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On Hold - 2018-04-26 - Car Park Three Oh Nine What's Good The Hand You Deal More Than You Know On Hold Top To Toe Bud Brother For A While Car Park (Overflow)

BREACH - 2020-09-18 - To Be a Woman Pt. 1 Alapathy Berlin Elliott I, Nietzsche Birthday Blood Moon Solipsism I Used To Hate My Body But Now I Just Hate You '98 (Instrumental) Someone Else's Trees Laundry and Jetlag

Big Picture - 2023-04-14 - Map Of Japan Dawncolored Horse Lights Light Up 2+2 Superglued Henry Pick In My Own Time Red Deer Day Half Finished Dial Tone (Expanded Edition Bonus Track) Hollywood And Fear (Expanded Edition Bonus Track) Cathedral (Expanded Edition Bonus Track) 4 (Expanded Edition Bonus Track)

WIN WIN - 2026-10-23 - Uh Huh Room To Room Sleeping Waterslide Stranger Things Thank You Sorry Franz Two Ways Cupboard Song In Life And On Planes

Non Albums Tracks - Misc - Christmas Alone Chump Dark Circles Disintegrate Have We Met Before Hypochondriac In The Bleak Midwinter Leave A Light On Polly You Should See Me Now Rollercoaster Taken The Desperate Kingdom Of Love There She Goes To Be A Woman Pt. 2 Tourism Unfucktheworld

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On Hold

Car Park

I wonder if you saw that I was sorry for the beating of my heart
When it woke you in the car park
And maybe I should tell you
That I've villainised by body for too long
Would it help you find excuses to move on?
Like I needed more excuses to be stronger

I'm no mother
But I've done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don't believe in luck so I am giving up

I hope to find a reason for my fear of feelings leaving at the start
It makes my sleeping harder
I don't know much about you
So I'm trying not to doubt you, but in time
I know you'll let me down and that is fine
A feeling I can't shake, it's getting stronger

I'm no mother
But I've done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don't believe in luck
I don't believe in much
Leave it all to trust or start to give it up

Three Oh Nine

So they tell me
Hold him while you can
And you show me
How it is to know a man
And it all seems right
When we talk through the night

How could I know
How this would go?

It's a first for me
It's a pain I need
It's too good to be
Please don't leave
Please don't leave

So I let go
Moments at a time
'Cause I know soon
I am losing what is mine
But I say too much
To justify your touch

How could I know
How this would go

It's a first for me
It's a pain I need
It's too good to be
Please don't leave
It's a first for me
It's a pain I need
It's too good to be
Please don't leave
Please don't leave

What's Good

You take the words right out of me
But it feels alright, to let this be

And I know what I want
But I know what I'll lose
Finding this is hard
Fighting this is new
Tell me why good things die
Stay the night

'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like, more than you do
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like to

I say it hurts to know you'll leave
But I'm scared to show how much it means

And I know what I want
But I know what I'll lose
Finding this is hard
Fighting this is new
Tell me why good things die
Stay the night

'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like, more than you do
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like to

'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like, more than you do
'Cause I need this more than I knew
More than I'd like
I do want you

The Hand You Deal

Save your breath, don't say you care
I'm dumb, I'm deaf
You broke me there
Of all I've known, our pain is real
But I try to hold the hand you deal
Though I sleep alone, I don't walk alone
And I've come to know what I need

And I don't grow these days
There's something in my way
But I don't try to wait
There's nothing in my day
That I wanna replace

I'm scared to know how long I'll love
The time I've seen you rise above
Though I sleep alone, I don't walk alone
And I've come to know what I need

And I don't grow these days
There's something in my way
But I don't try to wait
There's nothing in my day
And I don't grow these days
There's something in my way
But I don't try to wait
There's nothing in my day
That I wanna replace

More Than You Know

It's taken me a while to say
Everything I wanna do here
'Cause lately I've felt a change
Maybe there's a truth to fear

And it's all because of you
And I'll fight it 'cause you ask me too
And I'm losing something good
And I'm doing this for you
More than you could ever know
More than you could ever know

And all I have to do is trust
Everything will be okay
You tell me it'll work for us
And now you have to go away

And it's all because of you
And I'll fight it 'cause you ask me too
And I'm losing something good
And I'm doing this for you
And it's all because of you
And I'll fight it 'cause you ask me too
And I'm losing something good
And I'm doing this for you

More than you could ever know
More than you could ever know
More than you could ever know
More than you could ever know
More than you could ever know

On Hold

I was on hold
Tired and getting cold
So I put my love to bed
Everything told
Scared to be alone
So you took my hand and said

Come inside I'll make your mind up
All this pain is gold
Come inside you'll be surprised at all there's yet to know

I was on hold
High becoming low
But it helps to kill my time
Out of control
Tied to what I'm told
So you match your step with mine

Come inside I'll make your mind up
All this pain is gold
Come inside you'll be surprised at all you have to hold

Come inside I'll make your mind up
All this pain is gold
Come inside you'll be surprised at all you have to hold

Top To Toe

Tell me it's the best for us
Stake away the truth because
Sleeping top to toe with me
Isn't what it used to be
So I'm changing all my days to make your night
It's just not right
And you tell me I'm a child
And take my light
To smoke your mind

But I don't smile like before
And you take him to your bed
It's all been said
You need this more

Tell me I'm a time you'll miss
Feelings always change like this
But you are all the words I need
To explain myself
It seems
So I'm changing all my days
To make your night
It's just not right
And you tell me I'm a child
And take my light
To smoke your mind

But I don't smile like before
And you take him to your bed
It's all been said
You need this more
Please don't go I need you
"Take control," you tell me
Please don't go I need you
Take control

So I'm changing all my days to make your night
It's just not right
And you tell me I'm a child
And take my light
To smoke your mind

But I don't smile like before
And you take him to your bed
It's all been said
You need this more
Won't you take me to your bed
I should have said
I need you more

Bud

Holding it close, this time
Tell me of her, I'm fine
You'll never know what you do to me

All that we have won't grow
Falling is hard, I know
You make it so easy, believe me

And it's on my mind and I'd like to talk things through
and you're on my mind though I know I'll never do

Holding my tongue, it's real
Tell me the truth, I'll heal
Taking it slow before you go

And it's on my mind and I'd like to talk things through
And you're on my mind though I know I'll never do (on my mind)
And it's on my mind and I'd like to talk things through
And you're on my mind though I know I'll never do for you

You're all that I want and more
I'd say but I know your sort
I wish I could be someone you need
You need

And it's on my mind and I'd like to talk things through
And you're on my mind though I know I'll never do (on my mind)
And it's on my mind and I'd like to talk things through
And you're on my mind though I know I'll never do for you
Do for you

Brother

My mother's son
He can see that I'm done
With a world that took more than it gave
When we were young
And we rose for the sun
Did you ever think twice about this game?

'Cause you're my brother
I know you from before
Before we both were born
And you're my other
Never asking more
Taking all the falls

Grown in a place
We were shown to make space
For the good, the humble and the kind
Then until now
You could always see how
I was scared when I felt myself unwind

'Cause you're my brother
I know you from before
Before we both were born
And you're my other
Never asking more
Taking all the falls

And you're my brother
I know you from before
Before we both were born
And you're my other
Never asking more
Taking all the falls
I know you from before

For A While

Leaving it all unsaid
Keeping it quiet instead
You know that I won't explain
Cause I've grown to need this pain

You tell me it's good for now
I'll heal but I don't know how
Safe in the way we touch
But it hurts to feel this much

And they say that it goes so I hope that it shows
You are all that I've known for a while
And I'm coming up slow and I'm thinking of home
But you're all that I've known for a while

Spending our nights awake
Silent for both our sake
Hold me until I'm strong
Cause I'll miss this when you're gone

And they say that it goes so I hope that it shows
You are all that I've known for a while
And I'm coming up slow and I'm thinking of home
But you're all that I've known for a while

I'd tell you but I can't
Please don't make this hard
Time is all I want
So speak the words I won't

And they say that it goes so I hope that it shows
You are all that I've known for a while
And I'm coming up slow and I'm thinking of home
But you're all that I've known for a while

Car Park (Overflow)

I wonder if you saw that I was
Sorry for the beating of my heart
When it woke you in the car park
And maybe I should tell you
That I've villainised by body for too long
Would it help you find excuses to move on?
Like I needed more excuses to be stronger

I'm no mother
But I've done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don't believe in luck so I am giving up

I hope to find a reason
For my fear of feelings leaving at the start
It makes my sleeping harder
I don't know much about you
So I'm trying not to doubt you, but in time
I know you'll let me down and that is fine
A feeling I can't shake, it's getting stronger

I'm no mother
But I've done a lot
To prove to those I love that they are good enough
I don't believe in luck
I don't believe in much
Leave it all to trust or start to give it up



BREACH

To Be a Woman Pt. 1

To be a woman
They hold over me
I'll be a woman
Fuck falling apart

Did I dare
Did I dare

Don't be scared of me
Got him in the back of the head

To be a woman
Don't be scared of me
Don't be scared of

Alapathy

What's your secret for living long
Doing alright never felt so wrong
I lose my mind under the glow of a temporary fade
Validate my fervency
To be so bound never looked so free
Allopathic remedies for now

Two doors down from a deafening sound
I didn't need it til I knew it was gone
Now I move along in distraction
Tolerate my distance, dear
Touch your tongue to my ringing ear
Iterate my scream, we can share a reaction

Mine is a light you can see all night
All the dogs are down, are down

Rearranging endlessly
I saw oblivion at capacity
We should go sometime
Elevate my urgency
When it all breaks down you're a lot like me
Separate your skin just to feel it a fraction

Mine is a light you can see all night
All the dogs are down
All the dogs are down, are down

My light is a light you can see all night
Was I born to be living this way
(Is she listening)
Your light is a light I need alright
Iterate your dream for me

How it goes sometimes
I'm a ghost sometimes

Berlin

Listen to the siren call, it's crying
Bleeding on a foreign floor, slow dying

It's not hard to be alone anymore
Though I'm sleeping with my key in the door

Run until your lungs are sore, ash flying
You're looking like you want it more but you're lying

And it's not hard to be alone anymore
Though you're waking to a day you ignore

And it's not hard to be alone anymore
It's not hard to be alone anymore
It's not hard to be alone anymore
It's not hard to be alone anymore
It's not hard to be alone anymore
It's not hard to be alone anymore

Listen to the siren call, it's crying

Elliott

Elliott remember to forget
Everyone you ever wanted to be is dying the same death
And you'll learn
And you'll burn by different fire

Elliott, what do you have in mind?
Filling in the background of a little choir
Are you hoping that he'll see and come home?
Hold your knuckles in your teeth and leave your light on

He was always gonna be
Apparition of a demon heat
Wherever you hide

She was always gonna leave
You can see her in a dream
Whenever you like

I, Nietzsche

You threw me up against a wall, my hair was longer
Now we talk less if at all
I rarely get that hunger anymore

You're breaking up a fight in a bar
A mind, a body screaming are you satisfied?
I laugh about it now

And there's nothing wrong with I, Nietzsche
I spend my life lying down
And there's nothing wrong but I, Nietzsche
I'm looking for a reason to drown

I'm high on two day sheets
Home is where I brush my teeth
I get sick on second best
You get off to God is dead

And there's nothing wrong with I, Nietzsche
I spend my life lying down
And there's nothing wrong but I need you
I'm looking for a reason to drown

And there's nothing wrong with I, Nietzsche
I spend my life lying down
And there's nothing wrong but I need you
I'm looking for a reason to drown

And there's nothing wrong with I, Nietzsche
I spend my life lying down
And there's nothing wrong but I need you
I'm looking for a reason to drown
I'm looking for a reason

Birthday

You sent me a head on my birthday
You said it was made with love
It made me laugh
We talked about getting married
And now I hate your guts but I can't shut up

I got too drunk with your band
Told the truth about that show
You never let it go
Still you had my back on the sidewalk
I never used that word till I tried to be in your world

You're telling me I'm in your head like it's a good thing
Telling me she's in your bed like it was nothing
You're telling me I'm in your head like it's a good thing
Telling me she's in your bed like it was nothing

This get up and go
It's rearranging everyone I know
I didn't want to be saved
But you tried anyway

You're telling me I'm in your head like it's a good thing
Telling me she's in your bed like it was nothing
You're telling me I'm in your head like it's a good thing
Telling me she's in your bed like it was nothing
You're telling me I'm in your head like it's a good thing
Telling me she's in your bed like it was nothing

You sent me a head on my birthday

Blood Moon

Blood moon
So soon
Soak rooms with your eyes, eyes

Fortune like a slow zoom
Watching as I ride
Water by my side

Blood moon
Gone soon
Soak rooms with your eyes

Solipsism

All these people walk so slow
Do they know something I don't?
Focus on a foreign feeling
Unashamed and unappealing

Run on empty at one and twenty

Checking up to check I'm breathing
Sign in blood to keep it beating
What is it you want to shake?
Solipsism keeps me wide awake

I'm empty at one and twenty

All these people walk so slow
Do they know something I don't?
Focus on a foreign feeling
Unashamed and unappealing

Run on empty at one and twenty

I Used To Hate My Body But Now I Just Hate You

I met you in November for a weekend
I loved you by December like a fool
You left me for a friend over the summer
I never had a chance to play it cool

I read all of the books you recommended
I listen to your friend's band all the time
You justify and satiate my hunger
For not feeling alright

I misread every warning as an answer
To questions I was too afraid to know
We touched upon a suicide like tourists
You kiss me for an elevator audience, pack your things and go

When I'm lonely I smoke until I know how to sleep
So fine me, the bath is running cold but it's deep
Finish what we started in a hotel with a view
I used to hate my body but now I just hate you

You call me while I'm backstage with a fever
You tell me how I'm always on your mind
I crush a paper bag to the receiver
I learned that trick from a cartoon kid, it's always something I wanted to try

I heard you live at home now with your parents
It doesn't satisfy me like it should
I still see you as some kind of reassurance
That someday I'll be understood

When I'm lonely I smoke until I know how to sleep
So fine me, the bath is running cold but it's deep
Finish what we started in a hotel with a view
I used to hate my body but now I just hate you

But I'm lonely I smoke until I know how to sleep
So fine me, the bath is running cold but it's deep
Finish what we started in a hotel with a view
I used to hate my body

Someone Else's Trees

We say alright
You need an ok
All the same
You don't belong with them
And still you stay

If I could say
When you were small
That you would grow to be so bold
Don't pray
Turn away

I flew in over clouds that couldn't catch me if I fell
And I told them I would call but there isn't much to tell
'Cause I'm always scared of leaving and then when I arrive
I'm distracted by existences now parallel to mine

I'm not afraid to die more so to be alive
I know in this and more I'm not alone
And I never heard you scream before the night I couldn't breathe
You tell me now you thought that I was gone
You thought that I was gone
You thought that I was gone
I was five and I was gone

She's sitting down beside me
I'm turning down my page
But it's silently decided that I'll stay
I'm hers until the sun comes up on someone else's trees
When I'm clean I'll move along

I'm not afraid to die more so to be alive
I know in this and more I'm not alone
And I never heard you scream before the night I couldn't breathe
You tell me now you thought that I was gone
You thought that I was gone
You thought that I was gone
Sometimes I wish I'd gone

Please don't be long
Don't let this go on and on
Please don't stay in me

Please don't be long
Don't let this go on and on

Laundry and Jetlag

I gave up smoking when I was coughing up blood
And when I felt better again I took it straight back up
Making and breaking, new habits forming
Not all propensities come with a warning
Like you

I'm letting you talk and you're letting me down
Should've got used to excuses by now
They get a good show, you get a day job
I need to find and believe in a better god
Than you

Washing my clothes as soon as I'm home
Ridding myself of the dirt from the road
Losing the smell of the smoke and the bars
Stains go away but I'm left with the scars
Of you
Of you

Big Picture

Map Of Japan

I never asked you to change
And you're treating me like I did
The more I'm thinking about it
Maybe I should've started

Figuring out this life
Without giving it a good try
It's not working out this time
But you're putting up a pretty good fight

We never could make a good plan
Even when we weren't that busy
I framed you a map of Japan
If I ever go I'm taking you with me

'Cause you're getting tired
Of looking at the same old sky
And I'm getting tired
Of feeling like the same old guy

We never like coming home
For opposite reasons
Been feeling like I'm never alone
For long enough to notice the seasons

And I'm getting tired
Of looking at the same old sky
And you're getting tired
Say "honey so am I"

Dawncolored Horse

I met a girl on runaway ground
Talked like she knew me with a welcoming sound
We said a lot and nothing at all
And time was dripping from the God on the wall

She found a room to be all by herself
Up seven storeys like a doll on a shelf
Counting the days down 1 2 3 4
Nobody's looking 'cept the God on the wall

And he'll let you go
Oh and he'll let you down

So it's alright if you don't want a shoulder
If you don't wanna get over it all
And it's alright if you don't wanna remember
That nothing's forever after all

Hear Roll On Babe from '74
When the wheel won't turn you won't turn anymore
You'll do a lot and nothing at all
Read what I've written to your God on the wall

And he'll let you go
Oh and he'll let you down

So it's alright if you don't want a shoulder
If you don't wanna get over it all
And it's alright if you don't wanna remember
That nothing's forever after all

When you're unsettled
Find your breathing castle
Double lives extricably tied

So it's alright I can be a shoulder
I can be a way out of it all
And it's alright if you wanna remember
That nothing's forever after all

Lights Light Up

It took a lot of me to get back up from sleeping
All my weight, the pressure and the floor
There isn't more in a waking day than dreaming
Or so I thought

You came to me at the speed of a bad decision
Just the speed, the bad not so much
We held each other while everything burned up 'round us
And inside of me, too
That's called love

The traffic lights light up as we stand kissing
And the car horns play along
And though the sign says stop and look and listen
We don't do that shit anymore

And he said "So, do you ever wanna leave here?"
And she said "Well, that depends on the day"
And he said "Oh, do you even wanna be here?"
And she said "Well that depends on the way"

I guess we never really had that much in common
'Cept the days the nights and the cold
And though we don't really talk about it often
The fear of this getting old

You didn't listen when I told you I'm no dancer
Now I dance alone all the time
In the same room where I learned about the cancer
And you just held your head to mine

And you said "So, do you ever wanna leave here?"
And I said "Well, that depends on the day"
And you said "Oh, do you even wanna be here?"
And I said "Well, that depends on the way"

2+2

Someone put a letter through my door
Talking about some guy called Jesus
I put it on my refrigerator
Who knows some day I might need it

They believe in him like I believe in you
Baby it's as simple as 2+2
I guess we don't really know what we're looking for
'Til we have everything and still want more

In-flight movies always make me cry
Something about being in motion
The earth below me is a reason why
As much as any word being spoken

Sometimes I wish I could be more like you
It's not always as simple as 2+2
I guess I don't really know what I'm waiting for
I could have everything and still want more

Would you defend me like a point of view
Even when both are changing
Do you believe me like the gospel truth
Or is the feeling fading

It's not always as easy as I love you
Not always as simple as 2+2
I guess I don't really know what I'm looking for
You shut your eyes and I shut my door

Please
Hear me out
Please
Hear me out
Please
Hear me out
Please
Hear me out

Superglued

I was in the business of letting go
Then you came around and put me out of the job
And my misery at the same time

Now you live here and so do I
Not together, though
You're asking me all the time to reconsider
I don't think I can
Though I've been trying
I've been trying

Now seven years away from that concrete pond
Filling up my throat
It taught me less of the world than who is in it
And yeah I never knew you
And that's changing
But I'm changing, too
At the same time

When you met me I was all in black
Now I have that sugar light I never wanna go back
But you know me better than a carpet knows the floor
Guess I won't be coming home to you anymore

Superglued
Soon brand new
Superglued
Good as new
Superglued
Soon brand new
Superglued
Good as new

Henry

Henry
If you've got something more to say
I read my night away and came up with nothing
I'm alright getting myself home, I'm sure
Won't fall off like before
Wrong side of train tracks at speed
That's on me

Two more days of a space that can't be filled
I tried my best, but still, the accident threw me
Rumoured fire outside where I left my drink
Bleeding in the restaurant sink
Took pictures for you while the porcelain's spinning with pink

Stay up with me
If you've got a light, I've got something
To make you feel nothing
It's fine with me
If you wanna make an excuse
And wake up away from this bruise

Miller
The art of biography
Built you a mystery
I hear you're defending
So suckle up, me the harbour, you the man
Show me a better plan
The wrong side of train tracks at speed

Please, stay up with me
If you've got a night, I've got nothing on
Make me feel something
Stay to see
All of my colour's been used
I'm a picture in blues, I'm a bruise
I'm a bruise

Pick

Did I pick a bad time to love you?
Did I pick a bad time to arrive?
Did I pick a bad time to show you?
It's not a bad time to be alive

Did I pick a bad time to write you?
Is it ever a good time to address
That a skimming stone without you
Is a stone still?
Let it rest

Call me if you need me, I'll be around
Call me if you're thinking of going forever

Did she pick a bad time to have you?
Did he pick a bad time to leave?
They'd be a little lost without you
Is there enough time for you to see

That love is a delicate string
That you lend and carry around
When is it unravelling
When's it just rewound?

Call me if you need me, I'll be around
Nothing is the one thing that goes on forever

In My Own Time

In my own time I'll get a little older
The wind is in the chimes
In my own time I'll write until I know you
In bold and underline

In my own time I'll brighten up the corners
Temporarily
Fix up the paint and straighten all the pictures
That hang around like me

Just like you're talking with an old friend
End at the start and you start at the end
Write me a love song make it all rhyme
Hold me up sometimes we'll be just fine

Listening to our neighbours in the garden
Grow their family tree
Sometimes I feel like I'm just killing time here
Or maybe it's killing me

Just like you're talking with an old friend
End at the start and you start at the end
Write me a love song make it all rhyme
Hold me up sometimes we'll be just

Just like we're talking with an old friend
End at the start and we'll start at the end
Write me a love song make it all rhyme
Hold me up sometimes we'll be just fine

Red Deer Day

For the longest time I've imagined I
Am alone and now it's real
Didn't know how it'd feel
Now I picture us as we once were
Lying side by side and breathless
Thinking all this time was endless

I'm alright or I will be in time
I'm alright

The time we took acid in the woods
I was so in love with everything
I put it down to oxygen in my brain
You felt the same
Told you I'm alright with a small life
And that wasn't a word of a lie at the time
Tell your brother I'll be alright
Or that I will be in time
In time

I don't have words for this new verse
Probably something about you again
Wanna call and get your thoughts on it
But I don't 'cause we're not in love
As of really really recently
Still trying to get used to it

I'm alright or I will be in time
I'm alright
I'm alright or I will be in time
I'm alright

Just because it hasn't gone to plan
Doesn't mean it's gone to waste
Picture me whatever way you can
Remembering has a place
Picture me whatever way you can
Remember me as a place

I'm alright or I will be in time
I'm alright
I'm alright or I will be in time
I'm alright

Half Finished

On the train home from two days away from you
I play the start of your half-finished song
I try figuring out what you're singing about
I hope it's not something I've done
Watching the world outside moving too fast
Makes me wonder if we are as well
I told you I love you and mean it completely
I just can't say the same to myself

I have insomnia you have a job
That you hate, four to five days a week
You're gone when I wake up at midday to bright light
That tells me I'm lazy and weak
You ask me if I could change one thing about myself
What would it be, and why?
I tell you I don't know but sometimes
I can't help but picture a whole different life

We miss every sunset we set out to see
Under birds flying south from the cold
They make it look easy to move with the seasons
But change isn't easy to hold
If you get the feeling like this ain't worth keeping
I'll never stand in your way
Thank you for leaving a space without speaking
Sometimes there's just nothing to say

He's got tickets to see a band no one knows
She's got my name on a shirt that she's never worn, and won't
They've got a fear of things changing but I don't mind
I made no promises that I would stay but I'll try

He's got tickets to see a band no one knows
She's got my name on a shirt that she's never worn, and won't
They've got a fear of things changing but I don't mind
You made no promises that you would stay but you tried

He's got tickets to see a band no one knows
She's got my name on a shirt that she's never worn, and won't
They've got a fear of things changing but I don't mind
I made no promises that I would stay but I'll try

Dial Tone

(Big Picture Expanded Edition Bonus Track)

Say goodbye to what you know
I've been unhappy
But not in the way that you are expecting when you listen
Steady as a dial tone

I'm the best liar I know and I know a few
Like when I say I had a great day
My room has the clearest view of nothing
Though that's nothing new

I don't wanna wait up
I don't wanna get older
Everyone I love will leave
And I'll cry on whose shoulder
I wanna see you wake up
I wanna see you get well
I wanna see your whole life
And I never will

Recognise your face in cars
You're always smiling
I hope you're happy where you are finally and always
'Cause we're all trying

I don't wanna wait up
I don't wanna get older
Everyone I love will leave
And I'll cry on whose shoulder
I wanna see you wake up
I wanna see you get well
I wanna see your whole life
And I never will

Hollywood And Fear

(Big Picture Expanded Edition Bonus Track)

You're always on my mind even when I think you're not
Were you there the night I felt the thought begin to cross
Hold me in your arms like someday you know you won't
When it's hard

Both the places we come from are tangled up in blue
To clear a path we walk down arm in arm is all I do
But I count the pain of every day like pennies in a jar
And it's hard

Since before I learnt to, I've believed in an idea
I don't blame you, I don't blame me, I blame Hollywood and fear
We said a lot and settled on, the door's closed but it's here
This is hard, this is hard

Am I getting better or am I doing time
Am I holding on to your life more tightly than to mine
Do I want to be right or to be kind

Maybe if this really is the end I'll see you there
Maybe we can help each other feel like once we cared
To the swimming song, chlorine my eyes but keep it fair
'Cause it's hard, 'cause it's hard

Am I getting better or am I doing time
Am I holding on to your life more tightly than to mine
Do I want to be right or to be
Getting better or am I doing fine
Am I holding on to your life more tightly than to mine
Do I want to be right or to be kind

Cathedral

(Big Picture Expanded Edition Bonus Track)

Heavy breathing and a burning car
Sit for a minute with the headlights off
Come on, man, what are you waiting for

Nothing changes in a place like this
Put all your money on a shot that missed
And everyone else has got a wife and kids
You never wanted that and then you did but

Come on, man, what are you waiting for
One day passes then a hundred more
When they leave they leave nothing at all
Nothing at all

Love is easy with the TV on
Listen to voices coming through the walls
Something about the way they rise and fall
Makes you feel like you could've had it all so

Come on, man, what are you waiting for
One day passes then a hundred more
When they leave they leave nothing at all

Nothing at all

4

(Big Picture Expanded Edition Bonus Track)

Someone put a letter through my door
Talking about some guy called Jesus
I put it on my refrigerator
Who knows some day I might need it

They believe in him like I believe in you
Baby it's as simple as 2+2
I guess we don't really know what we're looking for
'Til we have everything and still want more

In-flight movies always make me cry
Something about being in motion
The earth below me is a reason why
As much as any word being spoken

Sometimes I wish I could be more like you
It's not always as simple as 2+2
I guess I don't really know what I'm waiting for
I could have everything and still want more

Would you defend me like a point of view
Even when both are changing
Do you believe me like the gospel truth
Or is the feeling fading

It's not always as easy as I love you
Not always as simple as 2+2
I guess I don't really know what I'm looking for
You shut your eyes and I shut my door

Please
Hear me out
Please

Win Win

Uh Huh

Home from California
Looking like the hell you've seen
You only brought the clothes you're in
And she missed you and you're older
And you're back laid on her shoulder
Talking about love again

You say it's nothing like the last time
Think I found the real thing
If I only have this one life
It should take the shape I'm in
He just wanted to surround me
I just wanted to believe when he said
"Every time my heart broke
It was leading you to me"

Does it hurt to talk about it, uh huh
'Cause you never thought to doubt it, uh huh
The last time you had, it almost killed you
But you still wanna do this, uh huh

New York City summer
Broke you down in '23
Fire escape unravelling
No escaping, eighty-nine degrees
Couldn't breathe and couldn't sleep
And you could've swore you lost it all
But it all turned out to be
Just one year-long long-distance call

Does it hurt to think about it, uh huh
'Cause you really thought you'd found it, uh huh
Find someone you love and let it kill you
But you still wanna do this, uh huh

How I see it, it's a lonely life without this kind of
Time doesn't heal everything, but it tries

He lost you forever
When you ended that last call
She turned out to be the one he needed after all
Love should be described more as a climb than as a fall

Will it hurt to think about it, uh huh
And you'll never wanna doubt it, uh huh
The last time you have it, it won't kill you
You still wanna do this, uh huh

Room To Room

You came late, but we came as a pair
She'd drive us round with the windows down
Flying like in air
Eleven years on, you were old, but I was older
Waking up to quiet and her crying on his shoulder

And I hope I get to living soon
But I'll be with what I've lost 'til then
Walking round from room to room to room
Trying to find it

It's not a feeling, more like a hole
Used to be you beside me and now I'm on my own
If loss is like the weather, I hope it clears
While I lie down with what I love, like it's still here

And he'll think this one's about him too
Like a lot of what he hears, I guess
While I'm walking round from room to room to room

And I hope I get to leaving soon
To be with what I’ve lost, 'cause then
I won't walk around from room to room to room
Trying to find it

And I hope I get to living soon
But I'll be with what I've lost 'til then
Walking round from room to room to room
Trying to find it

Sleeping

Someone pointed out I sing a lot about sleeping
Guess I'll have to find a new thing
It’s the one thing I'm not doing
Since you cut me out
I'm still awake in early mornings
Thinking about those early warnings
Kicking myself for ignoring

All the times
You stood right in front of me
Holding up
What you wanted me to be

But do you leave the light on
Do you leave the car running
Do you live the way you did before
Do you still love me
Like when you said you still love
Everyone you ever loved

You kept me around
Long enough to learn my patterns
Blame me for returning to them
Then said it’s not about me, listen
I'm not trying to take you down
Just trying to get back up, back moving
Care less about what I'm proving
Figure out what I am losing

All the time
I spent trying to read your mind
Holding out
For a chance to get it right

So go leave the light on
Go leave the car running
Go live the way you did before
Go say you love me
'Cause like you said you still love
Everyone you ever loved

Waterslide

One, two, three, four

Leaning on the hood again
I count back from Pulaski Bridge
The horizon line, a storage tank and this motel

Bring the coffee to a boil
I know you'll know exactly how much I want
Pour and pour, more and more
On and on

Got a lot of time, I guess
Is something you might say
When I don't want to keep you here
And you don't want to stay
Well, I don't want to tell you something
You don't want to hear
So we got a lot of time, I guess

Hanging out the roof to drive
Head and arms, waterslide
I forgot to warn you
I'm no good at letting go
Listening to sea shells
Hallelujah for a voice that says nothing at all

Got a lot of time, I guess
Is something you might say
When I don't want to keep you here
And you don't want to stay
Well, I don't want to tell you something
You don't wanna hear
So we got a lot of time, I guess

Talk about moving like it's breathing
"Do it with me", she said
Talk about leaving like it's easy
Do it with me, we'll see

Got a lot of time, I guess
Is something I might say
'Cause I don't want to keep you here
If you don't want to stay
Well, I don't want to tell you something
You don't want to hear
So we got a lot of time, I guess

Got a lot of time
Got a lot of time

Stranger Things

There must be stranger things than finding you
I just haven't found them yet
There must be stranger things to love than you
I just haven't found them yet

If there are stranger things to fall into
Then I haven't fallen yet
There must be stranger things than losing you
I just haven't found them yet

Meeting you off that plane
Having you feel like home
Letting you say you'd never leave
You didn't know

There must be stranger things than finding you
I just haven't found them yet
There must be stranger things than wanting to
I don't want them yet

If there are stranger things than losing you
And I haven't found them yet
Then I'll tell myself we're all just passing through
And get tangled up again
Stretch out in the heat
Willing myself into a dream complete

A little right, a little wrong
A little life ticking on
Nothing's lost, nothing's won
Nothing's going, nothing's gone

Thank You Sorry

You thank me for a good year and go
And you say it like you have to leave
You're sorry for the good parts
As well as what you really did wrong
But it's all the same to me

You hold me for the last time
At the airport, you hate so much
In a city you'll never leave

It's a short flight in a tall sky
It's a red eye, took a lifetime
It took me further from where I wanna be

I don't hate you
I never had the heart to
When all you wanted to be
Was a part of a whole
And all you wanted from me
Was not to feel nothing at all

You call me for the last time
On July fourth, on a bad line
The irony isn't lost on me
Say you're trying to break habits
For a family you don't have yet
That you can't imagine having with me
But all you're really quitting is me

I don't blame you
I never got the chance to
All you wanted to be
Was a part of a whole
And all you wanted from me
Was not to feel nothing at all

Well, all I wanted to be
Was a part of a whole
And all you wanted for me
Was to be nothing at all

Franz

Listening to Franz Wright
Thinking out loud at the end of his life
On learning how to die
How will he know how to say goodbye
When he's living around people who haven't

And like a lot
It reminded me of you
How I'm living around people who haven't
Felt like I did when I found you

Say you got me a surprise
It's waiting out in the car
I follow you outside
And in dying light
You show me words that
Changed your life

Now I'm living around people who haven't
And everything is reminding me of you
Now I'm living around people who haven't
Felt like I did when I found you

And there's nothing that can help this kind of hurting
And there's nothing I saw coming that didn't happen
And there's nothing I want now that I don't have it
But someone sometime is going to hear me

Hear me say
"Looks like we made it" when we're old and faded
Love long 'cause just like "Can't Hardly Wait" did
I became something you play wrong

God, you hardly waited
Now it's old and faded
Love wrong, but
I meant it when I said it
I want to love long

Two Ways

Look into the room and this is what I saw
Chairs staring at the floor
Facedown, a book in a beam and on the sill
Your cigarette still burning

Silent scene so long ago and he was right
There are two ways of letting go

Make it up as we go, making time for nothing at all
And I don't want a lot, but what I want, I want it all
Isn't much, it never was

Silently so long ago and he was right
There are two ways of letting go
There always was

Stay steady for me, give me time to understand
Why you left the window open like you did
You're letting all the sky in
You're letting all the heat out
You're letting me believe in other things

Cupboard Song

I can trace back why I'm scared of the dark
A boy at a party thought it would be funny
To lock me away and then leave and it's hard
To understand why that's something I keep with me

What if the world hadn't carried on
What if nobody had come along

I feel the same when I think about you
And then I try not to
But that doesn't stop me

From wanting to go back and meet you again
You thought I was funny, I thought you were married
Driving me home, you said, "Ask anything"
That night and every night since
I thought that I had, but there’s one thing I missed

Is this love you have getting old
Tell me the truth at the tone
Is this everything that you want
Or a long alone

Does it feel like it did before
Does it hurt 'cause you already know
Know a long alone

Tell me the one about seeing the moon
When I was too young to know what I'd forget
I said it's because of the sun and it's true
Please, just remind me again

I want to feel like I'm brand new
Before I wanted three words and you wanted four
I love you's not enough
We need to talk

I don't want to lose you, I'll do anything
You say, "I don't want you"
But that doesn’t stop me
And then I stop trying
And that's when it hits me

Is this love you have getting old
Tell me the truth at the tone
Is this everything that you want
Or a long alone

Does it feel like it did before
Does it hurt 'cause you already know
Know a long alone

In Life And On Planes

You were right
I don't write nearly enough anymore
Something about the start and the end of a feeling
Make more sense to me than the feeling itself

In life and on planes
That's how I said I wanted you
Something about a less obvious way of saying "I love you"
Makes more sense than saying "I do"

We stop as you pass the house you grew up
Say that was my room
Something about it makes me
Want to know you when you're old

But I hear you got everything you say that you wanted
And it suits you
Like it didn't when you wore me
Like you'd never wear me out

You say that you've got me, then you let go
Blink and I missed it, say it ain't so
Break or be broken's not how it goes
Now I know everything I know

You say you feel stupid, well, so do I
For holding you one last time while you cry
And waving the taxi off as you go
Now I know everything I know

Tell me the difference in being alone
And being around you and still on my own
How will I ever feel that I'm home
Now I know everything I know

I don't belong to other people now...

Non Albums Tracks

Christmas Alone

You sleep the whole drive
When you wake up we're home
And I hold you in both arms to me
Under my coat
It's the same coming back
As it is every year
But somehow the house I grew up in
Feels brand new just having you here
Snow angels in the garden
Even without the snow
You made the impossible possible
How could I know it'd get this cold

I want the same thing now that I did back then
I want it to go on forever, never end
I wanna give you something you won't wanna give away
I wanna be home just us together just today

You didn't feel gone
Til this Christmas alone
No one to keep warm
No one to kiss under mistletoe
'Cause you're miles away now
Maybe you always were
But I think of you sometimes
Like when I hear songs about peace on earth

I want the same thing now that I did back then
I want it to go on forever, never end
I wanna give you something you won't wanna give away
I wanna be home just us together just today
I wanna be home just us together on Christmas day

Chump

(Jumbo feat. Fenne Lily)

I was tallying foibles
Contently mediocre
Underneath a barrage of expectations
Other people interrupt with
I wish they'd let me focus
On maintaining my mirage of worth
I know you've got something to say
But you won't trick me with those made up words

As you tip toe round a problem
As subtle as bear trapping steps
You can pretend you don't hear me
But I can't abide your descent
You can look away
But you can't trick them from a made up world

I had many disguises, I burned them all
Now my mind doesn't imagine anymore
Scream your worth and make it gutteral
You'll be sorry to find you're the only one, Chump

Waiting to be what you wanted
Willing to wait and waste in time
Fixing your view on a waste land
Closing your eyes just to find
It's the same exact thing...

Dark Circles

(Hrishikesh Hirway feat. Fenne Lily / In The Last Hour Of Light LP)

Fenway Park, eleven years old
The whole crowd sings words you don't know
There's nothing like "Born in the USA"
To relive the feeling you had that day

Five years on, parked in her car
Talking about what you never were
You ask the question, you knew it would hurt
She'd like you more if you were more like her

"I'm on Fire" plays while she drives
Brings back the feeling you've had all your life

You're far away now
Too small, too dark
Circle around
All of thе places you found
Where your voicе fades out

Turning around the sound of your name
Quiet around strangers on planes
Careful to be who you think that they want
Careful to stay in the lines you've drawn

Dance in the dark again, eyes on the floor
Spin till you can't feel the weight anymore

You're far away now
Too small, too dark
Circle around
All of the places you've found
Where your voice fades out

Till it's far away now
Too small, too dark
Circle around
All of the places you've found
Let it all fade out

Disintegrate

(WildPink feat. Fenne Lily / Dulling The Horns LP)

I'm just like an eagle
Flying down Meeker
On a rented e-bike
I don't have to try

You don't believe me when I say
I could've had it either way
Every good and bad
Thing will have to pass

There must be a long-ass German word
For when you've destroyed something good
Something you used to love
But had to let go of

You don't believe me when I say
I could've had it either way
Every good and bad
Thing will have to pass

What a blur it's been
The way my head spins
What a mess I'm in
Every morning

Have We Met Before

(Tom Rosenthal feat. Fenne Lily / Z-Sides LP)

Are you thinking
Is she close
Do you struggle with umbrellas
Are you leaving
Are you home
Have you timed this badly
Have we met before

Are you staying
Did you fall
Can you count to ten in German
Can you whisper
Can you lie
Did you design your own website
Have we met before

Are you sleeping
Are you wise
What can you see from your window
Are you hungry
Are you calm
Are you on a great adventure
Have we met before

Are you reading
Did you choose
Can you see into the future
Are you listening
Are you scared
Will you know it when you see it
Have we met before

Hypochondriac

These conversations I have with myself
Only as hard as I make them
These complications I have with my health
Only go as far as I take them

So leave it out
We're all sick of waiting for a moment to stop and sleep it off

All instigators of a terrible touch
Caught my eye and then they threw it back
And these are trying times but I'll get by in my machine
Oh man it hurt so bad I don't feel anything

So leave it out
We're all sick of waiting for a moment to stop and sleep it off
I'm freaking out
Now I'm sick and waiting for a moment to stop and not feel so much

Look alive
Look alive
Look alive
Look alive

So leave it out
We're all sick of waiting for a moment to leave it out
So leave it out
We're all sick of waiting for a moment to stop and sleep it off
I'm freaking out
Now I'm sick and waiting for a moment to stop and not feel so much

In The Bleak Midwinter

(based on "A Christmas Carol", a poem by Christina Rossetti)

In the bleak midwinter frosty winds made moan
Earth stood hard as iron. Water like a stone
Snow had fallen, snow on snow, snow on snow
In the bleak midwinter, long ago

Angels and archangels may have gathered there
Cherubim and seraphim thronged the air
But His mother only, in her maiden bliss
Worshipped the beloved with a kiss

What can I give Him, poor as I am
If I were a shepherd, I would bring a lamb
If I were a wise man, I would do my part
Yet what can I give Him
Give my heart

Give my heart
Give my heart
Give my heart
Give my heart

Leave A Light On

Once was enough
Realised everything turns to dust
Everything to dust
I lied in your words
When you said everyone has to go
Everybody goes

When the night is falling I can barely look in your eyes
I wanna say a thousand things that I could never describe

I wanted everything to never end
Can we start again and leave a light on
Leave a light on
I waited every day, you never came
To set it straight, I'll leave a light on
Leave a light on

Her face in a crowd
Faded now but I can't figure out
I can't figure out
Alone with the smell
Of your hands, never was enough
Never was enough

When the night is falling I can barely look in your eyes
I wanna say a thousand things that I could never describe

I wanted everything to never end
Can we start again and leave a light on
Leave a light on
I waited every day, you never came
To set it straight, I'll leave a light on
Leave a light on

Every time I look in your eyes
I know that you're the only one I can call
Do you realise that for me
You never really went at all

I wanted everything to never end
Can we start again and leave a light on
Leave a light on
I waited every day, you never came
To set it straight, I'll leave a light on
Light on

Polly You Should See Me Now

(Langkamer feat. Fenne Lily / West Country LP)

A lot of leaves out in the garden
A lot of roots down in the ground
A lot of light's gonna come in shining
When the tree comes falling down

Live the way you showed me how
Polly, you should see me now
Polly, you should see me now

A lot of water in the ocean
A lot of rain up in the sky
A lot of seeds gonna get to growing
Once the storm clouds roll on by

Live the way you showed me how
Polly, you should see me now
Polly, you should see me now

Rollercoaster

(Hrishikesh Hirway feat. Uwade & Fenne Lily / In The Last Hour Of Light LP)

Out on Catalina
There's a hundred buffalo
Penned in by the ocean
The only home they'll know
Do they dream the Great Plains
As they breathe in the salt air
Can you miss the place you're meant to be
If you were never there
Does it go on and on and on
What if this goes on and on and on

Caught myself staring
Into nothing much at all
Passed the fairground, the graveyard
The empty shopping mall
I drove till the road
Ended in the county bеach
Felt the distance bеtween me and
Everything that's out of reach
Does it go on and on and on
What if this goes on and on and on

On a rollercoaster ride
Up against the open sky
What if this goes on and on and on

What if this goes on and on and on
(On a rollercoaster ride)
What if this goes on and on and on
(Up against the open sky)
What if this goes on and on and on
What if this goes on and on and on

Taken

(Muna Cover)

Pulled up a quarter to eleven
Waited a minute till you went in
We talked and then we stopped talking
Put on a song and we listened
You know that I make you nervous
I do it half on purpose
You know that I think you're precious
Yeah, I think you're a good person

So why do I wanna blow up your life?

I'll be a very good girl
I won't even think about it
You know you'd said I can't help it
I know you said you have a girlfriend
I just want it if it's taken
(If it's taken)

Dad left when I was eleven
Mom said it was 'cause he couldn't
Keep from touching other women
Some things have a way of sticking
And now I'm standing in your kitchen
You said you told her you were leaving
And I can't help thinking
I hate you because you're just like him

So why do I have to blow up your life?

I'll be a very good girl
I won't even think about it
I'm just feeling like I can't help it
I know you said you have a girlfriend
I just want it, I just thought that
If I could take it from her
Maybe then it would prove that I'm worth something
Now I'm alone and I'm hurt
Wishing I'd taken you at your word
When you said that you were taken

I'll be a very good girl
I won't even think about it
You know you'd said "I can't help it"
I know you said you have a girlfriend
I just want it if it's taken
I know you said you have a girlfriend
I just want it if it's taken

The Desperate Kingdom Of Love

(PJ Harvey Cover / With Max Jury)

Oh love, you were a sickly child
And how the wind knocked you down
Put on your spurs, swagger around
In the desperate kingdom of love

Holy water cannot help you now
Your mysterious eyes cannot help you
Selling your reason will not bring you through
The desperate kingdom of love

There's another who looks
From behind your eyes
I learn from you how to hide
From the desperate kingdom of love

At the end of this burning world
You'll stand proud, face upheld
And I'll follow you, into heaven or hell
And I'll become as a girl
In the desperate kingdom of love

There She Goes

(The La's cover / Christian Lee Hutson feat. Fenne Lily / The Version Suicides: Volume Three LP)

There she goes
There she goes again
Racing through my brain
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes
There she goes again
Pulsing through my veins
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes
There she goes again
Racing through my brain
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes
There she goes again
She calls my name
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes
There she goes again
Chasing down my lane
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes
There she goes again
She holds my brain
And I just can't contain
This feeling that remains

There she goes
There she goes
There she goes

To Be A Woman Pt. 2

1, 2, 3, don't breathe until I wanna come back
He came home
He came home alive
He came home alive
Tell me do you like it like that
When the moon shines light on a cruel disguise he'll cut you like a panic attack

Oh, don't you let him
Oh, don't you let him

Handshake your namesake while you're lying in the street
She's a liar and a cheat
With a killer's eyes
With a killer's eyes
Surrender to a chemical sleep
Not a screaming rush, not a feeling touch
An ephemeral lover you can't keep

Oh, don't you let him
Oh, don't you let him

Turn down the birds (How does it feel to be alive)
Turn down the bed (How does it feel to be a lie)
Turn down the words (How does it feel to be alive)
Turn down my head (I wanna lie in the dark with you)

Turn down the birds (How does it feel to be alive)
Turn down the bed (How does it feel to be a lie)
Turn down the words (How does it feel to be alive)
Turn down my head (3, 2, 1, you should run)

Oh, don't you let him
Oh, don't you let him

1, 2, 3, don't breathe until I wanna come back
He came home
He came home alive

Tourism

(Henry Jamison feat. Fenne Lily / Tourism EP)

The strip malls can really bring you down
Where will I go and pick my poison
She said I gave her the runaround
Time is pulling me out of the here-and-now

Lauren's in the garden
I'm in the bed
Thinking about the things she said
It's not helping
It's not helping
It's not helping

The club bars can really gin you up
Hendricks or Tanqueray, I'll pick my poison
Back in the van to the Super Eight when we had enough
Time's got me swimming in it

Lauren's in the garden
I'm in the bed
Thinking about the things she said
Not helping
It's not helping
Not helping

All the runaways in my mind
Seemed to run away at the very same time
And it's not helping
It's not helping
It's not helping
It's not helping

Lauren's in the garden
I'm in the bed
Thinking about the things she said
Not helping
It's not helping

It's not Lauren in the garden
It's not me in the bed
Thinking about the things she said
Helping
It's not helping
Helping
It's not helping
Not helping

Unfucktheworld

(Angel Olsen Cover)

I quit my dreaming the minute that I found you
I started dancing just to be around you
Here's to thinking that it all meant so much more
I kept my mouth shut and opened up the door

I wanted nothing but for this to be the end
For this to never be a tied and empty hand
If all the trouble in my heart would only mend
I lost my dream, I lost my reason all again

It's not just me for you, I have to look out, too
I have to save my life, I have no peace of mind
I am the only one now, I am the only one now
I am the only one now, I am the only one now
You may not be around, you may not be around
You may not be around, you may not be around

I wanted nothing but for this to be the end
For this to never be a tied and empty hand
If all the trouble in my heart would only mend
I lost my dream, I lost my reason all again

I quit my dreaming the minute that I found you