B i o g r a p h y
 (by James Christopher Monger)

A Baltimore duo built around the autumnal songwriting of Jenn Wasner and the dynamic arrangements of multi-instrumentalist Andy Stack, Wye Oak fuse introspective songwriting with vivid polyrhythmic indie rock and pop. Emerging in 2007, the duo has issued a string of acclaimed efforts, including Civilian (2011), Shriek (2014), and The Louder I Call, The Faster It Runs (2018) that meld psychedelic and shoegaze influences around a classically indie rock songwriting core. Every Day Like the Last, a compilation of previously released singles featuring three new tracks, appeared in 2023.

The duo of singer/guitarist Jenn Wasner and drummer/keyboardist Andy Stack took their name from a symbolic 460-year-old tree in their home state of Maryland. Formed in 2006 under the moniker Monarch, Wasner and Stack recorded their first album in different spots, bouncing around various Baltimore basements and apartments, eventually landing a record deal with indie heavyweight Merge. The label would go on to release the act's 2008 debut, If Children, as well as the 2009 follow-up Knot and the 2010 EP My Neighbor/My Creator. By the time of their 2011 self-produced album, Civilian, which was also released by Merge, Wasner and Stack had distilled their sound to a fine point and had gained a devoted following. After the record's release, the duo embarked on a lengthy tour that left them completely spent and in need of a break. Once finished with their obligations, Stack relocated to Texas and Wasner launched two new projects, the more experimental Flock of Dimes and the electronic R&B duo Dungeonesse with songwriter/producer Jon Ehrens. When the time came to get back to Wye Oak, Wasner switched from guitar to bass, feeling that they had exhausted their previous guitar-based approach. Relying more on synths and drum machines and adding in some R&B influences in place of folk, their fourth album, Shriek, was recorded at the Rare Book Room with Nicolas Vernhes and released by Merge in April of 2014. After the album's release, Wasner stayed busy providing guest vocals on albums by Mac McCaughan, Soft Pink Truth, and Shearwater, while also readying the first Flock of Dimes album, which was issued by Partisan Records in late 2016. A few months before that, the band and Merge dug into the archives and uncovered some songs that were written and recorded between the releases of Civilian and Shriek. Titled Tween, the eight-song collection showed some behind-the-scenes footage of the band's creative shift between the two albums. A proper studio entry arrived in the spring of 2018 with The Louder I Call, The Faster It Runs, a bright and electrifying set that continued Wye Oak's evolution into stranger sonic territories. 2023's Every Day Like the Last saw the duo add three new songs, including the warmly lit title cut, to a set of previously issued standalone singles.




IF CHILDREN
- 2008-04-08 -



Please Concrete
Warning
Regret
Archaic Smile
Family Glue
Orchard Fair
I Don't Feel Young
Keeping Company
A Lawn to Mow
If Children Were Wishes
Obituary

THE KNOT
- 2009-07-21 -



Milk And Honey
For Prayer
Take It In
Siamese
Talking About Money
Mary Is Mary
Tattoo
I Want For Nothing
That I Do
Sight, Flight

CIVILIAN
- 2011-03-08 -



Two Small Deaths
The Alter
Holy Holy
Dogs Eyes
Civilian
Fish
Plains
Hot As Day
We Were Wealth
Doubt

SHRIEK
- 2014-04-29 -



Before
Shriek
The Tower
Glory
Sick Talk
Schools Of Eyes
Despicable Animal
Paradise
I Know The Law
Logic Of Color

TWEEN
- 2016-06-09 -



Out Of Nowhere
If You Should See
No Dreaming
Too Right
Better (For Esther)
On Luxury
Trigger Finger
Watching The Waiting

THE LOUDER I CALL, THE FASTER IT RUNS
- 2018-04-06 -



(Tuning) (instrumental)
The Instrument
The Louder I Call, The Faster It Runs
Lifer
It Was Not Natural
Symmetry
My Signal
Say Hello
Over And Over
You Of All People
Join
I Know It's Real

CUT ALL THE WIRES: 2009-2011
- 2021-10-22 -



Replacement
Civilian (Demo)
No Words
Electricity
Half A Double Man
Sinking Ship
Two Small Deaths (Daytrotter Session)
Holy Holy (Demo)
Pardon
Black Is The Color
Ten Fingers
I'm Proud

EVERY DAY LIKE THE LAST
- 2023-06-23 - Collected Singles 2019-2023



Every Day Like The Last
I Learned It From You
TNT
Its Way With Me
Fortune
Evergreen
Fear Of Heights
Walk Soft
Repeat (If You Remind Me)

Non Albums Tracks
- Misc -

AEIOU
Dance My Pain Away
Emmylou
I Hope You Die
Mother
My Creator
My Neighbor
No Place
Running Up That Hill
Sky Witness
Spitting Image
Strangers

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IF CHILDREN

Please Concrete

I can please concrete by walking
But you're not hearing
What I'm saying, when I'm talking
I always think I'm right
I'm all right

I can teach the street by guessing
When the hosts are not exactly where I'm stepping
Go in and knowing where, not over there

And I can touch TV by looking
But you're spading at three colors system failing
We see red, yellow, blue, not maroon
We see red, yellow, blue

I can please concrete by walking
But you're not hearing
What I'm saying, when I'm talking
I always think I'm right
I'm all right
I only said goodnight

Warning

If the end will come, it will be night
All the life we have is from the daylight
And of all the planets god is one
Hidden in the burning of the sun

And I am counting down the years
The warnings have begun to appear
I wait and live as though I will not die
I am alive, how can I

The only world I've ever known
Has been overrun and overgrown
And the saddest ending to describe
Is to never bring this world a new life

And I am counting down the days
The people stop their fighting to pray
I wait and live as though I will not die
I am alive, how can I

I sit and wonder asking why
I have seen the world lay down to die
So the only hell I'll ever know
Is where you may go and I may not go

And I am counting down the hours
And on my knees amazed at the power
I have to live as though I will not die
I am alive, how can I

Regret

The floor will all cave in at ten o'clock
My tired body to absorb the shock
Years of decay will make a mess of me
These rotted floor boards arch below my feet

The flood will take us when we're in our sleep
This city swallowed by the oceans deep
The ice will melt and then the seas will swell
But this is not a thing on which to dwell

There is nothing to regret

Archaic Smile

Sculptor, never leave my side
And expose this empty smile
Could the truth be falsified
And hold it off a little while

Never look quite right
Ponderous and idle
Still I'm gonna try
And show you my
My archaic smile

Two thousand years below the sea
Moves like a blinking eye
Sixty days in front of me
It is an ocean running dry

Temper all these hidden moves
Behind uneasy stares
Pass me to the centuries
They will never know what's there
What's there

Never look quite right
Ponderous and idle
Still I'm gonna try
And show you my
Archaic smile

Family Glue

I am family glue
Leaving a legacy of tell-me-to
Behavior made of lead
I eat and I'm fed

And I'll use your hands
Our blood has given into it
Save the holidays for me
Dress as love for halloween

I press my hand in the dirt
And ruin your hard work
But new clothes are for me alone
I always recognise your clothes

So I am family glue
Leaving a legacy of tell-me-to
Behavior made of care
This is not my somewhere

So hang on though you are small
You are more than cats and dogs
You are more than they can do
You've got years, new

Orchard Fair

When all the leaves
Are turning brown
I know I'll see
Them hit the ground

And apricots
The apple trees
The peaches fruit
For me and you

When shorter days
Pull light on me
I hope to feel
A certain way

Lightness
Lightness

We'll see you there
At the orchard fair
The October skies
The open eyes

Will you hold my hand
As we walk from here
For the wind is cold
And winter's near

When shorter days
Pull the light away
I'll always feel
A certain way

Lightness
Lightness
Lightness
Lightness

I Don't Feel Young

I don't feel young
I don't feel scared
I'm in control
I am prepared
I'll never cry
I'll sit and stare
I don't feel young

I don't feel old
I don't feel proud
I speak too fast
I laugh too loud
I am the smallest in the crowd
I don't feel old

I can't see you
But I can ?
You gave a speech
They're all ?
But still your room
Is on at night
I can't see you

And so we fight
Can't have you now
I'll learn to walk
And learn to count
The word you gave me in my mouth
And spit it out

If you feel young
And feel ready
Or if you feel old
And just need sleep
You know your secret's safe with me

If you feel young
If you feel young
If you feel young

Keeping Company

Are you deserving
Sweet simple being
I look for learning
You are the teaching
I was a body
Captured and proud
When you were thirteen
It wasn't ?

How you said nothing
But you understood
To cross your boundary
What do you look at
I am your body
Your only ?
You look in corners
But now I understand

The danger
Danger isn't over
Danger
Five years
Two months and a day
Danger
But danger
Danger isn't over
Danger
Way to danger
I got away
Danger

I run myself through
To your favorite groove
The page is on six
Through all that I took
I seem to measure
With every inch
I'd do it over
I'd do it again

You never noticed
Or else you ignored
So let me show you
What bodies are for
Your look is skinny
As your face is white
I'm spending money
You're spending the light

But danger
Danger isn't over
Danger
Five years
Danger and a day
Danger
Well, danger
Danger isn't over
Danger
Way to danger
All the way

A Lawn To Mow

Grew up in the smoggiest of towns
A dirty haze where the sun goes down
But we know it's better to conceal
Than to reveal

In the time it takes the grass to grow
There are weeds to pull and a lawn to mow
The city looks so nice
The median, asphalt paradise

If you are like me
At least to some degree
Go to sleep
Go

Friends say I've the foggiest of minds
Always asleep in half the time
But I thought it better to wait
Than to propagate

'Cause there's something underneath those sheets
It's a morning sun and it burns for me
So you better get a lot of rest
If you want them to be impressed

If you are like me
At least to some degree
Go to sleep
Go
Go
Go
Go

If Children Were Wishes

If children were wishes
My mother spent hers on impossible things
My brother was money
My sister was love
And I was world peace

My brother, he spent it
My sister got pregnant
And all that I'm worth
Will only come true
When there are no more of us left on this earth

If hearts were machines that kept
Running forever automatically
Then you wouldn't be in that hospital bed
On that saline I-V

And if it's your diet
You stubbornly swear that it wasn't your fault
You rather be dead in that hospital bed
Than cut back on sugar and salt

Oh weren't you afraid of
Living in a major American city
So you marry a stupid
Unreachable girl who's impossibly pretty

And I've seen you drive everyday of your life
And it's always a rush
And I have to wonder
How I ever let you do something so dangerous

And so I suppose
This is just how it goes
No matter how I try
I just have to watch you get
Weaker and weaker till you finally die

But I have to remember
The wish of my mother and all that I'm worth
Which will only come true
When there are no more of us left on this earth

Obituary

One, two, one, two

Writing your obituary long before your life has ended
Remembering you while you're alive instead of waiting till you're dead
And your life can only take you where these roads will let you go

You traveled up north to find that everything was not so right
There is nothing wrong with finding home ? someone with the fire
And your friends will always love you
But you have to teach yourself to stay alive

We could see the world unfurl if we could learn to walk on water
We could hold hands under bridges, you would be the star
Because the cars can only take you where the roads will let you go

Open up your eyes while we're in bed to see that I'm still breathing
I could never bear to feel your eyes on me at night let in the air
If you're here then I am breathing
If you're here then I am breathing

THE KNOT

Milk And Honey

Save some blue chips for me
I hope that I'm alive to see

Let the honey flow
And watch the ? grow, you know
It's harder than it looks

For Prayer

All this dirt is my disease
Please, please
Wanted hand, but I got knees
You drop by to help me out
Out, out
Baby, what's all this about

Your thoughts are better than your words
I wanted bees, but I got bird
There's no room and there's no time
So you scratch yours and I'll scratch mine

Sinned to winter, but it's hot
I guess I do believe in God
But I'll forgive and make it right
If it freezes up tonight

So cross your fingers, say a prayer
You don't believe, but I don't care
You either win it or you don't
It happens now or else it won't

Cross your fingers, say a prayer
You don't believe, but I don't care
You either win it or you don't
It happens now or else it won't

Take It In

Half the day awake
Half again asleep
I am left alone
With dreams

I wouldn't care if I
I wouldn't care if you
Is it still a lie
If it's true

Do you never ask
Because I'll never tell
We are both the same
Unwell

But how much would you ask
And what did you expect
Of what it is that we
Have left

Oh baby, you're a child
You fall asleep and I get wild
I turn to smoke when you need air
I'm sorry, baby, I don't care

Do you never ask
Because you know I'll say
You're the only one
Please stay

But you're not the only one
And you know it's only fair
When you close your eyes
Who's there

You're a baby, you're a child
You fall asleep and I get wild
I turn to smoke when you need air
I'm sorry, baby, I don't care

You're not only, you're my blood
?
I take it back, I'll take it in
Till I never need air again
I take it back, I'll take it in
Till I never need air again
I take it back, I'll take it in
Till I never need air again

Siamese

I know my place
It's a place I've never been though
Flat like rain
In a picture of a window
It's OK, it's alright
I walk on late at night

I keep my key
Out my clothes between my fingers
Don't look back
Hit him right between the eyes
You couldn't scare me if you tried
'Cause I'm ready to die tonight

His life and mine
Keep together like babies
Siamese
Like you've got me on a line
'Cause if you leave or if I leave you
I lose my life and lose you too
So you couldn't scare me if you tried
'Cause I'm ready to die tonight

Turn it in
You're not sure what you're taking
You're not prepared
For what you're taking on
And if it works like every night
You'll turn away without a fight
So you couldn't scare me if you tried
'Cause I'm ready to die tonight

Talking About Money

Right side headache
Maybe I'm dying
Oh but a child then
You told me anything
Now you've got me
Dreaming a tragedy
When I'm holding his hand
I'm talking about money

Oh scare me
Can't you see I am ghostly
And what I owe you
Is more than how I know you
So the worthless intangible
Is instantly valuable
And if you still ?
Don't ?

Mary Is Mary

We left a maybe for the cold heart
And they found a body in the backyard
I leave for the country just like you did
But he's not in the country, just look how you live

And all high and mighty, what do you know
And there is no great eye on the sparrow
And Mary is Mary and I'm not
But what, what good does she have that I haven't got

And one head is lesser than the two heads
But we know the thoughts that go unsaid
And I'm left alone in my own home
Where all that I own is not my own

And all sleeping giants, why do you lie
Behind the eyes of who I love the best
And is there another where you do keep
The pain of another where my arms sleep

And all high and mighty, what is your game
Can we learn to live with so much lies
And you say that we end where we all go
But all high and mighty, what do you know

Tattoo

Sing out at me
See right through me
Send those dangerous things to me
All together
I am melting
I see stars that never come down
All their fingers
Underneath me
All the myths, they could've raised me
I am able
I am ready
Almost I can take them with me

In the future
I'm forgiving
Hoping they fall only living
And the faces
Strangers only
Those who see me, will they know me
Find me at the
Tattoo ?
Close my eyes and know my body
I am not a child ?
Pour my song, it's not ?

When I go
I close my eyes
Leave me unidentified
It was wrong
But I was right
I am saved, I am light

When I go
Close my eyes
Leave me unidentified
It was wrong
But I was right
I am saved, I am light

I Want For Nothing

Say no to me
And I will love you more
Play me for keeps
Under garage door

I pressed his side
Be sad, grow over, float
All for a dream
More than the time we took

They think it's right
But they don't think like me
When I concede
It is a victory

It's not ideal
Ideals never last
I see my face
I wanna break in half

Since we fell
I am an empty well
I want for nothing
You want

And still you say
There is another way
I want for nothing
I want for nothing
I want for nothing

It's not a bruise
It is a spider bite
I wasn't forced
To stay awake at night

And he was tough
He knows not what he needs
I care for you
But not as you for me

Since we fell
I am an empty well
I want for nothing
You want

And still you say
There is another way
I want for nothing
I want for nothing
I want for nothing

That I Do

I wish you didn't need it anymore
I understand exactly what you use it for
And better isn't always doing well
I know because I'm better now myself

And it's true, I need it too
But not the way that you do

I wish I didn't love you quite as much
The reason that we never talk and never touch
Is the same reason that I never have done enough
To show you that you never needed to earn my love

And it's true, you love me too
But not the way that I do

I wish I didn't hold you to your word
Ignited and decided, they are undeserved
I've never discovered when to stop
That giant made of stone came down off the mountain top

See, it's true, I lie to you
But not as well as you do
And it's true, I need it too
But not the way that you do

Sight, Flight

So I lick your head on this bed
And discover it's my dinner
Still I'm sure if it's just the before
That you're after, then why take my picture
And if we fly, it's in the public eye
So make sure everyone knows you're the winner

In righting
In righting
In righting
Yourself

So dance around it
Pretend that you found it
Still everyone knows not to answer
If you're with me, you're with weed and TV
And the rest of our three guilty pleasures
And if we fly, kiss half your family goodbye
And split everything right down the center

In righting
In righting
In righting
Yourself

In righting
In righting
In righting
Yourself

CIVILIAN

Two Small Deaths

Two small deaths happened today
While I was at work
While I was at play

No less light darkens my door
So I cannot cry
Now what is that for

Is this the way my mind works
Forwards, always forwards
Is this the way my brain waves
Backwards, sideways

I've no heart strong and as lasting
To miss and to mourn
The world at its passing

I'm saving up all of my strength
For when I finally fail
At keeping you safe

When my last friend should leave me
Slow and easy
I'll be creeping around them
Picking pockets

The Alter

Oh recourse
Our nature is a force
So
Cut it at the source
And go
A life without remorse

I'll obey
Though I am afraid
Of what it's to be alone
Awake
And happiest at play

I'm all smiles
Confident and wild
Wired with every instrument
Control
And careless all the while

Until I recall
Everything and all is wrong
Panic is a slow dissolve
A terror quiet calm

Holy Holy

Holy, holy, holy
There is no other story
Holy, holy, holy
It is madness seeking mastery

Holy, holy, holy
Would you like to know me
A tongue without a mouth to feed
And only seeking agony

For the joys and secrets I have stored
Here I lie awaiting my reward
Attention for the blessed final count
The ties that hold your mind will not give out

No patience can contain this
All human joy is precious
And I alone should know this
And everyone should notice

Holy, holy, holy
There is no other story
It is madness seeking mastery
We will be who we want to be

For the joys and secrets I have stored
Here I lie awaiting my reward
Attention for the blessed final count
The ties that hold your mind will not give out

Oh they will give out
Oh they will give out
Oh they will give out
Oh they will give out

Dogs Eyes

Can't see your self in evolution
The history of our creation
So dogs eyes smiling
Scare you about dying

I can't shake the superstition
Jesus, give me your permission
And God's eye looks in
Like a ghost you don't believe in

Someone had me live this way
And I cannot get rid of it
Soft eyes, hard hands
To shovel the garden
A deep whole, a secret
In order to feed it
The season of calling
End to everyone knowing

Soft eyes, hard hands
To shovel the garden
A deep whole, a secret
In order to feed it
The season of calling
End to everyone knowing

Civilian

I am nothing without pretend
I know my faults can't live with them
I am nothing without a man
I know my thoughts, but I can't hide them

I still keep my baby teeth
In the bedside table with my jewelry
You still sleep in the bed with me
My jewelry and my baby teeth

I don't need another friend
When most of them I can barely keep up with
I'm perfectly able to hold my own hand
But I still can't kiss my own neck

I wanted to give you everything
But I still stand in awe of superficial things
I wanted to love you like my mother's mother's mothers did
Civilian
Civilian

Fish

They who made you
They made me too
Quiet like you
Violent like you

I see you there
Wild in my dreams
When you return
Go to the sea

Air is your permanent
Struggle to breathe
When you return
Go to the sea

Gone, gone, gone
You were never alone
I'll come home
And raise you up to what's left
Gone
Gone

Ghost of your voice
Finally rests
Open your eyes now
To all that is left

Don't be afraid now
You won't need me
You'll be at peace now
At last from the sea

You will forget
Eventually
The life that you wasted
That led to the sea

Gone, gone, gone
You were never alone
I'll come home
And raise you up to what's left

Gone, gone, gone
You were never alone
I'll come home
And raise you up to what's left
Gone
Gone

They who made you
They made me too
I see they can
Make us again

Plains

Into the desert
Weathered forever
Desperate clouds
Bellowing out
Seeing the future
Cautiously answer
It's only the plains
Sideways rain

The days whispered and shouted
And everything counted
The signs were around
We looked so we found
Been seeking a pattern
None of it mattered
Watching the sky
Cycling by
Through windows of our past lives

We are seeing the same thing
But they are not laughing
The smoke from the engine
The bones of the plane
I notice this vaguely
But it couldn't contain me
And so I've been tamed
And so it remains
And I am ashamed
And hiding in a stranger's hallway

Try to remember
Pen to the paper
Portion it out
What's it about
The pictures are empty
Voices have left me
It's only the plains
Sideways rain
And I am ashamed
And I am ashamed
And every day is just the same

Hot As Day

When the sun is its most bright
Stare into its light
Do not close your eyes
Let it burn into your mind
Then look left, look right
Let it make you blind

Oh isn't that a fright
Birth to eternal night
That someone decides is right

When the days run long and late
Darkness brings me pause
While I lie awake
Sleep is never long enough
Lying in this heat
I forget to breathe

Oh isn't that the way
Sun hides himself away
Still it's hot as day

We Were Wealth

Though I am grown
I'm living like a child now
I wait, I want
Giving myself everything
Fearing the release
Keeping the peace

Say for instance
I pay money for an object
Sight unseen
How is it that it speaks for me
Borrowed, never earned
In debt from birth

Feel the days at any cost
And spend your earnings
Ease the losses
We were wealth
And we were money
Of the world
And needing nothing
Needing nothing
Needing nothing
Needing nothing
Needing nothing

Doubt

If you should doubt my heart
Remember this
That I would lie to you
If I believed it was right to do

If you should think instead
I would forget all the lives I said
Were not meant for me
And meant for you

That would be the test
I could not forgive only that
To doubt the only way
That what was true before
Is true today

What I have learned of you
Does not assure
You bow before my will
But I believed it then
Believe it still
Oh I believed it then
Believe it still

SHRIEK

Before

This morning
I woke up on the floor
Thinking I have never dreamed before
And in the afternoon
The nagging thought
That I have never lived or else forgot

I tell you stories
But truth be told
I can't remember
What came before
That's how I know
That's how I know

And I am brand new
And not so whole
That's how I know

On paper
I'm waving with a grin
Proof of places I've never been
So I pull you forward towards this spot
That I have never seen or else forgot

I show you pictures
Of this very corner
But I can't remember
Who pushed the shutter
I have no answer
You say, "No matter"

My only memory
Is coming home
That's how I know

This morning
I woke up on the floor
Thinking I have never dreamed before

Shriek

In that sea of the night
I was possessed
Keys though meaning goodbye
If you're wondering
And a key which would be nagging me
Throughout the bay

When I see it, will I, will I know
A few known information
? how it seems
In present dreams and I nibble
Other words speak unspeakable
So full is your affection
Come and see how it means
This present seems infallible

Oh that spruce of the night
You will outlast
The illusory gaze
And its wandering
And a freedom of a certainty
Observing your brain

When I see it, will I, will I know
A few known information
? how it seems
In present dreams and I nibble
Other words speak unspeakable
So full is your affection
Come and see how it means
This present seems infallible

When I see it, will I, will I know
A few known information
? how it seems
In present dreams and I nibble
Other words speak unspeakable
So full is your affection
Come and see how it means
This present seems infallible

The Tower

The one who sings around the sun
Cannot be bothered with the dark
The reason exits with the light
The one, the sun

The night begins
Until the trouble ends
I speak if only to explain
And no one here has lost his mind
Intentions are ?

The one, a love full of trust
They think the answer lies with me
But I am powerless to stop
The world from holding me in place
The tower of it all
It is the cloud that hangs for days
It is a giant in the tree
Holding the neck of me

We live as many others live
The fear of dying incomplete
Feeling the fairy tale apart
Unturn ? and start

The one who sings around the sun
Cannot be bothered with the dark
He's undeserving of the light
The one, the sun, the night

The one, the sun, the night
The one, the sun, the night

Glory

I see his eyes moving away from me
Oh no, is this another albatross
He knows he holds dominion over me
But what I gain is worth the cost

We share the cold embrace of cousins
I wonder if I've seen him somewhere else before
And as I wonder at his ancestry
I miss the meeting by the door

And in the telling of the story
I lose my way inside a prepositional phrase
I read his lips and I see glory
But what I hear is "be afraid"

So from the fog of every morning
Until the heat of day is stingy
I watch the clock as it turns backwards
I see the water run uphill

And in the telling of the story
I lose my way inside a prepositional phrase
I read his lips and I see glory
But what I hear is "be afraid"

And in the telling of the story
I lose my way inside a prepositional phrase
I read his lips and I see glory
But what I hear is "be afraid"

Sick Talk

Spit it out
I can't see if you can't say
You explain
Still your meaning floats away
Quiet fails
It is present in its space
Do you doubt
Other voices in your place

Is this sick talk
Building on your tongue until it spills off
Anyone who speaks can say the same truth
Even if the words that they have spared you
Scared you

Is this sick talk
Hovering around me, taking quick stock
Anyone who's afraid to talk back
Anyway the answers are of no use
We are lost

?
What's the use in watching me
Take apart
One more endless happening
See me now
Terror at the ones and twos
Look again
Shameless, you are mine to lose

Is this talk
Building on your tongue until it spills off
Anyone who speaks can't say the same truth
Even if the words that they have spared you
Scared you

Is this sick talk
Hovering around me, taking quick stock
Anyone who's afraid to talk back
Anyway the answers are of no use
We are lost

Schools Of Eyes

Do I sleep
The thought is keeping me awake
High and free
And knowing keeps me in my place
An invisible tether
Is somehow stronger
But my hand is mine
Even when you hold it

When there is time
Then I will answer
See, we have forgot
A hundred days
And I'll remember
See, we have forgot
You hold a sign
That seems forever
See, we have forgot
We are amazed
And I will answer
See, we have forgot

So show the spark
Can we be wise
Do we have the essence
I see schools of eyes
Where there should be faces

When there is time
Then I will answer
See, we have forgot
A hundred days
And I'll remember
See, we have forgot
You hold a sign
That seems forever
See, we have forgot
You are amazed
And I will answer
See, we have forgot

When there is time
Then I will answer
See, we have forgot
A hundred days
And I'll remember
See, we have forgot
You hold a sign
That seems forever
See, we have forgot
We are amazed
And I'll remember
See, we have forgot

When there is time
Then I will answer
See, we have forgot
A hundred days
And I'll remember
See, we have forgot
You hold a sign
That seems forever
See, we have forgot
We are amazed
And I will answer
See, we have forgot

To mind the time
And I'll remember
See, we have forgot
To spite the days
We will remember
See, we have forgot
To hold the signs
That seems forever
See, we have forgot
To be amazed
And I will answer
See, we have forgot

Despicable Animal

If I say no to you
Will I still go to you
Begging a desperate grin
All eyes and mouth
Will I still shut you out
Will I eat all your ashes again

Still in this haste
Wonder what is this taste
You are feeding me gentle and plain
Though I am made for you
I am afraid of you
Violence is part of your name

Thank God I'm home
You're finally on to me
My one, my own
Despicable animal
I hope we meet
And still you will speak to me
I shift to flee
And render it obsolete

But I won't see the sun for anyone
My blindness is complete
And there is no coin or currency
To equal my belief
If I can bring us to water
Will you promise to drink deep
You are the one who makes me golden
As I shudder in my sleep
You are the one

Is it a flaw
That I'm proud of it all
At how little that we truly need
I was in awe
I was never in doubt
Of how terrible hunger can be

Thank God I'm home
You're finally on to me
My one, my own
Despicable animal
I swear I can speak
But my jaw is loosening
I feel the pull
And oh it is frightening

But I won't see the sun for anyone
My blindness is complete
And there is no coin or currency
To equal my belief
If I can bring us to water
Will you promise to drink deep
You are the one who makes me golden
As I murder in my sleep
You are the one

And I won't see the sun
For anyone

Paradise

Even as I stand
Is the ever after
See it as it lands
Fire over water

Paradise and I
We will carry on now as friends

We will go to sleep
We will see it come down again

Pulled into a coil
Watch my hands unfold it
Should it fall apart
Shaking as I hold it
Should I go to work
Measuring the absence again

Paradise and I
We will carry on now as friends

See through the daze of the winter
(See through the daze of the winter)
We are away of each other
(We are away of each other)
Facing a permanent danger
(Facing a permanent danger)
How many more will we weather
(How many more will we weather)
How, how
Now, now

Both of us believe
Both of us pretending
We should ever see
Such a perfect ending
We will go to sleep
We will see it come down again

This is our disease
Helpless as we share it
Even when it dies
I will help you bear it
Fall into the leaves
Feel the season meet us again

Paradise and I
We will carry on now as friends

I Know The Law

In order
To preserve the myth
I will answer
According to it
I speak
In its passages
And it keeps me
Safe in my skin

In order
To preserve the myth
I will answer
From inside of it
And in this life
See the truth that I cannot deliver

But you are waiting for
It is already lost

In order
To preserve this life
I have given my life
?
For love
Fully aware
And deserving
Of no reward

And even so
It is still together or apart
Light a little fire
So you can feed it in the dark

But
I know, I know, I know, I know
I know, I know, I know the law...

Logic Of Color

I am playing a part again
Surrender and begin
Still clinging to my skin, your skin
Watch the leader depart
And wait the truth within the hour
The whole of it is ours to make

So the logic of color is all
The logic of my skin
The color of my eyes, our eyes
Understand it requires belief
The language that I know
Is written for the wise, the weak

Talk to me and I'll talk back
(Talk to me and I'll talk back)
Let's lock eyes here in real time
(Let's lock eyes here in real time)
Your illogical device
(Your illogical device)
My impossible demand

Everything that you see is free
And so is what I made
And so is what I claim to be
When the two are apart, it lives
And nothing is begun
But when we are as one, it gives

Give it to me and I'll give back
(Give it to me and I'll give back)
Let's lock eyes here in real time
(Let's lock eyes here in real time)
Your illogical device
(Your illogical device)
My illegible command

So the logic of color is all
The logic of my skin
The color of your eyes, our eyes
So the logic of color is all
The logic of my skin
The color of my eyes, our eyes
So the logic of color is all
The logic of my skin
The color of your eyes, our eyes
So the logic of color is all
The logic of my skin
And the color of your eyes, our eyes

TWEEN

Out Of Nowhere

Out of nowhere, nowhere and nowhere
Out of nowhere, nowhere and nowhere
Out of nowhere, nowhere and nowhere

If You Should See

He is an ordinary home
Still standing statuesque he lands a lap
And after we're alone
It doesn't take me by the throat
But it's an outcome
I'll never have to run from

I walked uncertain on your path
Tiptoed through underbrush
Ignoring all the signals as they passed
Using old tricks for this new math
But it's an encore
I'll never have to ask for

If you should see
You are not where we will go on
Floating unaware
And if you should see
Two of us there
We will go on growing as my hair

You came from somewhere in my head
The language of our kind is written in my hands and in my bed
And there is nothing left unsaid
It is the ocean unwilling as it comes in

I never felt the fear so bright
It is invention, but I never cared so little or so light
It is our life, it is alright
And it's an encore
I'll never have to ask for

If you should see
You are not where we will go on
Floating unaware
And if you should see
Two of us there
We will go on growing underway
And if you should see
You are not where we will go on
Growing underway
And if you should see
Two of us there
We will go on growing as my hair

No Dreaming

We look alright
But we want too much
I talk to him
Like he was one of us
Such a mistake
And so obvious
Round hole square peg
Riding on the bus

Why not
Why not
If you live a dream
Why not a better one
Why not
Why not
If you live a dream
Why not a better one

I talk to him
Like he and I were one
Abbreviate communication
Such a mistake
And so obvious
Danger appeals
Afraid it's not enough

Why not
Why not
If you live a dream
Why not a better one
Why not
Why not
If you live a dream
Why not a better one
Why not
Why not
If you live a dream
Why not a better one
Why not
Why not
If you live a dream
Why not a better one
Why not
Why not

Too Right

It rises up in the evening
An invisible motorcade
I behave as if eyes are on me
And a force I must obey

If it's truth then you want me to prove it
So I'm still as a dead honeybee
And I cry for love like a baby
And my baby feeds it to me

I live in terror of it
Happens all the time
Contentment is no limit
Time

I can wire myself to believe it
Like the shock of the afterbrain
And I switched my mind to receive it
Since the day you knew my name

The absence of light should amaze me
But it's dark out every night
And my energy not what it should be
'Cause you put me a bit too right

I live in terror of it
It is by design
Inevitable it is

I live in terror of it
Happens all the time
Inevitable it is
Time

Better (For Esther)

Ever onward
After Esther
All my ancestors

Names on paper
Later make their
Earthly layover

Feed me fiction
I will know you
Better
Better
Better
Better

Ever after
I outlast her
Mastering the veil

Flee the vultures
I will know you
Better
Better
Better
Better

Ever onward
After Esther
All my ancestors

Now and ever
I will know you
Better
Better
Better
Better

On Luxury

It belongs to you
Having answered to the call
Wanting all things or nothing at all
Will you live with me
Will you hide me from myself
Changing, longing into something else

Light in the house
They will carry us out
Disbelieving
Oh did you see her
It belongs to you

Light in the house
It is bearable now
Did you see her
Oh disbelieving
Told me it is

Say what you will
There is space to be filled
And the answer
Oh is desire
It belongs to you

Light in the house
They will carry us out
Disbelieving
Oh did you see her

Take me for the kind
Undeterred by better plans
Guarding lines of great significance
Truthfully you know
The decision has been made
Monday morning like any other day

Light in the house
They will carry us out
Disbelieving
Oh did you see her
It belongs to you

Light in the house
It is bearable now
Disbelieving
Oh did you see her
Told me it is

Say what you will
There is space to be filled
And the answer
Oh is desire
It belongs to you

Light in the house
They will carry us out
Disbelieving
Oh did you see her

Trigger Finger

In the evening
They are humble
Heading forward
They will wobble
Through your glasses
Let me fall on
Their position
Enviable

Necks are bending
Nosing clover
As I watch them
Wander over
If the peace breaks
And is threatened
Will you lift your
Trigger finger

If the peace breaks
And is threatened
Will you lift your
Trigger finger
If the peace breaks
And is threatened
Will you lift your
Trigger finger

Watching The Waiting

When I made my plan
There were some things
For which I did not account
I could not have seen myself here
In a place I've been before
Seeing everything all over
As if I could really know
As if I am sure
And you say it's about time
But you know I'm not used
To having enough

And there is nowhere I need to go
And there is nothing left to do
And I am sitting watching myself
Watching you
Watching the waiting

When I move to stand
My muscle memory
Is keeping me up
Real memory is also
Similarly cruel
To see his face in front of me
Out of the blue
For no reason at all

And I don't suppose
I'll be able to tell him
How sorry I am
But like the guard settles in
For another long night
I keep watch for a danger
And I may not recognize
But I keep my eyes open

All I know is this
There are times when to me
You seem to glow from within
And I wonder how this moment
Could possibly be
And how much was of my choosing
And what chose me

And I couldn't care less
When it all adds up
And I feel I am closest
To what I really am

And there is nowhere I need to go
And there is nothing left to do
And I am sitting watching myself
Watching you
Watching the waiting

 

The Louder I Call, The Faster It Runs

The Instrument

Suffering
I remember suffering
Feeling heat and then the lack of it
But not so much what the difference is

I was there
You were there and I was there
I can't hold onto my anger
Though sometimes
it would do me good

Oh look away
Un-animate
You only breathe
To be seen as such
You want it too much

Picture me
The idea of me anyway
The instrument you once ignored
It is moving of its own accord

Back and forth
Soul without a body walks
It sees love and it sees witnesses
But not so much what the difference is

And if this is the great release
I fear I am a rule abider
Life unfolds immune to favor
But I know the day and I know the hour

Oh look away
Un-animate
You only breathe
To be seen as such
You want it too much

The Louder I Call, The Faster It Runs

And we were jubilant
Willing to pretend
We were not losing time
Time wasted
Like any other day
We will make the bed
Thinking it is dead
It is finally dead

The louder I call, the faster it runs
The louder I call, the faster it runs
The quiet is ours, the work has begun
The louder I call, the faster it runs

I search for patterns
Sense that isn't there
You can have everything
And still you have nothing
So I take them all apart
Then I put them back
Sometimes it takes a long
Long, long time

The louder I call, the faster it runs
The louder I call, the faster it runs
The longer the day, the nearer the sun
The louder I call, the faster it runs

The louder I call, the faster it runs
The louder I call, the faster it runs
The quiet is ours, the work has begun
The louder I call, the faster it runs

The louder I call, the faster it runs
The louder I call, the faster it runs
The longer the day, the nearer the sun
The louder I call, the faster it runs

The louder I call, the faster it runs
The louder I call, the faster it runs
The quiet is ours, the work has begun
The louder I call, the faster it runs

Lifer

You worry I have given up
Have lost direction for the cause
Have traded truth for confidence
Went back on all my promises
I am not old but I've become
Afraid of things I never was
And stumbling on without a pause
Can only go so long
Did you say that I was the lifer
Did you say that life could be better

It seems to those who know me best
My luck is wild and in excess
I don't know why some suffer so
And others never fear to go
I won't reduce myself to air
Undo myself for your affair
I've shown you everything I am
You choose or not to understand

There is a logic to the rule
The end is kind, the mean is cruel
I have to love the life I make
Make up for all the space I take

Mistaken for an oversight
The absence of my appetite
The source of all my arrogance
I left it up to chance
I believed that I was the lifer
I believed that life could be better

I want to see you rise again
To see life in your eyes again
To feel your pulse is beating strong
To prove all of us wrong
Will you say that you are the lifer
Do you think that life could be better
Will you say that I am the lifer
Do you think that life could be better

It Was Not Natural

When I am tired
Unbidden
I go for a walk
I have to walk
Or else
I do not recognize myself

My foot uncovers
What my heart wishes
Is a treasure
Seemingly foreign
But somehow still it is familiar

It could be amber
It could be animal or antler
They do resemble
They do remember one another

It was not natural
All along
Only human hands
Could give us
Something so
Unforgiving

It was not natural
All along
Only human hands
Could give us
Something so
Unforgiving
Something
So unforgiving

As I expected
With time
It hasn't gotten easier
I have to work now
At things
That used to be
Like breathing

I try to focus
Forgive myself
For having so much
I am too busy for it
Or else I am not busy enough

When I see clearly
I know we share the same devotion
But joy is hungry
And you know I can't promise anything

It was not natural
All along
Only human hands
Could give us
Something so
Unforgiving

It was not natural
All along
Only human hands
Could give us
Something so
Unforgiving
Something
So unforgiving

Symmetry

The avalanche, the afterthought
The passing day, the coming flood
To pull the thread against the grey
And see what was, before it was

The morning clock to wake me up
The howling room we're drinking from
Relax into illusions of
The infinite we started from

Do you obey your horror sign
Proceed together, wait in line
While speaking of the helpless cause
Collectible and slow

And in this world we're living in
I live like rain, you hide your skin
I walk alone, I stay in line
And risk my life for a smile

Oh hard heart, do you know yourself
In the season of revealing
Oh hard heart, it is show and tell
Symmetry is so appealing
Oh hard heart, do you know yourself
As your final hour is nearing
Oh hard heart, it is just as well
Symmetry is so appealing

The accident to video
We're insane in the afterglow
The single ant upon his skin
The ending swarm that took him in

And my whole life is in that space
After the cut, before the pain
I might as well believe the brain
Receive the word and shy away

And why should I be overrun
Open my door to anyone
I saw you in, you figured out
And moved aside just in time

Oh hard heart, do you know yourself
In the season of revealing
Oh hard heart, it is show and tell
Symmetry is so appealing
Oh hard heart, do you know yourself
As your final hour is nearing
Oh hard heart, it is just as well
Symmetry is so appealing
Oh hard heart
Symmetry is so appealing
Oh hard heart
Symmetry is so appealing

My Signal

My, my, my people are all over
Spread out and thin
We made the world large
And wanted every piece of it

My, my, my people, they are watching
I'm watching them
And we may never
Breathe the same air again

My, my, my signal

Say Hello

I had to pass through the rain clouds three times
To get home
Tilted left and right
Bounced when it hit the ground below
I heard my ragged breath catch in me
I felt my hollow bones
I saw how little time left in me
I knew how much to know

Five hundred aerial miles to go
My hair and clothes still smell like smoke
And there is no distance long enough
But still the lengths to which we go
Our achievements
And our houses
And our promises
And hopes
Five hundred aerial miles to go

How else did I think I would find you
But where all of this begun
Squinting hard at the printed word
By the failing light of the sun
We want our wishes to bow to us
But they have a life of their own
Our world has a solitary eye
But I just want to say hello, hello

Five hundred aerial miles to go
The earth turns relative and slow
And there is no distance long enough
But still the lengths to which we go
Our beliefs
And our distractions
Our performances
And codes
Five hundred aerial miles to go

I want to tell the girl next to me
There is no such thing as true
It is hard to admit you were all wrong
Accept some things are not for you

Over And Over

Here in the glow I am immobile
I let it run over and over
Acts as a typical reminder
There is no end to all your anger

Fade white
Break out
Or watch as it repeats itself

Even the best of us are guarded
Even you are sometimes a stranger
You say to build it in our image
I fear we speak a broken language

Fade white
Break out
Or watch as it repeats itself

Go on
How can I let go
Knowing what I know

Here in the glow I am immobile
I let it run over and over

You Of All People

They will make mistakes with us
Confuse the artist with their work
And hold the pattern up to the light
To see how much a life is worth

You believe it's chemical
The product of some randomness
But I fear the message hidden there
The truth that hangs above our heads
The accident

Oh
You of all people
Oh
You of all people

I get the feeling to look up
At something larger than myself
And reach for what is not allowed
No matter how I love the ground

No matter how you claw the dirt
Or fight against your own two hands
You feel the fingers down your spine
Mistake the passion for the crime
Every time

Oh
You of all people
Oh
You of all people

Oh
You of all people
Oh
You of all people

Join

How does it begin again
How does it amaze
Trusted in abstraction
And it has ruined me

Seems I am afraid of it
An undesired effect
It resembled weakness
Mistaken for a strength

It did not come
Or else it never left

Gently turn the frame around
Let the water run
I keep the light on very late
Don't bother anyone

Something passes over me
Cutting sharp and bright
Caught by my attention
I lose the moment

None or too much
It is the same result

Fall asleep in your bed
Sleep until I'm up
I just want a clear head
Sun on my shoulder

I Know It's Real

If you are right
This hovers over every human thing
Coloring
All of us
Unnoticed

Still, I'm alive
Stronger than energies
Riding on my back
Anchoring
Every day
To the last

I know it's real
And it answers me
Without any sound
Silencing
Something artificial
It is my companion now
As it all goes down
Hovering
Only at its limit
And this is all
I ask of it

Time amplifies
I'll paint the camouflage
Over all my face
Do you see
Through the lines
Through the waste

All of my life
I am left fingering
Brittle hearts of bone
Ancestry
Never leaves
Us alone

I know it's real
And it answers me
Without any sound
Silencing
Something artificial
It is my companion now
As it all goes down
Think of me
I am not my shadow
And this is all you need to know 

CUT ALL THE WIRES

Replacement

I can no more replace
The place I lay my head
The city where I live
Is the place where I was born
Yesterday and today
A half a mile away
And I still draw the air
From where I first drew breath

I can no more replace
The company you made
The memory of it
Has ruined me for them
In all my growing up
Somewhere I threw it out
What happened to my home
And half the things I had

Is this the only way
To while away my days
Defiant, eccentric
Or heavy with child
Or heavy with child
Or heavy

Civilian

(Demo)

I am nothing without pretend
I know my faults can't live with them
I am nothing without a man
I know my thoughts, but I can't hide them

I still keep my baby teeth
In the bedside table with my jewelry
You still sleep in the bed with me
My jewelry and my baby teeth

I don't need another friend
When most of them I can barely keep up with
I'm perfectly able to hold my own hand
But I still can't kiss my own neck

I wanted to give you everything
But I still stand in awe of superficial things
I wanted to love you like my mother's mother's mothers did
Civilian
Civilian

No Words

Everything ancient
Everything old
Here for the taking
Foolish and gold
Curious eyesore
Counting the minutes
There where your eyes are
Is the infinite

With no words
Leave with me
No words
It's an idea or a thought
But no words
It's a beginning or it's not
But oh thirst
Has no words

I am afraid now
I am not brave
I am untrained in
Matters of age
But I can absorb this
Knowledge of sin
In from the outside
Straight through my skin

And no words
Leave with me
No words
It's an idea or a thought
But no words
It's a beginning or it's not
But oh thirst
Has no words

If you're unhappy
If you're alone
If you do not ask me
I'll never know

Electricity

I live in a foundation steadfast and small
Two sets of legs and I'm two times as tall
When it's dark I should sleep
I lie in bed think of electricity

It's been too long since I knew I could say
Lamplight or torchlight is lighting my way
It's the sun through the trees
Eyes on my back and I know you're watching me

It's not made of fire, but fire's the same
Hair standing on end when it's caught in a flame
I'm a terrible woman
To be so ashamed of my name
Of my name

Branches from trees that I kill keep me warm
Light from a match allows shadows to form of my legs to my feet
I can't see your face when you're standing over me
Now I feel like my insides are carved out of wood
Everything seems to have formed as it should
I should know, I should see
You can't build a house with just electricity

There's nothing about you that I don't adore
Show me these rooms and I'll show you the way to the door
Walk me through
I'll cut all the wires and spend my life with you

Half A Double Man

You never let me find it
You never let me look
You always hid behind it
The pages in a book
You never let me look

Stand up and be collected
Like a half a double man
You're all I ever wanted
But now I want again
Like half a double man

Is wanting enough, enough
This is no obvious drug
And no god demanding blood
Is wanting enough

I ask about my body
You say it's had enough
I'm living crossing fingers
Nothing to back it up
I say it's had enough

Is wanting enough, enough
This is no obvious drug
And no god demanding blood
Is wanting enough, enough

I ask about the engine
We're trusting with our lives
Not as a second guessing
In case we pay the price
But as though we were wise

Sinking Ship

I wonder who can help us
I sit and count the days
And I keep digging a hole in the ground
When I'd rather be floating away

My mother always helped me
But she's helped me all she can
And I trusted some in a man I loved
But he took it all and ran

And my baby is not a baby
But he never left the nest
And I can't remember
A day when I haven't
Been worrying about the rest

And you take my situation
And you shape it in your hand
But until your ship is sinking
You will never understand

That it's only temporary
These are temporary gains
And there will always be another
Man you didn't pay
And there will always be another
Thing you didn't say
But not another day

Two Small Deaths

(Daytrotter Session)

Two small deaths happened today
While I was at work
While I was at play

No less light darkens my door
So I cannot cry
Now what is that for

Is this the way my mind works
Forwards, always forwards
Is this the way my brain waves
Backwards, sideways

I've no heart strong and as lasting
To miss and to mourn
The world at its passing

I'm saving up all of my strength
For when I finally fail
At keeping you safe

When my last friend should leave me
Slow and easy
I'll be creeping around them
Picking pockets

Holy Holy

(Demo)

Holy, holy, holy
There is no other story
Holy, holy, holy
Madness seeking mastery

Holy, holy, holy
Would you like to know me
A tongue without a mouth to feed
And only seeking agony

For the joys and secrets I have stored
Here I lie awaiting my reward
Attention for the blessed final count
Ties that hold your mind will not give out

No patience can contain this
All human joy is precious
And I alone should know this
And everyone should notice

Holy, holy, holy
There is no other story
Madness seeking mastery
We will be who we want to be

For the joys and secrets I have stored
Here I lie awaiting my reward
Attention for the blessed final count
The ties that hold your mind will not give out

Oh they will give out
Oh they will give out

Pardon

Absolutely out of my control
I hear a rising in my anchor
My body to you
Absolutely different, I know
Because you asked, because you answered
My body to go

Ever, ever stronger
Ever, ever wise
Does he have eyes
For a pardon
Does he have eyes at all

Absolutely overpowered by
A force that I can neither answer
Nor recognize
I can see myself in many things
But I don't understand the image
Your presence should bring

Ever, ever stronger
Ever, ever wise
Does he have eyes
For a pardon
Does he have eyes at all
Does he have eyes
For a pardon
Does he have eyes at all

Black Is The Color

(Traditional song)

Black, black, black
Is the color of my true love's hair
His face is something wondrous fair
The purest eyes and the strongest hands
I love the ground on which he stands

I love my love and well he knows
I follow him wherever he goes
I write him a letter containing these lines
I'll suffer death a thousand times

Black, black, black
Is the color of my true love's hair
His face is something wondrous fair
The purest eyes and the strongest hands
I love the ground on which he stands

I'll go to troublesome to mourn, to weep
But satisfied I'll never keep
If he on earth no more would stay
My life will quickly fade away

Black, black, black
Is the color of my true love's hair
His face is something wondrous fair
The purest eyes and the strongest hands
I love the ground on which he stands

Black, black, black
Is the color of my true love's hair

Ten Fingers

I made friends with all my limbs
Arms and legs and all of them
Oh what madness can there be
When body has forgotten me

The joints will bend
The limbs will break
The mind is different though
It only aches
It only gives to take

I've forgotten all my friends
I used to be one of them
I'll abandon everything
For something worth abandoning

It's like my fingers
God gave me ten
But only two hands there
To care for them
A fist is not a man

I'm Proud

I'm proud, I'm so proud
Today I ventured out
And walked and spoke
And said hi, said hello
Hello, hello

I made a plan
I wonder how it's so
I laughed today
And spit and swallowed

See me sleep, I am a monster
Eyes sewn shut, I let death closer
But I woke up
I'm proud

See me sleep, I am a monster
Eyes sewn shut, I let death closer
But I woke up
I'm proud

EVERY DAY LIKE THE LAST

Every Day Like The Last

It might be true
It might be easier for me
If not for you
I might be free
To live a life of some prolonged tranquillity
Alone with my thoughts
My mind can do its wandering
A bed to die in

Did you really want
To live a life every day like the last
To make a trade
Of future promise for a hopeless past
Forget what you know
Afraid of what you want the most
A living ghost

Every day like the last
Every day like the last
Every day like the last
Every day like the last

I Learned It From You

One, two, three, four

Make me a little bed in your arms
I need to be held
I'm tired of holding on
I know the long road is more than you can bare
But if you can just get me to there
Outside my window the silence is loud
I circle above
I can never come down
There is a devil in the one I love
And I can't take it if he won't give it up

I'll never get out, as soon as I do
I want to get back, I learned it from you
I'll never get out, as soon as I do
I try to get back, I learned it from you

TNT

If it's true that time
Moves in one direction
Then why is my head
Still in your lane

Through days
That have paced
Stay soft
Circle back

So where were you
At this moment last year
When the days started losing
Their light

Was the mark on my back
In the line of your sight

Spring and summer
I learned from you
I did what I did, what I had to do
But how many seasons
Till time in two

I believe in a place
Where time works backwards
And the truth seems so clear
And easy to tell

I've been trying
To meet you there
But I have to get
Outside of myself

Did I know what I saw
In that mountain sunrise
Did I capture the light
And the lay of the land

I've been writing
The same song
Over and over
And over again

Spring and summer
I learned from you
I did what I did, what I had to do
But how many seasons
Till time in two

Spring and summer
I learned from you
I did what I did, what I had to do
But how many seasons
Till time in two

Its Way With Me

I am not the other
I am not afraid
I am not the answer
To a question
You have asked

My mind it enters
My memory stands
And the tide may rise
But it still goes out again

But if life
Is a hand in the breeze
It can have its way with me

My skin it shivers
My hand it holds
I can laugh about it
I can come in from the cold

I set the table
and it sets me
I made my own way to it
But I still say please

I can write
All the way off the page
But I cannot answer myself

What's the use of these things I have made
They are cords into a well

So I pull
Through the dark
To the warmth
Of a future I can't see

If my life
Is a hand in the breeze
It can have its way with me

Fortune

If it is binding
If it is finding out
Nothing fills the valley in my chest
Only something
I knew I'll regret

Or so I figure
And so I find myself
Tugging out the linens on the bed
Leaving no impression
Where I slept

The truth is always when it's gone
It's gone but I left you a fortune
And even in the full embrace of love
Is it really just one

We dream of binding
We dream of finding out
Morning comes and rider rings the hand
As if we are anything but
Powerless

So I figure
And here I find myself
Born in my condition
I can't tell if it's proof that I am sick or well

You can't paint a picture of the sun
You can't see it undone
The truth is always when it's gone
It's gone, but I left you a fortune
And even in the full embrace of love
Is it really just one

Evergreen

Picked you out
Dropped you off
Brought you in our house
Dressed you up
Took photographs
Stood around with open mouths
Starved you of your water
Till the needles piled around

Sweeping up
The needle dust
In the light of the TV
The humor of the metaphor
Isn't lost on me
All the water in the world
And I can't force myself to want a drink

Tell me what is missing in my mind
I feel the problem is essential
Its memory
Is blackening my mind
I'm taking everything back
Evergreen

Twist the rag
Spray the glass
Swirl the wet around
We do our best thinking
While we're working in this house
All the world is always staining
I can't settle till it's out

Tell me what is missing in my mind
I feel the problem is essential
Its memory
Is blackening my mind
I'm taking everything back
Evergreen

Tell me what is written in your eyes
I feel the problem is essential
It's memory
Is keeping me alive
I'm taking everything back
Evergreen
Evergreen
Evergreen
Evergreen

Fear Of Heights

You
Want to take me up
I have always been
Afraid of heights
My body knows
When I am off the ground
Whether I am looking up or looking down

And you say it's worth it
For the view
For the view
And you say it's worth it
For the view
For the view

Later on
I try to write it
Giving up
The meaning is too obvious
My consciousness attempts to classify
Like an animal cloud in a meaningless sky

If I am the woman (If I am the woman)
You are the staircase (you are the staircase)
I am the woman (I am the woman)
Fear is the window (fear is the window)
I am the woman (I am the woman)
Climbing is living (climbing is living)
I am the woman (I am the woman)
Fear is the window (fear is the window)
If I am the woman (If I am the woman)
You are the staircase (you are the staircase)
I am the woman (I am the woman)
Fear is the window (fear is the window)
I am the woman (I am the woman)
I am the woman

You say it's worth it
For the view
For the view
(What or who is the view)
You say it's worth it
For the view
For the view
(What or who is the view)
And you say it's worth it
For the view
For the view
(What or who is the view, is the view)

Walk Soft

What is the view
Does it belong to you
Do you see the same blue as I think I do
What will it be
The forest or the tree, one or many
I see people come and go
I keep myself close to you
You say that was not what was
But the memory feels true

We came from home
We came from the same place
Circumstances made the necessary space
These years of work have only gone to waste
You won't find me
I believe you do know me
But you are still some other thing
They remind me
They remind to walk soft
Beauty it is frightening

I believe you
I believe you do know me
But you are still some other thing
They remind me
They remind to walk soft
Beauty it is frightening
Take it with you, take it with me

Repeat (If You Remind Me)

How can you see me now
I can hardly perceive it
So far out
Running the highways
Like a stitch in the eye
Better in motion
After all this time

So that's the way the world works
When you're living for the summer
When the worst thing you can do
Has already been done
But if you remind me
And repeat it, repeat it
Like you're staring at the sun

Now that you've seen my face
I know I've been a stranger to you
For most of my days
But I can change it
As a kinder compromise
Should we diе a little
Just to stay alive

So that's the way thе mind turns
When you're looking for a reason
With the worst thing you could say
On the tip of the tongue
But if you remind me
And repeat it, repeat it
Like you're starting at one

And if you remind me
And repeat it, repeat it
And if you remind me
And repeat it, repeat it
And if you remind me
And repeat it, repeat it
And if you remind me
And repeat it, repeat it
And if you remind me

And if you remind me
And repeat it

 

 

 

NON ALBUMS TRACKS

AEIOU

(Feat. Brooklyn Youth Chorus / No Horizon EP)

A E I O U...

If you speak my name
Use my real name
The one I gave myself

A word can suggest my likeness
As a painting
Suggests distance

But mountains are not pictures of mountains
Or the letters that spell the word
In the language we are speaking

The foundation and its meaning
Does not crumble underfoot
For those who do not have the word

They stand, stand
Regardless
They stand, stand
Regardless

A E I O U...

Dance My Pain Away

(Rod Lee cover)

Dance my pain away
I've got problems
Dance my pain away
I've got problems
It's like woah, woah
It's like woah, woah

Now listen to my story
Bill collectors on me
Have to file bankruptcy
Need some help from somebody
Doctor's bills are stacking up
I'm desperate to make a buck
I played the lottery today
Won't you, please, wish me luck

Dance my pain away
I've got problems
Dance my pain away
I've got problems
It's like woah, woah
It's like woah, woah

I just got laid off today
What do you think my baby said
I just have to hope and pray
Rain, rain, go away
The repo man just hit me
I can't get from A to Z
Fakе friends around me
Lord, won't you help mе
Now I'm on my tippy toes
Face down, eyes closed
Face down, eyes closed
Face down, eyes closed

Dance my pain away
I've got problems
Dance my pain away
I've got problems
It's like woah, woah
It's like woah, woah
It's like woah, woah
Woah, woah
Woah, woah
Woah, woah
Woah, woah
Woah, woah
Woah, woah

Emmylou

(My Neighbor / My Creator EP)

Try to live like this forever
Love my mom and not upset her
Even my ambition had
To write itself in black

Yeah, I know, it sounded right
And helped my mother sleep at night
But everything to everyone
To you wasn't enough

You could see through
I could too
Emmylou

All the love I have in me
I understand how I could be
A terrible example when
I take my own advice

I am not the victim here
And I am not the enemy
So why did I design for you
A face to place your sympathy

I'll do any fantasy
But nothing that could seem to be
I know this from the agony
Because I don't know how

I believe in common sense
And maybe with coincidence
But I don't believe in heaven
So I have to have you now

You could see through
I could too
Emmylou

I Hope You Die

(My Neighbor / My Creator EP)

In the belly of the cloud
I was released
You were released
Was it deafeningly loud
Or was it peace
Sweet peace

All the streets
All filled with sound
Because it's right
It's for the best
Still I sense
Their judgment now
As we ask for rest
Just rest

I can't sleep until I see you sleeping
Curse my mind and its all-seeing eye
Watch the rise
And wonder if you're breathing
Against your will
You are alive

I don't recognize the world
That you have made
That we have made
Still you fool yourself to ask
If you had stayed
If we had stayed

At the ringing of a bell
Or at the falling of a tree
If you think of it at all
Remember me
Just me

I can't breathe until I see you waking
Watching as the scars fall from your eyes
Into a world that you may not remember
I hope you die
I hope you die
I hope you die
I hope you die

Mother

(Danzig cover)

Mother
Tell your children not to walk my way
Tell your children not to hear my words
What they mean, what they say
Mother

Mother
Can you keep them in the dark for life
Can you hide them from the waiting world
Oh mother

Father
Gonna take your daughter out tonight
Gonna show her my world
Oh father

Not about to see your light
But if you want to find hell with me
I can show you what it's like
Till I'm bleeding
Not about to see your light
And if you want to find hell with me
I can show you what it's like

Mother
Tell your children not to walk my way
Tell your children not to hear my words
What they mean, what they say
Mother

Father
Do you wanna bang heads with me
Do you wanna feel everything
Oh father

Not about to see your light
But if you want to find hell with me
I can show you what it's like
Till I'm bleeding
Not about to see your light
But if you want to find hell with me
I can show you what it's like

Not about to see your light
But if you want to find hell with me
I can show you what it's like
Till I'm bleeding
Not about to see your light
But if you want to find hell with me
I can show you what it's like

Mother...

My Creator

(My Neighbor / My Creator EP)

What kind of man
What could I be
Afraid of everyone I meet
Lie forever, afterthought
Some are men
And some are not

And what to feel
What could I stand
If there's my land
Was that your land
Lie forever, future plans
But here I stay and here I am

And who but you
What could I know
To follow with me far below
My pretense and servitude
And crippling dependency

What kind of woman would I be
If I refuse what's asked of me
Some lines can turn you, others rot
Some names will never be forgot
My body can, but I cannot
I'm sorry, mommy, I cannot

My Neighbor

(My Neighbor / My Creator EP)

Friend and lover
Sweat and slobber
Mother, daughter
Cold ice water

Hungry baby
Hot and heavy
You aren't smiling
Left behind it

Whosoever
Never say never
I can't love you
I usually do

Race of amber
Cats in water
If you need it
One more reason

I would take you
At your word if
You could follow
Red sky morning

My creator
Doesn't make a good neighbor
I can't love you
I usually do

My creator
Doesn't make a good neighbor
I can't love you
I usually do

No Place

(Feat. Brooklyn Youth Chorus / No Horizon EP)

We live in a place
(We live in a place)
That is no place
(That is no place)
We breathe our words
(We breathe our words)
And when we are hungry
(And when we are hungry)
We eat our ideas
(We eat our ideas)
One thought as one red apple
(One thought as one red apple)
One thought as one red apple
(One thought as one red apple)

We live in a place
(We live in a place)
That is no place
(That is no place)
Afraid of getting sick
(Afraid of getting sick)
We do not kiss
(We do not kiss)
We do not shake hands
(We do not shake hands)
We do not run till we're out of breath
(We do not run till we're out of breath)
We do not climb to the tall places
(We do not climb to the tall places)
And we do not lock eyes
With strangers and ask them

Who are you (who are you)
Who am I (who am I)
Where are we (where are we)
What's happened to us

Who are you (who are you)
Who am I (who am I)
Where are we (where are we)
What's happened to us

Who are you (who are you)
Who am I (who am I)
Where are we (where are we)
What's happened to us

Running Up That Hill (A Deal With God)

(Kate Bush cover / Live at The AV Club, 2014)

You didn't hurt me
You wanna feel how I feel
You wanna know, know that it didn't hurt me
You wanna hear about the deal I'm making
It's you
It's you and me

If I only could
I'd make a deal with God
I'd get him to swap our places
Be running up that road
Be running up that hill
Be running up that building
If I only could

You didn't hurt me
See how deep the bullet lies
Unaware I'm tearing you asunder
There is thunder in our hearts
Is there so much hate for the ones we love
Tell me, we both matter, don't we

It's you
It's you and me
It's you and me
We won't be unhappy

And if I only could
I'd make a deal with God
I'd get him to swap our places
Be running up that road
Be running up that hill
Be running up that building
If I only could

It's you
It's you and me
It's you and me

Come on, angel, come on, darling
Let me steal this moment from you now
Come on, angel, come on, come on, darling
Let's exchange the experience

And if I only could
I'd make a deal with God
I'd get him to swap our places
Be running up that road
Be running up that hill
Be running up that building

If I only could
I'd make a deal with God
I'd get him to swap our places
Be running up that road
Be running up that hill
With no problems

Running up that road
Running up that hill
With no problems

And if I only could
Be running up that hill
And if I only could
Be running up that hill

Sky Witness

(Feat. Brooklyn Youth Chorus / No Horizon EP)

Room
Womb
Cloud
Moon

When the world is just a concept
Everything has hidden meaning
Trees in the wind are tapping
Morse code against my window
And the sun goes down
And the face of the moon
Is marked with words, messages
In a hidden language

When the world is just a concept
Everything has hidden meaning
Trees in the wind are tapping
Morse code against my window
And the sun goes down
And the face of the moon
Is marked with words, messages
In a hidden language
In a hidden language

Messages
Hidden language
Messages

Who is speaking
Who is speaking
Who is speaking
Hidden language
Cloud appearing
Someone watching

I saw a cloud
In the shape of a pair of eyes
If I do not have a witness
I will create one from the sky

Sky witness...

Cloud
Moon
See me

Spitting Image

(Feat. Brooklyn Youth Chorus / No Horizon EP)

Spitting image
Slow collision
Without limit
To our vision
No horizon
To find our balance
Understanding
As a weapon

Spitting image
Slow collision
Without limit
To our vision
No horizon
To find our balance
Understanding
As a weapon

Spitting image
(And in this room I am alone)
Slow collision
Without limit
(With the eyes of the absent)
To our vision
(I can see it all)
I can see it all, all now
I can see it all, all now
I can see it all, all now
I can see it all now
(No horizon)

Here in this room (here alone)
We are lying still (still alone)
But our brains are at work (working)
Waiting (waiting)
Waiting (waiting)
For whatever is coming (can you hear me)
It will be a long night (waiting, waiting)
And these hours will be passed (can you hear me)
With a kind of quiet conversation (quiet)
But your words are silent
(But your words are silent)

Spitting image
Slow collision
Without limit
To our vision
No horizon
To find our balance
Understanding
As a weapon

I can see it all, all now
I can see it all, all now
I can see it all, all now
I can see it all, all now

Strangers

(The Kinks cover)

Where are you going, I don't mind
I've killed my world and I've killed my time
So where do I go, what do I see
I see many people coming after me

So where are you going to, I don't mind
If I live too long, I'm afraid I'll die
So I will follow you wherever you go
If your offered hand is still open to me

Strangers on this road, we are on
But we are not two, we are one

So you've been where I've just come
From the land that brings losers on
So we will share this road we walk
And mind our mouths and beware our talk

Till peace we find, tell you what I'll do
All the things I own I will share with you
And if I feel tomorrow like I feel today
We'll take what we want and give the rest away

Strangers on this road, we are on
We are not two, we are one

Holy man and holy priest
This love of life makes me weak at my knees
And when we get here, make your play
'Cause soon I feel it's gonna carry us away
In a promised lie, you made us believe
For many men, there is so much grief
And my mind is proud, but it aches with rage
'Cause if I live too long, I'm afraid I'll die

Strangers on this road, we are on
We are not two, we are one
Strangers on this road, we are on
We are not two, we are one 

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