B i o g r a p h y (by Official Press)
It's said that every cell in our bodies regenerates over the course of seven years, making us different people than we were before. It’s a different Sonya Kitchell who returns after seven years with We Come Apart, her first full-length album since 2008. The 12-track collection is due Jan. 22 on Rockwood Music Hall Recordings/Thirty Tigers. The time frame is fitting: the cycle of renewal is a theme running through We Come Apart. “There’s a beauty in disintegration and restoration,” Kitchell says. “Perhaps I was born with an awareness of the impermanence of things or perhaps it found me along the way — this album is an ode to that chaos and the most basic processes in life.” We Come Apart caps a period of growth and reinvention for Kitchell, who was 17 when she released her first album This Storm in 2006. Since then, she moved from her hometown in the hills of western Massachusetts to New York City, spent time in parts of Europe and Asia, worked as a side musician and a songwriter-for-hire, released the Convict of Conviction EP of chamber-pop in 2010, learned the technical side of recording music and dove deeper into photography and film. She also recorded We Come Apart two different times, once with money she raised through a PledgeMusic campaign and the second time with funds she scraped together herself. “My vision was not clear going into this project so it took me a while to get there,” she says. “I was searching for a sense of space and vulnerability in the songs I couldn’t quite find, like fumbling in the dark for velvet.” You can hear it in the drowsy sensuality of “Mexico,” where Kitchell sings in alluring tones over a classic-pop blend of piano, little sunbursts of guitar and a restless bassline that moves things along. Album opener “Follow Me In” has a folkier feel, with chiming guitars and ukulele chasing Kitchell’s voice into its breathy upper register; while “This Feeling” rides a stomping beat through walls of corrugated guitar as Kitchell sings with raw intensity. The album completes a cycle of its own by ending with the title track, an aching piano ballad that subtly underscores the theme of renewal. She recorded the bones of We Come Apart in a farmhouse in western Massachusetts, not far from where she grew up, working by herself and with multi-instrumentalist Shahzad Ismaily. Kitchell took the rough tracks back to New York, where she recruited friends to help her flesh out arrangements that include drums, percussion, horns and strings. The result is an album that feels true to her, a concept that Herbie Hancock had emphasized when she worked with the legendary jazz pianist. “He told me, ‘Success is being honest,’” Kitchell says. “I really learned from my time with him, and in general, that whatever we make has to be true. These songs come from a different kind of experience than my first two albums — living changes a person.” In addition to Hancock, Kitchell spent time playing and touring with bassist Tal Wilkenfeld (Jeff Beck, Jackson Browne) and the Brooklyn shoegaze band Blue Foundation. Kitchell teamed with the bassist and composer Garth Stevenson on Convict of Conviction, and also studied writers who inspire her, from Shakespeare to Bob Dylan and Leonard Cohen, deconstructing their work to peek at the innards. When she was home, she was in New York, which can be a hard, if rewarding, place to live. “It’s like a river that polishes us, but hopefully doesn’t reduce us to dust,” Kitchell says. “The hardship came from being broke for the first time and learning how to make ends meet and create art despite it all.” Giving up wasn’t really a choice. Kitchell realized during her seven years of renewal that making music for her is more than a vocation: it’s a necessity. “I absolutely have no choice in doing this,” she says. “If I could do something else, I would, but I can’t… It’s my oxygen.” The body of knowledge she acquired has led her to a moment of transition on We Come Apart, an album that stands at the borderline of her musical past even as it offers hints of directions she could well go. We Come Apart explores the remnants of things, the space in between our atoms. The album represents years of Kitchell’s learning from masters, unlearning expectations, and re-emerging as a vivid, fresh voice.
Black Crow Brother & Sister Burn Brightly Dreams of fire Fragile Things Haunting Refrain I Only Mean Good Personal Reprise Rendered Whole Water
Words Came Back to Me
Let me go You hold me down Please, you let me go I'm dying to be out on my own And I think I might go crazy If this lasts any longer You tell me this And you tell me that I'm trying to tell you Where I'm at And I think I might go crazy If this lasts any longer Oh yeah I want to let you know you got to Let me go You got to let me go Yeah you got to Let me go You gotta let me go Oh you gotta let me go And I'm just trying to Let you know So please let me go I've been on my best behavior What more do you need I'm not a savior And I think I might go crazy If this lasts any longer You might think you're misunderstood But I'm tired of acting like I should And I think I might go crazy If this lasts any longer Oh yeah I want to let you know you got to Let me go You got to let me go Oh you got to Let me go You gotta let me go Oh you gotta let me go You know I'm trying to Let you know So please let me go Well I love you and I need you But I've got to get away Give me space and I won't mind When you want me to stay And I resent the fact that I need you You got tp let me make mistakes Give me time out on my own We won't have too much heartache And I said oh I wanna Let you know you got to Let me go You gotta let me go Oh you gotta Let me go You gotta let me go Oh you gotta Let me go You gotta let me go Oh you gotta Let me go Oh you gotta let me go You gotta let me go I'm just trying to Let you know You gotta let me go Train I've just taken a seat on the train I walked through busy streets down a shadowy lane I just bought my ticket for the ride There's no turning back now, no matter what I decide Steel body moves fast, hinges pounding against the ground I sink into my seat and I pray for it to speed up While I wish it would slow down My body quivers with anticipation for what lies ahead Wood is thrown onto the fire that cries out to be fed Mist shrouds the dawn, so ahead I cannot see The train it moves ever forward into the misty sea There's so many faces But most of the time I feel so alone There's so many places Will I ever stop and know my own home I know I'm gonna get there But I'm not sure when Nor do I know where I'm going So I won't pretend I cannot see beyond the horizon Nor around the bend The train it moves ever forward Without a seeming end Out of one window, I saw rain I looked through the other, and I felt the warm suns rays The wind, it gently blew across my weary shoulder And time whispered in my ear "Child, you're just gonna keep getting older" But I've done nothing more Than take a seat on this here, train Yet my life turned upside down and only Only the little things remain Can't get you out of my mind I can't get you out of my mind Your love is like a drug And I've been so drugged by your love That I don't even know the time And all that I can do Is think of loving you. Yes it's all that I can do It's all that I can do 'Cause I can't get you out of my mind I tried so hard to stop Thinking about you baby I thought if I did something else for a little while I might forget about you, maybe But all that I can do Is think of loving you Yes It's all that I can do It's all that I can do 'Cause I can't get you out of my mind I tried so hard to stop Thinking about you baby I, I tried so hard but it didn't work, no Oh I got to know, I got to know how you feel about me, baby 'Cause my mind is going crazy And it's really starting to hurt So tell me what Oh baby tell me what will come of my love Call me baby Do something honey I've got to know I've got to know what you're thinking of All that I can do Is think of loving you Oh you know You know that's all that I can do I can't, I can't get you out of my mind Oh no I, I can't, I can't Darling darling I can't get you out of my mind Oh no no no no no Can't get you out of my mind
Words My words ran away from me Now I'm lost and they're out at sea Sailing away They come and go, like the breeze Whisper sweet, burn like disease They change with the day And I seem to say All the wrong things on the right day And I seem to do All the wrong things on the right cue At least most of the time My words took me down the wrong track And now I want to take it back So I'll run away If only I could be free Of the plague that my words seem to be I'd thank the day For I seem to say All the wrong things on the right day And I seem to do All the wrong things on the right cue At least most of the time And life can be Such a give or take Some laugh while they're dying Some cry when they wake But there are some words That I could never do without That paint pictures on polished walls And dance away with doubt My words came back to me They stayed awhile, we had some tea While time whiled away I said, "please be kind and please don't go" They said, "we'll try, but you never know" Depends on the day And I seem to say All the wrong things on the right day And I seem to do All the wrong things on the right cue At least most of the time Cold day Every morning Before the sun does rise He cries Then he wipes away his tears He'll have no fears And no one will know how hard he tries Every minute of every day She prays That she will be strong Enough to carry on But she fears she's wasting away It's a cold day in history One of the coldest of all time I'm so caught up with trying to stay warm I forget to pay others any mind Every evening After the sun goes down He feels alone In his heart of hearts Soul of souls He wonders if he'll ever make it home Every hour of every night She lies awake Thinking of all she's got to do Just to make it through Can she handle all that is at stake It's a cold day in history One of the coldest of the year Can I hold you in my arms And help you forget the fear Can I hold you in my arms And help you forget the fear No matter what She's a crazy girl She needs an intervention She has lost her world And no one cares to mention She just needs someone to help her out She needs someone to say, "hey, what's it all about" She needs a little bit of love and care And most of all she needs someone to say "I will be there for you No matter what you do I'll be there for you No matter what you say I'll be there today No matter what you do I'll be there for you Yeah, you know it's true" She's a lonely girl Who needs some attention. She needs to find someone To put in place prevention She needs a binding that will hold her and not tear And most of all she needs someone to say "I will be there for you No matter what you do I'll be there for you No matter what you say I'll be there today No matter what you do I'll be there for you, yeah" And when I saw her last She was on her own Everyone was laughing and dancing But she was all alone When I saw her, her eyes were so, so, so tired And her smile had gone away She was high on strife and degrading life That was when I heard them say She's a frightened girl Who needs good intention She's been lost a little too long Now she needs some direction She just needs someone to tell her it's okay Someone who actually cares about her day She needs a little bit of love and care And most of all she needs someone to say "I will be there for you No matter what you do What you do No matter what you say What you say No matter what you do What you do No matter what you say What you say No matter what you do What you do No matter what you do No matter what you do No matter what you do Baby you know I'll be there For you No matter what you do I'll be there for you"
Simple melody Spinning 'round Till I tumble down All my worries sink into the ground As I lay here and look up at the Sun-lit trees There's so many sounds I don't believe silence can be found Some would say it's quiet now But I hear silence and it breaths Lately All I wanna do Is sing La da la da dee That's all that I need Just a simple melody To set my soul free For with out it, I can hardly breathe Happiness has been good to me But sorrow sets inspiration free I love to feel Everything that I can feel I laugh I cry it's all the same I love the sunshine, love the rain As long as I can sing About a beauty, so surreal Lately All I wanna do Is sing La da la da dee That's all that I need To sing La da la da dee To set me free To sing La da la da dee For with out it, I can hardly breathe Yes that's all that I need It's all that I need Think of you You're like a breath of fresh air Every time I'm 'round you You take away all my despair Anytime I'm feeling down or blue Baby, all I've got to do Is think about you You're like the gentle kiss of rain Every time I'm with you You wash away all my pain Anytime I'm feeling down or blue Honey, all I've got to do Is think about you I would do anything I would do everything I would do anything just to be with you I would go anywhere just as long as you were there I would go anywhere just to be with you You're like the spark of a fire You kindle all my, my inner desire Anytime I'm feeling down or blue Honey, all I've got to do Is think about you If I'm feeling down or blue I think about you I think about you Don't you know, don't you know I'm thinking about you Don't you know, don't you know I think about you
Too beautiful And I laid down in fields of gold Only to rest my head And I walked home On a warm summer's day With buttercups and Queen Ann lace For my bed And I ran until I could run no more And I jumped in, to an icy cold stream And as the water ran across my body I wondered Is this all just a dream Oh, my darling Oh, my darling It's too beautiful to be And I looked out across a quiet lake Echoing the sounds of night And I watched the yellow grass dance to a symphony Early in the morning light And I walked down the street Crowded by faces and places I've never known Foreign lines, sketched by foreign designs Seep through my body To the bone Oh, my darling Oh, my darling It's too beautiful to be And when the night Comes to tame me I won't fight ‘Cause it's no good to fight when you're down When the night Comes to claim me I won't fight ‘Cause it's no good to fight when you're down No it's no good to fight when you're down Oh, my darling Oh, my darling Oh, my darling Oh, my darling Oh, my darling Oh, my darling Oh, my darling Oh, my darling Oh, my darling Oh, my darling It's too beautiful to be Tinted glass I cannot explain Why I am this way Precaution please leave me alone I'm tired of hearing what you've got to say Sometimes I like it Sometimes I don't But it seems I always want to be what I'm not And I'm not satisfied with what I've got I'm looking through a tinted glass That changes color with each question that I ask Part of me is new and part of me is old I'm running fast but can I hold Onto this dream that grows at such a speed I don't know what I want or what I need I cannot explain For I do not know Confusion is planted in my mind And the seed continues to grow Sometimes I like it Most times I don't The more I know, the more I ask Will I find answers or is this my task Will a day arrive, when I am sure of something The unobtainable intrigues me Greener grass I can see When my vision is obscured by desire Sometimes I must Look deeper than the waters brim Take a deep breath Before I dive in Take a deep breath Before I try to swim Take a deep breath Take a deep breath I'd love you I'd love you if you wanted me to But you seem so unsure I'd love you if you wanted me to Tell me honey what I'm waiting for Oh, I feel like I'm a puppet Dangling on a string And I hate the way that You can make me do anything Why I love you, I cannot say Reasons are reasons Emotions are funny that way Reasons are reasons Some things can't be explain I'd love you if you wanted me to But I don't think that you know I'd love you if you wanted me to When you say start, I'll be ready to go But I'm tired of playing your little game And I might give up, tell me, would you notice anyway Why I love you, I guess I know You are sweet and kind And your spirit glows You are sweet and kind And it really, really shows Yes, it shows Why I love you, I cannot say Honey, reasons are reasons Emotions are so funny that way Reasons are reasons Some things can't be explain No they can't, they can't be explain They can't Did you know Did you know that I'd love you Jerry Oh, sweet Jerry The man that she would marry He'd say, "Oh, darling don't you cry For I will always be by your side" She took Jerry for granted In her life he was firmly planted She'd say, "oh, sometimes I wonder why Jerry always stays by my side" Jerry worked hard everyday He worked so the bills could be paid While she dreamed of a better life Where she was another man's wife Then early one October morning She left Jerry with no warning He said, " oh, darling won't you stay” And she said, " Jerry, I've got to get away" Oh, sweet Jerry The weight he could not carry And oh, oh how he tried And when she left oh how he cried And weeks passed by and the phone rang The voice on the line was broken She said, " oh the world is, oh so cold Jerry, your love kept me warm and help me to be bold" And Jerry thought she would come home For without her, he felt so alone She never did, and he always wondered why And when he felt sad, he hid it with a smiles lie And years have passed on by now And Jerry, he gets by somehow But he still whispers, "oh Darling don't you cry For I will always be by your side"
This Storm
For Every Drop There you go down again To that place you say you often bend There you go with all of your woes And your demons and angels and heavenly flowers Back to the start, you wipe off your slate And you may think you're clean But some stains won't erase For every drop that falls from above You say this is a sign of what I'm thinking of Of what I'm thinking of Everyone's looking For something, for something Everyone's trying To get some satisfaction Oh my God, just confess You want it, you want it You're just like the rest Oh dear child, don't deny You need it, you need it For your alibi There you go with all of your wounds And your cuts and your scars And your burns and your bruises Your history is dark and your past is long Poor old you, everything went wrong Your mother, your father Your brother, your friend They ain't smart as you 'Cause they don't understand They didn't do the work And they didn't think through I don't speak to them like I speak to you Like I speak to you Everyone's looking For something, for something Everyone's trying To get some satisfaction Oh my God, just confess You want it, you want it You're just like the rest Oh dear child, don't deny You need it, need it For your alibi All the stars around Become blocked in your mind Just so you could justify Oh my God, I don't care You're talking, talking And there's nothing there Did you ever care Did you ever ask Did you ever think perhaps You're not first or last First or last, first or last Everyone's looking For something, for something Everyone's trying To get some satisfaction Borderline Too much infiltration Not enough information Everybody wants salvation From their, their own damnation All this fabrication Safe and sound in isolation So we don't feel no obligation To rise up, oh, rise up generation It is getting harder and harder Don't you care 'bout your sons and your daughters Oh, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on We can't stand waiting at the borderline Oh, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on Oh, now is the time Too much trepidation At the thought of the situation But it's a necessary realization The world's on fire, no time for hesitation Don't you know that there is always a limit We are pushing hard, Lord, knows we have hit it Oh, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on We can't stand waiting at the borderline Oh, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on Oh, now is the time Now is the time, time, oh the time, time, oh Oh, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on We can't stand waiting at the borderline Oh, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on Oh, now is the time Oh, come on, come on, come on, come on, come on We can't stand waiting at the borderline Running I'm not ready to paint my face And cover all that lies beneath If that disappoints you I'm sorry to say I will be no accomplice to a thief Just like this river that flows in between Or the wrecks and the brambles in the waves You can build a dam, you can force it upstream But the water, always gets away I been running from, I'm running from The fear I'll lose myself in what I've become And I don't wanna be under the gun Please give me the strength to find I don't have to run My mama told me, child, she said You're beautiful, you're beautiful to me I said mama, wish I was in your head ‘Cause despite your words I really do not see I been running from, I'm running from The fear I'll lose myself in what I've become And I don't wanna be under the gun Please give me the strength to find I don't have to run I been running from, I'm running from The fear I'll lose myself in what I've become And I don't wanna be under the gun Please give me the strength to find I'm not the only one Please give me the strength to find I don't have to run Here To There You wake in the morn One day dies, another's born, oh, oh Where your sun rises, my sun sets I promise you, I won't forget, oh, oh For I believe there's so many years to go Look to the left, look to the right Do you get scared in the middle of the night Take one step back and forth again Tell me are you really my friend For I believe there's so many years to go And I don't know How we get ourselves from here to there Oh, from here to there Tossed and turned all night long Is this right, is this wrong Ask myself do I care 'Cause life is short and rarely fair And I believe there's so many years to go I don't know How we get ourselves from here to there Oh, from here to there Here to there How do we get from here to there How do we get from here to there How do we get from here to there How do we get from here to there How do we get from here to there How do we get from here to there How do we get from here to there How do we get from Walk Away How do you feel about this 'Cause your eyes say the words Your mouth can't convey Is it crazy to doubt this Or do I head the voice and just walk away Walk away Walk away Walk away It's the same old story Though the characters change The roles stay the same I am ready for love's glory There'll be no tragedy under my name Walk away Walk away Walk away Could I'd take you into my arms for a while Forgive and forget at the sight of your smile Be there for you when I should run a mile And that's just the problem and just the problem Walk away Walk away Walk away
Fire Everything I ever did, he said was wrong but I can't complain cause Baby you made me strong When I wanted one thing, ‘course he needed another Child I'm tired of your refrain Go back to your mother He's the man you see, the face on all those magazines The boy you dream ‘bout, in your little girl dreams But don't be fooled by the man in the mask You'll come undone, and it's no fun so Darlin' don't ask And you'll scream “Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire! He's burnin' me down!” And you'll scream “Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire!” And pray no one sees you When you're broken Pick up the pieces, I'm alone again With the enemy as my only friend When I look in the mirror, that he did create All I can feel for myself is a selfless hate And as we danced he spun me around But he never did quite let me hit the ground And the ground would've been softer than his gaze Which went right through me, as if to screw me Then back into his nasty little haze And I scream “Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire! He's burnin' me down!” And I scream “Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire!” And pray no one's around And I scream “Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire! He's burnin' me down!” And I scream “Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire!” And pray no one sees me When I'm broken What more can I say Than it hurt me Yeah it hurt me Ask myself each day Was it worth it, at all Well, I've been wrung out I been strung out some would say I swung out But I gotta ask, “Did you mean to?” Didn't seem to Yet you seemed to be there Each time I happened to fall And I scream “Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire! He's burnin' me down!” And I scream “Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire!” And pray no one's around And I scream “Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire! He's burnin' me down!” And I scream “Fire! Fire! Fire! Fire!” And pray no one sees me When I'm broken Soldier's Lament He fight and he pray, he love and he bleed To no satisfaction, was not his need And when he walks, stands tall as he can For he's a man, yeah, he's a man And when he crumples, resolve to the ground Like burnt bits of paper, life flutters 'round All eyes turn away, no one wants to see A man who has lost, in the fight to be free For we've been out running for all of our lives No chance in stopping, we'd surely lose sight In the back of his mind is a smiling face The one who said, "You know, it's no race" The one who said, "You got time to breathe 'Cause child you're born, we're all born free." In the back of his mind, is the back of a room So dusty and shrouded, that no dust broom Stands a chance to clear the cobwebs away So there in the back, in the dark it'll stay And we've been out running for all of our lives No chance in stopping, we'd surely lose sight. Tell me son, what are you living for Tell me boy, what are you living for Tell me son, what are you living for Tell me, tell me, what are you living for Robin In The Snow I saw a robin flying in the snow Fluttering low Isn't the season, how could he not know It's much too cold I saw a robin captive to the wind Time, running thin I said, "Dear robin, what a state you're in You can't get out again" And just like that Simple as the sight of feathered wings The robin was gone And only I saw this bird of spring Sing one very last winter song And who will miss you when you're gone Who will miss you when you're gone I will miss you if you go away Please, don't leave me here Candle's burned out now Stayed up 'til the wax dripped, to the floor I was talking to you, can't seem to let go So we say one thing more And you're like rain falling in the evening Whispering, darling, go to sleep Oh, the pain, this love has got me reeling Brings me to my knees, so bittersweet And who will miss you when you're gone Who will miss you when you're gone I will miss you if you go away Please, don't leave me here The good, the bad, the in-between Is it all just one impermanent dream And here I am as the sun slinks slowly In the pale steel sky and where are you Are you thinking of me As the moon above you does rise And who will miss me when I'm gone Who will miss me when I'm gone Would you miss me should I go away I won't leave you here Would you miss me should I go away I won't leave you here Who Knows After All Let us drink one last glass of wine I will wish you luck in all you find I'm not sorry, this is no mistake For I can only give the things you take For I'm going away for a long, long time And I do not know what I'm bound to find Sunlight in the afternoon Hope in a darkened room Love in a lingering tomb Who knows after all So let us make love this one last time As our hairs and hearts intertwine I'm not sorry, this is no mistake But I fear my heart is bound to break For I'm going away for a long, long time And I do not know what I'm bound to find A plastic heart at my feet Lost on a lonely street With this song in my head on repeat Who knows after all If you're searching any way to find me Throw my name out to the waves in the sea And you, you will find me But you cannot bind, you cannot bind me For I'm going away for a long, long time And I do not know what I'm bound to find Effortless Do you hear the wind a howling I saved my lonely porcelain doll Do you hear the panther prowling Wherever he wants I can't give no more, I can't give no more Just rocking to a lullaby Dreams I thought would never pass me by Is nothing more and nothing less Than a search for something effortless And when we find it in the open air And when we breathe it in a strangers dare It's nothing more and nothing less Than a search for something effortless Oh the cries are growing louder Do they hear Only when it's tuning and it's already tuning We're just rocking to a lullaby Dreams I thought would never pass us by It's nothing more and nothing less Than a search for something effortless And when we find it in the open air And when we breathe it in a strangers dare It's nothing more and nothing less Than a search for something effortless And I don't cry for myself and I don't cry Don't cry for you, I cry for the life of another Someone I hardly knew, a man I never knew Just rocking to a lullaby Dreams I thought would never pass us by It's nothing more and nothing less Than a search for something effortless And when we find it in the open air And when we breathe it in a strangers dare It's nothing more and nothing less Than a search for something effortless So Lonely It's been a long, a long, long day, oh why I get tired of hurrying to wait anyway, oh why I need a man to hold me in his loving arms I need someone to enfold me, away from harm Feeling so lonely, feeling so lonely Feeling so lonely, I could cry I met a man with eyes so blue, that I I could've sworn he saw right through the lie I fell so hard when I stumbled into him He was a little too old, perhaps to bold Could it ever have really been Feeling so lonely, feeling so lonely I'm feeling so lonely, I could cry Wake me, come on and shake me 'Cause I'm stumbling in a dream I'm hazy, Lord, a little bit crazy, Lord And I don't know where I have been It was nothing much, it was just a touch But it tore me apart And I'm standing here and he's somewhere near And I search with an aching heart It's coming 'round that time of year where I I wish I had someone to call my dear, oh I Will walk alone among the apple trees Well, my true love has flown and he left, oh, he left me I'm feeling so lonely, I'm feeling awful lonely Feeling so lonely, I could cry
This Storm Just like this storm Is sure to come As surely As the rain in the morning Afraid to start For I've begun To fear A single warnin' It's getting late I'm getting cold Would you be the The one to hold Me in your arms Just for a while Life's too heavy Can't reconcile Just look outside Where will you go? We follow That which know And then it hits Surprise attack And leaves you busted Lying on your back It's getting late I'm sure you're cold There's too much For one soul to hold All by yourself All on your own It's alright Darlin' You're not alone When it's just too much, Too much to stand You wonder why you're dealt this hand How on earth are you supposed to handle? You're broken down, Can't start again Out of steam, this state you're in All at once you find the cup is Brimming over It's getting late We're getting cold I would be the The one to hold You in my arms Just for a while Life's too heavy Can't reconcile
Convict of Conviction EP
Convict of Conviction He was a convict of his own conviction He was in conflict of his own infliction And the lines do draw a parallel Right back to the place Where the shadow boxers dance And old memories dwell Below the tight rope Drawn in suspicion Beneath the artist Who walks in ambitions And the lines do draw a parallel Right between fact and fiction So the honest truth cannot yell Over blind conviction Nobody, nobody, nobody Likes to be kept waiting Nobody, nobody, nobody Likes to feel powerless He was a Jack Box On his last round He had been wound And wound and wound Until the old man Pulled his final thread The final thread that lead To bloodshed And the lines do draw a parallel Right to the source of the friction Where the spark that started a fire From an old flint fell Causing a burning Affliction Nobody, nobody, nobody Likes to be kept waiting Nobody, nobody, nobody Likes to feel powerless And so he found himself With his lady, on the run Pursued by his friend The emancipator and instigator That old shot gun And they ran Till time ran out For there are some things You can't fool about And the lines do draw a parallel Right between fact and fiction So the honest truth cannot yell Over blind conviction Lighthouse It comes in Like the wind Through a door That I never meant to open up And leaves me stranded Right here, where I stand A distant land, I'm lost again. It comes in While I move. Like a hurricane It swallows me too soon And leaves me breathless Gasping for some air When nothing's there, Nothing's there. I need a lighthouse to guide me home Need a sailor's son with knives of bone To cut from this heart where sorrow's sewn And spreads like wild fire, across the land. It comes in While I sleep Kisses my toes With lips that freeze my feet And leaves me shivering Lying in the cold No warmth to hold No warmth to hold. I need a lighthouse to brave this storm Need a sailor's arms to keep me warm An embrace that's patiently born From the raging sea, that crashes 'round me. I need a lighthouse to guide me home Need a sailor's son with knives of bone To cut from this heart where sorrow's sewn And spreads like wild fire, across the land. Mr. Suicidal Can I have a moment of your precious time Tell me please, Mr. Suicidal. Would it hurt so bad for you to break your dime, Spend a little more on the horse, Less on the bridal There's something that is happening out there. There's something that is happening out there. And I feel it, in the marrow of my bones. Mr., tell me can you spare a bit of change A quarter, No, I don't believe that'll do. Once you've messed things up, You can't just rearrange. The furniture will always be black and blue. There's something that is happening out there. There's something that is happening out there. We pray on a grain of sand, a million in the land And when we come to create a shore We will walk once more together. We pray on a grain of sand, a million in the land And when we come to create a shore We will walk once more together. Don't you see the pendulum has swung so far one way, Now it must come back again. Sinks like a Stone There's an arrow deep within my heart And it sinks just like a stone. Nobody knows it. How could they know it? You can't even see it, Buried deep within Nobody sees it. How could they see it? You can't even feel it, Underneath my skin. There's a feeling Slipping down my spine Oh, it's just the worryin' kind And it whispers in my ear, Things I do not want to hear. How did you find me? Get deep inside me. When I so clearly, never wanted you here. Don't want to worry, Why should I worry? I wish that worry never did appear. Snowing It's snowing outside My window this morning And here Where I hide From this world 'Round me Warring And though It is still We're still Moving Like dancers Under water Slow in silence That is looming By… Drive the cars Filled with people Off to better Through smoke and tar We wont ever see this weather As though, If we keep moving Nothing Will remind us Of all we've forsaken In the trail We leave Behind us. There once was a man Who thought life Should only be gladness. So he struggled for what he sought Till he realized That this was madness. And there at the top Of the hill That he'd been climbing He cried for all he'd fought And all he'd lost in conniving It's snowing outside My window this morning. Gypsy Eyes It doesn't take much To push you right over Over the edge When you're waiting to fall It doesn't take much To break apart the binding When all that is binding Is nothing at all And so come the wolves that howl How they prowl in hunger I'm captive to Your gypsy eyes How they mesmerize And pull Me Under It doesn't take much When you feel like you are breaking To find yourself forsaking All that's around So you break And you ask for forgiveness When you don't need forgiveness You just need to be found And so come the wolves that howl How they prowl in hunger I'm captive to Your gypsy eyes How they mesmerize And pull Me Under Shatter in a million pieces Fumbling as what was decreases There you are With hands upraised and heart for sale The ticket price, it is your bail But this time, No one's gonna come And so come the wolves that howl How they prowl in hunger I'm captive to Your gypsy eyes How they mesmerize And pull Me Under
We Come Apart
Follow Me In You're gonna give me all your loving Oh what should I do I'm gonna give you all my loving Give it right on back to you If you follow me in Come on follow me in Follow me in Come on follow me in You copy you paste you lose I get tired of skirting around The short and narrow line It seems we live with our hearts bound By all past hurts entwined Follow me in Come on follow me in Follow me in Come on follow me in Something's got to give 'Cause love is bound to break Water's rushing in Then it tries so hard can't wash away 'Cause I long to be crushed By the crashing waves of the sea Only once I trust These waves that roll underneath me So come on, follow me in Won't you follow me in Follow me in Come on follow me in Follow me in Come on follow me in Follow me in Come on follow me in Follow me in Won't you follow me in Follow me in Come on follow me in Mexico I saw you standing right outside my door I didn't know how much I would like you I had never seen you there before But roads collide like that, they love to surprise you I took you inside of the stairs I sat you down at our kitchen table I'd asked of where you'd been The threads and the tales I put you on the mid you able (?) You copy you paste you lose You'd just gone to Mexico You'd just gone to Mexico I took your art into your ??? Wanted to show you all of the city lights We took it all into the dark Wanted to feel the pounding of your heart It had an echo It had an echo It told me you weren't looking for love I lied and said I wasn't either Drunk on the wine the night we spent When morning took a shot no wise one could deceive her You'd just come from Mexico You'd just come from Mexico But it is I who's leaving today Oh, it's funny how things worked out this way And it is you who stands at my door We switched in and out And now I am the troubadour Now I'm going to Mexico I'm going to Mexico At First I've got a question spinning round in my head Of which I would like to be free They say sometimes questions are best left unsaid Though that may be the case it cannot be At first I didn't realize At first I didn't see At first I was frightened by what was right in front of me The things we collected, the things we let go Over time have flourished again I can't help but be wary of all I don't know For the truth is an ever shifting friend You copy you paste you lose At first I didn't realize At first I didn't see At first I was frightened by what was right in front of me And now I am questioning Everything I thought I knew The tide cast upon the shore many warm and precious things What is me and what is you Stay for a While Would you like to stay for a while Though I may ask you to go Would you like to stay for a while Though I may put on a show I'm not leading you around Don't believe me 'Cause I am a coward With a cowardly heart And I am tired Of playing a part And please After all this time Holding on It's been too long Would you like to stay for a night And every night after this I may push and put up a fight But it is you I would miss You copy you paste you lose Should I push away too strong And you leave me 'Cause I am a coward With a cowardly heart And I am tired Of playing a part And please After all this time Holding on It's been too long All the things I do To keep from looking Looking out, not looking in So I don't lose my ??? Don't feel good, to be unsteady Don't feel good under fire Lord I am not ready But are we every ready at all Coward With a cowardly heart And I am tired Of playing the part I play so well After all this time Holding on It's been too long Fight or Flight You get lost in the shade Cast by all these thorns That line up on the branch like a French brigade Ready to storm You saw the storm cloud coming in From where you did stand So you turned in your You did not want that hand You copy you paste you lose Oh, and this is ages old Oh, we are weak and we are bold Fight or flight Is there no common ground It can't be right No it can't be found You come upon a woman You follow her around the bend You follow her quite closely For she is not your friend She hears you crying as the sky Is getting dark For it's darkness that upholds us Makes us wish for braver heart Oh, and this is ages old Oh, we are weak and we are bold We fight or flight Is there no common ground It can't be right No it can't be found So you go down to the water You take the waves in your hands And the water slips right through No matter which way you stand You know then that you Cannot hold on to anything For heartache is all That the holding ever brings Oh, and this is ages old Oh, we are weak and we are bold And fight or flight Is there no common ground It can't be right No it can't be found Lucifer Lucifer Lost in a sea of faded sand You were wearing torn t-shirt You had a harp in your hand You copy you paste you lose We found you walking down by the sea We found you walking down by the sea You played a mesmerizing melody Little bird Lost in the wind howling wild Have you heard Lucifer is just a child We found you walking down by the sea We found you walking down by the sea You played a mesmerizing melody Hurricane What has been done Why did no one say to run While the world was falling down Outside my door Or was it just too much For this human race as such An endless tirade Of pain and war But I've seen I've seen I've seen I've seen love before Oh mother where'd you go Were you taken from me so I know what it feels like To endure You copy you paste you lose Well, I feel like I'm a shell Of what I, I know so well Is there a reason for this suffering I don't see one anymore But, I've seen I've seen I've seen I've seen love before And it goes Goes down On down the line And I pray that it will reach me Before I run out of time This Feeling I want to talk to you I want to be with you All of the night time All of the day time I want to run to you Come undone to you But I don't know just What is happening You copy you paste you lose Oh, can't I take you in Can I break you in 'Cause I like the corners of Your existence I might even follow you 'Cause I want to roll in you Oh my God what is this feeling There's a whole There's a whole lot There's a heaven I'm still right Can you handle all that I am Do you want to love Do you need love Tell me, tell me 'Cause I'm asking You don't strike me as a rouge You don't strike me as a thief How do you manage To steal my heart You got it good You got it real good So tell me, tell me Do you want it Come on tell me What is this feeling Looking into the Sun We were looking into the sun To witness everything come undone Come undone Waiting for the eagle's cry Just to hear the iron sigh The iron sigh Oh you came And it crushed the land You copy you paste you lose I met a girl she was headed south Headed north, she had to get out Had to get out Of her skin She didn't like her skin Follow me to edge of the woods Follow me to the edge of good The edge of good We might bleed Or we might also feel But she and I we are the same Fleeing wars and drinking rain Drinking rain Hoping to feel What is left to feel James You came in Like a summer storm, like a circus With all your hounds howling at the moon Raising hell You painted The night sky red With all the paints you kept In your back pocket James, what do you do When you're tired Does anyone pick up the slack For you You copy you paste you lose I, I seem to trust This man who walks the line Perhaps that's a foolish thing Fooling thing to do But something's hard And avoidable Some take sips While others gulp it down You and I Both drink with both hands on the glass And I forget to breathe Sometimes I forget to breathe James, what do you do When you're tired Does anyone pick up the slack for For you The Dust Days pass on by Like cartwheels in the park Like shooting in the dark Is all we ever had Memories float But I fear the sinkless boat For their starting to awake The passengers Don't let me get caught up in the past Don't let me get tangled in what once was Don't let me look left when everything is going right Don't let me be blinded by my very own sight Greeted out applause That which was then held just one clause That I won't ever be in search for the ecstatic rush to Complete me Now I'll stand in the dust But still there comes after the rush And I wonder how long I've dwelt in this Desert here Don't let me get caught up in the past Don't let me get tangled in what once was Don't let me look left when everything is going right Don't let me be blinded by my very own sight Although I see the orangemen groves Where the desert sand turns into snow Where the women dance with the nights slung low Over the sea It's a palette I can touch It's water for blister's dipping brush (?) And I need it just as much As the air that I breathe You copy you paste you lose Don't let me get caught up in the past Don't let me get tangled in what once was Don't let me look left when everything is going right Don't let me be blinded by my very own sight Don't let me get caught up in the past Don't let me get tangled in what once was Don't let me look left when everything is going right Don't let me be blinded by my very own sight We Come Apart I fell to the Earth, a shattering Its axis like these bones And all throughout the clattering The mayhem brought it home For all begins and all ends In a chaotic kind of storm And the humming and drumming from down below Say "Child, make sure you're warm" Yeah, the humming and drumming from down below Say "Child, make sure you're warm" You copy you paste you lose And I felt a wicked heathen's breath Coming from a smile And I felt the truest tenderness Below as deep as a mile Hand in hand and heart in heart I saw that they did roam Separate we are two parts That never come alone Separate we are two parts That never come alone And we come apart We come apart We come apart We come apart And I lay in a moonlit field And I let my burden's go Let the arms of grass reach up around And wrap around me so And I surrendered in the light For I was all alone No eyes to judge, no thoughts to lessen That which is my own No eyes to judge, no thoughts to take That which is my own And we come apart We come apart We come apart We come apart And I said a prayer before I slept Love would find me here I sent it out into the night And I watched it disappear For wings of dreams have funny ways Of flying round and round Round and round and round your head Till you set them down Round and round and round your head Till you set them down And we come apart We come apart We come apart We come apart We come apart Oh, we come apart We, we come apart We come apart
Non Albums Tracks
Black Crow Black Crow, he flies Over the town And we all wonder Will he come back Will come back Tomorrow, or another day I watch the lights Die at the table And I say Lord, please make them laugh So I know, that I'm able To survive In this room so unimpressed While I stand here undressed For everyone to see Everyone can see But do they Or do they just project Who they are and can't accept While I get caught up I get caught up In this, this crazy game Where the wise sit back And the foolish reign. Well, I'm starting to realize That we're all just the same Just trying to be, just trying to be The best we can I loved the ocean I kissed the sea And I said, come back Will you come back, will you come back Tomorrow, or another day I stand so small Atop a hill And I say, Lord please Come to me now For I'm empty And only you can fill You can fill this emptiness That i've waited and debated How to talk about I said, How do I talk ‘Cause I could change Like they tell me that I could Would it really be that good To loose a little To loose more than a little For this, this crazy game Where the wise sit back And the foolish reign Well, I'm starting to realize That we're all just the same Just trying to be, just trying to be The best we can
Brother & Sister (Blue Foundation feat. Sonya Kitchell) You're looking so good, boy When you walked down the street In an endless sky In an endless sea Brother This is your dream This is your heart You can't hide Trying so hard, that you might stay here Treat you well, so you will stay Endless nights Endless heartbeats Trying so hard So you will stay You're looking so good girl When you walked down the street In an endless sky In an endless sea Sister This is your dream This is your heart You can't hide Brother This is your dream This is your fire You can't hide
Burn Brightly Burn Baby, burn brightly 'Cause you don't have too long Burn Baby, burn brightly In spite of all that's going on When we are born We're born with a matchbook The question is How do we use them Burn Baby, burn brightly You got so much to give Burn Baby, burn brightly I know it's hard when life's too much to live So then you take a match And you light it The others wait Till you can, no longer, fight it The urge to explode, the urge to divide The urge to reveal, all that's inside Of your soul waiting The urge just to be a little bit more The urge just to see what all this is for What happens, when you reach the limit Burn Baby, burn brightly 'Cause this will be the last Burn Baby, burn brightly When you burn so bright It goes by fast And in the end, There'll be no competing With all that's been For you would just be repeating The urge to explode, the urge to divide The urge to reveal, all that's inside Of your soul waiting The urge just to be a little bit more, The urge just to see what all this is for What happens, when you reach the limit What happens, when you reach the limit
Dreams on Fire (Blue Foundation feat. Sonya Kitchell) Shadows ink like a broken bone The wind leaves you jagged Footsteps that leaves no trace On a race against the sky When you walk on the streets on your own You search for the sky All the people you love, they are gone You reach for the light All your dreams are set on fire And all your lonely thoughts succumb Your heart speed up with that desire And these lonely days succumb They are ??? Nothing more Want to hear (?) ??? And the hands that pulled you in Give way to release Just when you thought the ash were thin Then you found peace All your dreams are set on fire And all your lonely thoughts succumb Your heart speed up with that desire And these lonely days succumb They are ??? Nothing more Want to hear (?) ???
Fragile Things You find yourself with a yearning That engulfs you whole It started with a burning that incinerated every part of your soul You greet it like a crime You drink it down like wine As the toxins go to your head. You say, “I love this one the most,” As you raise your glass to toast The best things, that are now dead How will you find you You remind you, that that is all How will you live with you You forgive you Big and small You say, “It hurts more than I can bare.” This you say, “ I swear, is the truth An honest fact I can't do it all again I thought this was the end Now my heart grows weary As the line retracts.” Each one, a soldier, a fighter Without a plan Frightened by the shackles He sees buried Under every contraband And you know there'll be no rest Till you set him free So you open up Your tender wings Once he's flown ashore You know he'll come back once more But it's hard to trust such fragile things Haunting Refrain I would like to walk the path Along the dotted line With anxiety, I talk to any open mind As if I can't bare the truth That there's no easy way out With each burden as the proof That we are victims of doubt Take a long and winding road And you are sure to find Oh exactly what you thought You had left behind You say, “There it is again!” “How can this be?” There are just some things, my friend Of which we are not free Again and again and again They come to haunt you Again and again and again Just like a haunting refrain Again and again and again They come to taunt you And they will not ever let you walk away They say, until you face What it is you fear Somehow it will find a way To constantly appear And as long as I've got light, I don't have to face the dark But what happens when I can't find a single spark Again and again and again They come to haunt you Again and again and again Just like a haunting refrain Again and again and again They come to taunt you And they will not ever let you walk away I Only Mean Good There's no reason For all the things you said There's no reason My love, come back to bed There's no answer For all the questions you ask Love, I'm just your dancer Must you look behind the mask And it's hard to believe That I could only mean good For you've been deceived More times than anyone should Turn out the lights now We're all free in the dark Nothing to compare to So let yourself come apart Let yourself come apart I am just flesh and bone I got a soul too This harbor is my home For now, I will meld into you For now, I will meld into you And it's hard to believe That I could only mean good For you've been deceived More times than anyone should
Personal Reprise I don't want to fake it But it's easy to begin Got a world I don't want to break it ‘Cause it's underneath my skin Started out with imperfections That turned into gold. Just like the water's reflection That bend everything ‘round Inside its' fold And there's no way that I'd be brave enough to say just what you mean to me I set apart, inside my heart of heart, to separate you from the rest of me For I can't help but see you Through rose covered eyes And I love to make you Into my own personal reprise ‘Cause I get a feeling Every time you are near My world, it starts a reeling And forgotten memories Appear And there's no way that I'd be brave enough to say just what you mean to me I set apart, inside my heart of heart, to separate you from the rest of me And I cannot fight this I don't want to anymore I contend with resignation I can't deny what I stand before I can't deny what I stand before Rendered Whole There is a constant calling Started out by falling And as I gained speed, I couldn't let go Now I'm addicted to this constant vertigo I had a wind that carried my sails My fair weathered friend, left as the night exhaled Now you say, "You can sail anywhere." You don't understand it's au contraire 'Cause I can't be anybody I cannot defy very heart and soul I can't be just anybody I can only that which renders me whole Your words are like daggers They hurt but don't kill I stumble and stagger, But I stand still Could you stop the beat In a beating, beating, beating heart Might as well stop the breath Before the hurting starts 'Cause I can't be just anybody I cannot defy my very heart and soul I can't be just anybody I can only be that which renders me whole
Water Water's leaking from the bucket and you don't understand ‘Cause you can't find a hole There's a preacher in the army and he's short one man ‘Cause no one's in control There's a tidal wave a coming and it's on the land Shaking us ‘round in this fish bowl And every time I try, I just can't understand The solace of each soul There's a riot on the verge of demolition Raging ‘round our heads And the wise men with their flowers mutter premonitions About the years ahead And everyone is wondering if there's a reason But no one will stop to ask, For it's as if the truth is slightly out of season And you want the old ones back. Right now I see you're hurting some. Right now You're like the trigger On a gun Every ember of your being burns with indecision You swear there's something more. So you sign up for the church of whatever religion Opens up its door And you pray that there's a grain of truth beneath the production Of plastic hopes and dreams It's the grain of truth that keeps you wading through water So deep you can't breath Right now You're drifting on the edge Right now You're slipping on a ledge Right now It's a long way down Right now There's no saviour in the lost and found