Lucy Kruger & the Lost Boys Complete Lyrics Archive

Summer's Not That Simple

Empty Hands

Mama won't you help me find the light
See I thought I hid it safe inside of the night
But the x that marked the spot has worn with age
And all the signs begin to look the same

And I so proud of the secrets that I held
So well I seem to have kept them from myself

Mama did it feel the same for you
Or did your light turn into something new
See mama all the change that I have met
It fills me up then it empties out again

And I so caught on a search for something else
So unaware of the secrets falling out
And when I've finally lost all of my things
What will you do with the empty hands I bring

The world you see
A line you've crossed
A fracture in the space

Time you steal
The love you've cost
A quickening of the pace

The hurt you feel
That once was lost
Has come to show it's face

But nothing's real
Not you nor me
Soon we'll leave this place

Mama won't you help me find the light
See I thought I hid it safe inside of the night
But mama safe has gone and changed her shape
And I can't fit into that homely space

And I so proud of the secrets that I held
So well I seem to have kept them from myself

Black Spot

I'm unable to be kind
With this black spot on my mind's unstable
So I sharpen up my claws
To remove these evening thoughts

In a spare room lit with old moon
A feather comes undone
A little voice is wrung
From a quiet night comes a new fight
To summon up the sound
that would lift me from the ground

And I rise
I write

I'm unwilling to undress
With this cold that plagues my chest
Needs filling so I sink into the wine
To loosen up this spine

In a spare room lit with old moon
A feather comes undone
A little voice is wrung
From a spare heart filled with used parts
The dust begins to fall
The feathers find the floor

And I rise
I write
To feed this fire

I rise
I write
To feed this fire

I rise
I write
To feed this fire

I rise
I write
To feed this fire

On a quiet night seen through closed eyes
There is s nothing but a sound dying to be found
On a quiet night seen through shut eyes
There is s nothing but a sound dying to be found

Could We Leave This

Wind left home sooner than she'd planned
And we're left standing still hands
Will all the dust that's settling down
Still seems so golden when the sun's not around

We take from time we take some more
With things so quiet now it's harder to be sure
If this was where we'd hoped to land
Was it that wild wind that swept away our plans

Could we leave this
Could we leave this

But here we are so here we'll stay
For just a moment perhaps a day
Perhaps a year will be enough
See all the moving becomes so tough

And time has come and time has gone
A visit so short a stay so long
To find the space between the sand
The moments buried in this our precious land

Could we leave this
Could we leave this

With no goodbye and no goodnight
We turn to cold become the night
We are the dust that settled down
We are the golden deep beneath the ground

Could we leave this
Could we leave this

Blue Leaves

Quiet heart beats fast
In still hands with restless plans
Sinking sand, sinking sand

Cool notes to help her float
Sea breeze to send her sleep
Drifting mind, drifting mind

Somewhere in the folds of this nightmare
Somewhere between the pieces that don't care
Is a perfectly frightened child
Is a call to the wild

Wind blows blue leaves
Parts them from the heavy trees
To help them breathe
To help them breathe

Sun cracks frozen clouds
Years of water breaking down
Falling free, falling free

Somewhere in the folds of this nightmare
Somewhere between the pieces that don't care
Is a perfectly frightened child

Is a call to the wild
Is a call to the wild
Is a call to the wild

Grace

I felt it all sink to the floor of me
I've got no Lord keeping it pure for me
Baby I'm tired I'm gonna sleep today
Dream of you boy praying the space away

Sister the sun came to make peace today
Of all we've become
What was there left to say
Baby's not done
Her place is all set to stay
Thoughts on the run in a mind that will keep its place

Lover the lines stay so untouched today
Fearful of rhymes that sing an uneasy phrase
I've got no words just an unholy taste
A seed in the earth
Waiting on God's empty grace

Strange Words

If I start with strange words
If I let my fingers lead
Would the truth slip out of me
Would reason let me be

If I wrote the same lines
Till I was half asleep
Would I wake to find the prayer
That reason keeps from me
that he hides from me

I could write about the sea
And the many ways in which she moves me
I could sing about the wind
And the wild voice with which she calls me in

If I walked on far off roads
Till I couldn't feel my feet
Would reason give me rest
In the collapse of dreams

If I walked on far off roads
Till I could barely breathe
Would reason give me rest
In the collapse of dreams
Sweet madness take the lead

I could write about the sea
And the many ways in which she moves me
I could sing about the wind
And the wild voice with which she calls me in
But all that I can feel is a pull towards my bed
To quiet the conversation forever in my head

The wind keeps me up
The sea can't be seen
Mother turns her back
I turn the key
Reason keeps me

Winter

Winter couldn't come sooner
These thoughts couldn't be less suited to the heat
And I've tried to give myself to Summer
But she won't have me
She won't have me

Boy you best speak louder
You're fighting with some pretty wild noise
And I love you in your quietness
But now I need sound, now I need sound
I need to know you're still around

I opened up my pale arms
I couldn't be more naked if I tried
And I love your charcoal layers
But now I need skin
Now I need skin

Lover gift me violence
Throw your hands your voice into the air
And let's wreck this wicked silence
So we can hear the thunder ring
So we can see what lightning brings
I wanna feel the rain's sting
On bare bones laced limbs

Summer

Summer's not that simple for me darling
When you leave the room please draw the curtains
Is Summer easy for you darling
Have you kissed the pretty face of morning

Summer's not that simple for me darling
Somehow I seemed to miss the calling
Now all the girls have been enlightened
But I slept late and I'm behind them

But with it all so bright
It's getting harder to get by
with it is just a phase
And there'll be better days

Now all the girls have all gone golden
‘Cause they have let the Summer hold them
And if I just don't ever see them
Well I can pretend I don't ever wanna be them

But with it all so bright
It's getting harder to get by
with it is just a phase
And there'll be better days

She says
I'm the best you'll get
And there's a special kind of regret
For the ones who hide
From my perfect sky
For the ones who hide
From the light

Ghost

My love my little ghost
My heart my sinking boat
We've built our bridge in the middle of nowhere
So let's burn it down and get to the ground

I know that words are slow sometimes
I know the weight of the things on your mind
So I fall quiet admiring the timber burning fast
Flames rising higher and higher

And no one found the smoke as lovely as we did
All they could see was a fatal fire
We watched the night slip just like we did
We'd coax the warmth back into our bones

My dark my heavy hand
My light my fearful plan
When all this goes will we still remember
How to burn, how to fight

I know this home is cold sometimes
But it's a home that is yours and it's mine
So I fall quiet admiring the embers growing cold
Flames getting tired so tired

And no one found the smoke as lovely as we did
All they could see was a failed fire
We watched the night slip just like we did
We'd coax the warmth back into our bones

My Love

Fire on the edge of my tongue
I'm too un-young to always wanna be on the run
Spiders are shedding their skin
But I ain't got the legs and I ain't built my web

My love so all alone
When all your hands can't seem to hold me
The fight grew dull tonight
And all my love can't seem to shake you
And this little fire can't seem to wake you

Quiet on the edge of my limbs
The sounds that grow seem to wilt before they show
And I'm too cold to undress this skin
So the layers begin to lose the soft within

My love so all alone
When all your hands can't seem to hold me
The fight drew dull tonight
And all my love can't seem to shake you
And this little fire can't seem to wake you

Fort

And I'm hardly one who should talk
But my love your words have become so short
And my thoughts they've become so long
And the longer I leave them, the further they run

Are you quietly building a fort
Storing up all your evenings in case of a war
Well I've lost all of my fight
I have lost all of my fight

And I'm searching the spaces between
for words that I missed that I thought I had seen
And I'm sure there is Something
Ssomething, something to find
Is it there in your fort
Does it live in your mind

Are you quietly hiding, hiding
Hiding from time
Hoping she slips up , slips up
And leaves off the light

Have you lost all of your fight
Have we lost all of our fight
Have we lost all of our fight

Sleeping Tapes for Some Girls

The Ocean at Night

Don't figure me out
How lovely is my veil
How curious my tail

Don't figure me out
How drifting is my song
How perfect is this longing

You swim inside my night
I watch you from my lighthouse
Inside of my bed
Inside of my head

Don't figure me out
All that you have shown
Rests in my alone
All of your unknown
Burns inside my bones

And swims inside my night
I watch you from my lighthouse
Inside of my bed
Inside of my head

Don't figure me out
Don't figure me out

'Cause if you find you know me
And you cannot love me
Then neither can I
Said the moon to the sky
You are the ocean at night
You are the ocean at night

Mary

Time is pressing on my chest
And it leaves no room
For the hands of the woman
Who could undress

This short and violent breath gets heavy
When you're near me
Feel it swim to the surface
As you disappear

I'm made of stone
Could you kiss this cold
I'm made of stone
Could you shatter these bones

I'd sing you, Mary, on a Sunday
But I get so sad when my fingers do not know the way
I'm afraid it's too late to learn to play
I'm afraid it's too late to learn to say
Stay

I'm made of stone
Could you kiss this cold
I'm made of stone
Could you shatter these bones
I'm feeling old and I want to be alone
Except when I don't
Except when I Don't

Digging a Hole

I'm trying to let you in
I'm twenty-eight and I'm terrified of everything
And I'm quite sure you're everything
We stood in the kitchen
Your hands burning me burning me
I'm too old to feel so young
Won't you help me come undone

I fled from the wild
And I'm miles away from home
And your fingers feel like rope
To have to hold to save to choke
And to let go
When we can't hold these bones
To let go
When there's no breath to float

And if we sunk below
And if we slipped from our clothes

Then our Sunday wouldn't have to go
Our Sunday wouldn't have to go
And leave us alone

Maybe I made this up
There's no river to drown in
It's all dried up
And you'll find me digging a hole
You should go
I've nothing to show
You should go
I've no breath to promise you
To follow through

And I can't sink below
I can't seem to slip from my clothes
No, I can't sink below
I can't seem to slip from my clothes

So this Sunday will have to go
Like the other Sundays that had to go
And leave us alone

Half of a Woman

I feel like half of a woman
I feel like half of a woman

I feel like half of a woman
Waltzing with the shell of a human
Can't remember how to dance

Split me from the sky to my belly
Stuff my limbs with sand and confetti
As the song spins round and round
Here amongst the lost and found

I feel like half of a woman
I feel like half of a woman

Want to know what's at the bottom
Drain the water from the ocean
So I can shop the sweet debris
Pin it up for all to see

I feel like half of a woman
I feel like half of a woman

Stitch me from the moon to my stomach
Silver thread to tighten my gullet
Keep my thoughts from slipping down
Keep my voice from falling out
I feel like half of a woman
Waltzing with the spell of a human
Want to find what's been forgotten
Secret slaughter deepest devotion
Sweetest daughter treading water
To the sound that found and fought her
To the song that came and caught her
And she spins round and round
Here amongst the lost and found

I feel like half of a woman
I feel like half of a woman
The waves have all but gone
The waves have all but gone

Cotton Clouds

There's candy on the water
How sweet the evening slaughter
And they are building nests
Impressions of our Sunday best

There's candy on the water
And all the love gets cold here
Oh how to eat the sky
Before the feeling dies

So we can't fool ourselves
And when the moon slips from the clouds
I want to shine to my sleeping sigh
To those drifting cries

These cotton clouds
Will smother you somehow
This pink will burn your mouth
You foolish child

Beloved Root

Looked up to the moon
How could it be full so soon
Wasn't it just the other day
A sliver tucked away behind the cloud that
Pulled our evening down

Looked into the blue
In the middle of your room
Isn't this just another way
To drain the hours from the day
From the cloud that pulled our evening down

Beloved root
Beloved ground
Our violent days a sign
A bullet hole through the night

Wasn't it just the other day
Your music used to play
Was it the sound that pulled our evening down

Beloved root
Beloved ground
I drank away
And caused the drop

And I've tried to spit this out
But I ain't tried my sweet is sound
I've tried to spit this out
But I ain't tried my sweet is sound
I've tried to spit this out
But I ain't tried my sweet is sound
And we missed our finest hour

Looked up to the moon
How could it be full so soon
Wasn't it just the other day
A sliver tucked away behind the cloud that
Pulled our evening down

The Colour of Dirt

I take off my dress
To inspect my skin
I suppose I know
Blood flows within

I know because of what I've heard
Of a colour of love, a colour of dirt

What are the mix
I'm trying to clone
The silk and the soft
From the girls in town

I'm able to put my ear to my chest
I can only guess, I can only guess

I cannot escape it
Yet I have made it
I cannot explain it
But I'm trying to name it

I see the moon
Does the moon see me
Does the moon see the warmth
That I long to see

I see the moon
Does the moon see me
Does the moon see the warmth
That I long to be

I see the moon
Does the moon see me
Does the moon see me
Does the moon see me

Electric Applause

How do I write you a song
How do I tear a hole in the skull
Everything that I do
Holds something of you
Now I'm running on empty

Pink was the colour that I own
And I covered my holes in glitter and gold
And I stuck in my wings
Held together with string
To fly or to fall
To electric applause

How do I write you a song
How do I tear a hole in the sea
Everything that I do
Holds something of you
Now I'm running on empty

Blue is the breath in my lungs
As I turn from away that couldn't be undone
Was it something we did
Was it something we said
In the seconds between
The living and dead

Oh, black was the colout of the clouds
As I lifted my head to watch them break down
It was I to impose a story so bold
On the gods and their plans
On the sea, the sky and your hand

Nicola's Lullaby

I hope
That you sleep
And dream of fish that swim out your mouth
Without a sound

I hope
That you sleep
That all the salts that cause you hurt
Turn to water

You're the oceans daughter
And you can rest now
Let yourself sink down

I hope
That you sleep
And dream of birds that shake the clouds
That fill this house

I hope
That you sleep
That all the words that cause you pain
Wash away

You're the evening rain
And you can rest now
Let yourself sink down

You can grieve now
Bounds like prayer child

Holding up the Ceiling

Pretty girls are always in a rush
Guess they always got somewhere to be
Thought I'd find myself a room
Fill it up with sleep

But I'm finding it hard to breathe
My hair is bent from all these dreams
Blue breath from holding up the ceiling
Bones that want to let me go

I'm all they know
And I'm finding it hard to believe
There's a skin that separates me
From the night that wouldn't leave

I sound is this enough
A quick breath are all a coaster in my chest
Sleep now
It's been a while
A slow breath, an ocean in my chest

Transit Tapes
(For Women Who Move Furniture Around)

Braille

I listen to you speak
My body gives nothing away
My stride stays the same
But a puncture the size of your words
Is here in my chest
A floodgate of breath

Braille
Bile
The twist of a stomach
A blue dye
To show up the fault lines
The old signs

I listen to you speak
The words lose their shape
The streets lose their name
And a river of tar
Is filling your mouth
Is drowning us out

Braille
Bile
The twist of a stomach
A blue dye
To show up the fault lines
The old signs

Evening Train

Would you find it strange
If I touched your face with my winter hands
Look how close we're standing on this evening train
Would it be fine if we stayed
Where I can feel your warmth
And my lungs expanding

Oh God I'm terrified of landing
Could it be there's been a misunderstanding

If I fell asleep, would I wake to familiar arms
Lifting me out of this car into a single bed
Where the morning would clear my head
Of all the things that I'd dreamt

You are every man made of concrete plans
Full of walls and doors and sturdy ceilings
I am sinking sand, I am barren land
I am quietly stranded, I am barely breathing
Could it be that these feelings have been misleading

If I fell asleep, would I wake to familiar arms
Lifting me out of this car into a single bed
Where the Morning, would clear my head
Of all the things that I'd dreamt

If I touched your cheek
Could you be the passage light
Guiding my eyes in the night 'til I drift away
And the morning could wake me up
To tell me that she'd stay

A Stranger's Chest

To lay my head on a stranger's chest
An island of bones
To make this ocean feel like home

See I've been figuring out
How much I've come to turn things down
For fear of spilling out
For fear of speaking much too loud

To lay my dress on a stranger's bed
A blanket of skin
To keep me warm
To keep me in

See I've been figuring out
How much I've come to turn things down
For fear of spilling out
For fear of speaking much too loud
Now my voice has fallen out
Can you teach me how to shout

Or dissolve me into sound
Of the birds of the bees
Of the murderous waves
As she flees from the scene
To the guiltless embrace
Of the sand of the sea

Now she's all that she was meant to be
I'm so afraid of what she'll think of me
That I can barely breathe
And I can hardly speak
And what if she can't hear me
If I never let her near me

A House

Seems we're building a house
The words fell like stones from our mouths
Which side of the door did we land
When our soft hands drew up these plans

Hold your eyes from the windows
Backs align backs standing below
How cruel can it feel when the breeze blows
And I'm tucked in this bed, in this head

Seems we're putting our walls built from
Times and tricks learned in previous wars
How could we have been so terribly sure
We wouldn't lock ourselves up, like we've both done before

Hold your eyes from the windows
Backs align backs standing below
How cruel it can feel when the breeze blows
And I'm tucked in this bed, in this head

How to lose these bricks like
Bones that sow our celling
Disguised so greenly in a picture book
The TV screen, oh

Read to me about my feelings
So fall of sleep and I'm dream believing and
When I wake will you believe me or
Will you accuse me while you need it

The Ceiling

If I slipped on this particular tile
I'd lie here for a while
The blue and white
Pulling me back to December nights
Where hands would wash the sun and sand
Make it all alright

If I fell on this unfamiliar floor
I wouldn't ask for more
Than a stranger's hand
Tell me who is a gentle man
When you're far from home
When you're on your own

Oh the air is cool beneath this ceiling
You could come down here
And share my feelings
I've got plenty to spare
And it seems I'm not going anywhere soon
Perhaps you've nothing better to do too

Would you let me lie
I am somebody else in someone else's mind
And there is no time
And there is only time
What's in your eyes
Is there anything but signs
To something else in someone else's mind
I know I called you in
But I think you should get out
I know I sent you out
But perhaps I need you now
See nothing moves inside this house
And the walls are speaking much too loud

And the air is cold beneath this ceiling
Won't you come down here and warm my feelings
I've got plenty to spare
And it seems I'm not going anywhere soon
Perhaps there's no way for you to leave too

Tired

How many times in a day
Can I reasonably say I'm tired
And how many times can I try
In my right mind to relight this old fire

You see I'm sitting in the rain
The roof it blew away so many yesterdays
And from the window pane
I watch the children run away
Quick like flames this is the game

But I don't want to play
I want to stay right here in my miserable state
Don't go on lying
I am desperate for change, but I am desperate to feel safe

And love is not the same as knowing
About these dusty halls and these creaking floorboards
And the sound it makes as you shut the door
'Cause you're tired of how I talk and talk and talk and talk
About how I'm trying

A Paper Boat

She says she's fine
She's the kindest liar
She says I mind
And I should keep my fire

But she's cold
And she's out there on her own

She stretched her limbs
So she could touch the leather
Into the clouds
So she moved, disappear

I watched her fall on the bed
Like a paper boat
I felt her sink
Forced the spill of ink

If I held you closer
Than I was supposed to
When I leave
How much of you do I take with me

I'd wait here longer
There's nothing wrong
It's just the morning crease
Still you're nowhere near to sleep with

I've slipped into a dream
I'm halfway across the sea on a
Ship that you helped build for me

A Cellar Door

I haven't done anything wrong today
I haven't done anything at all
Here in my dress until the evening falls
A safety net a cellar door

To house these ancient thoughts
Watch me comb my hair
With a blunt knife
How do I look
In the dimming light

I haven't done anything bad today
Except to watch the shadows play
Tug at the edges of my pleated skirt
Pull my knees towards the dirt

To spill these ancient thoughts
Watch me trace my lips
With a sharp knife
How do I look in the last light

I've gone out for a walk
At the bottom of the ocean floor
There's more to see than from the shore
Don't wait for me to call
See I've something that I'm looking for
And it's not in those empty halls
I've pressed my ears against your walls
And nothing calls
This is a quiet war

To save these ancient thoughts
Watch me cut my hair
With a sharp knife
How do I look in the white light

Promised Land

I haven't found an illusion
That works for me
I haven't found a common ground
That stays beneath my feet
I'm in sinking sand
And the Promised Land
Is barely a mirage
Too small to fall apart
And God is still a man
And I'm still fearful of his plans

I haven't found a season
That splits my seed
I feel the corners curling here
Between my sheets
Dressed in cotton wool
A baby tooth a plastic pearl
And when this pale chest is full
I'll pluck you out song
And you can sing along

I cut of all my hair to find the boy in me
I twisted up my legs to hide the best of me
I'm a greedy girl
And my limbs are full
Why don't you come into my room
And see what you can use

A Ringing

I hear a ringing
Feel a familiar singing
Oh could it be
She's already ready for me to leave

Too many mouths
To feed to speak to kiss in this house
And if I just walked out
Could the plants learn to water themselves
Why can't we leave them in the ground
The way that they were found

But it's true
It feels like something new
Then again I've felt that way before
And that willow tree turned into a door
I'm not sure
If it's a root a rope a string a chord
What do I mean
When I say I want something more

A Window

The curtain covers the night
But the window stays open wide
I can feel the air on my thighs
A message slipped from the sky
Calling me

To a labyrinth of pleasure and doubt
With my teeth bared
Skirt spinning out
Down the stairs and out of this house
Down the stairs and into the mouth
Of the perfect unknown
Of the desperate alone

Oh lover what do I do
When my heart forgets how to move
When my shadow clings to this room
But my skins wants hands that are new

To help me unfold
To loosen this hold
To sink and dissolve
To warm up these bones

Oh mother how do I choose
When to fasten and when to undo
All these ribbons
violet and blue
All these reasons
violent and true

Calling me home
Calling me home
Calling me home
Calling me home

Warm II

When we met you had just woken up
Your eyes were soft from sleep
When you looked up
To meet me
To meet me

Something split inside this pale chest
Fuck
What a mess
Beating
Reeling

And it's as warm as I'd ever been
Flushed
Dressed in feeling
Could you see it
Could you see

That I was seconds away from spilling everything
Moments away from telling you anything

And when you sat close to me
I swear to God I could barely breathe
Could you hear me

Now I want to write you songs
I want to send you books
Anything to make you listen
Make you look
Deeply
Towards mе

And I know that I hardly know you
But I want you
And it's not just a tease
And it's not just a taunt
Therе is gravity
In this body

That is seconds away from spilling everything
Moments away from telling you anything
To draw you in

And when I leave
When I go
I'm not your home
I know
I know

There is a string between you and me
And it pulls my bones from across the sea
Can you feel it
Can you feel

That I am seconds away from spilling everything
Moments away from telling you anything
Seconds away from spilling everything
Moments away from telling you anything

To draw you in
To keep you in

Teen Tapes
(for performing your own stunts)

Warm

She makes me feel
So fucking warm
She takes me back
To the highschool corridor
During a summer thunderstorm
I've got no words
I've got no breath
I'm a mess
I'm a mess
And I don't know how to play
And I don't know if this is okay

But if it is
Then won't you stay
If it is then let me stay
I want to hear the things you say
And feel the way you change the space
You shift the light in every way
How do I get the night to slow her pace

‘Cause you make me feel
So fucking warm
You take me back
To the highschool corridor
During a summer thunderstorm
I've got no words
I've got no breath
I'm a mess
I'm a mess
And there's nothing I want more
And there's nothing I want more

Risk

I came to find a friend
To interrupt the ending
I didn't know it then
How skilfully I could pretend

Thought I would stay the same
A reptile dressed in cotton
Shy of the summer sun
The heat of hands so long forgotten

There was an open door
The room was thick with breathing
Creature you sitting there
And I was scared of staying
and I was scared of leaving

You were a jolt of pain
To shock me into feeling
And now my scaled skin
Is soft as milk and sure of bleeding

Falling
I fear I'm more than
A perfect warning
Of what it means
To give it all
Your thoughts
Your lungs
Your lips
Your limbs
Oh won't you take my everything
I'm never going back again

Spinning

Girl I love your name
I love the shape it takes
On my lips and on the page
Girl it seems enough to say it
How else could I explain it
All these changes

There's something about the way you look at me
That puts my restless thoughts at ease
Something of your softness in my sleep
There's something in the time between your thoughts
A stretch of light, a night to walk
Something in the words you choose to keep
That sends me spinning slowly
Weaving a home from this skin I've known
But hasn't felt likе my own

There's something in thе bend and in the creases
A tender map, a morning secret
Something in the way our bodies meet
That sends me spinning slowly
Weaving a home from this skin I've known
But hasn't felt like my own

Spinning slowly
Shedding these clothes
Oh won't you show me
How to let go

Play

I want to show you things I haven't seen
Take you places that I haven't been
Cause I wasn't brave
And I didn't stay
But somehow you did
And now I want to learn to play

You walk ahead
You leave a hand
Some kind of key
A nervous plan
Fright in bloom
Something new
A light there in your room
And there is nothing that I wouldn't do

If I could only move
If I could only move
If I could only move
If I could only move

Half sitting on the chair
Half unprepared
To get up and dance
A snake a girl a trance
To skip to crawl
Snow angels on the school floor
You in your black jeans
Me in my teen feelings

Backstage
Cheap lights
I've come to see you
Every night
And every other
Ever since
To trace the shapes
On pale skin
Mother's stain
The sun that stayed
A taste to tongue
A breath undone
To skip to fall
To run to run
To come undone
To come undone

If I could only move
If I could only move
If I could only move
If I could only move

Amsterdam

It's not like a fall
It's not like a fall I've ever felt before
I landed soft like a seed
That was always going to be
Shaped by your hands

Oh woman
Oh man
I'd give you all of my plans
In the middle of the night
Here in Amsterdam

We climbed the wall
I'm not sure we bothered to check
If there was a lock on the door
See last night I could sleep
And nothing could keep me up
Not the moon
But tonight
Fuck
Look at you
You're as soft as the blue
You feel just before
You lose the thing that you love
I don't want the sun to split up the night
You are all of the light that I want to see
You are all of the light that I'll ever need

Oh woman
Oh man
I'd give you all of my plans
In the middle of the night
Here in Amsterdam

Autobiography of an Evening

Give me all of your nothing to do
I'll show you all of my nothing to prove
Let's sharpen our knives
For the pillow fight

Hold me close as my feathers come undone
And your fingers find the glue
And the curtains find the sun
And the dust of something new
Brings a memory like a bruise

The smallest hurricane
Has slipped between my lungs
Won't you help me get it out
With a blade a breath a tongue
Let's suck all the light
From the core of the night

Hold me close as my feathers come undone
And your fingers find the glue
And the curtains find the sun
And the dust of something new
Brings a memory like a bruise

I'm a woman in the books
I'm a girl inside your room
I'm alive inside your bed
When you touch me like it's true
That I've everything to lose
Inside the gravity of youth

Hold me close as my feathers come undone
And your fingers find the glue
And the curtains find the sun
And the dust of something new
Brings a memory like a bruise

Hold You Back

I think I'll leave
I've had enough of the crowds
Of trying not to single you out
Want you all to myself
I've lost my taste for
Anyone else
A locked-in scent
I'm tense with doubt
A restless mouth

The one to hold you back
Never wanna be the one
To hold you back

Will you come to me
When the lights go out
I'll be the mess
Who screams with sweat
And weeps with sound
I want to feel you
Feeling the breeze
But I come too close
And break the wind
And block the trees

The one to hold you back
Never wanna be the one
To hold you back

Spin with me
At breakneck speed
Can't you see the edges bleed
The outside leave
I've lost control
And I'm holding your hands
A desperate grip
Afraid to land
We're barely standing

Want you to be free
I want you to be free
I want you to be free
But I want you to need me

Iscariot

I want my girl
And I want the ocean
Her limbs to curl
The wave like motion
I'm as blue as the sea that
I'm longing to breathe in
She is the reason
And the rhyme
And the stretching of time

I want my girl
And I want the ocean
The skin the salt
The arms the open
She's as soft as the sea
Makes me want to believe
There is a reason
And a rhyme
And the shrinking of time
Will soon make her mine

I've swung low
Iscariot
A bed below
A night to hold

I've swung low
Iscariot
A morning left
With bitter sweat

I've swung low
Iscariot
Pleasure past
A scar to last

I've swung low
Iscariot
And I wanna go home
I wanna go home

Escape

In the black hole of your shoulder
Through the curtain of your hair
I smelt our hands burning
If we lost it all
We could call it learning

Look at what I've built
From the things I've broken
A nest of songs so close to sleep
I give as gifts
Mourning
Soft as silk
A warning

I could help you escape
In case you didn't want to stay
And my sensitive refrain
My pale remains
Made you scared to say

Under my freckles
Getting older
Between my breathing
Held by your stare
Lives a boy yearning
Lies a girl turning

I could help you escape
In case you didn't want to stay
And my sensitive refrain
My pale remains
Made you scared to say

Hold the wound under the water
Count to ten then breathe again
Lover once I was a daughter
Falling sweet
Towards something more than

Hold the wound under the water
Count to ten then breathe again
Lover once I almost thought
I wouldn't make the same mistakes

Unpack

Girl I think I'm ready
I'm just around the corner with open hands
I don't know what it means to be steady
And when I fling open my arms
I don't mean to cause you harm

I just don't know how to hold back
When your skin is just within
My restless touch
Do you think I could unpack
My days into your room
It's all I wanna do
I'm so in love with you

How light and how heavy
To be searching all the time
For the secrets of the mind
How soft and how heady
To loosen and unwind
Then to tangle and entwine

I just don't know how to hold back
When your skin is just within
My restless touch
Do you think I could unpack
My nights into your room
It's all I wanna do
I'm so in love with you

See I don't wanna hold back
Now your warmth is here within
My restless touch
There is nothing that I lack
When I'm here inside your room
It's everything I choose
I've everything to lose
Fuck I'm so in love with you

Heaving

Auditorium

Here
I speak
Here
I'm speaking
Here
I speak
Here
I'm speaking
But you don't hear me
You don't hear me
Would you like to see me instead
Do you see
A snake
Spitting
What do you see
Do you seek
A slit
Unstitching
What do you keep
Oh what do you keep
Oh what do you keep from me

In the auditorium
Where the younger boys get sent
In the auditorium
Listen to the song get bent
Now to the memorium
Hear the older boys give speeches
Here at the memorium
There is only one story reaching

But here I speak
But here I'm speaking
Here I shriek
But you only want to
See what you want to see
You only want to
See what you want to see
You only want to
See what you want to see
You only want to
Do you see a snake spitting
A slit unstitching
What do you keep
Oh what do you keep me from
Oh what do you keep me from

In the auditorium
Where the younger boys get sent
In the auditorium
Listen to the song get bent
Now to the memorium
Hear the older boys give speeches
Here at the memorium
There is only one story featured
In the auditorium
Where the younger boys get sent
In the auditorium
Listen to the song get bent
Now to the memorium
Hear the older boys give speeches
Here at the memorium
There is only one story featured

Heaving

Send me to sleep
A drop of something strong
From my lover's teeth
Teach me to keep
The doubt from growing
The fear of the slit showing
Touch me I'm weak
I trace the line of love
Just above the river of blood
On the body
Baby
There's death and there's dawn
And I can't stop it at all
And I don't want to always be
Dreaming of more

I wanna be hot
I wanna be hot and helpless
I wanna be hot
I wanna be hot and helpless
I wanna be hot
I wanna be hot and helpless
I wanna be hot
I wanna be hot and helpless
In the forest of your form
On our living room floor
Heaving
Heaving
Heaving
Heaving

And then to sleep
A drop of something strong
From my lover's teeth
Teach me to keep
The doubt from growing
The fear of the slit showing
The doubt from growing
The fear of the slit showing

On the body
Baby

Howl

Technically I don't have the truth
I don't know what to tell you
Technically
I don't know what to tell you

I'm on the fence
Of everything I've done
And everything I've ever said

I don't wanna regret
Never making a mess
Of this Sunday dress

I'm on the fence
I'm on the fence
And I wanna scream

You're beautiful
I wanna be useful

A leak my mouth
The raging wound
A leak my mouth
The raging wound

You're beautiful
I wanna be useful

But it won't do
No it won't do
There are rules inside this room
Inside this room

Sometimes I'm calm enough to read
But mostly I'm just a bit dizzy
From possibility
Potentiality
Prospect
Purpose
You're perfect
It's perfect
It's perfect

You can
You can just hang it over there
Where they can all stare

I'm on the fence
Of everything I've done
And everything I've ever said

I don't wanna regret
Never making a mess
Of this Sunday dress

I'm on the fence
I'm on the fence

Come on let's go to the laundromat
Where there's a woman washing just a single jacket
Oh it's good here
Let's not go back

Let's stay here in the inbetween
With nothing to see
And nowhere to be
Waiting for our dirty sheets

Oh they'll take at least another round to dry
Come on it's too cold to hang them outside
But okay you go
Go meet the world
The word
The word
The meat
The meat of the world

You see strangely
I'm not the best version of me
When there's possibility
Potentiality
Prospect
Perfect
You're perfect
You're perfect
You're perfect

You're perfect
You're perfect
You're perfect
You're perfect

Now I wanna scream
You're beautiful
I wanna be useful

You're beautiful
I wanna be useful
I wanna scream

But I always feel like there's someone
Just behind that door
I'm sure

You're beautiful
A leak my mouth
The raging wound
A leak my mouth
The raging wound
You're beautiful

Stereoscope

Stereoscope
Sunday's got my throat
Stereoscope
Sunday's got my throat

Your blue eyes
Pressed against the portal
Past present
Dim dazzling
Do you mind if I leave on the light
Do you mind the theft of a line
My my my my morning
My my my my mourning

Weight in my hands
To stop me from the calling
Tick tock full stop
Words of wonder
Words to right
Words of royal beauty bright
Write write write write
Right right right right right

Lips to the page
A tree a death a thought
To be set
To be saved
To be treasured
To be stored away
A day a day a day day
A day a day a day a day

Stereoscope
Sunday's got my throat
Stereoscope
Sunday's got my throat

Burning Building

Hey girl let's go
Hey girl let's go
Hey girl let's go
Hey girl let's go

I'm sauntering out of a burning building
I'm not sure if I made it
But I've got plenty of ideas for re-arranging
I don't like it here
But I don't want to go
And be out there on my own
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no

Hey girl let's go
Hey girl let's go
Hey girl let's go
Hey girl let's go

I'm catwalking out of a burning building
Perhaps if I could frame it
If I could find a way to stage it
I'd make a euro or two
Perhaps I'd put this name to use
It's the truth
It's the truth
An excuse
An excuse
To give into the game
Oh the fantasy of fame
While I mock the magazine
Those tender glossy
She
She
She
She
Would she stay if she could see
What's in the centre fold out sheet
Her life-sized lover on heat
Locked inside of a pent up suite
Sweet
Sweet enough to stay
Tame
Train
What came first
The pet or the stray
Killer
Prey
Prey
Prey
Prey
Pray
Pray
Pray
Pray

Hey girl Let's go
Hey girl let's go
Hey girl let's go
Hey girl let's go

I'm watching the world from a burning building
It's the only home I know
It's the only home I know
It's the only home I know
It's the only home I know

Feedback Hounds

I want to be seen
But I don't want to show
I'm not willing to go there
Not willing to go
I preach that it's good to be alone
But what do I know

I'm lonely
But I've been calling it learning
And it's only
That I'm quietly burning

So bring me friends to kiss my mouth
Skin to soothe the feedback hounds
That echo through this human house
Deafeningly loud
And I too proud to let them out
To play with the kids in town

I wanna sing to woo you
I wanna sing really fucking well to fool you
Into thinking I'm free
That I've both very crisp and very love-soaked sheets
I'm a cheat
I'm a child
I'm a charlatan
I'm shy and I'm shit and I'm caving in
And I don't want you here to see this how this ends
I'm a coward
I vandalised a map
And I buried it in song
And I don't know if it was right
Or very very wrong
And I don't know what happens
If you play along
And I don't want to lose you
But I'm not gonna win
‘Cause I can't seem to grasp
That it's not a competition

I'm lonely
But I've been calling it learning
And it's only
That I'm quietly burning

So bring me friends to kiss my mouth
Skin to soothe the feedback hounds
That echo through this human house
Deafeningly loud
And I too proud to let them out
To play with the kids in town

Front Row

It would be unwise
To fantasise about your night
It would be unwise
To fantasise about your finding
It would be unwise to
Fantasise
About the girl in the front row
Who makes you feel
That you'd like to know

About her
About you
When there's nothing and everything to lose
About her
About you
When there's nothing and everything to prove

It would be unkind
To think about the backstage lights
It would be unkind
To compare it to a warmer night
One where I stood where she stood
And held nothing back
Though perhaps I thought I should
So she could

When it was new
And I knew
That there was nothing that I wouldn't do
When it was new
And I knew
That there was nothing that I wouldn't do
But I wouldn't keep you
If you didn't want me to

But when I close my eyes
She is near to you
And you are sound and song
And sweet and it feeds and it feels
And it's her and you
And I'm trying not to slip
But it's no use
And I'm holding two
Too much from you
I'm holding two
Too much from you
I'm holding two
I'm holding

Tender

I'm finding it hard to be tender
I'm finding it tough to the touch
The blade of the tongue the defender
The trace of the thumb to crush

The weight of the water
The way through the waves
The hopeful daughter
Unable to play

The weight of the water
The way through the waves
The hopeful daughter
Unable to stay
I'm finding it hard

Spinning
Sinking
Is it the same thing
Splitting
Blinking
A slit to an ending

Healing
Heaving
The bile that the past brings
Dusting
Dreaming
Corners for meaning

Dear I can't find
The switch to the light
Dear you're quite right
I've lost it tonight
And how I'd like to save this

Dear I can't find
The switch to the light
Dear you're quite right
I've lost it tonight

I'm finding it hard to be tender
I'm finding it tough to the touch
The blade of the tongue the defender
The trace of the thumb to crush

Oh dear I lied
I pulled out the wires
But wait for the warmth
From the electrical fire

Heaven Sent

I think about
The open mouth
The hungry sky
Your soft thighs
Is there enough time
How much it of it will you be mine

Did you ever think it could be
Something quite as sweet as this to breathe
In your lover's words the morning sea
Nothing quite as soft as
She is heaven sent
And I don't want her to leave

Did you ever think it could seep
Quiet into the bones a body weeps
In your lover's arms how do you keep
Something quite as light as
She is heaven bent
And I don't want her to leave

I just want to feel her body free
I just want to feel her next to me
I just want to know what she needs
I just want to know she knows

Did you see the way she looked at me
I think she loves me
Don't you
Did you see the way she looked at me
I think she loves me

Undress

I can't hear clearly
I can't hear clearly
And I don't want a seat in this house
That's afraid of being wet
Where I can't seem to undress anything
I can't seem to undress anything

And I don't want to want it all
But what if I'm not more
Will you still call
What made you fall in the first place
I'm so behind in this race
Did I just call it a race

I can't rest
But I can't progress either

I can't stop
Trying to thin down these thighs
I can't stop
Trying to thin down my thighs

Please don't tell me you love me
In this light
I won't be able to believe
It's a lie
It's a lie
It's a lie

Look how beautiful you are when you fly
Why would I pull you out from that sky
Look how beautiful you are when you fly
Why would I pull you out from that sky
Look how beautiful you are when you fly
Why would I pull you out from that sky
Look how beautiful you are when you fly
Why would I pull you out from that sky

It's better when you're here you know
But I'm so scared of being left alone
That sometimes it feels I might just ask you to go
To stop the fear in my heart that feeds on the hope

That you won't
Take me home
Leave me alone
Take me home

Please don't go
Please don't go
Please don't go
Please don't go

A Human Home

A Human Home

Is it wise
A human home
Hands her the softest land

Crystallised
A swallowed poem
Sand sweet sinking plans

Waves woman
How to hold
Days darling
How they let go

A history
A house
A thought worn soft by someone else
I don't mean to try figure you out
Except when I do
When I strain for the sound
Of what might be a dormant shout
A severance of solid ground
If only you could dream aloud
I wouldn't have to tip-toe round
The demons I can't live without
Inherited inhaled and found

Dripping Trees

Lover come close to me
Draw me back
To where I know I want to be
I watched the colours
Dripping from the trees
And the bones that they left
Are reaching out for me

Lover how far can I go
Before my body
Forgets the way back home
I want to touch you
Show me where to go
Pull me in
Through this shrinking phone
Before the night shuts its mouth
And spits the warmth right out
How can this house
Live with then live without

In the summer a bird came
Laid her blue eggs
Then left again
I haven't touched the pale remains
Those tiny ghosts
Singing for her to come again

Open Road

Let's go out on the open road
I'm closer to not knowing
Where in girl's name I wanna go
And the place I call home

See I missed you when you left my side
When you came back I couldn't stop my crying
There is something in these intimate walls
Burns my hand to the door

Shake me
Split these walls
Could it be
There are roots below these floors
And what's more

Don't leave
Don't leave
Soon I'll see
Soon I'll see
How to let my history be
How to let my history

Rooms

I just wanna be close
I just wanna be close

Don't (have yourself centre around)
Go (the person you're with)

You knocked softly
As softly as you spoke
I turned cautiously
Trying to hide the smoke

Don't (have yourself centre around)
Go (the person you're with)

You stood firmly
Full of tender bones
Isn't this the witch I wished for
When I was most alone

Don't (have yourself centre around)
Go (the person you're with)

I guess they've just been swirling
And swimming and changing
Well not changing

You've had so many rooms
In the last year
I've also had many rooms
In the last year
I've had very many rooms

A Drill

Do you also feel guilty when you turn on the lights before it's dark
Do your lungs also crack when you breathe in the morning
Do you pray for more interesting thoughts
Are you the exception that destroys the attachment theory
A gratitude list -
My ballet teacher taught me to smile until my cheeks hurt
When I walk into the room I've forgotten what I've come to fetch
I can't promise I'll be the same person when I see you tonight
Will I see you tonight
Well my strong arms are attached firmly to my side
But my weak arms are reaching
Or is it the other way around
Do you have very strong pins
Or perhaps nails
I can finally work a drill
I'm thrilled
Quietly

I'm walking through doorways
To forget
To remember
I'm walking through doorways
To remember to forget

Sandcastle

If you took me by the hand
I'd build a sandcastle
Look it's almost full
But the sea doesn't still

And though I know it's just the tides that pull
Do I close or do I spill
See I'm still that girl
Who lost her world

Could you look me in the eyes
And feel the water rise
All this salt between our thighs
And these grains of sand a sign

That I'll put inside a song for you
Like a pocket full of shells and clues
If you hold it to the light it's blue
And when I hold you close at night it's true

Virtual Muse

My virtual muse
Three-hundred mirrors stretched
Across this non-existent room
This is how we touch
This is how we truth

A digital ruse
Forty fingers click
And this must be my cue
How I'd like to drip
How I'd like to spew
Spread my warmth across the vastness
Of this pixelated pew

But nothing goes through
And nothing seems to move you

Assume
Consume

How I'd like to spit
How I'd like to chew
Through the wires of my upbringing
That make me want to prove
I don't know how to touch
I don't know how to truth
And I don't wanna starve my bones
On this pixelated pew

Assume
Consume

I could sink all alone in my bed
But the net of the net
Like a web around my head
Keeps my hands
From the twist of my thigh
From the ink of the well
And the wet of the sky

Barren Stage

There are so many words
I can barely say
There are so many thoughts
That can't find a place
And sometimes I don't feel safe
To open up my mouth
And try to name this state
Fear of the echoes of a barren stage

There are so many nights
I can't wear my name
What if I shared it with another
Could we bear its weight
What if I was brave enough to stay
Then perhaps I could feel safe
To open up my mouth
And try to name this state
Slow dance to the
Echoes of an abandoned stage

The Whale Song

I love the chunk in your chest
The lump in your throat
The stones in your coat
I love the chunk in your chest
The blade in your lungs
Metal taste on your tongue
I love the chunk in your chest
The knot in your night
That time won't untie

How did you kidnap yourself
(that we did not know)
How did you kidnap yourself
(that we did not know)

I love the chunk in your chest
The lines in your head
That cling to your bed
I love the chunk in your chest
The blemish of blue
That hands can't remove
I love the chunk in your chest
The brittle of night
That time won't revive

How did you kidnap yourself
(that we did not know)
How did you kidnap yourself
(that we did not know)

I asked the whale to spit me out
She said darling I never closed my mouth
Look up look up and swim around
You've fallen in love with the echo the sound
Of the belly the beast the underground
There's nothing wrong
You are all of yourself
Above below
So much to not know
Come leave stop go

I can't look this in the eye
I've tried
I don't wanna end this on a high
It's not right
Sometimes your love feels like a long goodbye

Instructions for Fate

Crippled by play
The thousand to-dos all alone in this room
Instructions for fate
Touch type test prove
I smell the blood of an early removal

How to re-arrange
Twist tip tear tape
I smell the blood of another approval
The cull of the thoughts
The slit of the truthful
Look at us go
So functionally brutal
Lover come save me
With all your unusual

Lean lisp love lust
Fall fight fail fuck
Lick from the limbs of a body so crucial
Painfully wise distorted and beautiful
Oh this desire a funeral pyre
Leave me stripped and alive

More than surviving
Baby I'm thriving
Diving
Dying

A Pocket Full Of Nigh

I trace the figure of a girl I knew
Allow my eyes to rest on something new
A pocket full of night
A dent marked out by time
And her mind
Having been unkind

She lives outside of sleep
Suspended between these sheets
Her body can't contain
The attempt to re-arrange
The night from day

Which part escapes
Which part remains
See I want you to feel safe
But I don't know how to stay
And not lose my way

The Upside Down Of Sinking

There are a bunch of balloons in my hands
I'm not sure where they come from
I'm attached and I'm unhinged
Perhaps it will not be long

If I could just hold on to these
Until my flesh wears thin
I wonder if they'd pick me up
The upside-down of sinking

There are a bunch of balloons in my hands
There are blue roots in my bones
I've drawn them in to drift to you
I wonder if you've noticed

The drip of dirt that trails behind
The smell of sullied home
I'm trying not to water it
But still it seems to grow
Still it seems to grow

Don't go
Don't go
Soon I'll know
Soon I'll know
How to let my history go
How to let my history go
And to think that I thought I could do it alone
Oh marry me
Oh mystery
Oh misery

Golden Moon

Oh my love
Have you seen the moon
Is she golden too
Where are you

Have you been night swimming
Have you been daydreaming
What have you been thinking
And have you been drinking

Oh my love
Have you seen the moon
Is she golden too
And does she miss you
And does she love you
Like I do

Pale Bloom

Bloom

Mary, Mary
How contrary
Why did your forest never grow
Where are your silver bells
And your cockle shells
And your pretty maids all in a row

I didn't ask
I thought I oughta know
How painfully time passed
Knowing I'd have to show my growth

My garden is anaemic
My petals white as snow
I've stitched them to the ceiling
So no one looks below

My garden is anaemic
My petals pressed in rows
I've labelled them for meaning
A girl, a rose, a scapegoat

My garden is anaemic
I never learnеd to sow
But I sing about the seasons
The drought, thе overflow

My garden is anaemic
The birds are barely ghosts
Can roots as sure as feelings
Grow brave enough to roam?

If you came to me, I'd wanna give you something
Stillborn bloom, pale, pale blue
If you came to me, I'd harvest from the humming
Palm-sweat youth, seedling truth

If you came to me, I'd wanna give you something
Stillborn bloom, pale, pale blue
If you came to me, and mirrored all my nothing
What would I do, what would you choose

Damp

Could I rest it here for a little while
I wouldn't ask you to hold it
I'll just lean it on the kitchen tiles
Sometimes it slips
It might just catch your eye
Would you stand it up
If you happen to be nearby

I don't know
The force it takes
Is it love
Or a godly state

I know I've just landed
But let's get out of town
The beast machine
Is full of warning sounds

My words are caught
In the dryness of my mouth
There must be a damper place
To let it all come out

I don't know
The force it takes
Is it love
Or a godly state
To give it up to you
A gift a body cruel

I've got a breakdown
Scheduled in the basement
Baby won't you take me there
I've still got on that dress
It's still my sunday best
I wanna show the world
I care

I've got a breakdown
Scheduled in the basement
Baby it's just down these stairs
I'm just like the rest
I just wanna rest
I just wanna rest this head

I don't know
The force it takes
Is it love
Or a godly state
To give it up to you
A gift a body cruel

Ambient Heat

Ambient heat
Moving closer to me
Ambient heat
In the bend of my sheets
Ambient heat
Ambient heat

A palette of tools
To puncture, to prime, to pin up
To pause
Arms crossed
Trying to picture
To pitch
To resist

Ambient heat
Ambient heat

Who do I place
In that hot seat
The kid, the kid
That I was too afraid to meet
Who skirts around
The edge of my fear
With grace desire death
Beat after beat after beat after rapturous

Ambient heat
Ambient heat
Ambient heat

And over here it's cake for breakfast
Over here it's cake for lunch
Waste not, want not
A knot, a knot, a knot, I know, I know, I know, I know

Ambient heat
Moving closer to me
Ambient heat

A frame, a guise, oh god, oh look
I'm making a song
I'm making a song
About ambient heat
That keeps, that keeps
Ambient heat
That keeps, that keeps

Dangle that hook
Dangle that hook

I'm dressed for bed
I'm giving up my looks
Whether I like it or not
I'm not as I should
Be, bee
No wait, it's a wasp
To keep me awake
You see I'm brave after the sting
But not in the wake
Of waking up to a swollen foot
To the end of a book
To the beginning of another
That talks about a time in which my mother, my father
Will no longer be there
Who shall I ask
Who should care
And shouldn't I be
Someone to receive the reaching
The reaching
The reaching

Ambient heat
Moving closer to me
Ambient heat
In the bend of my sheets

Ambient heat
Moving closer to me
Ambient heat
In the bend of my sheets

Ambient heat
Ambient heat
Ambient heat
Ambient heat

Aa sound
A death sentence
A scientific
Poetic
Entrance
Exit
Fix it
Fix it
Fix it

Adder

I ordered a straw
It was a desperate draw
A long one too
But still a straw, it's true

See I can't seem to reach
Under the bed
Where I know the rope rests
Like the cold adder's head

Protective, possessive
She can't tell the difference
And this sounds like an exit
And that seems like an ending
So I'm still while she sleeps
And I try to keep
My hand full of calm
Reaching for your six-hour arm

I keep calling
Have you had a good day
Syllables slither like warnings
I don't have much to say
But are you on your way
Are you on your way

Stiff-winged angel
Sings of my failure
Thin-lipped fable
Unable to bring me sleep

Stiff-winged angel
Sings of my failure
Thin-lipped fable
Unable to bring me sleep

Stiff-winged angel
Sings of my failure
Thin-lipped fable
Unable to bring me sleep

Stiff-winged angel
Sings of my failure
Thin-lipped fable
Unable to bring me sleep

Nectarine

What is prayer
To a girl with no god
But all the fear
You swallow with his name
At a very hungry age

What is girl
Bit tongue, don't run
Full of grace
A word so sweet
It blunts the hunter's teeth
So full of doubt
Why don't you spit the whole thing out

Oh boy, I'd like to believe
That the twist of the trees is still willing to teach me
Oh man, I'd like you to see
That I'm still bad enough for the branches to reach me
Tear up my skirt, make me buzz like the wild bees
Leaving me dripping with the juice from the nectarine

I saw a woman
Weeping at the table
I wanted to stretch
But I wasn't ablе
To do more than smile
Feeble, unstablе
So I closed my eyes
And conjured up angels
Who ripped off their wings
And ruptured the fable
Of good versus evil
It was Cain loving Abel
So full of warmth
That once cracked cradle
And I whispered to the gods
That I loved that stranger
And away, away
Away with your manger

Animal/Symbol

Animal
Symbol
Out, in, out, in
Out, in, out, in
Animal
Symbol
Out, in, out, in
Out, in, out, in

Out, out
In, out

Catch a falling star and
Put it in your pocket
Never let it fade away
Catch a falling star and
Put it in your pocket
Never let it fade away

Sing, hands to the tree
How sticky sweet
Sticky sweet
Hands to the tree
How sticky sweet
Sticky sweet

Animal
Symbol
Out, in, out, in
Out, in, out, in

Animal
Symbol
Animal
Symbol

Animal
Symbol
Animal
Symbol

Animal
Symbol
Animal
Symbol

Reaching

A thread, the phone, a bullet, a bomb
The signal's gone, the signal's gone
A thread, the phone, a bullet, a bomb
The signal's gone, the signal's gone

Quiet
Quiet

Violence, care
Silence shared
Reaching where

A C, a chord, a vacuum, a score
I'm digging a song for words to belong
That fell too short and stayed for too long
That feel all wrong, that have gone

Quiet
Quiet

Violence, care
Silence shared
Reaching whеre
Violence, carе
Silence shared
Reaching where

Woolf

She went to the water
I love her stories
She went to the water
I feel cold, I feel cold again

Mother drags her meaning
Three bodies breathing
Mother bears her feeling
If she folds, if she folds again
Who is held? Who is holding them

She went to the water
I loved her stories
She went to the water
It was told, it was told again
Here it comes, here it comes again

I bought flowers for my writing desk
I'm furthеr from God than I've ever been
I bought flowеrs, I'm begging at best
Send me a poem, untouched and unblessed

Teacher, teacher, won't you teach me this
Slip me a note, I'll swallow the rest
Teacher, teacher, won't you watch me undress
Watch me suck on the words, watch them sully this dress

Heaven is twisting, fraying
Heaven is bending, aging
Heaven is twisting, fading
Heaven is brutal, baby

Sometimes the songs I used to know
Spring up sweet, swing low
Spread their warmth across my throat
A note too young, a note to choke

Ghosts

Hold me close
I'll try not to fight
But something in this body
Smells the fear at the edge of the night

Still with sweat
Sharp and sour
You're right there and I know that I care
But something seizes at the cliff of the hour

Don't leave
Please believe me
You're the softest breeze
And I wanna feel it
Soon I'll take off all my coats
Leave all my winter ghosts
There's a garden to grow
And there's girl I'd like to know

Draw me near
I don't want to hide
But something stubborn in this head and this heart
Thinks it's safer if it splits and divides

Spine alert
Senses overpowered
You're right there and you've told me you care
But there's my curfew and a corner to cower

Don't leave
Please believe me
You're the softest breeze
And I wanna feel it
Soon I'll take off all my coats
Leave all my winter ghosts
There's a garden to grow
And there's girl I'd like to know

Let's go to Iceland in the summer
I'll get strong and I'll learn to quiet them
Just an hour a day to keep the demons at bay
Doesn't that sound like a romantic getaway
Stay, stay, stay

Don't leave
Please believe me
You're the softest breeze
And I wanna feel it
Soon I'll take off all my coats
Leave all my winter ghosts
There's a garden to grow
And you're the girl I'd like to know

Anchor

Would you take it from me? See I'm standing waist-deep
Need an anchor, an encore, proof of belief
I take it form you, a treasure, a truth
A mark in the map of the infinite blue
Put me to use, tell me what to do
The book in my pocket says "Don't lose, don't lose"
Put me use, show me something new
That this book here is a stone, is a wave, is a ruse

Take me back, I'm crawling
Take me back and make me clean
Hold out your hands, I'm falling
Bittersweet, bittersweet

My love of the sea, like a child, like thief
Take what I want and then quickly retreat
My fear of the sea, like a child let free
Kick up the edges where mother can still reach

Take me back, I'm crawling
Take me back and make me clean
Hold out your hands, I'm falling
Bittersweet, bittersweet
Take me back, I'm crawling
Take me back and make me clean
Hold out your hands, I'm falling
Bittersweet, bittersweet

I tripped climbing a silver ladder (Take me back, I'm crawling)
Called my dad to make it better (Take me back and make me clean)
I'm not getting through (Hold out your hands, I'm falling)
And I don't know just what to do (Bittersweet, bittersweet)
Here I lie, my thoughts all battered (Take me back, I'm crawling)
Porcelain skin as if it mattered (Take me back and make me clean)
Sing me Joni's "Blue" (Hold out your hands, I'm falling)
Show me what I've come to lose (Bittersweet, bittersweet)

I tripped climbing a silver ladder
Called my dad to make it better
I'm not getting through
And I don't know just what to do
Here I lie, my thoughts all battered
Porcelain skin as if it mattered
Sing me Joni's "Blue"
Show me what I've come to lose

Fawning

I chip the morning
Fingernails close, curtain rails stalling
I stalk the thawing
A dog-eared page, a borrowed phrase, recalling

I have rhymed and barely meant it
A toy alarm to tease the ending
Reads don't forget me
Don't forget me

I strain to hear the calling
Is it a beat? How does it bend, was it a warning
Oh, but listen, they're applauding
But it's much too stiff, the signal slips, withdrawing

I have danced and barely meant it
A toy alarm to tease my exit
Oh, don't forget me
Don't forget mе
Don't forget me
Don't forget mе

Here it comes again, the scoring
A mirrored tongue, a body young, marauding
Now a kid, now a king, the clawing
Poised to sip, swallow spit, the fawning

I have sung and barely meant it
A toy alarm to tease the end
Don't forget me
Don't forget me

Non Albums Tracks

Amy, I'm Lost

(Lucy Kruger & The Lost Boys EP)

Amy's here tonight
I'm exhausted
She's in red and white
A phoenix bound for flight
Always hoped I'd be
Less in need of flattery and lights
A body drenched in night

I'd understand
Even worse
I wouldn't even fight
I'd simply step aside
How my insides crawl
Could it be I'm the skin that warms your needs
But the stranger in your dreams.

I'm lost,
I'm tired
Amy, he's yours
I'm trying
But I

I fell today
Fed the fear that covers her in grace
Frames the beauty of her ways
How he'd sing for you
He would move you the way he always does
The devil and the dove

I'm lost
I'm tired
Amy, he's yours
I'm trying
But I

I tried so hard to force it down
A look, a pill, a thought
I swallow soft, a deathly cough awakes me from my sleep
Bathed in grey, a forced embrace
I held your hand too tight
You the dreamer, you the mystery, you the holy liar
The heat unbinds, the sweat reminds her
She's swimming in her flaws
Graceless lady, soaked in maybes
Drowning in her shameless cause

This fragile thing
How I've used it
Spun it round my mind till the thread is worn and tired
This human sting
Amy's painting
The portrait that I've seen
The woman that you need

Beast (stay hungry)

(Lucy Kruger & The Lost Boys EP)

Growing to be just like the other one
So concerned with the patterns of the pretty one
Move like Dorothy my dear
Shoes of red and a heart of a fear

Moved in circles till you were in front of me
Trapped in you is just where I wanna be
Tell me, does it stay the same
Touching parts, playing games

Beast stay hungry
Soul stay angry
Wild, wild angels
Take me away
Out of the dust and into the clay

Trapped inside your thoughts of the pretty one
Racing backwards, trying to find a little sun
But the days, they pass so slow
And the moon so heavy when you're on your own

I looked inside the life of a tired man
Trying to find his ride to the other side
But he gave up hope and he missed his chance
Now it breaks his heart to see Dorothy Dance

Beast stay hungry
Soul stay angry
Wild, wild angels
Take me away
Out of the dust and into the clay

Bird of Prey

(Lucy Kruger & The Lost Boys EP)

In the backseat while gently teasing
A bird of prey lures her victims
Pain out and into the night
In this windy city you'll see the siren take flight

We will fly to the masquerade ball
And pretend we belong as we dance to the song of a parakeet
Stringing us along
With his new old guitar
So we won't feel too far from home

Sharpen your bayonet
This isn't over yet
A sweet assault, a gentle revolt, hypnotized
By a stranger who'll make you forget that you're married to time

Come down to the river tonight
Three queens will be there
Bearing gifts, unaware that you're not alone
Your heart has been marked
The wild beast has chosen her feast

From a lifetime of sorrow I fled
Just to follow her voice
The voice in my head as I lay alone
In my bones
I could feel her embrace
Pulling me so far from home

Sharpen your bayonet
This isn't over yet
A sweet assault, a gentle revolt, hypnotized
By a stranger who'll make you forget that you're married to time

No tears boy
You paid for the ride
Best do what you're told, as this crime unfolds
You will understand
When you thought you were the muse
You were simply
This story's interlude

Cable Loose Balloon

(Lucy Kruger & The Lost Boys EP)

You arrived so slow and so steady
How was I to know
I'd let you get to me
I tried to tell my mind
This is just a trick
Just a poetic slip
Please don't say stay

'Cause I'm a cable-loose balloon
And I'll never choose
I'll simply be blown by the wind
Never knowing
Where I am going

I have fought to see your face
Then I have run from your embrace
And I will never stop trying
To find what it means to be free
Please don't say stay

'Cause I'm a cable-loose balloon
And I'll never choose
I'll simply be blown by the wind
Never knowing
Where I am going

Mystery

(Pale Bloom B-Sides)

Mystery
Said the claw of a man's hand
Tongue to teeth
As he pulls from the soft of the land
And the sound that escapes
A signal he'll take
To lead the way
To lead the way
It's in the way that you move
Not the things that you say

History is the clutch of a man's plan
Memory
As it drips like asphalt
To brand
The skin now a place
A city
A state
To conquer to name
To mine meat maim blame
Pave package press shame
Til nothing that was will be quite the same
Is this what it means to be loved to be safe
Held kept prized praised
And to think that once
This was where a forest lay

Perhaps something inside me remembers today
As the dry of the sand
Moistens to clay
How to stay
How to stay
So a pattern might break
So a root might remain
To crack through
The tar
A beautiful scar
Look how far I can reach my arms
Right to your heart
Right to your heart
The ocean the story
The earth the stars

Rosa

She struggles to sleep
When it's full moon
Her skin holds the heat
Like the middle of June
A girl a shell a wave a poem
A book a song a treasured stone

She struggles to sleep
Under full moon
Her limbs wants to stretch
Beyond the walls of this room
To float up to spin out
Body pulsing with sound

Rosa
The night wants to know you
Rosa
A light moving closer

She struggles to sleep
Under full moon
A breeze through the crack
Like a clue to the new
A boy a break a raging storm
The promise of rain behind that door

She struggles to sleep
Under full moon
Her limbs wants to stretch
Beyond the walls of this room
To rise up to leap out
Open mouth to the clouds

Rosa
The night wants to know you
Rosa
A light moving closer
Rosa
The night wants to show you

Throne

(Pale Bloom B-Sides)

Closed again
I think
Who am I kidding

A hand to the phone
A nod to the ghost

A pale instinct
Barely singing

A limb to a throne
To lift my tongue to the big unknown
But there's the void
the god
the veil
the martyr

A loop in my mind
That heavenly father

And farther and father
From what

The seed the song
The scent the fuck

Forgive me
Forgive me
Forgive me
Forgive me
Oh gimme
gimme gimme
gimme gimme gimme gimme

The seed the song
The scent the fuck
Stuck to this throne
Pull me down
And walk me home

Tranquility

(Pale Bloom B-Sides)

How long can you sit and wait
For a thought to arrive
To re-shape
Can you fall asleep at the wheel
And wake up in a soft green field

How tranquilly can you resist your fate
How violently can you stay in one place

There is a seed I'm trying to grow
I watered it and I left it alone
When I returned it had lost all control
Burst and then broke with nothing to show

How tranquilly can you resist your fate
How violently can you stay in one place
For ten years I've been scraping by
On all I learnt when I was more than surviving

I skipped all the steps
I'm ripe to the death
Burst but then beaten
Blossoms defeated
And it's being eaten
And I can't watch the feeling
And the earth is the dirt
And the rot is the birth
And the birth can't be bought
Can a body be taught
And the tree once pulsing
Now convulsing

For ten years I've been scraping by
On all I learnt when I was more than surviving

I mess on the microphone
I'm hoping to spill what I'm longing to know
Draw you into the overflow
A room in a room
A garden
A house
A funeral
A bed
A belly
A cloud
Earth
Dirt
Pulsing
Convulsing
Earth
Dirt
Pulsing
Convulsing

For ten years I've been scraping by
On all I learnt when I was more than surviving

When I Am Among the Trees

When I am among the trees
Especially the willows and the honey locust
Equally the beech, the oaks and the pines
They give off such hints of gladness

I would almost say that they save me, and daily
I would almost say that they save me, and daily

I am so distant from the hope of myself
In which I have goodness, and discernment
And never hurry through the world
But walk slowly, and bow often

Around me the trees stir in their leaves
Around me the trees stir in their leaves
And call out, call out, call out

Why don't you stay awhile
It's simple, I say
And you too have come
Into the world to do this
To go easy, to be filled
With light, and to shine

Why don't you stay awhile
It's simple, I say
And you too have come
Into the world to do this
To go easy, to be filled
With light, and to shine

Easy, to be filled
With light, and to shine
Easy, to be filled
With light, and to shine
Easy, to be filled
With light, and to shine

Wish The Wild Away

(Lucy Kruger & The Lost Boys EP)

I awoke in a shameful way
On a Summer's day
That had betrayed the rain
I could feel you, breathe you
Holding me tight
Stealing my light

I don't love you but I'm lonely
You go to church but you're not holy
Oh the habits of men
I don't need you but I know you
And it is all the same
No fire, no flame

We move on in a loveless haze
All the words you say
All this pointless praise
Makes me crave your validation,
Our fear of isolation
Is closing us in

I don't love you but I'm lonely
You go to church but you're not holy
Oh the habits of men
I don't need you but I know you
And it is all the same
No fire, no flame

We stroke the fear and hope for rest
We wish the wild away
But it won't go
She‘s found her home
In a city full of birdless skies
We miss the sound
We full it with our cries
We dream of being alive

I don't love you but I'm lonely
You go to church but you're not holy
Oh the habits of men
I don't need you but I know you
And it is all the same
No fire, no flame

In this game, the circle remains
And so we play
Though we'd really like to get it away
It won't be today
We're not that brave