slow fade of love. It just is Today is the day i realized that i could be loved. It echoed though the park last night: 'He wasn't our son; He belonged to everyone...' And this loss isn't good enough for sorrow or inspiration. It's such a loss for the good guys, Afraid of this life, That it just is. 'Cause everybody dies... This loss isn't good enough for sorrow or inspiration. It's such a loss for the good guys, Afraid of this life, That it just is. Everybody... This loss isn't good enough for sorrow or inspiration. It's such a loss for the good guys, Afraid of this life, That it just is. 'Cause everybody dies.
Under the Blacklight
Silver lining And I'm not going back Into rags or in the hole And our bruises are coming But we will never fold And i was your silver lining As the story goes I was your silver lining But now I'm gold Hooray hooray I'm your silver lining Hooray hooray But now I'm gold And I was your silver lining High up on my toes You were running through fields of hitch-hikers As the story goes Hooray hooray I'm your silver lining Hooray hooray But now I'm gold Hooray hooray I'm your silver lining Hooray hooray But now I'm gold And the grass it was a ticking And the sun was on the rise I never felt so wicked As when I willed our love to die And I was your silver lining As the story goes I was your silver lining But now I'm gold Hooray hooray I'm your silver lining Hooray hooray But now I'm gold Hooray hooray I'm your silver lining Hooray hooray But now I'm gold But now I'm gold But now I'm gold Close call She was born on a brightened pier To a gypsy mother and a bucket of tears Her good looks coulda sailed a ship But her will alone coulda sunk it Funny thing about money for sex You might get rich But you die by it It's gonna be a close call Gonna be a close call Tell me now what would you do Hanging back with the brutes Hustlin' a pickpocket That's no way to get rich It's gonna be a close call Gonna be a close call Gonna be a close call Gonna be a close call Business woman with good sense If you live at all, you're gonna die by it Funny thing about money for sex You might get rich, but then... It's gonna be a close call Gonna be a close call Gonna be a close call Gonna be a close call The moneymaker You've got the money maker You've got the money maker This is your chance to make it Out out out oh yeah You'll get out out out oh yeah You've got the money maker They showed the money to you You showed them what you can do Showed them your money Make you get out out out oh yeah You'll get out out out oh yeah You are the money maker She wants to overtake you You know you wanna make her Show her your money maker She said out out out oh yeah She said out out out oh yeah You get out out out oh yeah You get out out out oh yeah And deep in my hands I will if you want me to She is out out out oh yeah She is out out out oh yeah You get out out out oh yeah You get out out out oh yeah Breakin' up It's not as if New York City Burnt down to the ground Once you drove away It's not as if the sun won't shine When clouds up above Wash the blues away Are we breaking up Are we breaking up Is there trouble between you and I Did my heart break enough Did it break enough this time Here's to all the pretty words We will never speak Here's to all the pretty girls You're gonna meet Am I breaking up Am I breaking up Is there trouble on the line Did your heart break enough Did it break enough this time Ooh it feels good to be free Ooh it feels good to be free Ooh it feels good to be free Betrayal is a thorny crown You wear it well Just like a king Revenge is the saddest thing Honey, I'm afraid to say You deserve everything Am i breaking up Are we breaking up Is there trouble between the lines Did your heart break enough Did it break enough this time Ooh it feels good to be free Ooh it feels good to be free Ooh it feels good to be free Under the blacklight When you get sober Will you get kinder Cause when you get uptight It's such a drag When I get older I won't remember Until that day comes I've got something on you Under the blacklight Out in the garden Into the pale moon I'll be waiting Under the blacklight Under the blacklight Even dead men Lie in the their coffins It's been a long time Since you felt better Under the blacklight Out in the garden Into the pale moon I'll be waiting Under the blacklight Out in the garden Into the pale moon Under the blacklight Somewhere in Laredo Borders a soft man Like a black widow I'll be crawling Under the blacklight Out in the garden Into the pale moon Under the blacklight Down in the valley Up in the dark blue Under the blacklight Under the blacklight Dreamworld She was the girl with the string around her neck, With the boy who could only give her less. It could be more if she learned to never expect, And now she's her and him and then a baby next. The wedding bells won't ring, but she couldn't care less, You exist, when you're living in a dream world. He grew up drinking milk from the cow, from the farm. He was the traitor's father's father's father. His father made him go give back to his country. He gave his both knees, his overseas to fight the disease. It's spreading fast over maps and it don't look back, When you're living in a dream world. It is a lion's science fiction wings, Just like a jolly dizzy for zero, one, three times The size of the people that came before. Me and you and what we'd do for money. This greed and jealousy turn to need. See, I'm a man with a plan to use my hands. I'm touching yours, you're the girl who wanted more. Now baby, the story has faded from love to lie. The clover under your feet is shooting stars in the night. The people under your feet are shooting stars in the night. The people, all that you meet, they're living in a dream world. Dejalo Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa I got a mind if you wanna waste it I got a man if you wanna fake it I got someone if you wanna get wasted I got a place if you wanna... Ready to go Ready to go Ready to go Just say so I got a tail if you wanna chase it I got a tongue if you wanna taste it I got a place on the east side I got some time if you wanna... Ready to go Ready to go Ready to go Just say so Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa My mama is an atheist If i stay out late she don't get pissed I got a place if you wanna go I got some time if you wanna... Ready to go Ready to go When you're ready to go Just say so She sleeps on your right side She gets nailed, i get tied I sleep on your left side Hundred ways to keep love alive Ready to go Ready to go Ready to go Just say so Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa 15 Twenty-five the season off dope Three sheets to the wind like a clothes line rope He's a spider on the web She's a tiny woman, he could sense Her developing body was just the beginning She said is anybody out there She was bruised like a cherry Ripe as a peach How could he have known That she was only fifteen And she came to him like a tick on the noose Little blue eyed soul for his black and blues T's a new move for the likes of me Our skin is like grass Let's smoke it real fast Is anybody out there? He was deep like a grave yard wide like TV And how could he have known That she'd be down for almost anything But she was only, only, only fifteen My oh my you pretty thing It's about that time For us to leave Does your daddy have a shot gun? He was deep like a graveyard She was ripe like a peach And how could he have known? That she was only fifteen She was only, only, only fifteen She was only, only, only fifteen Smoke detector My eyes burn, everybody smokes My eyes burn, everybody smokes I smoke too, but not as much as you I do the smoke detector There is a girl in a tank top She is not wearing a bra She looks so hard on the dance floor She does the smoke detector She says "danger "Do the smoke detector" She says "danger "I'm the smoke detector" I took a man back to my room I was smoking him in bed Yeah, i was smoking in bed This is what he said. I took a man back to my room I was smoking in bed Yeah, I was smoking in bed This is what he said. I said "danger "Do the smoke detector" I said "danger "Do the smoke detector (repeat!) The angels hung around I been had and I been held With the ghosts at bay I been oaked and I been doped And carried away I been charred and I been scarred On my own face But i never thought I'd see you as I did today Till the angels hung around Till the angels hung around Till the angels hung around As they carried me away I been clubbed and I been snubbed By the dogs of LA And I been burned and I been learned In the same city I been whored and I been gored I been less and I been more But I never thought I'd see you As I did today Till the angels hung around Till the angels hung around Till the angels hung around As they carried me away You were stuck in the badlands Acting like a bad bad man I been photographed and painted up And I been in love only once And I feared the best and loved the worst And insisted that I go first And watch your eyes as they poured And I never really loved you more And I never thought I'd see you As I did today Till the angels hung around Till the angels hung around Till the angels hung around As they carried you away And they put you in the ground When the angels hung around And the angels hung around As they carried me away Give a little love You'll get your money I'll get my friends Hard living's forgiven In the end You got your troubles I got mine On a clear day I can Read your mind Oh it's like a battlefield inside You got to Give a little love Give a little love Give a little love To get a little love Give a little love Give a little love I know you better Than you want me to Inside your pockets And walking in your shoes Oh it can get better if you try You got to Give a little love Give a little love Give a little love To get a little love Give a little love Give a little love I hope you Give a little love Give a little love Give a little love To get a little love Give a little love Give a little love I keep you close In my wildest dreams My rear-view mirror And you're waving to me Our last goodbye You got to Give a little love Give a little love Give a little love To get a little love Give a little love Give a little love I hope you Give a little love Give a little love Give a little love To get a little love Give a little love Give a little love
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Let Me Back In Let it be printed, let it be known I'm leaving you, I'm going home And all you can do is just watch me go I've put you down, talked you up, defended your honor And then packed it in and picked it up And all you can do is watch me go I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake From the Eastern seaboard, the landlocked Midwest The Keys, the Alps, the Black Hills and Budapest With my heart in a sling, tail between my legs a-swinging I'm sorry for leaving But when the palm trees bow their heads No matter how wrong I've been L.A., you always let me back in And you can bury me when my body breaks In the earth that created me, in the Golden State By my mama and her brother and their mama too 'Cause I had a dream I was carried on backs Of a thousand green birds And they carried me to a place without words And there was nothing, but there was everything And it sounded like this But when the palm trees bow their heads No matter how cruel I've been L.A., you always let me back in And when the palm trees bow their heads, No matter how cruel I've been, L.A., you always let me back in, in Oh back in, in Oh back in, in It'll Get You There All the trips that you take, they will get you there All the little white pills you take, they will get you there All the compliments that you take, they will get you there All the hearts that you break, they will get you there It'll get you there It'll get you there It'll get you there It'll get you there All the hostages that you take, they will get you there All the hands that you shake, they will get you there All the conman that you fake, it'll will get you there All the hearts that you break, they will get you there I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake It'll get you there (x8) I will get you there All the pennies that you save, they will get you there All the hearts that you break, they will get you there It'll get you there (x8) I will get you there Runnin' Around You know he's always runnin' around Because he's a runnin' around kind of guy You know he's runnin' around And with runnin' around he's fine He's runnin' around with a bad, bad temper Runnin' around drinking gold dust liquor Runnin' around taking dirty pictures He's runnin' around, he's runnin' around He works in a crowded room Where loneliness is a prize When he's not on the road He's a real stand-up guy He's sleeping in his own bed He's still dreaming with two hands He's runnin' around, he's not runnin' around He's runnin' around, he's still runnin' around I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake She's sitting pretty underneath the southern skies She's so damn pretty, even he forgets he's alive When he's runnin' around in a hot tub With a little bit of young love He's runnin' around until his white shows He's runnin' around until his heart goes He's runnin' around with a bad, bad temper Runnin' around drinking gold dust liquor He's runnin' around taking dirty pictures He's runnin' around, he's runnin' around All the Drugs All the drugs make you stupid Paranoid and ruthless But now you're finally clean You've been strip-searched And rung up Like lights that were strung up The drugs who've got nothing on me And you say, stupid I was And stupid I'll be Waiting for my beating to come It's going to be a scorcher About a hundred degrees It's burning up your luck it seems You take creamer in your coffee At the end of the counter The free refills keep coming And the parody of prophets lie Not to save you You struck out so you strike them down I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake And you say, stupid I was And stupid I'll be Waiting for my beating to come And you say la, la, la la, la, la la, la, la But the drugs have got nothing on me Hiding out in dens Smoking cigarettes Playing with the wedding band You're still losing your mind It's not something that you'll find In your pocket or on the courthouse steps And you say, stupid I was And stupid I'll be Waiting for my beating to come And you say, stupid I was And stupid I'll be But the drugs have got nothing on me La la la la, la la la la But the drugs have got nothing on me But the drugs have got nothing on me Bury, Bury, Bury Another We had jobs then We were happy Because we had jobs that we liked Now it's just hurry, hurry, hurry, hurry us up We got to get it done tonight And the roads that you built Won't get us there fast enough And the shadows on the hills They don't shade us enough from the beating-downs Maybe distance might wash away your loved ones That left you all at once, just because It was bury, bury, bury, bury another I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake You'd wash your feet As you make your way up To some overly quiet place You never looked hard enough For your own last name or someone you liked at all To keep you standing there with flowers We had love then We had attachments And we had carelessness on our side Now all the afternoons between romances Keep us hanging on We wish our ex was by our side And the loves that you had, they didn't please you enough Now your face is in your hands And you wonder if anyone ever will, ever will, ever will Well, You Left Well, you left You had to move on You finally gave it a rest You said you had to be strong You bled all you could bleed You didn't get what you need So tell the mutual friends You went and walked out on me And now the weather gets cold But you can finally breathe Seems some things are going perfect The usual make believe I heard you found a new friend Someone else to hang onto I hope he holds your hand I heard he's nice to talk to But if the weather gets bad And you feel yourself fall through I'll try not to feel satisfied I'll try and do what healthy people do Yeah, I wish the best for you These are the days They remember you by But it's not what you say But I say it Did you hear about Scott? Did you hear that he's gone? He drowned right off the rocks Sometimes the current's too strong And he had friends with influence And he had friends with influence And he had friends with influence And he had friends Yeah, they knew him You could say you were there At the top of the stairs You'll say I'll repay our mutual respect (yeah) I guess they're peers I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake Finally found a way to Block the sun It's not for everyone These are the products Of your parents That grew up Son We need sun In the sun In the sun So on So on So on So on You want The last one It's tripping mind up here (?) They don't care What we do And we do Draggin' Around Here's to all the luck that pours down on me Here's to all the melodies that picked us up off our seats Here's to the younger ones when they replace me Here's to the bitterness that keeps the sweet so sweet I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake Here's to all the words that we'll never speak Here's to all the pretty girls that you're going to meet Here's to the little lies I tell in my sleep Here's to the secrets that you're going to keep Why don't you raise up, raise up your cup I've had enough, raise up your cups Here's to the company that we used to keep Here's to the certainty of sickness and sleep Here's to the death of who we thought we were Here's to all our kids that'll never be born Why don't you raise up, raise up your cup I'm choking up, raise up your cups To dragging around A cross and a thorny crown And living because you're willing And being forgiven, thankfully
*** Thanx a lot to Dragonfly for this one ***
I Remember You At a party last New Year's eve somewhere downtown We started talking about how we wanted someone to kiss after the countdown I went to get us both a drink at the bar and when I came back you were gone I didn't think I'd ever see you again Last winter I was working nights and I missed the last train Nothing unusual, I walk home in the snow again A car stops, rolls down the window and asks me my name I replied, I realised "it was you" And may all acquaintances be forgot but I remember you And I remember, and I remember, and I remember you And I remember, I remember you I don't want you to think that this happens to me all the time I hope you don't think I make a habit of taking strange rides The conversation was easy there was glitter on her face We carried on and talked until dawn And my heart is breaking, my knees is shaking and I'm just hanging around And the clock is ticking, the world is spinning, there's nothing that I found And may all acquaintances be forgot but I remember you And I remember, I remember when you gave me your word Gave me your word, gave me your word Is all that I have And you gave me your word, and you gave me your word You gave me your word And I and now I And my heart is breaking, my knees is shaking and I'm just hanging around And the clock is ticking, the world is spinning, there's nothing that I've found And may all acquaintances be forgot but I remember you And I remember, I remember and I remember you And now I And the world is shakin' and I'm just hangin' around And now I And the clock is ticking, the world is spinning, there's nothing that I've found And my heart is breaking, my knees is shaking, and I'm just hangin' around And the clock is ticking, and the world is spinning and there's nothing that I've found And now I
*** Thanx a lot to Dragonfly for this one *** Dejalo (Zondo Remix)
(Feat. Too $hort) Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa I got a mind if you want to waste it I got a man if you want to fake it I got some wine if you want to get wasted I got a place if you want to Ready to go Ready to go Ready to go Ready to go I got a tail if you want to chase it I got a tongue if you want to taste it I got a place on the East Side I got some time if you want to I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake Ready to go Ready to go Ready to go Just say so Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa My mama is an atheist If I stay out late she don't get pissed I got a place if you want to go I got some time if you want to Ready to go Ready to go When you're ready to go Just say so She sleeps on your right side She gets nailed, I get tied I sleep on your left side Hundred ways to keep love alive Ready to go Ready to go Ready to go Just say so Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa 'Too $hort' : I line all the women up in a row I'm always winning, I'm a pro Yeah, I'm a pimp but she don't know I spit that game unless she's ready to go Imma take her home I've got another chick on the phone I never like to sleep alone Hip(?) buck-naked or keep it on Do I love her, answer's no I love things about her, that's for sure I just wanna tap that ass some more Drink up baby, you're ready to go You got things to do Ex-boyfriend keeps ringing you Let's play them sex games In the bed red head on my left side (?) Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa Dejalo, nuestra cosa A Town Called Luckey Happy birthday You're halfway to sixty You have no land of your own A job you despise and a lover that's mean And you started noticing a disturbing thing Birds eating other birds just beyond the screen So you packed up your things And you hopped on the freeway, headed east And you drove for eight days, aimlessly I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake Telling yourself to be humble Singing yourself to be free Being full aware that it's a middle-aged crisis type thing And you drove until you saw a sign for a town called Luckey Spelled L-U-C-K-E-Y Where the sugar towers rise to line and meet the streets Checked into a motel, slept on cardboard sheets That covered the blood-stained mattress underneath Went to the local bar and you got yourself a drink Telling yourself to be humble Singing yourself to be free It's a middle-aged crisis type thing It was the most rag-tag group you had ever seen A splendid man with a moustache on both sides, nothing in-between Looking like a preacher's son who had given into the devil-worshipping scene He was a real looker and he bought you a drink And you proceeded to tell him everything And you were getting a bit hysterical it seemed And you laughed like a carburettor and then you screamed All the doubt and the disbelief Telling yourself to be humble Singing yourself to be free It's a middle-aged crisis type thing And he told you how he came to be As an altar boy by his father's knees And how he came to lose his faith There was no touching but advances were made And his father's hand in slow motion, it was approaching him And the doubt and disbelief crept over his young heart like the black ocean A stormcloud, a hurricane if you will A stormcloud, a hurricane Telling yourself to be humble Singing yourself to be free It's a middle-aged crisis type thing Go home, lady, find yourself happy It's just a middle-aged crisis type thing It's a middle-aged crisis type thing It's a middle-aged crisis type thing It's a middle-aged crisis type thing It's a middle-aged crisis type thing It's a middle-aged crisis type thing Emotional (Until Crickets Guide You Back) Christ, you're already gone And I thought it'd take longer to kill you And a month is no time at all No time to reach down and erase you You're so emotional In the light of your mom's front room I'm a thoughtless beast Afraid of everything And it's how you choose to see it Strength or human needs You're so emotional In the light of your mom's front room I'm so emotional In the unforgiving light of the moon I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake And you lost your way home And it feels familiar And crickets guide you back And you hear them calling And it sounds familiar And they might help you out It's so hard Emotional In the light of your mom's front room You're so emotional In the light of the marquee moon American Wife "Losing your brave," is that what he said? The flag will still wave even after you're dead I'll be your American wife Like the eagle perched atop the globe We'll climb up above the smog And live in blissful ignorance With a dog and a TV set We'll eat flesh until we're fatter than our friends But I only play the fool very often I only bet my heart like a spade But I like the gambling life You never know what you're going to get Bet your shoes, keys, and glasses You'll be barefoot, free from debt, blinded, and wandering Maybe then you'll be happier, then (Then you'll be happier, then) The wind used to come and nearly blow you over The wind doesn't move down these parts anymore And so goes the bartering life I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake Caught for food, then they strap you down You scream, "Miami was pretty, before we were bitter Before we let our sadness litter the streets" You offered your father could be mine We looked at your family tree, and politely declined You have eleven siblings Who've had ten broken limbs Nine divorces And eight broken hearts And seven grandkids And six bypass surgeries Five college degrees Four are sick Three are well Two are dead One's in jail No one here moves away No one here moves away "Come unto the grave" is that what I said (Is that what I said) My memory fades when I'm drinking in bed I miss the sobering life The comforter will not come unto to me Until I'm a fearless, faithless nothing-at-all Because no one escapes their life No one escapes their life No one escapes their life (No one, no one) It may sound depressing It's just a life lesson In the bartering, gambling life I'll be your American Wife Patiently A thousand miles from Indiana But I'm not moving, I'm not leaving A thousand miles from who I want to be But I'm not dead yet, I'm still breathing And patiently, I exist You stand out in a crowd But I want you dead, I'm not you yet You've got friends, you're great with them But I'm not dead yet, I'm still breathing I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake Patiently and with certainty, I wish It just isn't right The time of your life spent Right where you want to be Impatiently And you just talk But you don't stop But I'm not dead yet, I'm still breathing Patiently and with certainty It just isn't right The time of your life spent Right where you want to be Providing for mouths, pursuing a family Right where she wants you to be Resigned to these histories, we exist Rest of My Life (Demo) There are worse ways for A guy to spend his time Than to sit and think of you I think I'd marry you Just your smile Leaves me satisfied Though you're not mine So for the rest of my life I'm gonna search For someone just like you And we tend the garden All day long Watching history unfold And I'd be enough And you'd be enough And we'd grow old So for the rest of my life I'm gonna search For someone just like you I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake For the rest of my life I'm gonna search For someone just like you Yeah, for the rest of my life I'm gonna search For someone just like you About the Moon The moonlight won't hide The moonlight won't hide The moonlight won't hide These crying eyes These crying eyes The highways are free and clear The highways are free and clear The highways are free and clear They won't take me away from here They wont take me away from here I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake My folks are long gone My folks are long gone My folks are long gone And my mind is sure to go And my mind is sure to go (sure to go) And my mind is sure to go (sure to go) And my mind is sure to go The Frug And I can do the Frug I can do the Robocop I can do the Freddie I cannot do the Smurf And I can hate your girl I can tell you that she's real pretty I can take my clothes off I cannot fall in love And I can do the Frug I can do the Robocop I can do the Freddie I cannot do the Smurf And I can watch TV I can shuffle off to Buffalo I can do a backbend I will not call you back I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake And I can start a book I can make some mac and cheese I can sleep twelve hours You'll never see my eyes And I can do the Frug I can do the Robocop I can do the Freddie I cannot do the Smurf And I can hate your girl I can tell you that she's real pretty I can take my clothes off I cannot fall in love You'll never see my eyes I will not call you back I cannot do the Smurf I cannot fall in love I'll never fall in love I cannot fall in love
Quickmart Sometimes I stand outside the Quickmart He said, 'Tomorrow's another day, Laura' I said, 'My name is not Laura But thanks for the advice" There's a jar outside the store here Donations for Vinnie Vinnie's got a rare disease He's melting as we speak I'm always on the run and I hate copy paste for god's sake Sometimes I look into the mirror God, I'm such a jerk Put a guitar here, please One of your shredding leads Sometimes I stand outside the Quickmart He said, 'Tomorrow's another day, Laura' I said, 'My name is not Laura" My name is not Laura My name is not Laura My name is not Laura My name is not Laura
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A town called luckey Happy birthday. You're halfway to sixty. You have no land of your own, A job you despise and a lover that's mean. And you started noticing a disturbing thing; Birds eating other birds, just beyond the screen. So packed up your things and you hopped on the freeway headed east, And you drove for eight days, aimlessly. Telling yourself to be humble, singing yourself to be free, Being full aware that it's a middle-aged crisis type thing. And you drove 'til you saw a sign for a town called luckey Spelled l-u-c-k-e-y Where the sugar towers rise to line and meet the streets. Checked into a motel, slept on cardboard sheets That covered the blood-stained matress underneath. Went to the local bar and you got yourself a drink. Telling yourself to be humble, singing yourself to be free. It's a middle-aged crisis type thing. It was the most rag-tag group you had ever seen; A splendid man with a moustache on both sides, nothing in-between, Looking like a preacher's son who had given into the devil-worshipping scene. He was a real looker and he bought you a drink. And you proceeded to tell him everything And you were getting a bit hysterical, it seemed. You laughed like a carburetor and then you screamed All the doubt and the disbelief. Telling yourself to be humble, singing yourself to be free. It's a middle aged crisis type thing And he told you how he came to be as an altar boy by his father's knees, And how he came to lose his faith. There was no touching, but advances were made... And his father's hand in slow motion, it was approaching him And the doubt and disbelief crept over his young heart like the black ocean. A storm cloud, a hurricane, if you will... A storm cloud, a hurricane... Telling yourself to be humble, singing yourself to be free. It's a middle-aged crisis type thing. Go home late, find yourself happy. It's just a middle-aged crisis type thing. It's a middle-aged crisis type thing. It's a middle-aged crisis type thing. It's a middle-aged crisis type thing. It's a middle-aged crisis type thing. It's a middle-aged crisis type thing. I love L.A. Let it printed, let it be known I'm leavin you, i'm going home And all you can do is just watch me go. I've put you down, talked you up, defended your honor, Then packed it in and picked it up, And all you can do is just watch me go. From the eastern sea board, the landlocked midwest, The keys, the alps, the black hills, and budapest, With my heart in a sling, tail between my legs a swingin' I'm sorry for leavin'. But when the palm trees bow their heads, No matter how cruel i've been, L.a., you always let me back in. And you can bury me when my body breaks; In the earth that created me, in the golden state, By my mama and her brother, and their mama, too. 'Cause i had a dream i was carried on backs Of a thousand green birds, And they carried me to a place without words, And there was nothing, but there was everything, But when the palm trees bow their heads, No matter how wrong i've been, L.a., you always let me back in; And when the palm trees bow their heads, No matter how cruel i've been, L.a. you always let me back in, in, Oh, back in, in, oh, back in, in. Jenny, you're barely alive And it's all the treasures that shine in the street As we drive right over them And it's all the mornings we missed for sleep As the sun glides over our apartment And it's all the subtle change in landscape and business Reminds you of your limited time This time you'll listen to the movement of your body How it keeps on despite you and it frightens you 'Cause you're barely alive You're desperate in finding something else to please you You've been searching your whole life Something to mute, change, or just distract you Something to put inside you to give the illusion of life 'Cause you've always been barely alive 'Cause you're barely alive 'Cause you're barely alive You've always been barely alive Have you not? And the greatest escape that you ever did make With your arms by your side left it up to fate And the coast that you've seen though you're watching them weekly You've cursed all perfect days as you walked away I can hear you say, "jenny, you're barely alive" The metal rods you put in your fucking jaw to keep you from grinding your teeth every night 'Cause you're barely alive You've always been barely alive 'Cause you're barely alive Always been barely alive Pull me in tighter There's no need for depression. And no, i don't have the blues. Wouldn't wanna go to heaven if i can't go there with you. And i still count my blessings when i am standing with you. And no, i never learned my lesson; i'm still a dedicated fool. And baby, i will try, for the sake of you and i. And baby, i will survive all the heartbreak love inspires. There's no need for guessing when you are faithfully true. Though my body may wander, my mind is always with you. And in the depths of destruction, there is but one golden rule: Look not unto your neighbor. Save yourself first, you silly fool. And baby, i will try for the sake of you and i. And baby, i will get by on whatever you provide. And baby, i will survive all the heartbreak love inspires. And baby, i will survive. Oh, i will survive. Pull me in tighter, pull me in tighter, yeah. Pull me in tighter, pull me in tighter, yeah. Pull me in tighter, pull me in tighter, yeah. Pull me in tighter, pull me in tighter, yeah. When you see me coming, take off your running shoes. No more arms and no more weapons when i am coming for you. And baby, i will try for the sake of you and i. And baby, i will get by on whatever you provide. And baby, i will survive all the heartbreak love inspires. And baby, i will survive. Oh, i will survive. Baby, i will survive. Oh, i will survive. Baby, i will survive. Oh, i will survive. Baby, i will survive. Oh, i will survive. Baby, i will survive. Oh, i will survive... Rained the day Keep it together, don't even start with me 'Cause i am much smarter than you and you know better All those nights between us could make for a swell parade You're a little bit jaded, but that's okay They say it rained the day your mother gave you away They say it rained the day your mother gave you away Everybody! Keep it together, don't even start with me 'Cause i am much smarter than you and you know better All those nights between us could make for a swell parade You're a little bit jaded, but that's okay They say it rained the day your mother gave you away They say it rained the day your mother gave you away Room 8 Room 8 the invite says Come and surpise you're oldest friend The door's ajar, what's behind In room 8, room 8, room 8 Cards are found in boxes there Welcome me in to the earthly air A baby girl named jennifer Born here, born here, in room 8 Lock the car Tremble and shake Baby the call was just a fake But there she is spotted through rain Jennifer she calls your name On the bed, hip displaced Broken nose and a toothless face But she's alive, she's awake In room 8, room 8, room 8 And she whispers, We're still working full-time for love underpaid, overworked, uninsured We'll work gladly with our hands, we'll take off our gloves 'Til it's only love - 'til love remains In room 8, room 8, room 8 I've never felt this pain before Doubled over the motel floor The ambulance it pulls away With only tears as my alibi But i'm still workin' full-time for love 9 to 5, weekends, and holidays Don't lay me off with severence pay Work me 'til i'm enslaved By your elusive ways, invisible of Somebody else's clothes And you're ridin' in back Layin' here on your back You're as serious as a heart attack All those picturesque moments The sunsets glowin' Through the back of the van And the water is diamonds There's something you're hiding It's just your fatal flaw And you're tryin' to compose But just being this happy Is like walking around In somebody else's clothes And you all think i'm stupid, Too nice, too aloof There's no winnin' here at all Been on the road for so long Singing self-obsessed songs I'm always comin' as i'm goin' And the water is diamonds There's something you're hiding You wish you could just shout it out "just fucking love me I'm tired of leaving And waking up In somebody else's clothes" My dad's been in jail For two halves of a year I got my first letter today It was simple and sad It was painfully clear And this is how it read: "my daughter this time well The water's not diamonds I'm a fraud and i am old And they found me out But just bein' your father Is like walking around in Somebody else's clothes I'll be out by the first snow Wearing somebody else's clothes" Steve My mom has this boyfriend his name is steve I want him so very much to die But he wont - he stands strong, he stays all day long And he fucks my mom even when she cries And i want him very much to die And yet he's still alive So dear god I believe in you Believe in me And make it come true And i hope that it happens sometime real soon And i want him very much to die Yeah i want him very much to die... ... Real soon All right, thanks a lot Thanks for coming out (background chatter)
Xmas cake (it's almost christmas) When i take off my make-up i look old and defeated I'm not so dangerous Cry into my christmas cake Starin holes into me all night You should just give up 'Cause our love's become sellin' secrets To the russians they don't need The cold war is on between you and me 25 years old and a bachelor's degree Your parents helped out with graduation fees The loans were never enough The credit cards are calling your bluff Hold your hand, cut them up, move away Or you'll payin' them off 'till your kids grow up And do the same There's no more runnin' water Wrappin' presents in the dark Move into your car Change where you park Too bad that job carolin' department stores fell through But the new year is right in front of you Cry into your christmas cake Don't know what else to do Don't know what else to do (fa la la fa la la la la) I fear i'm going deaf I've got some sense left Give up some more to be with you (oooo) 'Cause what good is seein' if love's not lookin' back at you (aahhh) And what good is feelin' if my hands aren't touchin' you And another angel came down He was wearin' only a cloud He said sew up the bad that you've done Tomorrow christmas day comes (christmas day) Cry into your christmas cake Don't know what else to do Cry into your christmas cake Don't know what else to do The new year's right in front of you (fa la la fa la la la la) You are what you love This is no great illusion When i'm with you i'm looking for a ghost Or invisible reasons to fall out of love Or run screaming from our home 'Cause we live in a house of mirrors We see our fears and everything's our songs, faces, and second-hand clothes But more and more we're suffering, not nobody, not a thousand beers Will keep us from feeling so all alone But you are what you love And not what loves you back That's why i'm here on your doorstep Pleading for you to take me back And the phone is a fine invention It allows me to talk endlessly to you About nothing disguising my intentions Which i'm afraid my friend are wildly untrue It's a sleight of hand, a white soul band, The heart attacks i'm convinced i have Every morning upon waking To you i'm a symbol or a monument Your right of passage to fulfillment But i'm not yours for the taking But you are what you love And not what loves you back So i guess that's why you keep on Calling me back I'm fraudulent, a thief at best, A coward who paints a bullshit canvas Things that will never happen to me And at arm's length, it's tim who said I'm good at it, i've mastered it Avoiding, avoiding everything But you are what you love tim Not what loves you back And i'm in love with illusions so saw me in half I'm in love with tricks So pull another rabbit out of your hat